seventeen days...

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and we're back to the good old pinas. :)
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the itinerary so far:
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20th - land on the oh so fertile soil of manila; probably kiss the ground (sheeesh).
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21st to 23rd - off to bohol for a christmas beach break
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24th to 25th - off to tarlac to tito danny's place... christmas and the family is together :) how nice
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26th to 27th - off to mindoro to visit lola, and what appears to be a pamamanhikan :)
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28th - 30th - meet friends :) and shop (?)
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31st - new year's eve! most probably will be spent at home in pque!
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1st day of 2008 - go back with a semi-heavy heart to my temporary home, SG. :( and leave everything behind... once again.
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why fret, though, i'm supposed to have a happy countdown here! woohoo! merry christmas!
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* this is a christmas themed post, if it isn't quite obvious :)

f.r.i.e.n.d.s. and a tree

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hmm

what's up?

i'm done with the o.c.

i don't have a copy of grey's

season 2 of heroes is coming to its omega

desperate housewives is on hold because of the strike

time to relive f.r.i.e.n.d.s. :) i have seasons 1-4 (thanks, jan!)

and an overly desperate attempt to make this appear like a christmas tree.

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more like a payong?

"pisikal pitness test..."

ang madalas na sabi ng high school p.e. teacher ko. and i am so reminded of it right now - the aches and the pains i (and my classmates) felt right after the darned physical fitness test.

kuya and i had a good 50-minute jog/walk yesterday morning. i was afraid that i will eventually palpitate or faint because i haven't exercised for a very loooong time. i loved the feeling after the jog! the good sunlight, the good semi-chilly air, the good sweat, the good fatigue, the good breathing. everything felt right! everything felt right until last night. it was then that i felt the first pangs of the ouchiness (ano raw?) of muscle pain - butt muscles, upper leg muscles, lower leg muscles... they're all probably torn by now.

i walk like a granny hihihi... so what? i loved the jog and i will do it again when i get well. yahoo!

*hmmm... it's too windy to swim lately :(

may sapi

di ko maintindihan kung anong sapi meron ako... at nagpakulot ako. nagsimula ang lahat sa isang, "jan, pakulot tayo". ang jan pala, matagal na rin gustong magpakulot. susme...

sa tanang buhay ko, mga 4 na beses na akong nagpa straight/relax/rebond... ah kahit ano pang pangalan nya, pinapaunat ko ang naturally wavy kong buhok (naks kulot pwede ring tawag dito). ni minsan, hindi sumagi sa isip ko na magpakulot. ngayon lang. ewan kung bakit.

marahil dahil sa kawalan ng magawa. maaari ring dahil sawa na akong labanan ang forces of nature - kukulot sya kung kukulot. well! e kung kulutin kaya kita, makulot ka pa?! i don't think so! ang dahilan ni janise, para maiba... sige pa-borrow ng reason mo. gusto ko rin yun, "for a change!". yan.

hindi rin. sinapian lang siguro talaga ako.

ayan, sinuggest nina ate parlorista na digital perm o spa perm ba yun. ah basta, sige kulutin nyo lang.

heto, parang may mother ship na nakakabit sa ulo ko, with a million wires and all. and hinuhuthot nila whatever earthly information ang makita nila sa brain cells ko. susme... para lang akong may sakit. waaah...




matagal ang kulutan (kasi may kasama pa ring pagtuwid ng mga bagong tubo... at yung bangs ko ba). me binenta pang pamahid sa kulot sina ate.. para raw ma maintain ang kulot. susme. so much for "for a change!".

o sya sya, heto na ang kulot naming buhok. janise, i-didisplay kita sa site ko ha. hehe.

feel-good thoughts on a friday morning

:) 7.5 hours of sleep - makes me feel light and good and comfy and all :)

:) my 30-minute swim last night - gave me a boost! good exercise ito! :)

:) cough is almost gone, although i have a slight headache... mukang sisipunin... all good pa rin (as long as i have tiger balm)! :)

:) it's a friday! just got back from holiday thursday, and when this day is over, it's officially weekend! :)

:) sausage mcmuffin meal - heavy, yummy breakfast! plus coffee... can't remember the last time i had a good hot cup. :)

:) the thought of the seconds and days and weeks inching their way towards christmas - and christmas means being home :)

:) oh, and i'm back to testing!!! :)

R&R

today is deepavali festival and we are on holiday! yay!

according to my hurried research:

Deepavali also known as Diwali, literally means "row or garland of lights". Locally, it has been called "The Festival of Lights". It is symbolic of victory of good over evil, celebrated by most Hindus the world over. It highlights the victory of Lord Krishna, one of the deities of the Hindu pantheon, over the Demon King, Narakasura. It usually falls around late October or early November on the new moon day.

i guess i have a new definition of deepavali. deepavali = R&R... rest and relaxation ba! :-)

kuya and i got home at around 9am this morning from inuman at jan's. lack of sleep didn't stop us to watch the latest episode of heroes. loved it! after the viewing, we slept 'til around 1pm and craved for crabs and shrimps. we headed off to shensiong, got the epektos, and finally finished preparing what-should-have-been lunch at around 3:30pm. geez. it was all worth it after all.

champion ang crab, sinigang na shrimp, at halabos na shrimp. yummmy!

after lunch, we watched just like heaven. it was good! watched it a couple of years ago but i love it just the same. :)

i promised myself i will have a good swim this week. and i did! the pool was all mine! had a couple of laps for 30 minutes. tamang-tamang panghilamos sa sakit ng ulo ko dahil sa inuman kagabi. sarap mag swim! i love it!

i should say i feel fulfilled sa holiday na ito! ;)

(1) di pa huli at (2) impromptu

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cast of characters: marco, anne, janise, mike, jen, ian, vange, reg, alnor, and me :)

yep, di pa huli ang lahat para sa aking cooking event post. sariwa pa ang lahat sa ala-ala ko - masasarap na pagkain! na-inspire kami ng zurich counterparts namin. nakita namin sa shared drive na nagkakaron sila ng cooking event within the QA team. so naisip namin, kung kaya nila, kaya rin namin! why not?!

