countdown: 4 days

4 days to go... and kuya's out of here. woke up at 7:30 PM and i passed by his room. he's home early and he's starting to pack his things.

it's a sad sight - kuya filling in a black backpack with some of his shirts, some pillow cases, and a few more kuya-stuff. and i just told him, "aww...". he replied, "ma-mi-miss mo ba ko?". "hindi," i lied. and left him to hide tiny tears.

no superman part 2

i've always found strength in my mikey. he works on weekdays and attends classes on saturdays. plus extra-curricular activities i.e., watching the UAAP, spending time with me, and sometimes going out with his friends on weekends. he's as strong as a horse... i swear!

and i find him invulnerable to pain and sickness. he only gets sick of colds or cough or mild fever, and that's it. he gets tired from time to time but i know he has the strength to get by no matter how tiring his activities are. aba dapat lang. with his appetite, super solid ang mga trip nyang ulam e no!

while i'm lame and payatot, i think he's leaner and mightier. while i'm a cry baby and immature, i think he's sensible and mature and objective. while i have no bilbil at all as in flat tummy, i think his bilbil is so big eeeww yak (wehehe dead ako neto. of course, i'm joking 'cause i do have eeeww bilbil). while i'm moody and impatient and sungit, he's the suyo-kita and ever patient type. see, he's really strong! makes me think sometimes that he's a super mega hyper creature.

pero... as i've made my point on my latter post, i have to keep in mind that he's just human too... and he does get sick, and his body doesn't function at its optimum level at all times, and he's also rushed to the hospital just like any human being who feels unwell, and i can't get to his side always, and the only thing i could guarantee is that he's thought of so much and i'm worried as hell, and i get misinterpreted by other people for not being there at a time like that, and i can't keep telling them that i'll be there if only i could, and i'm judged like hell... just because they don't know me. well tell you what, i don't know you too so don't give me that crap - and they're probably drunk. and i get helpless too just like a regular human being. 'cause after all, i'm no superman too. :(

no superman part 1

the elderly couple lolo heny and lola felicing are our quasi-relative, friendly neighbors. they have always been here for us, acting like boy ang girl scouts. we don't even have to ask for their help 'cause their hands are just there always extended by default. all we need to do is grab them.

lolo heny has always been our landscape artist. naks. that simply means he takes care of the plants surrounding our house. he loves plants and flowers and it is his pleasure to arrange and take care of our plants. everything is lush and pretty. oh, he does this knowing he gets nothing in return - nothing but sheer bliss that is the product of his tending to green life.

growing old means certain body parts will eventually fail to function as expected. for lolo heny's case, his gall bladder (if i remember it right) is failing. he was rushed to the hospital for an operation that almost took his life. thank God he's now getting well in his daughter's house in muntinlupa.

it was here that we visited him last sunday, and what i saw devastated me. the usual upbeat, mestizo lolo heny is now so thin. there's a tube that's connected to his stomach that secretes the bile. he manages to walk, but it is very evident that it's not easy for him. top it all with words that signify he's almost giving up. he said hirap na hirap na sya. and i'm not used to hearing pessimistic words from him.

when somebody is constantly there, you don't notice that they're just people who are also subject to wear and tear, that they get weak over time, and that no matter how wonderful and great their souls are, they're no superman at all. that's what makes us human after all. we bleed, we cry, we learn to say good bye, and we adapt once we are left behind - no matter how painful the whole process is.

i will root

in tagalog... uugatan na ako paghihintay... betchabygollywow naman 2AM na! kanina pa ko 9PM naghihintay naman naman.

ni-message ko sa IM, mga 10x na. itago na lang natin sya sa pangalang estregun. "hi, estregun". magfo-follow-up lang naman ako ng fixes sa issues para matapos na to... hindi nya ko pinapansin. :( 10x na ko nag "hi, estregun" i swear! dine-deadma nya ko! since last week pa.

tapos, nag-email ako ng issues... dinedma nya rin! betchaby talaga... dumarami lalo varicose veins ko eh... waaah! natatamad na ko maghintay!

mapapanood ako ng manhunt nyan... eto na malapit na... natetempt na ko... argh...

si kuya

kuya's leaving... soon. he finally got what he's been hoping and praying for. either that, or God granted my birthday wish - that He give what kuya is asking for, if that will be the best for him. or maybe, God listened to us both. we're equally loved then. :) as if there are favorites, duh! hehe.

kuya has been eyeing this good opportunity. he says it's about time he prepare for his future and he really wants to marry his gf soon. i'm so proud of him for having been transformed into someone i could look up to. he's changed over the years to become a man i could proudly refer to as, "kuya ko yan!".

