Wednesday, May 28, 2008

gula-gulanit


kawawa naman, walang pambili ng pajamas.
nabili ko pa sa baclaran ang pantulog kong itong.
murang-mura, 3 for 100PHP. mantakin mo, 1SGD lang. hay.
presko ito - dahil manipis.
kapag tumapat ako sa araw, kita na ang silhouette ko.
waw. silhouette talaga.
parang mali ang salita.
para kasing pang sexy lang ang silhouette!
so sasabihin kong, "aninag na ang binti ko"
wenongayon yung sira?
masarap pa rin isuot!

Sunday, May 25, 2008

what it only means


i don't mind falling badly
it could only mean one thing:
i will stand up gracefully
and be there eventually with Him

Thursday, May 22, 2008

losing interest

when someone loses interest in something, it gets bad. it will get bad.
you wake up each morning and you realize you don't look forward to certain things. it will get bad.
when you withdraw from something you really, really like, it will eventually turn out for the best. but initially, it will get bad.
when you see a pattern forming, it sometimes seems to be leading to something dim. it will get bad.
you try to swallow it in any way possible, but you just can't... makes you puke... it will get bad.
you start to sigh - the way you sighed before when things were like hell. it will get bad.
when you find yourself standing still amidst everybody else's pompous jumps, you realize life gets dull. it will get bad.
it makes you beam like elmo before but now, the very sight of it makes you glare. if looks could kill, it will get bad.
when you start concocting these crappy negative thoughts in your brain, you will end up being a crazy witch. oh, it will get bad!

Monday, May 12, 2008

i will not forget

it was mother's day yesterday. the very best i could do was send my mom an sms and call her in the afternoon. it was just a regular chika, like any ordinary weekend where i'd call her and gossip like a teenager.

when i was a little girl, i used to make hand-made niceties for her on mother's day. mostly hand-made cheesy cards. it always made her cry. no matter how cheesy or corny the contents were, the cards never failed to make her cry.

todo effort, i would prepare to make the card in advance and on mother's day, i would shyly give it to her, or probably leave it on a spot where she would easily find it. decors galore! colors, glitters, cut-out papers, hala, sige mistulang art class ito.

i also used to jog with my lolo during mornings. he would urge me to pick flowers so i could give them to mom as a present when i get home. there was also a time when i crafted one of her photos so it would appear 3d. it still stands on our piano, collecting dust, but the lady in the photo is just as pretty. i wish i had her pwetty looks ;) especially the overly tangos nose. yup ako lang ang pango sa amin! haha! fine.

and then i thought today. sms and phone call? is that the best i can do?

i sent her an email. i told her that now that i'm all grown up, i will not forget that she is my mother, I will not forget that i love her, i will not forget all the sacrifices she did for us, i will not forget to thank her each day of my life, I will not forget that I should be a better person each day because that's what she wants me to be - and it's the right way to be!

yup, i'm still cheesy. yup, i know she will still cry when she reads the email. we are licensed to be cheesy when it comes to our moms. if it's for mami, it's not cheesy at all. ;p

Sunday, May 11, 2008

paru-paros

i seldom buy hair clips - even if i tie my hair in a half pony tail everyday. i have 2 yellow clamps now and they're starting to break :( time to say goodbye to the yellow clamps :(

saw these cute shokshoks at the grocery earlier today. hehe, mailagay sa punda kong bulaklakin. para lang akong nasa hardin. it's cute!

Saturday, May 10, 2008

sa kaitaasan

view from carslberg tower, sentosa. last week was my first time to get
to the tower. cc and maria and i had a great 360-degree view of the
sentosa vicinity from the top of the tower.

I love the wonderful clouds. i love the way the sky seemingly meets
the water. i love the way the white sand peeks from the sea. i love
the richness of the color of the trees.. lush lush! great view :)

anong itsura kapag bangag?

pagkatapos manood ng mini concert, uminom ng kaunti, mahilo sa taxi,
at magsuka dahil nakainom, anong itsura ng isang tao?

i love...

Wednesday, May 07, 2008

it's your time to shine

if there's one thing i learned today, it's the fact that i have the right to shine on my own sweet time. i can be mad if i wanted to, shout if i opted to, glare if i wished to do so. because the spotlight is on me at this very moment and i am the star! this is my show and that's how i want the script to run. i could probably act like a self-centered, spoiled little girl who's waiting to be babied and pampered and loved and all. nothing new? i'll tell you what's new. it's the reality that you have these rights too and you deserve to be angry too sometimes. and you could be the star too. i will just be the extra when your shining moment comes. oh, i was the extra a few minutes ago. you were a wonderful star! a very cute star! i loved doing the pampering hihi! another thing i learned? there's no return key on this thing. hehe so they are all contained on a single paragraph. eek ugly!

Sunday, May 04, 2008

frogging


they sell these poor creatures in shengshiong. yep, they're big, big frogs - leaping and croaking and all. if in pinas, you have to cave into the muddy rice fields to get hold of them, here, you could conveniently sort of "frog" for it from this plastic container and bring it home and cook it.