merong kare-kare, hipon with gata, lumpiang shanghai, inihaw na baboy at manok at bangus, ensaladang mangga at estapegs. hmmmm... ang sarap-sarap. sana madalas itong mangyari.

salamat kay marco at anne for being gracious hosts. naganap ang lahat sa poolside ng aston. matapos ang 10 taon ng pag-iihaw, nakakain din kami... grabe. ang sarap-sarap ng lahat ng pagkain. super gana! success ang lahat ng luto promise!

kasama sa agenda namin ang pagswim namin sa loob ng 30 minutes lang. marami na rin kaming nalangoy at nainom na tubiv, naglaro ng monkey-monkey-anabel, nagkulitan. 30 minutes? tamang-tama lang ito :)

up next, videoke at inuman. susme may pahiya-hiya pang nalalaman ang mga tao! nang lumalim na ang gabi, hala sige! kanya-kanyang birit. nalapastangan ang magic sing... syempre pa hanggang mga 4:30 AM lang naman kaming nagkantahan. at nakitulog pa kami sa bahay nina marco! grabe na ito.

cheers to more cooking events, cheers to good friendship, cheers to a happy and contented life!

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cast of characters: janise, mike, kuya, me, (and later that night=>) jeng, liz, and tanny - jan's housemates.

holiday ngayon. deepa vali (?) festival of lights (daw). sweet... pahinga ito. :) kagabi, nag dinner kami ni kuya sa deli france at nag gym na rin sya. bago ito, nag attempt akong mag shop for office clothes... pero bigo ako dahil wala akong type na damit at isa pa, bihirang bihira ang kasya sa kin. how sad.

di ko maintindihan kung bakit pagod na pagod at antok na antok ako kagabi. so iniwan ko na si kuya sa gym at nag rush na akong umuwi. pagdating ko sa bahay, super sarap ng higa ko! this will be a good night, naisip ko.

di pa man nag-iinit ang likod ko sa kama, heto na si kuya... nagyayang mag-inuman daw kami nina janise and mike. ay-ay-ay. dahil ayaw kong mabansagang kf (at gusto ko rin naman talagang makasama sila!) sumugod ako sa bahay nina janise.

hindi ako manginginom, promise. 4 shots pa lang ata ng tequila e nafeel ko na ang urge na sumuka bwahahaha! mega suka ito! pasensya na! sa kalagitnaan ng pagkabangenge ko (aware ako sa mga pangyayari), nasaksihan ko ang mga debate, ang pag-inom nila ng mas marami sa kaya ko hahaha, ang maraming tawa at kasiyahan.

hindi ako manginginom! bwahahaha!

janise, good luck sa pag-uwi mo. buti ka pa makikita mo ang nanay ko (at nanay mo syempre!)

home mode

saturday 5pm, kuya and i decided to go to ikea to get some home stuff. masaya pumunta sa ikea. i feel kahit na wala kang nabili, ma-coconsider pa ring fun (and amazement) trip ang lakad mo. here are our good buys:

bed sheet, pillow case, quilt cover -

iisa set lang ang gamit naming bed sheet, quilt cover at pillow cases. this means walang reserba bwahaha... matagal ang labahan ng mga pangsapin. either that or kinakailangan naming matulog minsan ng walang sapin dahil basa pa ang mga nilabhang pangsapin. red ang theme ng sheets namin noon. now, we found some nifty sheets in blue theme. can't wait to wash them up and use them. hmmm i think malamig sa mata ang bagong blue sheets namin! woohoo!

anti-slip mat -

madulas sa banyo namin. i think kung may iskoran ang pagkadulas, may tig-isang points (yes plural ito, points) na kami ni kuya. meron na kaming anti-slip mat na 1 pero bitin ito. kaya bumili kami ng 2 pa. kung may madulas pa dito, ewan ko na lang...

bread container -

maraming ipis sa bahay namin. nakakainis. ang mga bread namin, minsan iniipis! eeew! as in may kagat yung plastic! susmiyong mga ipis, patay gutom! naisahan nyo man kami nang minsan, mas malaki naman ang utak namin sa inyo! bumili kami ng container na may takip. good bye ipissss!

rattan chair -

kiddie chair ito. yosi chair sana ni kuya sa terrace. it's a small chair, really comfy but i guess kailangan ng unan kse habang tumatagal ang upo mo, may pagsasakit na mararanasan sa puwitan. ayayay. but i love this chair! dun na ako magbabasa ng book sa terrace yey!

my good old comb

this is my old untangler. i see two bristles have a tiny tinge of rust now, the plastic edge snapped years ago when it fell for the nth time, and yes, the bristles are not aligned anymore, but this is still my dear comb and i wont replace it for a very loooong time. why will i if it still serves its purpose of untangling my tangly hair day after day after day?

i remember wawin gave it to me for an occasion. i'm guessing it's christmas. he was probably in elementary and i was in college. i consider it a sweet gift because it was my favorite color and it is something i could use everyday.

since that day he gave it to me, i have never misplaced it. i know where to find it and it is in my bag. if it's not there, it's somewhere still see-able. i tell you, i have NEVER misplaced it!

the second time i went home to pinas last july 7, i almost lost it. waaaah! i looked for it all over the house but i didn't find it. and then i had to buy a new comb. :( it was a black plastic comb - won't ever replace my dear untangler. btw, i never liked brushes because i electric-fan-dry my hair after taking a bath and i don't want to use a brush when i do this.

i packed my things with a heavy heart on the 8th of july as i was about to head back to SG from thecx's wedding. i know i lost my best comb but there was nothing i could do but move on with the new black plastic comb.

it was only when i got here and opened my suitcase that i saw it there. i swear i saw it smiling back at me. :) i love this comb. wawin gave it to me. :)

on aquariums, jose mari chan, and memories

there is a fish shop near our place. i see it on my way to fair price whenever i buy groceries. i know deep inside that i would never want to maintain an aquarium. first, i'm not really crazy about fishes... although i have to admit that it's very relaxing to just stare at a pretty aquarium - with all the green plants and bubbles and lid-less fishes and their very smooth moves. second, i don't like the fishy smell. :) as simple as that.