as younger kids, we used to fight a lot. he was the antagonist, i was the underdog. he was the teaser, i was the cry-baby. i dunno if it had something to do with him being older, and with him being male, but we definitely were cats and dogs back then. and they were always on my side. who wouldn't be touched and comfort a crying tiny girl? and who wouldn't look down and point their fingers on a bad bully? hehehe...

despite all those fights, i could never forget that time when we were playing taguan with our neighbor playmates. i might have been the youngest among the pack, thus the slowest and the weakest weakling - that meant i had to be IT for the longest time! i just can't catch anybody! or make it to base before they do! and i was teary-eyed... just too tired of being IT, i guess. kuya noticed that i was all upset and he volunteered to be IT, and he took my post. awww. my big brother. my savior.

i could tell him everything, i could ask him anything. although there's still this wall of personal space, i know it's something we won't mind breaking or trespassing.

it hasn't really penetrated my system yet, the part that processes the major changes of life, but everyday i know we're getting there. and i can't help but feel a tinge of sadness too. i guess he's the next best thing to the father i never had and we've been pretty close now that we're older. we learned to share the same interests and i swear kuya is the type of person who could convince me to buy a jacket in a desert, or have a halo-halo in a snowstorm. :( i just believe in him, agree with him, and i know that his systems work. and yeah, he's earned my respect over the years.

oh, but he hasn't earned my love... you see, it's one thing that's innate. i'll miss you, big, silly, smelly guy! :( fly high but never fail to look back. keep our love in your pockets and it might just do you more wonders. have more faith in God and have more optimism. i think you have to work a little overtime for those two fields. above all, be a good boy and never ever forget to make your presence felt always. i luvya so much!

happy 2nd year anniversary...

sa blog ko! woohoo!

2 years of every emotion imaginable. :) i guess this is my longest running journal. sometimes, i manage to filter raging emotions into artsy words... sometimes i don't. hahaha... it is during those times i somehow regret how i say things. hehehe. like, did i just say that? but hey... i know i have the power to delete posts... edit the way i say things to make them sound subtle. but i don't. hehe maybe i just choose to say those... no matter how bitchy i may sound. sheesh. hehe. that is, after all, how i really feel. :)

and when i feel happy, i REALLY portray that i am happy. proofs are my sometimes overly exaggerated elated posts. to the highest level ba... hehe.

everything started out as a gaya-gaya stuff... with my college buddies. it so happened that, back then, i had a lot of hurt emotions that i had to let out. :) so blog it is. sige mega pour out ng mga emotions chuva na kaartehan ko lang naman din siguro. hehe. i think up to now, every single post e kaartehan ko lang din. hihi. life is a big piece of kaartehan... that's what i believe in. take away kaartehan, and you take away the colors of life. :)

btw, the hot pink sakit-sa-mata layout is the original layout. nothing's changed. except for the tadtad-mukha-ko pictures... hehe. i'll probably keep it this way... for a long time. :)

i choose to be positive

sabi ni aling merriam at ni manong webster, ang positive at negative ay nangangahulugang,
positive: 'pä-z&-tiv, 'päz-tiv - having a good effect : FAVORABLE (a positive role model) b : marked by optimism

negative: 'ne-g&-tiv - lacking positive qualities; especially : DISAGREEABLE b : marked by features of hostility, withdrawal, or pessimism that hinder or oppose constructive treatment or development (a negative outlook) (negative criticism)

i know i sometimes have my crazy spells of pessimism. and i have no excuse for moments like that. how lame could PMS sound? yeah. maybe i could choose to be so in control of my hormones. and maybe i could choose to be so in control of my outlook in life.

if there's one thing i recall in tuesdays with morrie by mitch albom, it's how morrie said we should deal with sadness. first, acknowledge the feeling of sadness... grieve and cry if you must. and then give it you best shot and say, "ok i know now how it feels to be sad. it's now time for me to give way to my other emotions... like happiness maybe?". and then smile. :)

i was watching magandang umaga bayan (or is the title magandang umaga pilipinas?) this morning, and there was this very interesting topic on staying optimistic and keeping the negative vibrations off limits to your life.

i'll do my best to recall the stuff they enumerated. i think it's really neat piece of information. something i could read everyday... to ward off whatever evil forces there are that try to contain caths. :)

tips:

iwasang maging materialistic

iwasang maging competitive

patawarin ang iyong sarili at ang kapwa mo

sa simula ng bawat araw (gabi for my case), magpasalamat para sa bagong araw at sa mga biyayang natatanggap mo

bago matulog, bilangin ang mga magagandang bagay na nangyari sa 'yo. kung wala, isipin ang mga magagandang bagay na pwedeng mangyari sa 'yo bukas

humarap sa salamin, sabihin mong, "ang ganda ko naman ngayon!"