(ehem, do you frog for frogs the same way you fish for fishes?
would a conversation sound this way:
char1: wacha doin'?
char2: i'm froggin'. you? wacha doin'?
char1: i'm fishin'.
char2: fine.
char1: fine.
waw ganyan talaga mag-usap? ang aarte.)

i don't think i could eat it. one arte expression for it would be: eew.

even if it tastes like chicken, i don't think i can try it.

ok, maybe i will. one of these days. if there's a challenge... and the prize is good. if the prize is this something i have in mind, i'll do it.

excuse the arte-ness. eew.

eew.

Thursday, May 01, 2008

pampa

katulad ng ina ko, mahilig akong magpapahid ng kung anu-ano sa katawan ko. hahaha! maka-arte lang ba.

heto't, masdan ang mga bago kong kakikayan.

pampatanggal daw ng peklat ng pimples
libre lang ito sa nabili kong clinique 1-2-3. nagsale kasi, so nagpabili ulit ako kay ahngel. ang cute ng freebies. sinliit ng langgam. hihi. meron akong 2 annoying na peklat ng pimple sa muka, tingnan natin kung eepek itong free na ito hehe.

pampatanggal daw ng wrinkles malapit sa mata
gas, parang ang tanda ko na ah. hehe, talaga namang intensive! susme, sabi parang natatanggal nya ang wrinkles. pero sabi ng titser ko, wala naman daw talagang way na matanggal ang wrinkles. hahaha. ay, libre lang din ito. 'di ko pa nasusubukan. saka na pag matanda na ako. bwahaha, bukas na yun siguro.

pampabango daw ng katawan
ayan, gaya-gaya lang ako, minsan kasi, naamoy ko si jan mabango ang pabango nya. pakopya lang ng amoy hehe. mabango sya pramis! tamang-tama nag-aya si kuya bumili ng pabango sa mustaps kahapon. i like!

pampabawas daw ng dryness ng hairs (waw plural talaga!)
2 linggo na siguro ako twice nagsha-shampoo ng buhok. isa sa umaga, isa sa gabi. di ko alam kung bakit. sa saliksik ko, masama pala ito dahil ang shampoo ay parang detergent na panglaba or panghugas ng plato. maaaring tinatanggal nya ang dumi ng buhok, ngunit it also strips off the natural oil of the hair. waw. since di ko maiwasang maligo sa gabi, sabi ng internet, pwede raw ihalo ang 1 tbsp ng baking soda sa 1 cup warm water as replacement sa shampoo. mild ito compared sa shampoo. sa gabi, baking soda, sa umaga shampoo. subukan natin. :) ito ang favorite kong item sa mga nipost ko today :)

awww i miss my mami, my kikay buddy.

on disappointment

why do people get disappointed?

maybe they expect too much and when they don't get what they are hoping for, it gets sour.

maybe they do not expect too much, but they hope that, at the very least, something they deserve will happen. and others may be just too insensitive to give what people rightfully deserve.

maybe they just choose to shut up when they get hurt because they don't want others to act in a certain way - just because they were told to do so. maybe they believe that people who are people do things the right way based on their judgment, and not because they are scolded.

maybe because they are promised of something good and the promise just rots and resurrects, then rots and resurrects again, and rots some more and resurrects again and again... and sometimes it just gets too tiring. promises aren't supposed to behave this way. it's a shame.

maybe because there is just a thing called difference among people, and some differences could never be settled. never. and the thing called acceptance will never be applicable. difference will not cease to exist. it just won't. i feel sorry that it's true.

some things are meant to be simple. i like simple things. but some things remain too complicated for the rest of your life. hehehe. i am disappointed.

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

reconstructs damaged hair in 1 minute

look what i found lying on the fertile land of watson's...


i hope this will remedy my dry hair. it says "reconstructs damaged hair in 1 minute". wow ambisyosa. hehe.

it's a good buy. it's on sale at $6. usual price is $10++. i will try it tomorrow morning and if it's worthy of my shrieks of joy, i'll hoard. if i can't hoard, i'll panic buy. duh.

i am a stage sis

congratulations to my baby brother, Engineer Erwin Dexter Aldaba Camacho!

we are so proud of you and we love you!

the sleepless nights of studying are over... 30 minutes, is that considered sleepless? ;)

the long walks in recto searching for a book-binding shop are just specks of good memories now... and i'll gladly walk the long mile with you again if i had to.

the callouses you got from writing your unreasonably long reports are mere evidences of your hard work... and they're just callouses!

i called him at 9:00 am today, i asked for the results, "kumusta?" he said, "hulaan mo". that was the sweetest phrase i heard today. :)

sa tuwa ni ate, nagpakain ako ng simple breakfast sa office. susmiyo stage sister lang ito.

life is good! blessings are in abundance! indeed, i could not ask for more. :)

here, marvel at the name of my baby brother... the baby is now an engineer bwahahaha!


