5am

and i'm still here. i've been here for 16 hours. argh... and i'm still getting a lot or variations in my data! my goodness... i thought there's this word.. hmmm... STANDARD? apparently it's an alien term for some. argh...

thank you for understanding me still... despite the oddness and irregularity of my work-clock (and my body clock just the same) hehe... despite the constant change of plans... and the seemingly snob attitude for your motivations (which are very much super dooper appreciated)... and the weekend-lang-ang-kita-every-two-weeks-kse-2nd-(and-3rd)-shift-ako schedule... thank you for just sighing and uttering, "i understand..." don't ever get tired of it... it's only temporary. what we have "might" last a lifetime =)

and i'm outta here... *yawn... got less than 5 hours to sleep... sana wag ako singilin ng katawan ko someday... huhuhu.

shake it! shake it! hehe =)

hehe... announce ko lang... nood kayo ng star in a million ah... may friend ako dun from lcg... si shake (ardie shane) =) galing na bata yun hehe! napanood tuloy ako ng star in a million. =) woohoo!

nood kayo ah =)

siguro...

pwede ko nang papalitan ang home address ko ng SPI Technologies, Inc., PITC bldg. achuchuchu hihi...

bakit? you may ask... kasi dito na ko nakatira hihi!

for the past week, my life drama has been... wake up at 10am -> go to work -> work like a slave 'til 3am or 4am -> walk home -> sleep -> wake up at 10am... (syempre may constant checks yan... so it's not that bad) gosh... kawawa naman katawan pagod na.

ayan walang patawad, sunday, nasan ako? imbis na nasa bahay at nakatunganga or nakikipaglandian... hihi ayos... andito ako sa SPI Technologies, Inc., PITC bldg. achuchuchu.

mag-isa, walang makausap, walang makapagsabi sakin na... ok lang yan... wlang mumu dito. kasi ang tahimik... so quiet it's freaking me out.

nag reboot pa ang citrix. asus... hello?!?! pano ko matatapos? gusto ko nang umuwi...

* sana saturday na... hehe. wala lang. sana. saturday na =) mwah...

* i can't take it... going home... can't stand the silence... freaking me out.

observations...

first day of work after the long weekend.

newbies --->there are 1 million new employees here at SS sheesh... the new batch is composed of around 30 people ata. wow... we're really growing, huh? i also realized that i've been here for more that three years and the newbies are most probably 3 yrs (+) younger than me. i'm old(er)! hehe! grabe they all look so young!

natipos ako... ---> ya uh! with my new hair cut! i observed that when you request your manggugupit to trim off 3 inches from your hair, they double it! so he slashed off a good 6 inches from my hair. next time, i'll say "trim lang... 1 inch lang..." para 2 inches lang ang bawas hehe.

special day ---> why? you might ask... 'cause today is mommy riche's birthday! happy birthday! hmmm... once a week? that's cool! way too cool! *evil grin...

pouring rain ---> had a rainy dream. super rain! pouring rain talga! iiyak na naman ako? it's probably all in the mind. baka imbis na tears, e more blessings ang uulan. not that i'm asking for more. wag lang sana tears. =)

looking forward ---> to a great week =) and lifetime!

unwell no more + nursing the sick

i'd like to thank my mom for making me well. =) so they do work... honey and calamansi and salabat... those were enough to ward off the evil spirits in me. hehe may sapi pala.

ok. so i had too much rest. that made me well =)... so well!

so... papa mike and i went out to watchamovie na... mr. and mrs. smith. ayos. good watch ito. very good. super funny talga sya, medyo exag pero kakatuwa naman. siguro kahit may sakit pa rin ako, papanoorin ko pa rin to.=)

i'm so glad i'm feeling better now, kaso lang, 2 of the men i love most (in the entire universe) are sick right now... same symptoms. everybody seems to have the same sakit lately. hay naku. now i'm playing the role of nursing the sick... and no... nde ko sila hinawahan ah!

guy A "seems" obedient. told him to drink lots of water and calamansi... done daw. told him to sleep early, ok tulog na raw sya ngayon. pero hmmm... nag sign on as mobile sa ym... so late din pala natulog... argh. bahala ka dyan.

guy B is completely stubborn. i heard he hasn't taken his meds since 4pm e may lagnat na raw sya ng time na yun... so mega cook naman ako ng noodles... tamang-tama, when he woke up, i forced him to eat. ayaw eh =( ni-reject ako. kung di ko lang alam kung gano ka ka-stubborn na tao, ay magtatampo na ko sayo.