pag may lumait sa hitsura mo, isipin mo na lang na maaaring may problema sya, or "ok lang, maganda naman ako." (isipin mo lang, kse kung ilalakas mo, baka mag-away kayo)

* items in red font are my favorites! :)

i'm not saying that there'll be 0% negative posts on my blog. that would be my way of acknowledging the sadness... the moving on part follows, hopefully! :)

overheard...

from my baby kapitbahay... while bidding farewell to his dad who's leaving for work:

baby: pa, wag ka magmatagal ha! magmadali ka ha!
papa: opo

awwww... cute. :)

mikey and the pupu

last saturday, mikey was here at home. we were supposed to go out but i managed to lure him to just stay here at the house and bum around. mom and cecil went to SM to buy some stuff. kuya was upstairs watching dvds. win was at school. and we were downstairs watching tv and sleeping.

around 6pm, caths and mikey became hungry. so mikey called shakey's and had pizza and mojos delivered here at home. after more than an hour (darn service sucks), the pizza boy arrived and mikey went out to get the foodie. when he went back to the house, he didn't notice he stepped on this cat pupu... eeew! hey that's my slippers he's using! and there was cat pupu everywhere... talk about yucky sight and yucky smell.

caths: nakatapak ka ng pupu! yak!
mikey: syet! kuha ka ng basahan biliiiiis!
* and i was like, ok... what's with the panic mode? but i went ahead to look for a basahan.
mikey: bilisan mo, baby!
caths: teka, naghahanap na nga e!

finally i found one. he ran to get it, moisten it, and in no time at all, he was running around the house like a mad man to wipe off the crap. totally taranta talga...

caths: ano ba? bat ka ba natataranta?
* no answer... continues with his hell-like linis movement
* caths annoyed

mikey: alcohol! penge alcohol
caths: bat ka ba ganyan? ok lang yan wag ka magmadali

* mikey ignores caths and goes ahead to make wisik the floor with alcohol. hello basbasan ba ang bahay namin? blessing ba itu?

i dunno what's with the taranta moves but he simply said he didn't want my mom to go home and find the house in disarray... and i was like, ok lang naman yun, di ka naman papagalitan. but he insisted on having the mess cleaned up. whatever.

the moment he finished the clean-up, inis na ko. he washed his hands, grabbed me in the kitchen area, and told me he's sorry for acting taranta, he's just not used to messing around in somebody else's home. haha... sya pa nagsorry for having cleaned up my place. funny. and sure enough, after a few minutes, mom and cecil arrived. he just winked and told me "i told you so". duh, para namang papahiya sya ng mom ko for spreading cat pupu no! kulit... :) but cute.

impressions

last friday, a few hours before heading off home, the office girls didn't have that much office work to do. so we were doing our usual activity - magbrowse ng mga tao sa friendster - after all, that IS our only form of social life. poor earthlings. don't deprive us of that. hihihi.

so there we were, making the usual comments, "ganda ni ano", "ay di kagandahan", "bat ganun yung ano nya?". the works...

then, there was this agent guy who went to the IT room (this is our room too) to ask for a headset from john and alex (2 other IT guys). he was kinda friendly. a few minutes passed... and then we totally forgot he was in the room.

maria (aka maricor) was browsing wolf's (not his real name) friendster. we have this thing for wolf's gf... as in we find her really pretty and cute and we swear if we were a guy, we'll hit on her. hehe. all of a sudden, maria blurted out, "ate maj, eto yung gf ni wolf na gusto naming tirahin ni caths".

note... at this point, the friendly agent-asking-for-headset guy is still in the room. imagine the shock he might have experienced when he heard that. at the corner of my eye, i saw him glanced wildly at our direction. hehehe... "crazy lesbians" he might have thought. great impression. hanep. hihi.

survey #10

1.Like to walk in the rain?
**yep..

2.Sleep with or without clothes on?
**with clothes.. kahit onti lang hehe

3.Prefer black or blue pens?
**black..

4.Dress up on Halloween?
**yeah... white lady

5.Like to travel?
**yeah..

6.Like someone?
**oh yeah

7.Do they know?
**don't think so...

8.Sleep on your side?
**yup

9.Think you're attractive?
**gosh... hindi naman hehe

10.Want to marry?
**yup some day

11.With Who?
**with the right man

12.Alaska or Hawaii?
**hawaii..