i saw jose mari chan on asap earlier today. i think he never looked a year older. same smile, same cool voice, same smiling, chinky eyes. same old him, except his hair has gone thinner. but he's still the same charming man with the charming voice.

what's with aquariums and jose mari chan? these are stuff i so associate with my papa.

when i was young, my papa had this gigantic aquarium complete with the oxygen setup and all. there were gold fishes - those were all i could remember. i'm not certain if there were other kinds of fishes but i'm sure there were gold fishes. he would feed them everyday, and most likely on a weekend, he would change the water. it was a long process, but he did it anyway. i didn't have this "fishy" passion that he had. it seems it was only looks that we shared. :)

my papa was also very fond of listening to jmc's music. there weren't cds back then, only casette tapes that had lyrics on the covers. i remember i would sing along to constant change (i love constant change!), can't we start over again, sing me a song again, daddy, pls be careful with my heart, christmas in our hearts. soothing songs. :) i would listen to whatever i could find at his racks so somehow, i learned to love his music (and music itself :)).

aquariums and jmc... they just stirred up in me good memories of my father. i know he was not the perfect father and he may not be someone i would wish my kids would refer to as, "when i grow up i want to be like my grandfather". nah. but he's my papa, he may have had a lot of mistakes but who didn't, and who doesn't? i would rather dwell on the happy memories with him. :) on the tidbits that made up his papa-ness...

Have we outgrown our Peter Pans and wings?
We've simply grown too old for tales of knights and kings
'Cause life's a constant change
And nothing stays the same, oh no

-constant change (a senti song i must say ;))

dead

friday night. kuya, ashley, and i had tuktuk dinner. i love this thai restaurant. the service is good, the food is good. not just anghang but there's also great lasa. yum.

our energies were sort of low last night. must be because we slept late for the past nights - spent precious sleeping time watching heroes, oc, dh. after dinner, headed straight home to rest. yes, the plan was to rest (well, after doing the laundry).

once home, we spotted ashley's tequila. shining, shimmering, splendid like gold - enticing us to take it in our lips and in our system. we gave in and decided to have an inuman session.

no lemon, we resorted to all the calamansi (some rotting and all) we could find in our ref.

no shot glass, we resorted to this tall slim glass. it was all we could find hehe.

we were all ignorant. i say this because we didn't know how to open the tequila bottle! either that or something is wrong with this bottle. the boys managed to open it by brute force anyway. :)

so there we were, kuya, ashley, sonny, louis, and liz (hindi uminom :p) taking shots of the devil i came to know as tequila.

i have fond memories of tequila: the last time i took a dose i wasn't aware i couldn't handle, i became dead to the world. that was the first time i felt the sensation of being drunk and bangag. they said i was super hinhin and mayumi when i got drunk in coco beach hehe. and i do recall every second of it. :) the bangag part was semi-good, but the puke part was hell.

so now i know better. last night, the moment i felt the traitor is starting to hit me, that was about 4 shots, i stopped drinking. :) simple. amazing how the tama lingers for hours and hours even if you stopped drinking. around 11pm, i decided to take just a short nap because i was super hilo na. ok, wala pang shower, wala pang toothbrush, just a short nap. promise. at na-dead na ako. :) ang sunod kong gising ay 2am para magwiwi. at 8am para mag rise and shine.

yan. yan ang story ng dead moment ko last night :) ako at ang tequila.

nirwana = heaven daw

can't remember the last time i went swimming... access worldwide stormy outing in laguna?

oct. 6 to 8 was a good break for me. break from all the stress in work, break from all the regularities and predictable pattern of my SG life, break from all the drastic moments of my love life, break from everything. :) getaway... like my world suddenly stopped and yet it moved vigorously and cheerfully in this little haven i'll call nirwana.

puerto galera and boracay are, by far, more heavenly than this beach but i guess it was the great company and just the total relaxation (amidst strenuous but super fun activities) that made it extra-ordinary.

detailed account follows... the 3 days deserve a good documentation. :) and the following people deserve good credit for making the journey enjoyable: janise and mike, marco and anne, and of course my kuya and dear friend liza!

saturday

meeting place was tanah merah mrt station at 7:00. eventually everybody met up at the ferry station. breakfast was ham sandwich (complete with lettuce and tomatoes) courtesy of anne and marco. thank you, thank you! travel time (ferry and shuttle going to resort) was around 1.5 hours.

check-in time was 12 noon, the cottages were just right. not too extravagant, not too jologs either. just right. :) lunch was good but a bit expensive. nevertheless, all good!

after lunch, no time to waste, the pack headed off to the pool area and swim swim ang drama! woohoo! enjoy! ang saya saya! bilad kung bilad, kapit ang itim kung kapit ang itim! so what? i love swimming!

afternoon, banana boat fever! too bad jan had "monthly visitor" (ang sabi ni mike) so she just stayed with manong bangkero, ala rich girl on a speed boat! sosyal! while the rest of us wanted the boat to capsize bwahaha! too bad it didn't. i swear, namaos ako after banana boat kakasigaw ng capsize capsize, left left, right right! susme... kagugulo!

dinner time and then inuman galore na. cocktails on jacks (aka jugs) ang tinoma ng tropa. wa epek, walang tama hehe... para ka lang nag juice ba. not just your regular inuman! janise brought hundreds of strips of paper with questions on them and you are required to answer the question no matter what. :) hay ang saya, learned a lot from the group. funny moment talaga ito! susme! walang kj, walang kf. hehe. sundan mo pa ng 1-2-3 pass gamit ang mga barahang hubo ni marco. halay!

sunday

good morning sunshine! rise and shine! time for breakfast buffet. yum sarap ng food! good as brunch na ito hehe tipid.

