wonderful things to do

i'm feeling down. pms and rain - a bad combination. i have a terrible headache. i look out the window and i see the melodramatic rain pouring, purring, sending my emotions in a swirl of negative vibes. argh.

i suddenly think that i'm turning 29 and i haven't made anything of substance or significance in my life yet. what have i done, actually? hmmm... ponder, ponder. i couldn't be proud. all i could say is i've done things that are sort of "required" and "standard" in this society. so far, i've finished a four-year course and i've set my ship on sail on an ocean of a decent job.

i feel i'm running out of years! this is ms. negative acting on full throttle! people are dying younger. maybe i don't have 50 years more to live... maybe not even 30!

so i thought of wonderful things that i would love to do. in my imagination, i can conquer the world!

in chronological order:

• i would love to start my own business. i'm not a rich person. i'm targeting a small-cost business. multi-million franchising seems dim for me. i'm a bit afraid to take risks so i would rather start small and grow from there.
  
• i would love to teach children to read. and what an accomplishment that will be! this has been a long-time dream for me. maybe to start, a small room will do. anybody could come in and learn for free. once a kid learns to read, we will make a pact that someday when he becomes capable, he will teach at least one child to read.
  
• i would love to help in a charity... hmm, not only financial but also exert physical effort. i don't have an idea which institution yet. maybe more research has to be done for that.
• i would love to have my own family! who doesn't want to? i want to have a responsible husband and 3 wonderful kids. we'll live in a small house in a safe environment - where we could jog or bike on the streets on weekends. wow! susme.
• i would love to travel the world with mama, kuya (and family), wawin (and family), my hubby, and three kids. wow, pangmayaman! hahaha! teka, if not the world, then spend a weekend a month with the complete family. anywhere is good, even if it's just bbq at the garden! bongga!

what have i done so far? i spent a few hours searching for good small business ideas. wasn't that successful, though. hehe. but i feel lighter.

i love this list! and someday i will accomplish them all!