13.Are you a good student?
**i tried to be a good one... hehe

14.Are you involved in sports? right now?
**nope

15.Christmas or Halloween?
**christmas

17.Colored or black-and-white photo?
**colored

18.Do long distance relationships work?
**no... not for me

19.Do you believe in astrology?
**only if it says what i want to hear haha

20.Do you believe in God?
**yeah...

21.Do you believe in love at first sight?
**no

22.Do you consider yourself the life of the
party?
**no.. i'm the laugher.. laugher?

23.Are u an outgoing person?
**not so on the first meeting

24.Do you have a job?
**yes

25.Do you make fun of people?
**yeah.. not naman pahiya... like okray lang mahina lang.. na napapalakas minsan. is that bad?

26.Do you think dreams eventually come true?
**some of them

27.Fave thing to do?
**sleep... spend time with my loved ones

28.Favorite musician?
**mosiko ba ito?

29.Fave. breakfast food?
**tuyo, sunny side up, fried rice

30.Chocolates or Candy?
**choclates

31.Fave. person?
**my mom...

32.Favorite body part of the opposite gender?
**hands siguro... pdeng hawakan anywhere anytime :)... feels good

34.Go to the movies or rent?
**movies

35.Have you ever moved?
**not yet

36. How's the weather right now?
**just right

38.Hug or kiss?
**kiss

39.Last person you talked to on the phone?
**mikey

40.Last time you showered?
**kagabi

41.Loud or soft music?
**soft

42.McDonalds or Burger King?
**mcdo...

43.More romantic baths or shower?
**baths

44.Night or day?
**day

45.Number of pillows on ur bed?
**3

46.Piano or guitar?
**piano

47.Read or write?
**both

48.Single or taken?
**taken

49.Snow or water?
**watEr...

50.What are you doing tomorrow?
**spend time with mikey

51.what clothes are you wearing?
**jeans, shirt

52.What do you drink?
**iced tea, strawberry shake, pde na rin sanmig... learning to


53.What makes you puke?
**drinking too much, brushing my tongue too much

54.What's on your computer screen?
**wentworth miller

55.What's right next to you?
**maricor to my left, blank to my right.. hehe blank

56.What's your bedtime? weekdays?
**11am

57.What's your name backwards?
**enirehtac

58. When do you get up in the morning?
**uh... 9pm

59.Who do you talk to the most online?
**beth?

survey #9

1. Start Time : 509AM
2. Name: caths
3. Nickname: caths
4. If u wer a skittle wat color wud u be: purple
5. Chinese Zodiac: monkey
6. Zodiac: leo
7. Hair color: dark brown
8. Eye color: dark brown
9. Height: 5 ft
10. Favorite Color: light violet... lilac ba
11. glasses?: none
12. Braces?: none
13. Piercing/tattoos?: on ears lang
15. Area code: 02

******HAVE YOU EVER******
17. Cut your own hair?: eyebrows
18. Did you do something in the past month
that you regret? no naman
20. Kissed someone who isn't ur gf or bf?:
oh yeah
21. Skipped school?: yeah
22. Bungee jumped?: i'd love to
23. Had sex outside?: not yet
24. Dumped someone?: dunno
25. Been arrested?: not yet
26. TP'd someone's house?: anong TP?
27. Won something?: yes - a blender
30. Been rejected?: yes
31. Been to a funeral?: yes
32. Used a lighter?: yes
33. Been on stage?: yes

*****FAVORITE*****

34. Season: summer
35. Food: filipino food... yung may sabaw
36. Ice cream flavor: chocolate... and strawberry na rin
37. School subject(s): don't like one hahaha
38. Person?: my mom
41. Book(s): marami
42. Movie(s): marami rin
43. Song? : marami rin
44. Park?: kahit ano siguro.. basta good company
45. State: state side
46. Place: home
47. Sport to watch: basketball, swimming
49. Bands/musicians: dami e
50. Letter(s): c
51. Restaurant: marami ren e
52. Cartoon Character(s): siguro si elmo hihi pde naman syang cartoon diba
53. TV Station(s): discovery, chaka mga movie ch.

54. Name for a son: allison
55. Name for a daughter: allison

******DO YOU PREFER******

56. Chocolate or Vanilla?: chocolate
58. Long relationships or one night
stands?: long relationship
59. Dogs or cats?: dogs
60. Scary movies or comedies?: comedy
61. Short hair or long: long

62. Croutons or bacon bits?: bacon bits
63. Kissing or hugging: kissing

******FIRST THINGS THAT COME TO
MIND******

64. Mexicans: bigote
65. School: st. paul
66. Grass: green
67. Cow: black and white
68. Canada: my cousin
69. Mouse: mickey
70. Hands: hold hands!