ay umulan! never fret, charades is it! fine! panalo ang boys. magaling na kayo kung magaling. basta walang iskoran hehe. hmmm... tulog si anne sa mga panahong ito. favorite ko ang: species, gremlin, eternal sunshine of the spotless mind, lost in translation, kapag puno na ang salop, original sin... hehe ang dami

beach mode naman ang mga bata nang lumabas nang muli ang araw. matapos mang-agaw, magnakaw ng bola, laro ng taya-taya sa dagat ang marco, mike, liza, at caths. habang ang anne at ang kuya, nagbilad sa araw. at ang janise, hmmm... nawala. hehe. masaya palang maglaro ng bola sa dagat ;) hehehe. syempre pa how can i forget the monster moments by liza and mike.

next stop, pool ulit... lazy pool? we just babad there at the edge of the pool, kulitan galore. aha! kangaroo humping moments nina lolo and lola! ang hahalay! at kung anu-ano pang mga imoral na pangitain. bwahaha marurumi! judgmental! hahaha!

wag ka, may volleyball moments pa kami! feeling athletes... pero bugbog ang braso ko ay-ay-ay.

this is the day marco and anne had to bid goodbye. :( byebye marco and anne, fun still for the rest of us. foosball and billiards ala tournament ito! hehe ang saya-saya!

next stop was seafood dinner. kamay kung kamay! ang sarap ng crab at shrimp :) at syempre pa, videoke! everybody had the chance to sing. makapagbagbag-damdaming mga awitin. mwehehehe! and yes, even kuya sang a couple of songs... memorable ang it might be you ;)

at oo, kami na ang nagsara ng pub. halos ipagtabuyan na kami (in a polite way) ni manong waiter. hehehe.

monday

after breakfast, kayak naman ang naisipan ng tropa... hehe, i had a kayak experience years ago with wendy and len but i guess it doesn't count because i didn't row. hahaha! prinsesa effect?! bwisit

wow naman after kayak, feeling ko e super punit naman ang maskels ko sa braso at likod! susme... maraming oa moments... na baka tumama kami sa mga bato at mamatay, na baka may shark, na baka ma bermuda triangle kami, na baka maanod kami ng alon! mwehehe... yep we're alive naman. oa lang.

we are human after all. we bleed, we become tired, we have urges to rest after a long day, we need to stay still even for a while - in short, nag siesta kami. hehe

4:30 pm, this is the moment. ang mga turista, go go na ulit sa bangka pabalik sa little land of SG. haaay pagtungtong ko ng SG, muntik pa ata akong makulong for bringing a pack of cigarette. susme, si manong halos halukayin ang bag ko kung meron pa akong tinatago! anobuzzzz! saksakan ng oa si manong!

all good things come to an end, and the end is the bountiful dinner at cafe cartel. i say bountiful dahil naman... baby back ribs ang order (pwera k liza na chicken at pasta na mukang masarap!) ng lahat! kalaki! at wag ka! ang soup ni liza ay soup ng lahat hehe... salamat liza for sharing your soup to the needy hehe.

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ayan, ayan ang summary ng amazing trip namin. oh, did i say i had just 1 swimsuit and i wore it on all three days?! keber! haha! i loved every moment of it.

pics? pics!

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ps: wala kaming cam ni kuya, naki picture picture lang kami bwahahaha! kawawa naman :( salamat sa pics!

happy birthday, donna! happy birthday, kaloy! happy anniversary too!

when i think of donna, i somehow think of kaloy too - one way or another. just proves that they are a package :) hearts beat as one :) john en marsha :) kaya ni mister, kaya ni misis :) hehe. their birthdays are extra special because they share the same date... almost hehehe. 28 and 29? what's the difference? bwahaha! pareho na rin yun! so grand celebration ito. sa mansyon nila.

i went with suzy and dacks and we almost got lost on our way to their gorgeous house. food was great. daming visitors. finally, i met the characters in donna's teleserye :)

suzy, dacks, and i had a good dose of updates aka chismis hehehe. nakakatuwa. suddenly the spi characters came alive. awww. nakakamiss naman ang spi.

after dinner, we had a tour of the mansion and then off to tequila rounds. 2 rounds pa lang, we bid our good byes na rin kasi medyo late na e. oh well, we didn't make it to the last mrt. cab it is. kay mahal! kaya nga, hangga't maaari, wag ka nang mag convert!

cheers to donna and kaloy! spend the rest of your birthdays together! happy anniversary! aha! may nakita kaming libro mukang gamit na gamit! bwahahaha!

ang pangarap nyang lumpia

nag text sakin si wawin kahapon. sabi nya, "wala kong bagsak :)". ayan tuwang-tuwa kami dahil ga-graduate na si wawin! yey! sa tuwa ko, napatawag ako sa kanya.

chika chika, kumustahan, kulitan. hanggang naitanong ko kung anong ulam nila. sabi nya, humiling daw sya kay mami na magluto ng lumpia. peborit namin ang lumpia ni mami kse may pagka-thai ang style nito. imbis na lagyan ng itlog ang hilaw na giniling na baboy, ginigisa na na ang baboy (walang itlog) kasama ng carrots at pinutul-putol na sotanghon, saka ibabalot sa lumpia wrapper at ipi-prito. champion.

so si mami, upon baby's request, mega run sa pure gold para mag grocery ng ingreydyeynts. ok. matapos ang ilang sandali heto na si mami, dala-dala ang mga supot. "yeheeey, lumpia ulam!" yan siguro ang naisigaw ni wawin sa isip nya.

bwahahahaha! tawa ko na lang dahil sa makatuwid, ang lumpiang thai style ay nauwi sa lumpiang ready-to-cook straight from pure gold. just prito-prito and you have your lumpia. bwahaha, kawawang wawin. sabi ni mami, "tinamad ako mag prepare. langya, puro pala patatas yung lumpiang nabili ko!" hahaha.

to further degrade wawin, nagluto ako ng lumpiang thai style ni mami. at ininggit ko sya bwahaha! ang bait ni ate. talaga naman. ang pangarap nyang lumpia, sa mga kamay (at tyan) ko naisakatuparan. *evil grin

jana's visit day 3

day 3 for jana: possibly a brief malaysia experience and singpore zoo. how will i document it if i'm here at home? hahaha. i woke up with crashing thunder and lightning, pouring angry rain. self-check: headache's still there... agonizing headache. argh.