get well soon, papa mike (haha pipitikin na siguro ako neto pagtawag ko ng papa mike sa kanya).

get well soon, kuya pogi-nde lang ang physical na weakness, sana pati emotional weakness maging ok na rin...

love you both. =) mwah!

bum and reyna ng praning

ayan... official bum na ako for 2 days. kami ng mom ko. as she said, "grabe 2 araw na tayong nakatiwangwang dito sa bahay. 'di rin pala masaya". and i thought i could last for years just being in the house doing nothing... not working and all.

masarap na nakakabugnot din palang maging bum. promise, bigla na lang umiinit ang ulo ko nang walang dahilan. tatahimik na lang ako and nde magre-react sa kahit anong makita ko. is it because wala akong magawa or... dahil... never mind.

arrrggh... i have monthly posts like this, at hindi sya nakakatuwa. hehe. sabay tawa.

praning... lagi akong praning. tama ba namang isipin ko yun? kaya ako napapagsabihang hindi nakikinig ng lessons nung HS eh... fine. attentive naman ako ah... sometimes.

at kahit anong sabihin, it still is NOT ok... ok? =( na-sad ako promise. i didn't expect that... =(

wish i were...

weekend... it's a beautiful day outside... not too scorching, yet not raining. the sun's a little lazy, but just fine, just right.

and as the mole on my talampakan insinuates, i wish i were elsewhere. maybe:

walking non-stop, leading to nowhere

or cozily watching mr. and mrs. smith in a movie house somewhere in makati (with sir and 2 moms)

or madagascar somewhere in manila (with the girls)

or drinking kape somewhere out there with someone

or hearing mass at 6pm, not 615 or 630, somewhere in greenbelt

or attending a wake, and possibly a cremation ceremony somewhere in cavite

or spending the entire day at a spa with my mom... geez... this one's sooo overdue!

or just making gala!!!

instead i'm here somewhere in pque, somewhere in my home:

sitting here in front of the pc,with a fan by my side

coughing and sneezing and blowing my nose like hell, and most probably having a slight fever

preparing a home-made body scrub (out of epsom salt, olive oil, honey, ginger, vanilla) (geezzzz... am i so bored?!?) (and my brother insists i'm weird... malalapnos daw balat namin sa pinag gagagawa ko hehe)

channel surfing every 30 minutes or so

asking my mom, who's unwell as well, if she's feeling any better (mom, let's get well)

taking naps

which is good, by the way, i need all the rest and relaxation i could get... ang hirap magkasakit... promise.

tired

yeah... that's how i feel right now.

tired and almost sick. i've been coughing and sneezing like hell at work... groaning and sighing and all...

if i had a stress-o-meter with me right now, i'd probably break it into pieces hehe... it won't probably handle the amount of stress i have in my system. sigh...

i sooo want to just lie down, have a good massage... sige kahit wala nang massage. just lie down and fall in the deepest most peaceful slumber...

oh... a cuddle is good =) i'd love to have a good cuddle right now... =)

5th of june

remembering my father
june 5... my late father's birthday. if he were still with us, we would've gone to antipolo church to hear mass. it was a tradition that we had... he didn't hear sunday masses, but strived to keep up to the june-5-antipolo-day and christmas masses.

what are some of the things i associate with my father? let me recall only the good ones. give tribute to the man who almost tried his best to be a good husband and father.

cheek lamutak

when i was a kid, he used to pinch my cheeks really hard... and my mom would sternly say, "lamog na yung pisngi nyan!". but i liked it. gave me the warmest feelings - how a father expresses his affection to his daughter.

favorite child

was i? that's what they say. well, it was noticeable. maybe because i'm the only girl. maybe because i tried to keep up to his expectations as a kid. maybe because i look a lot like him. maybe...

kilitian blues

was what he did best when i was a kid. you should never ever leave your armpits exposed or else, susundutin nya talga yun hehe, and tickle you 'til you drop. hmmm... we still do that 'til now... with my 2 brothers =).

yosi on christmas day

not knowing what to give him that christmas day (around 17 yrs ago), i gave him a pack of marlboro red 'cause i knew he smokes... hehe and it was very much appreciated. lousy gift.