******THE PAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU******

71. Watched a movie?: no
72. Talked on the phone?: yes
73. Cried?: no
74. Threw up?: no
75. Drank a glass of water?: yes
76. Done Drugs?: no
77. Read a book or magazine?: yes
78. Watched TV?: yes
79. Looked in the mirror?: yes
80. Taken a shower? yes
81. Taken a picture?: no
82. Listened to music?: yes
83. Kissed someone?: shucks... no! :(
84. Told someone you liked them?: no
85. End time: 518AM

survey #8

L A S T P E R S O N W H O :

1. Sent you a text message:
mikey
2. Saw you cry:
guen and maricor
3. Went to the movies with you?
guen and maricor
4. You went to the mall with?
kuya
5. You went to dinner with?
ang familia ko?
7. Said 'I love you' to you and really meant it?
edi si mikey
8. Broke your heart?
someone from the past
9. Made you laugh?
i can't remember
10.Talked on the phone?
mikey rin

W O U L D Y O U R A T H E R?
1. Pierce your nose or tongue?
nose
2. Be serious or be funny?
funny
3. Drink whole or skim milk?
whole
4. Die in a fire or drown?
drown na lang parang mas hindi masakit
5. Spend time with your parents or worst enemies?
labo... parents

D O Y O U P R E F E R. .
1. Gray or black?
black
2. Colored or Black and white photos?
colored..
3. Lust or love?
hmmm... pwede bot? hehehe
4. Sunrise or sunset?
sunrise ...
5. M&Ms or Skittles?
M&Ms
6.Staying up late or waking up early?
staying up late

A N S W E R T R U T H F U L L Y !!!
1.Do you like anyone?
yup
2. Do they know it?
hindi siguro
3.Then tell me who is she/he?
shy type ako
***************

D O Y O U P R E F E R. .
1. Sun or moon?
sun
2. Winter or Fall?
fall na lang
3. Left or right?
right
4. 10 acquaintances or having two best friends?
2 best friends
5. Sunny or rainy?
sunny... but i'm starting to like rainy season because of my shift
6. Vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream?
chocolate

A B O U T Y O U
1. What time is it?
504AM
2. Name?
caths
3. Nickname(s):
caths
4. What is your birth date?
08/17
5. What do you want? more hours in a day?
no. i think 24 is enough
6. Where do you want to live?
sa hawaii hehe
7. How many kids do you want?
siguro 3
8. You want to get married?
oh yeah. in the near future

U N I Q U E !
2. Are you double jointed?
i don't know what this is
3. Can you roll your tongue?
yeah!
4. Can you raise one eyebrow?
yeah
5. Can you cross your eyes?
yeah

R A N D O M
1. Which shoe goes on first?
right
2. Ever thrown one at someone?
slippers pag naghaharutan kami ng brothers ko

OTHER
1. Do you twirl your spaghetti?
ye
2.Have you ever eaten spam?
ya
3. Favourite ice cream:
chocolate
4. How many kinds of cereal are in your cabinet?
alang cereal
5. What's your favourite non-alcoholic drink?
iced tea

I N T H E L A S T M O N T H , HA V E YO U ?

2. Bought something:
uu
3. Sang:
yeiz
4. Been kissed:
yup
5. Been hugged:
yep...
6. Felt stupid:
yes
7. Missed someone:
yep...
8. Danced crazy:
oh yeah
9. Gotten your hair cut:
nope. i badly need one, though
10. Cried
yep
11. had road rage:
nope
12. Snuck out of the house:
no

