a whirlpool of thoughts...

it's my birthday... just spending time with myself here at home. taking a break. thanks to 780 and cert down time... i have some free time today.

i've had some time to contemplate on certain things... some are funny, some are touching, some are wishful thoughts... ponder on...

on losers... i wonder why genevieve had to die that way... lana stabbing her with one of the stones. i mean, all her life, genevieve spent her time and effort and money and all to get the darned stones. she didn't possess the objects of her desire... worse, she was killed by those. hihi.. what a loser.

on insect zappers... the perfect gift... last night, mom sent me a message and told me that my birthday gift is inside my dresser. i was so excited to get home... i opened the box... and there it was... an insect zapper - the one with the purple light that brutally zaps insects when they get near it. haha mom knows best. she knows that i am a natural mosquito magnet and i almost always rant about my mosquito bites... hihi! tenchutenchu... hey, i could use it as a pendant to ward off pesteng lamok... hehe!

on peach undies... weird hehe... kuya and aira gave me this peach panty... cute but weird! why would my kuya think of giving me that? funny but very much appreciated. it's really cute... actually, it could pass for a swim wear... only, it doesn't come with a top... hmmm... topless? eeeewww... haha!

on michie and thecx (and mumay)... received a dozen pink roses and cake from michie and thecx. i was so touched it made me cry... iyakin. mumay even brought it here at home from the office. she said, she thought that i might be on birthday leave and i might want to receive it on my birthday. very kind girl... =) i love my girls... they made me cry... huhu...

on wawin... when i woke up this morning, i saw win all tired sleeping on the couch. sightly sick with fever and cough and colds, he looked so thin and so kawawa. if i'm being eaten alive by my work, he's being consumed by his studies. he told me he feels tired and he feels that he's been studying all his life... and that he doesn't get to sleep at night because 24 hrs is not enough. aawww... poor creature.

on wanting someone... sometimes it's sad how much you express your gusto towards someone... but it just can't be. so touching how, after all these days, they still tell you how much you are welcome and loved and needed in their circle. sad how i utter in my head, if you could only have two families, i'd want the second one to be you... =) never have i seen a longing so unconditional and bold and trusting and all. and i miss you all too. =)

on ate cat... i'm fond of that name. well, a couple of "younger" people call me that... some younger peers from lcg, romarc (the adorable kid i used to play with... and now when i see him, he smiles and says, "ate cat!"), cecille (i probably look like her age but heck... i'm older and so she calls me ate cat), some guy at work (darn it... this is the only instance i don't appreciate being called ate... don't ever do that again baka nde kita matantya at lalong maningkit ang mata ko hehe)

on God's answers to our prayers... kuya had some issues and he was quite down for the past few days. the other day, he was upbeat again. i asked him if he's feeling better. he told me that he just thought of what i said and he felt better... "what did i say?", i asked. and he said that some time ago, i told him that when we ask for something from God, God says yes or no. when we are not given what we ask for, we feel hurt and grmble that our prayers are not answered. well, come to think of it, "NO" is actually an answer. so, He does hear us and and He does answer our prayers... (c/o the sisters of st. paul of chartres hihi)

on z... the last time i checked, z hasn't said "hello world" yet. hey come out na! and share this day with me! woohoo! riche, put some more effort of making ire! haha as if madali.

on abuse... meron pa rin talgang martyrs eh. i despise any form of abuse. verbal, physical, emotional... girl, you have a long way ahead of you. you are not a saint so don't act like one. get out while you can and build up whatever has been broken. you're young, pretty, intelligent... and you deserve someone better. don't fix something that can't be fixed. =) you are loved.

on game ka na ba... i love that show. hehe... wala lang. very educational. yun lang. i really love watching it.

on shake... again, i express my full support to my lcg peer, shake. he's a part of the final 12 for star in a million and i'm proud of him. =) text nyo ah! galing na bata ito!

on the end... hehe... well, that's it for my tell-the-world-of-your-thoughts thing... =)