that's sad... not so...

hay... reading that somehow made me sad. if i were in that same situation, i probably would've done the same thing. i understand completely. do i have a problem with that? i guess so, having been sooo used to it and knowing that it's always just there, but there's nothing i could do. it's not mine to keep... nothing ever is. everything is just a borrowed something from Him. some things come, some things go. some things aren't as good as the others though, but as with every new dilemma (dilemma's too harsh!)... but as with every new challenge (it's not a challenge!)... but as with every new mandatory event, you can't do anything about it but accept it as it is. as the prayer goes,

"God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference."

and i pray for that constantly =)