Monday, April 21, 2008

please be careful of my heart (halu-halo)

dahil medyo bad trip ako kanina, dinaan ko na lang sa chibog ang init ng ulo ko. at dahil 'di ako pwedeng kumain ng masasarap na pagkain, healthy pa rin pero nag pig-out ako. oink oink. bwahaha! no pictures... bad trip ako e.

what's for dinner?

1/2 cup of oatmeal in milk, milo, and honey
1/2 cup lang dahil parang nauumay ako sa 1 cup

1 slice of bread
i realized sa isang buong araw, i consume 4++ slices: 2 for breakfast, 2 for merienda, 1++ for dinner

1/2 can of ayam salmon with mayo
hmm, nung nakita ko sya sa grocery, attractive sya. it's a different story when i tasted it. lasa syang tinapa. ewan, di ko type.

a bunch of grapes
yep, leftover from last week's kilo pa ito. don't worry, firm pa sila, masarap pa rin. maganda ang grapes na ito. and umm, this is the last batch yay! i'll miss ya grapey!

orange juice with milk
eeew ba? masarap sya promise :) 50% orange juice, 50% milk. try mo. hehe!


good luck tummy! :)

pissed

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH! IT WAS TIRING! WHOEVER SAID WOMEN DON'T HAVE SENSE OF DIRECTION?!? SO WRONG!

I'M SO EXPLODING RIGHT NOW!

pasensya na if it seemed that i threw it all on you. it was not my intention.

it's just that i'm so PISSED. BIG TIME.

i'm ok now.

thanks for listening.

i'm ok now.

kakain na lang ako ng oatmeal. at ubas. at tuna. sheesh.

Saturday, April 19, 2008

my lolo taught me how to read

i love to read. although i'm not a mad book collector, i own a few worth-keeping books (according to my standards, that is), and when i read them, i let my soul, not just my eyes, wander through the pages.

i don't like neat books. i don't actually care for my books. or let me put it this way, i am not an oc when it comes to my books. the best i could do is cover them with plastic wrap - at least the ones left back at home - and then proceed to reading them like crazy. i fold the corners of the pages instead of using bookmarks. i don't mind having fold marks at the sides of the book. i believe the more i physically abuse my book, the more it serves its purpose. hehehe. a book is not a book if it is neat and shining and new. wear-and-tear is an evidence that it was read page by page.

reading a borrowed book is another story. of course, i won't abuse borrowed books hahaha!

reading. it brings me back to how and when i learned to read. i was 4 (or almost 4 maybe) years old. i have very vivid memories of my lolo sitting with me, with a paper and a pencil, drawing symbols which later on evolved to letters.

letters, as my lolo said, when put alongside with other letters, form words. you'll just have to put the sounds together too. i think i remember the first word was "cat". and the rest was history.

as a 3rd grader, i loved reading nancy drew and hardy boys books. fiction books were not necessities at our home that time, so the library was a haven for me.

during 4th grade to early high school, i felt i grew up with the sweet valley twins, high, and university girls. francine pascal always started describing how identical the twins looked, and then will follow with the line "but that's where the similarities end". hehe.

and there were the sweet dreams books. hahaha! light kissing scenes were the ultimate kilig moments!

and then from college up to present, i appreciate various authors. i especially like coelho and grisham today, but i don't have my own preference. if a review says this book is good, i read it. if someone recommends it, i read it.

what's a perfect setting? hmmm, probably by the beach! on a hammock! reading a good book. :)

again, it all comes back to thanking my lolo - for teaching me how to read. :) yey!

Thursday, April 17, 2008

please be careful with my heart (oats, tuna, fruits)

what's for dinner?

oatmeal, a can of tuna, and apple and grapes with honey and milk


getting more difficult to swallow for the past nights... but i'm striving hehehe :)

Monday, April 14, 2008

please be careful with my heart (oats and grapes)

what's for dinner?

a cup of oatmeal, as usual...

and a bunch of grapes...
what's left of the grapes? tangkay...

want to hear a grape story? hahaha. lunch time: janise, marco, and i are strolling along the country roads of suntec. waw naman. we saw these grapes at sale for only $3.50 a kilo. kung ano lang ang maisipan, hala sige bili ng tig-iisang kilo.

aanhin ko naman ang isang kilong ubas? ewan ko. dinner ng isang linggo? bwahahaha!

Saturday, April 12, 2008

online

susmaryosep. everything is done online. online banking, online tax filing, online dating, online pets, online orders, online reservation, online booking, online voting. name it, the "online" technology can make it happen.

have you ever heard of online inuman? astig! hahaha! or pathetic? haha!

friday night, all alone, with ice-cold beer in the freezer, a can of pringles...


susmiyo, sige complete with online videoke! ang kainuman ko ay si janise over ym! mygas! nice no? :) may cheers pa kami!

* kuya said sol tastes good. i say it tastes just as bad as any other beer. good thing there's pringles to ward off the unpleasant taste.