"papa, penge pera"

was my line every morning when i was a kid. my cue was the car engine starting up hehe... that's when i'd lean by our window and extend my palms... hehe... he would give me coins (P5 maximum) and i become the happiest kid alive hehe.

music and movies

yup he was really fond of music... jazz, in particular. he set up this neat sound system years ago... and every morning, the atmosphere around the house was really jazzy hehe. he was also fond of movies - laser disc at that time. an explosion in the film could be mistaken for an explosion inside our house... hehe he wanted it really loud!

on hobbies and ningas kugon

he had a wide array of hobbies... fishing, music, cars, sound system, 2-way radios, cell phone shop... name it, he has probably tried it - but on a ningas kugon level. haha his passion dies as soon as he has found something more interesting. this probably explains why i behave exactly like that. =) hehe

* hmmm... as i create this post, i smell flowers... which is weird 'cause there are no flowers around me... and i'm all alone right now. hi po... =) don't scare me =)

ok... change topic na nga...

a month
incidentally, we're on our first month on june 5. woohoo!

what are some of the things i'm thankful for for the past month? (love-wise, that is)

just about everything.

for being patient with my being indecisive and being fickle-minded - that's why you're decisive (at times) and firm. =)

for being patient with my hectic work life - that's why you get off at 5 and do the constant checking instead. =)

for dealing with my being childish and overly giggly - that's why you act more matured that i do... despite the fact that i'm older. =)

for understanding my past pains - that's why you're here with me now... the ever understanding creature. =)

let's quit counting months or years... it isn't an assurance that we'll be happy in the end and it's merely a figure, senseless at times. let's just live a day at a time and look forward to the best there is that fate has to offer us.

talk about impromptu

it came out of nowhere...

girl 1: tara, swimming tayo sa saturday!
girl 2: tara! saan?
girl 3: kahit saan!
girl 4: sige! tara! bahala na basta meet tayo office 10am saturday.

bringing only ourselves, our wallets, cell phones, and swim suits, we hit the road and headed off to laguna...

we had a quick lunch at red ribbon and then we dropped by walter mart for a few groceries... by few, i mean supplies-that-could-last-for-a-week.

we didn't know where we're going but we just headed to laguna and scouted for ok-na na resorts... after 3 walk-ins to different resorts, we finally and accidentally landed to valley view. just perfect for the weekend.

check-in time was around 3pm. no time to waste, we started swimming right away and nang makaramdam na ng gutom, time for inihaw na hotdogs na! yuuummmieee! i've never tasted something that heavenly!

and then, sabay ng hotdog, dinner na... thanks to harbie's mom's afritada and tonkatsu... sarap!

after dinner, swim galore ulit =)... swim 'til we drop woohoo! at syempre pwede ba mawala ang inom? the first batch was really subtle... wala masyado tama eh... but the second one was really wapak... hehe syempre drinks and swimming, when done alternately is just perfect. woohoo!

at around 2 am, when we were all wrinkly and raisin-ey, we decided to retire to bed... ang mga lola, tulog nang basa ang buhok malamang super pagod eh...

sobrang pagod, we woke up at around 10? we didn't have enough energy to swim na that sunday... duh with all the paglilikot nung saturday? asa ka pang makabangon kami?!?

and then lunch was also divine... bulalo in one of the restos there... yum... everything's perfect...

what were the crazy things we did? not so much... but very memorable. these would always make me smile:

doing something unplanned. it was really adventurous... =) the only requirement was... to bring yourself... i love that

walking and laughing under the rain... no worries... i can't even recall the last time i did this... =)

talking with "teber"... there was this kid we met. asked him what his name is and he said "teber"... xavier pala hihihi cutie kid... mwah!

skinny dipping ulit haha ya! super crazy na talga kami... funny talga! muntik pa kami abutan ng mga batang may goggles bwahaha!

drinking like there was no tomorrow... nang nde ka nalalasing =) perfect!

swimming for the longest time - nang nde ka nangingitim hehe

just spending the whole weekend with 3 of the greatest people in the world... =)

and of course, pics =)

the fave pose


the divine food (notice the yummy hotdog)


habang naghihintay sa mamam


group pic



pagtripan ang champola hehe


medyo bangag na


hmmm... di ako uminom, promise!



gotta text... patay... harbs, borrow phone... dead ang batt ko ever...


scandal ba itu or massacre?


ayan bagong gising yiheee


preparing to check-out


hehe putol driver namin... on the way home =(


caths: luv you maricor....
maricor: you bitch! hehe


sila naman daw...