so ate josh, i leave jana in your hands. :) have a good day and enjoy the animals! animal scent and all! haha ;)

jana, hope you had a blast in your stay here in SG. as i said, there may have been flaws that tainted your grand vacation, still you had the grace and composure to be happy. woohoo! luvya girl!

i'm walking on sunshine wohoho!

it's been a very long time since i had a good walk under a nice sun. yesterday, on my way to meet the HS girls:

* it was 10 am
* the sun's good
* walking my way to the bus stop
* i had a mega relaxed pace - as opposed to my daily hurried and heart-pumping steps to work
* good music was playing in my ears (coming from my player, mind you. and not just ringing in my ears haha)
* i was singing along with every song (96.3 ikaw ba yan?)
* though i was squinting at the sun, i love the feel of sunshine on my hair, face, skin!

i needed this moment. i call it my sun-shiny-moment. woohooo! i love it!

jana's visit day 2

so again, according to the magic starbucks tissue, day 2 = sentosa (aka sentowsa). meeting time was 10am, vivo city. but since we are filipinos, we met at around 1130. :) mind you, this is due to unavoidable circumstances: ate josh's MC and my need return the dvds i rented. hehehe.

after lunch, we headed to straight to sentosa - with prickly heat and all. highlights were:

luge and sky lift(?) - still the best attraction for me! if only my helmet didn't fall off. good thing it was still strapped... on my neck! bwahahaha hindi naman ako masyadong na-srangle to death. great ride! next was sky lift - it stopped for a few minutes while we were way way up there. scary but good. what's funny? we saw this kuya pinoy coming from the opposite lane. we asked him to take our pic! he did so and asked how he will give it to us. ang sagot ni jana ay: "anong friendster mo?" bwahaha... pinoy nga naman.

underwater world and dolphin lagoon - *flashback* newport aquarium with thecx and michie awww... miss these girls. *flashback*..... this is my 2nd time to see the sentosa underwater world. jana had lots of pics to keep :) good for her! after the aquarium, we stopped for snacks and uh, naps :) yes. thanks to delifrance's good terrace we were able to steal some naps. and then time for the dolphin show. i wish i had a dolphin. they're creatures so sweet! hehehe. i heard from a colleague that one of the old dolphins in this show died some time ago. i bet it was one we saw last year. :( poor creature. may he rest in peace.

next stop supposedly was the songs of the sea show. i felt the heat was too much for me... by this time i have a terrible headache and a general feeling of being unwell. i said my goodbyes and best wishes to enjoy their night still and headed home - with a subway sandwich for me and kuya.

i feel good for jana. despite some flaws that happened that morning, everything will be ok jana! :) nice talk during our delifrance snack/nap time. :)

jana's visit day 1

so jana's here :) according to the itinerary so carefully documented on that darned starbucks napkin, friday = jurong bird park, marina bay, clark quay, bar. i wasn't able to avail my planned sick leave 'cause work didn't permit me to. oh well. ate josh - justified SL and all - made a great job touring the tourists in our absence(s).

i met them (ate josh, her mom, her kuya, and jana) at the merlion site at around 6pm. yes, i had to do the seemingly 100km walk/dash from suntec to city link, to esplanade, to merlion. loooong walk.

next stop was dinner at clark quay. ate josh and i were experts in commuting around singapore - so we opted to take a cab bwahaha! no luck in hailing a cab though so we took a bus instead and went to vivo city for dinner.

after dinner, ate josh wasn't feeling very well. as i said, justified SL. so it was just me and jana and clark quay. there was an i-don't-know-the-name festival, really festive with all the lights! we thought of going to MOS too. we searched for it with all our hearts and souls. block c! darn it, took us 10 years to locate MOS. and when we got there, we didn't know how to get in. bwahahaha! so back-out ito.

i dunno how we ended up drinking a mug of beer and eating chicken wings on this boat resto. surreal! it now beats the weirdness of the aloe vera incident. and we were like staring blankly at the waters - over the whole MOS thingy! hahaha! sheeesh...

overall, the theme was: "we didn't get our butts inside MOS!" hahaha very funny! and so the day is over, tomorrow is a new day and adventure :)

offline on a sunday

this seems weird - everybody on my ym buddy list is offline!

i'm chatting with camille, though (invi mode). still, it's weird all 148 chums offline!

aha! i see april online :) and now josh! :) they're waking up :)

bumnesss (not so)

another saturday. while the housemates opted to go to malaysia to have lunch at pizza hut (yup, you read it right), kuya and i chose to bum around at home. we have lots of dvds here :) what better way to spend the weekend - be in pjs all day, watch dvds while lying/half sleeping in bed.

kuya cooked the famous yummy spag recipe while i cleaned the house - swept the floor, mopped the floor, cleaned the stove and sink. dahil and dumi-dumi. argh.

after the chores and eating the hearty lunch, viewing time na. a little bit of oc, 200 pounds beauty, and rumor has it. 200 pounds beauty - very funny but maybe way too dramatic? rumor has it - weird, i was not too happy about it. good thing i was ironing clothes while watching it. ;)

now, we're watching E! on tv, while blogging, while the bed sheets are cooking in the washer, while my feet are prepped up on the sofa - still on pjs! don't worry i plan to take a bath before sleeping. :) hay this is life!

in a few minutes, we're off to stuff our tummies with dinner. ang saya saya!!!

si tita, tito, at ang pool house ko

i've been watching OC for the past 2 weeks. yes, after the desperate housewives marathon, i'm on the 2nd season of oc - loving every episode. hay. i'm hooked. so hooked i call seth's parents tita and tito. yes, i call kirsten tita and i call sandy tito. as in, "bilisan mo kuya, hinihintay na tayo nina tita". and kuya would ask me, "at san ka nakatira? sa pool house?" mwehehe... makitira ba?! makirelate ba?!