survey #7

1. Are you wearing a necklace?
>>nope

2. Do you like someone right now?
>>yup

3. Who is the main person(s) you talk to at
work?
>>maricor, ate maj, beth

5. What color is your shirt?
>> red

7. What song are you listening to?
>>dunno the title ang corny ko

8. What was the last mall you went to?
>>rob place

9. Are you alone?
>>nope

10. Do you have any older siblings?
>>si kuya pogi

11. What is the last thing you ate?
>>tuna sandwich at green tea

12. Who was the last person to come over to
your house?
>>i think my cousin, marlon

13. Who was the last person to call you?
>>si mikey

14. Who was the last person who texted you?
>>si mikey din

16. What should you be doing?
>>working pero alang magawa

17. Who is the last person you sent a
message?
>>si mikey sa cellphone, si thecx sa ym

18. Did you go out to eat yesterday?
>>nope

19. What are you thinking right now?
>>gusto ko na umuwi

20. What color are your shorts?
>>vlue jeans

21. What color is your keyboard?
>>vlack

22. What do you feel like eating/drinking?
>>hmmm... cheese pizza

23. Are you in college?
>>nope

24. What is the last text you wrote?
>>nope

25. Are you bored?
>>nde naman. sleepy lang

26. How many teeth do you have?
>>parang 29

28. Do you wear glasses?
>>nope. i want to

29. What color are your shoes?
>>beige sandals

31. Last thing you drank?
>>green tea

33. Who do you love?
>>marami akong love.

35. What are you doing right now?
>>sagot nito, listen to some strange music

37. Do you know how to spell bananas?
>>mukang

38. What're the last words you said?
>>mukang

39. Do you have clothes on?
>>yup

36. Do you like llamas?
>>no idea

42. Do you have a cut on your pointer finger?
>>nope

43. Where is your cell phone?
>>tabi ng keyboard

44. Do you have any friends named Skyler?
>>nope

46. Do you have any friends named Axel?
>>ala rin

47. Are you afraid of the dark?
>>only after watching a scary movie

48. Did you used to watch "Are you afraid of
the dark"?
>>oh yeah!

49. Does your computer have a mouse?
>>yep

50. What size shoe do you wear?
>>5

rainy days and sardines

it was not that easy getting home this morning.

buses were packed. i was able to find a seat but there was this lady standing in front of me. she has a giant bag and the bag was about an inch from my face, and the bag was almost hitting my face. luckily, it didn't get me. :) the powers of the universe conspired to make the bag NOT hit my face. ;p

fx ride wasn't a giveaway either. there were 2 girls who seemed to be call center agents. why? the accent... the sosy sound... and they were talking loudly. they weren't annoying, though. i actually found them cute and sensible. what's semi-annoying was the traffic along coastal road going to mia road. good thing i was able to involuntarily eavesdrop to the two girls' interesting conversation.

when i got home, as in when i stepped on our doorway, it started to rain. the conspiracy thing is really working my way woohoo!

breakfast was next... mom tried this sardines with spaghetti sauce thing, and i think it's a gorgeous breakfast for a rainy day. conclude it all with a hot mug of chocolate and a morning call from my mikey. purrrrrfect.

sa mga panahong ganito

during the spi era, you'd be one of the blessed kung nagkataong ikaw ay untasked or waiting... you savor every second of it, 'cause an opportunity like that only comes once in a blue moon.

dito sa access, grabe, ganun din. pag andyan ang tasks, di ka na makatayo para makakain or maka-wiwi man lang. pero wag ka... pag naging waiting or untasked ang status mo, mamumuti ang mata mo. lahat na ata ng pwedeng gawin, nagawa ko na. 'di ko ito ginusto. gagawin ko naman ang trabahao KUNG MERON. pero kung wala, wala na talga kong magagawa kundi:

magpacman - nakatop score na ko! pero nabura na ng ibang bihasang manlalaro. :(

maggawa ng groups sa YM - yup, ngayon ko lang natuklasan ang paggawa ng groups sa buddies list ko.

makipagchat sa mga taong online sa ym - marami akong napapala dito dahil nakakapangumusta ako ng mga friends :)

magrename ng mga pangalan ng tao sa YM list ko - mga tipong maricor e ginagawa kong Maricor Naz. para sosyal.

magbasa ng blogs at mag comment na rin. believe me, nakapag blog hop na rin ako, kung san click mo lang yung "next blog" button. it takes me places. promise fun ito.

magbrowse ng friendster - lahat ng friends ko nabrowse ko na. enjoy din ang pagbrowse ng mga popular people sa friendster. maraming artista haha (peke man or hindi).

manood ng stand-up-comedy sa youtube - highly recommended si russell peters (salamat kay diosdaddy); ang bubble gang astig din.

maglinis ng inbox ng yahoo email - di ko 'to masyadong like. nakakatamad.

makipagkwentuhan/chat kay maricor. 'di nauubos ang mga storya namin, promise.

maghanap ng mga holliwood chismis sa defamer.com at jossip.com. sorry tinatamad ako maglagay ng link.

umidlip sandali - dahil 'di naman ako nakakatulog pag 'di nakahiga... at walang kama rito.

masaya naman 'to kung paminsan-minsan lang. pero kung napapadalas, grabe masakit din sa ulo. :( ang sakit na naman ng ulo ko ngayon. wanna go home na :( ...

