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tiring day at work. started "hammering the deals" - as they so fondly say - at 8:30 am, ended at 7:30 pm. there's one task we are so giddily avoiding. i hope i won't do it, but if i had to, what can i do? i'm just an employee.

i feel i'm becoming one of the boys. why not, if i have to be with boys only for the rest of my stay here. i eat like them, i joke like them, i walk like them. sheesh, i miss my guuurls.

why could somebody be asking that question? could it mean, hmmm? paranoid.

if only i could take away somebody's pain and anxieties and worries, i will do it even if i have a bag-full of that right now. i wouldn't mind carrying some more - if only i could ease your burden.

i hope it is not just about "that". at the moment, that's how i see it.

this post is going nowhere. i just want to have a good, long sleep. will be tired tomorrow again.