i only have one worry in life now - where the heck will i get season 3? i'm running out of season 2 episodes! they don't have season 3 yet on the video rental. they're selling it though for $69. no, thank you. i'll just wait.

i think ryan is gay. hehe i have nothing against it, pero naglalalaki-lalakihan sya e! nakakairita! bwahaha! i like seth and summer. :) and julie cooper is the perfect bitch. haha! of course i love tito and tita - salamat sa pag-ampon sa akin at pagpapatira sa pool house. i love it! hahaha!

usapang bata

napag-usapan namin nung mga nakaraang araw ang aming kabataan. bigla kong naalala ang mga kalaruan ko noon. haaay nakakamiss. sarap bumalik sa pagiging bata :) hindi kami nilunod noon sa laruan. at maraming laruan na inisip kong sana meron ako pero wala hehehe. pero masasabi kong masaya na ako sa mga childhood toys ko:

pinky - isa syang teddy bear na pink. malaki. halos sing laki ko nung mga 4 yrs old ako. lagi ko syang yakap-yakap sa pagtulog ko (with matching pink na night gown). dumating ang panahon na medyo dumumi na sya at nadadagdagan ang edad ko. hindi ko na sya yakap-yakap at ang pwesto na nya ay sa tuktok ng cabinet namin - kasama ng ibang lumang laruan at alikabok :( hanggang isang araw, kailangan na syang itapon dahil na rin siguro sa kalumaan. i miss pinky.

barbie at nadia - si barbie - sinong di nakakakilala sa kanya, taas ang kamay. hehe. si nadia - ay ang barbie kong egay. konti lang ang damit nila, as in tig-isa lang sila. pinangarap kong magkaron din sila ng magagarang damit at accessories pero hindi yun ang priorities ng magulang ko nung panahong yon kaya tiis-tiis lang din sina barbie at nadia sa maigsing kumot. di ko maalala kung ginupitan ko sila ng buhok. hindi ko rin alam kung san na sila napapunta ngayon.

jakiston - marami akong jackstone set. merong nabibiling mura sa tindahan, yung malaking mabigat na bola na pangit ang talbog, lagi kang dead. pero meron din namang mga medyo mamahalin, magaan yung bola at maganda ang talbog. may case pa. ilan sa mga exhibitiong naaalala ko: around-the-world, check, dot, point, cave.

pick-up-sticks at chinese jackstone - hindi ko forte ang mga ito. ni hindi ata ako nagkaron nito e. pero nakasubok ako kahit papano. hindi ko sya trip noon. solid jackstone fan siguro ako.

10-20 at chinese garter - masaya ang larong ito. pwedeng garter, pero may kamahalan ata ang garter noon kaya kadalasan, goma lang na pinagdugtong-dugtong ang gamit namin sa bahay. sa school, garter hehehe. uh, hanggang ngayon memorize ko pa ang steps ng 10-20.

gumamela - gumamela bubbles! masayang-masaya ako pag nakakapag palobo ako ng gumamela. naaalala ko, lolo ko ang nagturong gumawa nito. mula non, lagi na akong nagpapalobo. ang saya saya noon! tamang-tama may puno kami ng gumamela sa harap ng bahay kaya di ko kailangang mamitas sa kapit-bahay. kaya nung nagpunta kami sa malaysia kamakailan, tuwang-tuwa ako nung nakakita ako ng sandamakmak na puno ng gumamela: pink, red, orange! wow!

lutu-lutuan - hindi yung mga mamahaling plastic. lata ito. as in may mga tatak pa ng minola sa ilalim. binili ata ng lola ko sa palengke. enjoy! marami-rami rin akong "nalutong" putahe dito.

kisses and stationeries - wala akong batang kakilala na hindi naniniwalang nanganganak ang kisses. nilalagay pa sa bulak pero di ako nakapagpaanak kahit isa. hehe. stationeries - meron akong mangilan-ngilan. ang uso pa noon ay makukulay na folders, dun mo iipunin yung mababangong statio. di ko maalala kung san ako bumibili pero i think uso rin ang palitan ng statio kaya nagiging iba-iba ang collection mo.

buti pa ang bata, laruan lang ang problema hahaha.

ang hooters at ang gang

yes gang talaga ito. last friday was the 30th of august. uh, very informative. camachca, cutchoja, libunama, mabalosu, and martirje (ubs characters ito) had plans of going to a videoke on this date. martirje couldn't make it. eventually, mabalosu and jo didn't make it too because of an emergency.

so the rest ended up going to clark quay for dinner. janise said papasa kami sa amazing race: janise with the best friend, mike. marco with the gf, anne. and caths with the brother, kuya. hehe... ayz.

hooters it is - with the skimpy shorts and oozing (not so) boobs. ibang-iba ang nakita ko sa mga pelikula hahaha. baby back ribs: perfect! all 6 of us were satisfied with our meals, and then a few rounds of beer and tequila followed. tipsy tipsy, but not too bad :) pampahimbing ng tulog later.

we met 3 filipina waitresses there. and dami na talagang pinoy dito hehehe. :) there was lovely, the ojt, who kept on fixing her hair as she attended to us. there was jasmine-trias-look-alike, who was fine and kind. and there was ate-slang who was, uh, slang :)) hahaha. yun lang.

it was a great night, gang! ulitin natin ito. masaya ang hot seat session na ito bwahahaha!

btw, walang pics kse the high tech cam was with jo so nobody brought one. i therefore conclude: no jo = no pics. hehe.

btw2, remarkable ang group sa tabi ng table namin dahil malulungkot sila hehehe. hello friday night ito! hindi ito lamay! masaya pa ata ang mga lamay na napuntahan ko kesa sa kanila. hahaha show some bright spirit! loosen up! bwahahaha nangealam...

wala

yan ang nangyari ngayong araw na ito. ang saya, diba? :)

tongtongtongtong

tongtongtongtong pakitong-kitong
alimango sa dagat
malaki at masarap
mahirap mahuli
sapagkat nangangagat

repeat (tempo faster) 100x

-ulam namin for dinner. yummmmmm.

masakit sa dibdib...