gotta text ulit... to the max itu hehe


perfet... just perfect =)

no pain, no gain. no death, no life

amazing how you have to undergo pain in order to taste the sweetness that comes after it... =)

amazing how you have to die a couple of times and then rise again with only smiles and bliss... =)

amazing how you have to scar and mar only to be pampered and cared for and showered with the greatest hugs and kisses in the end... =)

amazing how you have to give up the plastic pearl necklace and accept the genuine thing... when you learn to give up the less essential things in life, that's when an amazing gift is presented to you... and you get overwhelmed and overly happy - only because you learned to give it up. =)

amazing how i now believe that you don't have to ask why certain things happen... you'll just have to accept and trust that the best things are yet to come... =)

simply amazing... =) i'm happy... =)

pros and cons

of what? of being single hehe... i found this post sitting for the longest time in the drafts section of my phone. march 31, 2005. hehe i was still single then... this is funny...

pros

you can flirt

...with anybody hehe

you don't have to worry about somebody's whereabouts and what-abouts

you don't have to inform anybody (well, of course, your mom) about your whereabouts and what-abouts

no petty quarrels

gimmick every week or every other day with friends

you have the license to be friendly with EVERYBODY

you don't have to worry if somebody's cheating on you

or if you're cheating with somebody ;p

you don't have to be extremely understanding about the other's weaknesses

you're free to do whatever you like woohoo!

cons

you go home alone

no hugs and kisses (and a little more? hehe)

no sweet nothings

no hold hands

no constant checks

you don't hear "i love you" from someone who does love you

you don't say "i love you" to someone you do love

you can't be THAT friendly with EVERYBODY

you don't experience the joy of being close with somebody's family

you can't cheat on somebody? hehe (who says so?)

you aren't somebody's baby

hehe... incidentally, i gave a similar note to somebody... slightly similar... =)

wonderful

everything is just that... again thanks for understanding.... everything: from the nature of my work to my seemingly kakulangan of affection hehe and to my inhibitions. inhibitions... i have too much of that but i guess everybody knows why. don't want to change a thing. everything's perfect =). let's keep it that way. thank you. =)

my 2nd outing (pa lang? tag-ulan na eh)

SS goes to puerto del sol, pangasinan... mega-habang byahe pero we didn't mind masaya naman...

biyahilo

nooot! hehe though the travel time was roughly 6 hours, it was pretty fun 'cause we had all the time in the world to execute the dance step... woohoo! sa kahit anong music hehe ayos sya.

nottie

mega-miss ito kay donna. it was the first outing that donna was not with us... it was really different, missing her and all. we just imagined that she was there with us. hehe we were actually talking to her... mga baliw!

meron

ako. what a luck, eh?! i was hoping it wouldn't strike (hehe strike) that saturday... but it did! lech... pero kebs. the only discomfort i felt was a grabeng headache na nadala naman ng mahabang tulog (sorry suzy and shewan, owe you big time). tapos nun megaswim na! woohoo!

public phone

ang cell phoe ni maricor kse walang globe network dun. oh no! pano na ang constant checks ko?! pero maricor was kind enough naman to make her phone available sa aming lahat hehe... luv u maricor!

skinny dip

haha one task off my list. yupyup! with the girls. it was really daring but fun... and it was really dark that time... although may mga panaka-nakang dumadaan, hehe i guess it wasn't really obvious. muka lang kaming naghaharutan sa pool hehe. ayos! inggit si donna! hehe

guyabano juice

nooot! hehe anong klaseng alcoholic drink itu? 1 shot pa lang bangag na ko... hehe i had 3 1/2 or 4 1/2? imagine the effect of that!!! well, we just had another round of swim (this time ala nang skinny dip) and after about an hour, a manong approached us and asked us to leave the pool kse kalalagay lang ng gamot baka mangati kami... we were like manoonggg! 1 hour na kami lumalangoy dito! baka magka skin cancer kami ngayon mo lang sinabi waaah!

harbie's game

on the way home, we were pretty bored in the bus so the bus turned into a casino hehe... courtesy of harbie. we played in-between, along with the majority of SS people... grabe itu.. ang piso-pisong tayaan ay nauwi sa 800 na pot money... my gazzz... oh well, it was a legacy that harbie left, thus the name harbie's game. i don't know if i lost or won but it was really great! bonding ito with the rest of the people. fun! pa-reserve and huddle room minsan para magsugal hehe.

nanananana

na kanta ni emminems ang theme song nga mga sugarol pag may natatalo hehe

sulyap

lang ang nagawa namin sa hundred islands due to time constraints. grabe... we didn't even go down the bus kse naman scorching ang init sa labas... sayang nman ang pag-itim kung di rin lang sa swimming makukuha.

masaya

outing na itu... i love SS!

pics

later =)

aaargh...

lecheng hormones

sorry, i'm just not successful pa

hay... sorry po. 1 million times ko nang inulit. if i could only punch myself kanina... well, it was really out of my control. if i could, i would have done something and everything to get there... ON TIME! hehe.

but i guess i'm not yet successful. joey defined success as doing what you want at any time and any place.

hmmm... if i were successful, by 5:15, i would have clicked the off button of my pc. kebs kung di pa tapos ang review hehe! kebs kung di pa na-sesave ang files. i want to leave and be somewhere else right now. hehe... but i'm not yet THAT and kailangan magtiis hehe.

i thought i unleashed something that was not supposed to be unleashed... pero ok naman... the sweetest "i understand" i ever heard... err, read.

and everything turned out ok... great! =) thank you... sorry... mwah...