and i call him tuffy

mom's boss gave my mom a big plastic container. it resembles a drinking glass, about a foot in height and 8 inches in diamter. we couldn't think of any purpose for it so mom bought an oxygen machine and 8 pairs of fishes - 2 pairs of gold, a pair of black, and a pair of bright orange fishy fishes. a makeshift aquarium it is.

we have to get water from this deepwell pump... tubig-poso ba... they'd probably die if we used nawasa water - chlorine thingy. i didn't have to say that... anyway, so the school of fishes was a happy group. i only assumed that. i wouldn't know if they're happy. nobody would. but i just assumed 'cause they're in our home and ours is a happy home.

i'm not a fan of fishy pets. i actually think they're boring! the only time i thought fishes are interesting was during the finding nemo era - 'cause fishes actually talk there! they have emotions! their faces depict joy and fear and sadness. and my favorite fish is dory (not nemo)!

ok back to the aquarium... the weeks passed and one by one, the fishes died. we'd wake up and find one floating, lifeless. at other times, they'd be found dead on the floor. sometimes, they'd mysteriously disappear... one of the unsolved mysteries that nancy drew will surely love to dig into.

one by one they passed away, until there was only one left - one of the bright orange fishes. it's been months now... and it's clear that she's the toughest of them all. i don't even know if it's a she or a he, but i prefer to refer to it as a she simply because she's the survivor hehe. she's not a weakling ba.

i'm not endeared to her. i don't even feed her. mom does. but it lightens me everyday to see her swimming, living her life to the fullest, and simply surviving - without complaining. heck, that would be lonely: living alone, restricted in a small "cage"... no one to talk to, no one to hug, no one to love, no one to smile to, no one to turn to. but she doesn't complain! if only she could...

simply put, she's my inspiration... and i call her tuffy.

teka... malabo ata, natabunan ng bubbles si tuffy... wait...


yung naka X, di si tuffy yun, some ceramic dumb fish... the orange fish, encircled in yellow is THE REAL TUFFY! go, tuffy! you rule! woohoo!

ang muling pagtatagpo

servisoft, a couple of years ago, was this really cool business unit. i say cool 'cause the creatures thriving inside the servisoft walls are friendly and cool and a big happy family. everybody was friends with everybody and you wouldn't think twice about somebody's name because... you simply know who everybody is! and by know, i mean... really know K-N-O-W! get what i mean? i don't.

anyway, people changed. people left for a couple of reasons. by leave, i mean... leave by the dozen! sheesh... i know in everybody's heart was a worried, "i don't wanna be the last man standing here" (with matching ym worried emoticon). just before i left, the place was invaded by the new servisoft babies. i don't even know all their names... i mean, i wanted to! but there's just no way of penetrating a group this big. they remind me of a college block, so tightly knit, so happy, so young. thankful that the team of babies i worked with was a cool and sweet bunch. :) for the others, i don't have an idea and i missed the opportunity of getting to know them.

anyway again, the oldies had this dilemma of simply looking for a lunch buddy! if i couldn't find one, i'd head home for lunch. pathetic. :( i'm not the type who would eat alone. i'd probably cry.

ok... so everybody struggled to look for another company - another home. :( sad but that's the way life has to be. you say good bye and you say hello. to date, servisoft people are everywhere... scattered, ya know ;p. and it just lifts me up when i see someone i know from servisoft.

so this is the real score: last wednesday, there was a mini reunion for the makati chapter servisoft people (night shift)... you see, there's also the makati chapter regular shift and second shift. most of the attendees were from companies in RCBC plaza, nins and joy from PBCOM(?). there was a slight debate as to whether jollibee convergys is indeed halfway for PBCOM and RCBC... but yeah... it probably is and the dinner pushed through anyway. donnie was incidentally there and he completed the pack. :)

wala raw kaming sense (warning: senseless ang post na ito, coming from a senseless person)

"hihi... ano ba yan, bangag na tayo wala na tayong sense."
"lagi naman eh. kelan ba kayo nagka-sense?"

ay... foul hirit... lemmesee... lemmesee...

if sense is something you put on your mouth everyday, no, thanks! i'd rather not have sense at all than have all sarcasm and bitterness uttered out of my lips. i'd rather say something "senseless", as you say, but positive and full of laughter than your so-called intelligent but negative and rotten remarks.

if sense is the frown you wear on your face from the moment you get here to the time you leave, no thanks! i'd rahter not have sense at all. i'd rather give out all smiles to the people around me... annoying or not. after all they're people who know how to act like people. unlike some i know.

if sense is the know-it-all attitude you project, no, thanks! i'd rather have an honest "i didn't know that. now i know :) hope i remember it" than to project that i'm cum-laude material... "sabi sayo eh" "i know that 'cause i watch national geographic"... so? as if i care. i'm no cum-laude... but does that make me less of a person than you are? ask them... let's see what they say.