ang sobrang pagtawa. watched a movie with ate josh, jess, and mel - high school friends. patok talaga pag nagkita-kita ang dominic. :) imagine a HS senior class with a very diverse group of girls. there are different circles of friends within the 51-member class, but like open-the-basket game, each member could jump into other baskets and could still be so in sync with the rest of the bunch. ang friend ko ay friend mo ba... ganun.

so the dominic people SG chapter are increasing in number. we are 5 now. glo-ann, more popularly known now as joanne, wasn't able to join us because we had no way of contacting her except via friendster. and by the time she read the message, we were already laughing our hearts out.

the last time i saw ate josh was around a month ago in food rep. just met her for merienda because she happened to be around my work area that time - at kumain kami ng aloe vera. period. the last time i saw mel was during access days. saw her crossing one of the streets in ayala. hehe. and the last time i saw jess was way back HS pa! wow.

so it was hairspray. nice... funny musical. kakaiba si john travolta. parang naka-drugs hehehe. ate josh saw the film recently but didn't mind watching it again because she thought it was a cool film. at umiibig sya kay di-ko-matandaan-ang pangalan. basta yung bida ba sa high school REUNION.

nawala ang kredibilidad namin ni mel dahil ang sabi ni mel, "para syang si john travolta na nilagyan lang ng pading". ang sabi ko naman, "ay! si michelle pfeifer ba yun?!? i thought she was just some old woman". bwahaha! the!!! sya talga si john travolta... at sya talaga si michelle pfeifer! the!

this was followed by dinner at secret recipes where we met the pinay waitress, rechele. she said she's haunted by feelings of loneliness here in SG but seeing her co-pinoys makes her day. she badly wanted to sit with us and laugh with us and just be crazy... yes, it was very evident that we were a crazy pack of "older" girls. sheesh. she is 19. we're 27. so? :) she doesn't look 19! bitter ito? :) salbahe! mabait si rechele. period.

last stop was starbucks to plan for jana's trip here on sept. we listed all the spots we want her to see, made a schedule, and documented everything on a starbucks tissue. yep. tissue it is. crazy girls! pati ata attire ni jana e naplano na namin. hehe. somewhere in between the laughs, hindi ko maipaliwanag kung papanong naging hayop si jana. ang chismis nga naman... bwahaha!

heto ang permutation ng pics namin:

busog

mukang extension ng birthday ko. kuya cooked spag tonight. i cooked fried chicken. made some garlic bread. top it all off with left-over cake from my birthday. at malamig na malamig na baso ng coke. ayan birthday ko na ulit hehehe.

i had a very poor appetite for the past few days but tonight was the ultimate lamon night. lamon kung lamon... haha... aray aray naempacho na ako. a good walk would be nice so i went to the pool area, muni-muni, lakad-lakad, isip-isip, hum-hum, at kung ano-ano pang double-double. sheesssh...

the water seemed so inviting, i wanted to dive and swim - if only this could strip off whatever needs to be stripped from my body and soul. wow sosyal. body and soul ito.

matapos ang muni-muni ko, nakita ko si manong sonic lobby guard sa lobby (kse kung wala sya sa lobby hindi na sya lobby guard diba?). nakipagchikahan ako. ok sya kakwentuhan. kaso tinanong ang sweldo ko. a manong, ok ka lang? haha. nalaman ko, inutangan pala nya ang housemate ko. aha! may balak pang mangutang si manong.

i asked him if he doesn't see ghosts during the night shift. he said he just prays when he feels scared, and that he doesn't believe in mumu. he said that mumus are just people. yes, i agreed. i met one and lived with one for 2 years! uy, ni-re-relate!

in the end, bumaba rin ang kinain ko... ngayon lang ako ulit nabusog nang ganito. yum!

surprise, surprise!

august 17, my birthday. :) i felt like a monster that early friday morning. i know i have to face the truth some day, why not now? hit me on my birthday so i'll feel angry and not tend to look back.

for the past few weeks, i have been pretty hopeful that things will somehow work out. it didn't seem that way. so i asked for honesty. i wasn't expecting those facts but there they were. it hit me solidly. if you ask for the truth, don't expect that you won't get hurt. so what could i do? discreetly cry amidst work.

i asked myself why i had to put myself in such an unhappy state on my birthday. i could have asked for it some other time, but i guess i'm in the mood for it. hahaha... to get over things soon.

on the other side of the universe, i was perfectly clueless that my kuya was brewing up a secret party for me. he asked me to invite JUST my office mates for a quiet dinner at the house. menu was liempo - his specialty.

so i asked the good-natured 4 office buddies. janise and marco (with anne) confirmed. mommy jen and sunshine declined for funny reasons hehehe. so i was expecting a totally quiet dinner for 5.

time to go. my 3 guests and i went home together for our supposedly liempo meal.

from the street, i could see that there were a few shadows inside our house. weird, i thought. kuya should be alone today cooking his liempo. aha, must be just the other housemates.

at the lobby of our home, marco, jan, and anne were busy logging in when i spotted james and mitch alighting a taxi. aha! my scheming brother... i sensed it won't be a dinner for just 5 after all. "anong ginagawa nyo dito?!?!", i asked james. "uh, housewarming", sagot ni james. duh!!! you're so buko! hahaha.

so we went together to our unit. i opened the door and voila... some 20+ friends shouted and greeted me! grabe i was so shocked and overwhelmed to see my very good friends:

mommy jen and ian - who said they can't go to my simple dinner

sunshine and jo - same i-can't-go drama hehehe

len, mommy jen's housemate

liza - nakakapagtakang di nya ko tinext... hahaha kaya pala

james - ang nakita ko sa lobby kaya ako kinutuban

mitch - and kasama ni james nang nahuli ko sila

michelle - a college friend whom i haven't seen for ages

cindy - my spi batchmate

weng - spi and ubs ofcmate (and mind align chatmate as well)

donna - who doesn't know her? hehe

guen - spi and ubs ofcmate

suzy - spi ofcmate and bundok buddy

louis and liz - my housemate and his gf

edwin - a mainstay in our house

sonny - my housemate

noel - kuya's friend... and naarkilang cook hehe

janise - ubs bud ang kasama kong pauwi

marco and anne - ubs bud and his gf, kasama ko rin pauwi

allan and carol - kuya's good friend

mike - kuya's good friend, not the monster one

nick - ubs colleague and kuya's friend as well

it always prepped me up when people greet me on my birthday. sa kahit papanong paraan, i just love it when people give me well wishes. it's specially true today, maybe i feel i badly need the warm wishes on my break-up season. uh. kontento na ako sa simpleng happy birthday, caths! pero what just happened that friday night? i cried talaga when i saw everyone's faces. grabe!

