abot-tanaw na ang liwanag

i don't have a problem. it's not one of those moments when there's a crisis that's coming to and end hehe...

what i really mean to say here is... we asked our boss if we could work on an earlier shift - 4pm to 1am. sure going home will literally be thrilling, but it's worth the risk. i've been on night shift for more than a year now. it has become evident on the dark circles under my eyes and the raging moods i've had and the general feeling of being unwell. i just noticed i've become more irritable and grudging lately. it probably doesn't show yet but maybe in the long run, i'll be feeling something wrong with my health.

i know i've been the most diligent advocate of the "it's not what happens, it's how you take it" motto, but darn it... i give up. this is an exception. syet. i hate night shifts! and i can't help but feel pessimistic about it now.

try it. stay awake at nights and sleep on days and you'll know how i feel. argh. bad.

we're crossing our fingers that the request will be approved. otherwise, i'm doomed. but what can i do?!? syet.