if sense is the perfume you wear, no, thanks. i'd rather not comment on that... iyo na ang sense mo. i have my own. i love my own.

sense? what is sense after all? hija, iyo na sense mo ha? sorry, i sound angry. epekto ng beer? i'm non-sense and i'm proud and i'm happy about it. are you reading this? oh, i'm scared... i bet you can decipher it's you... 'cause you're smart and soooo sensible! it makes your momma proud! ooh! so?

not-so-hidden mickeys

mickeys - they're everywhere. i don't know if the philippines (or our home, on a more local scale) is that unsanitary for mickeys of all sizes to actually live and literally mingle with people. they run around the house like little kids at play. good thing they don't destroy our things here at home... maybe they're just after food.

the most severe case i've heard was from my cousin: she was sleeping in her room (she lives in pasay, not in our house, thank goodness) and a big mickey bit her lip! on other times, it bit her daughter's nose! how severe could that sound! my goodness! and they actually saw the big mickey run away! i bet with a big evil grin on her face! syet.

it's not like we don't do anything to stunt the rising number of mickeys. here are some of the desperate and not-so-desperate moves we've tried so far:

wooden cage trap - way back my lolo's days, i remember he used to make these wooden trap boxes with tin doors. mickey goes inside the vault, eats the food (container = takip ng chizwiz), and the door shuts when the thread that holds the door loosens up. once trapped, we (make that my lolo) get a sack of some sort and carefully open the door to transfer mickey from the trap to the sack. after this, hampas-hambalos galore. poor mickey. if it doesn't kill him, i don't know what else will. i remember many years ago when it was hampas-hambalos time for a certain mickey, my lolo was all poised to transfer him and i was all poised too to witness the execution. sack positioned, door opens, and mickey escapes! i wailed and jumped wildly and one fatal jump killed poor mickey. asintado ang talon ko. syet na-trauma ako nun. i just killed a mickey.

classic mouse trap - we also resorted to these nifty wooden mouse traps. the ones with deadly metal that you have to pull back. a spring releases the metal thingy once motion is detected in any way. the drawback is, once a mickey dies on a trap, the others seem to somehow sense that a brother mickey lost his life on this thing and that this tool is not something that they should toy with... and the whole purpose of trapping mickeys is defeated. some even say that when you pour boiling water, the scent of death is removed... i say it's all too much hassle (or tamad lang ako).

fly trap - oh! this, i think, is an effective trap. the paper thingy with super sticky substance that traps baby mickeys - of course you have to lure them with food. sometimes a single trap could get around 3 baby mickeys. the only thing is... it's such a horrible sight to see (and hear) a baby mickey struggle to get out... with all the hair sticking to the glue, it's just so yucky and morbid. there was a time we forgot we had a trap and when we remembered, the mickey was all skeleton and decayed. yuck. and at other times, big momma mickey types get trapped but they bring the trap along and it's all gone. stupid momma mickey, running around with a fly trap on her belly.

rat poision - dora or racumin are the popular brands. no sweat - just put some on a piece of paper, mickey devours on the so-called feast and dies shortly. the drawback is, if they don't make it to the light, they die in the darnest corners of the house... the ones you can't see... and they would rot and smell like hell for days or weeks and would turn your tummy upside down. plus, they also sense at certain times that this is not food stuff and they ignore it just the same. there was a time when a big momma mickey is all dazed and is ready to accept her death. she came out and was just still. we didn't want to hampas her for she might run and hide and smell so we just covered her with this pail until she died. the disposal was the hardest thing to do. just imagine how you will get that creature into a plastic bag...

pet a kitty - a neighbor gave us a baby kitty some time ago. on the first day, we were brainwashing the kitty, "grow up to be strong and sturdy, little kitty... and go get 'em all, kitty!". and she was nodding like crazy like, "yeah, momma! i'm gonna get 'em all!". the next morning, kitty was missing with blood trails on the floor. we concluded that a big momma mickey, strong and sturdy and mighty, got our baby girl. poor kitty, we loved her for a day. she was our only hope. and she was ambushed by a mickey. how ironic. ugh.

claygo - clean as you go. we leave the house spic and span, thanks to cecil. counters wiped, floor all shiny and new, table-tops wiped clean, all food items kept out of mickey's reach. wa epek. they're like "heya! i'm here! watchadoin?" and run around the house like crazy! stupid pests.

to hell with mickeys... to hell with you all. hehe may galit.