*joey is the same guy who gave me a new perspective in life... haha you should thank him too... promise! i swear i'm positive you paid him to make me realize those. =)

si cecille: another maid story (but not the usual)

hay... it's been quite some time since manang II left... or was "asked" to leave.

kay hirap talga nang walang kasama sa bahay... di naman medyo laging disaster yung bahay namin no?!? at nalilinis lang sya pag may darating na bisita - hehe kung may time. minsan nakakainis kasi ang dumi-dumi nya tapos 'di mo naman malinis kasi bagsak ka na pag-uwi mo... pag weekends, may lakad ka pa. sus!

oh well. our neighbor, lola mary, asked us if we want to have a kasama sa bahay. though my mom swore we'll never have another maid again, she gave in to the offer and accepted the gift that was cecille.

cecille is 16 years old, a highschool graduate. she has dreams of going to college but she just can't... the usual "wala-kasi-kaming-pambayad-ng-pang-aral-eh" story. she expresses her desire to finish her studies so mom and i are thinking of helping her out... in some ways. her sister is lola mary's maid, which is a good thing - they get to be close though they're far from their home. i could tell they're both good persons.

cecille is kind, soft-spoken, always smiling, sensitive to our needs, and she does keep the house clean. =) would you believe, she doesn't like to watch tv? mega turo ako pano pag-on ng tv. ok may-i-no-attention sya... hehe she just said she's not interested in watching tv. i asked her what she does during her free time... "nagbabasa" aba sosyal! intelehenteng hobby hehe.

oh, and i like her. =) hope she lasts a hundred years... hehe dead na ata kami nun.

friday the 13th

this is probably the weirdest friday the 13th... hehe... well... for me... what the heck...

everything is just so weird. i don't even know if it's for real... but it's really weird... both ways, i'm fine =) ok? ok?

mainit ang panahon

grabe na itu... i think it has never been THIS hot!!! super sira na ba ang ozone layer kaya para na tayong mga daing na tao? hehe...

it's starting to rain somehow... pero parang it gets warmer when it rains. grabe!!! hello... the sad thing is... for this year, once pa lang ako nakapag-swim. twice kung isasama yung pamumundok (naks npa) namin na may swimming. pero ok lang hehe para nde masyadong maitim... slight lang mwehehe...

happiness

Happiness is two kinds of ice cream
Finding your skate key, telling the time
Happiness is learning to whistle
Tying your shoe for the very first time
Happiness is playing the drum in your own school band
And happiness is walking hand in hand

Happiness is five different crayons
Knowing a secret, climbing a tree
Happiness is finding a nickel
Catching a firefly, setting him free
Happiness is being alone every now and then
And happiness is coming home again

Happiness is morning and evening
Daytime and nighttime, too
For happiness is anyone and anything at all
That's loved by you
Happiness is having a sister
Sharing a sandwich
Getting along
Happiness is singing together when day is through
And happiness is those who sing with you
Happiness is morning and evening
Daytime and nighttime, too
For happiness is anyone and anything at all
That's loved by you

* nde naman ako masyadong happy no? =) 5 is significant... for the other... and so i share the same sentiments =) 555 it is. feeling like a kid again. well, i always feel like a kid... rephrase: feeling more like a kid each day. a happier kid.

* i keep on apologizing for not being so something. it's been what? 3 yrs? hehe... quite long! i'm not used to being that again. everything's brand new. i remember the reason i had a blog was 1. nainggit sa mga college chums kong may blog. 2. to release whatever i have inside... rants about the ultimate negative spectrum in my life. and now, i'm having something brand new ulit. maybe i should have a new blog =)... nah... i'd love to see my transition. i'd love it if everybody sees my transition... =) both wanted and unwanted readers hehe. welcome to my world!

* highschool moments? haha definitely. but i don't mind. =)

* and to the source of more smiles... thank you for coming into my life. =) God bless us all... God bless whatever we have.