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what's with the 30th? i slept at around 4am and woke up at 11am. seems i lost all my defenses over my sleep.

woke up with a heavy head, running nose, tired body, confused inner self, marred soul, fast-paced heart, anxious system... and i can't think of a justifiable reason why i'm in such a demented state. geez, i've never seen or felt that much negative vibrations coming out of a soul. did i have way too much of the vacation mode? or too much idle time? so a one-week vacation isn't healthy? probably...

whatever it is, i'm hoping i could shrug it all away within this day. i don't want to linger in such an eerie place, where there is an overwhelming level of uncertainty that i really can't contain... i wonder why...