drained

i feel so drained today but i can't sleep at 2am 'cause it's not my bed time. darn it.

whatever transpired there that moment? all i know is back then, i wanted to be swallowed wholly by anything that could swallow a caths. it really isn't a big deal, i guess... but i never expected that from anybody with tact. whatever happened to good judgment and discretion and sensitivity?

i tried to fight it for the longest time but they poured down anyway... after a long, long, long time. hey, that's a first. history is made today... a bad history. and when i recall it, awww... it sucks... to the maximum level. i could still hear every word. sucked... sucks.

but it was a nice gesture. you still earn a thousand points for patience and persistence to get things done the right way... to end it all with grace. i know i acted bitchy and stubborn for hours... over something where the cause is a complete mystery to you. well now you know... and it's over.

so it's gone now? i hope...

and off to another draining thing... i hate cold shoulder treatments... darn it. i get affected... every inch of me. but what can i do? it's been going on for a couple of days now and i'm beginning to get bothered by it. i know how you feel... when you think everybody is against you and you limit your every move 'cause you might just have a chance to speak with them... and you don't like that. sucks...

the way i see things, i'm your only "buddy" now. don't isolate yourself. no man is an island. argh. i wish i could tell you that... sucks... drained drained.