building their families, we are still trying to formulate where we'll settle and build our nest. for the meantime, we thought it might be best to also try to have a baby (read: shumoshonda na ang mga itlog ko) :)
how we'll do that across the distance we'll never know, but we could always figure things out. hahaha! for starters, i thought it would be wise to have a check-up with an ob to see if anything is odd. if anything is misplaced, missing, or extraneous, if i'm healthy to attempt to bring forth new life.
in my entire lifetime, this is just my 3rd visit to an ob. i set up an appointment at kk and the consultation happened last feb 19. i won't go to the gory details for obvious reasons. all i could remember was pain, pain, and more pain. oh, and kaching kaching. i had the following done: pap smear, consultation, blood extraction for hormone tests, and ultrasound.
i had to wait for about 4 hours because the staff was kind enough to put me through an open slot for the ultrasound. thought this was better than going back on another day for the test.
what to do for 4 hrs while waiting? my phone was at its final breath hahaha. i decided that while i'm cut off from the rest of the world, i will eat leisurely, buy a book, and read away. sulitin ang 4 hours of being alone and try to go to a different dimension. asus.
while waiting and reading, pakiramdam ko nilalagnat ako sa mga naunang procedure hahaha. pero deadma. sige read read lang. ultrasound na lang naman and we're done!
thanks to grisham! he kept me company for hours until the time for ultrasound came. the ultrasound lady was pinay and she was friendly and kind. nahirapan kami pareho. period. hayayayayayayayay.
and it finally came to an end. i need to go back on march 19 for the results and a follow-up consultation. but hey! i got the smear results last week and they said i don't have cancer. so 1 big step done :) let's start moving this mountain!
a few days after the blood extraction, i had these serious bruises. scary.
dear Lord,
my earliest memories were of me being a daughter. i learned how to obey and disobey. i know that i pleased my parents well, and there were also a lot of times i disappointed them.
i was a daughter first, then a sister. i was the apple of my brothers' eyes... on good days. and on bad, i was the bella... bella flores :)
i am now a wife to my husband, and i do my best. i do my best. we are still
growing together and my husband and i plan to do this until the last days of our lives.
while it is my heart's deepest desire to be a mother and a parent, to bring new life, to raise a child (or children), i know it is also possible that you may have other plans. we'll just try our best until you reveal that perfect plan to us. until then, we'll anticipate cheerfully.
always, your will be done.
always your daughter,
cat
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