there was liempo, shrimp, chicken, spag for everybody. good food, good company... grabe ang galing ni kuya super saludo ako. wala akong masabi. mahal ako ng kuya ko! and i'm proud of it.

thanks to everybody who came. you really made my birthday special. and thanks to my kuya... for everything... you all made me realize that there is always a reason for life to be sweet despite pain and bitterness.

i'm inching towards the sweetest part of the sweet. :)

genting adventure (delayed post ito... way too delayed)

so here it is... last, last thursday night, i rushed and packed my things for a two-day, one-night trip to genting theme park in malaysia (aug 11-12). my worries initially were: a) hindi ko na alam ang kapasidad ng katawan ko pagdating sa mga daring rides (janise shared the same sentiments). b) baka atakihin ako sa puso mwehehehe. yun lang naman. other than that, i'm sooo game for this trip!

janise and mike and i met at lavender station - the pick-up point for the coach. the coach was great. with tv monitors and high tech chairs that massage you, and hold your feet for you, and all that fancy fancy stuff... sabi nga nina janise, para ka lang nagpaparlor bwahahaha!

there were a few taranteyshus moments at the immigration but everything went well in crossing the singapore-malaysia border. long ride it was. comparable to a bagiuo trip at more than 6 hours + zigzag roads + cold climate when you get to the top of the mountains. oh we saw the petronas towers from afar! as in afaaaaaar hehe. it's also remarkable that malaysia is so much alike the philippines - almost felt like home.

so we got to genting highlands. yey! it was cold! good thing we heeded marco's advice and we took sweatshirts. otherwise, nginig ito. we checked in to our hotel room - which looked a lot like a crime scene! beds were undone and pushed far towards the wall, a few bills and coins (which seemed too much for a tip) were scattered on the table, and the room was just in a general state of disarray... put simply.

we called the operator and we asked for a new decent room. the new one was much better yey! a hearty lunch followed and then we headed off to the outdoor park. kelamig! rides time: i was almost ready to say byebye to my good lunch feeling ko susuka talaga ako, but hindi naman... bwahaha! had a couple of rides but i guess the most "unique" one was space shot: you sit on a chair, they lift you heck knows how high and give you a vertical drop. the feeling was kakaiba! can't explain! siguro that's how it would feel to die bwahahaha!

i also have to say this is the first time i saw that much fog... mapapakanta ka talaga ng "ale, nasa langit na ba ako? mama, kayo po ba si san perdo" hehehe. add a thousand Arab ladies in black overalls - mata lang ang kita - and you have an almost eerie place. i dunno why, but they scare me. sorry. i feel they're black ladies. :(

the best ride, i guess, is flying coaster. it's just like flying... ya know, like super man! todo! si superman ba nagfli-flip when he flies? naaah! flying coaster even flips you when you fly! how cool could that be? hehehe! short but super enjoyable ride. this is by far our favorite!

ripley's was also good... because it also served as a haunted adventure. todo tili at takutan ito. susme. ano ba kami? kids? gazz. it was good :) kid in me unleashed again.

ok, by 10pm, halos pilay na ang paa ko sa pagod. at uh, mabaho ang kanang paa ko kse yung boots sa snow world, basa at mabaho! susme dikit sa medyas ito! ang baho! pwe! oh well, so what?! dinner at kenny rogers and then a good bath and then a good rest. janise, nagitgit ata kita sa kama? soweee! hihihi!

the next day, we missed the flying venture because there wasn't too much time. this is the one where they give you a hard air blow so you fly... just like sky diving? too bad. good luck next time! we tried the longest cable car. and loooong it is! long and lush. this was where we formulated other travel plans. thailand, malaysia, japan? i'm game as long as the body, and of course the wallet, is not weak! hehe!

we also scouted the shops for a few pasalubongs and impromptu birthday gift. ehem, thanks, jan for the boxers and uh, undies. hehehe. i luv it! thanks thanks!

after lunch, it was time to go. mistulang mga pulubi ang drama namin sa stop-overs. susme tama bang simutin ang mga ringgit? ayan wala na kaming pambili ng dinner at souvenirs. susme! wow tunog forenjer talaga! ashush!

so another looong drive and off at lavender station once again... and finally - home! yey!

dear janise and mike,
thanks for tagging me along this very wonderful trip. :) thanks for the great company! woohoo! looking forward to more trips with you!

love,
caths =)

pics:
genting pics

freaky 0810

my first post 3 yrs ago was dated aug. 10. there, i sort of admitted that i was single.

after 3 yrs, aug. 10, i documented again that i am single. nice? hehe. kay galing naman... ha-ha-ha.

so ang aug. 10 pala for me ay araw ng pagtanggap na single ako?! haller! hahaha! dapat i-proklamang holiday ito.

genting post coming up... tonight sana :) hehe

ay-ay-ay

it happened again on my birth month. kay saya. :-) parang ayaw ko na ng august. maraming masalimuot na nangyayari. well... life goes on. single kung single ang drama...

single? but hey, there's genting tomorrow. something to look forward to. and there's my birthday the next weekend. and then what? maraming maraming araw ng pag move on. :-) ooh wow i could smile. :-) sa blog, of course...

tomorrow, genting muna. ok? ok! magsaya, maglibang, masaya pa rin ang buhay, get over it, and move on. :-)

isang gabing madilim

it's a holiday. it was... it's 1am and i'm finding my way to my sleep. not that i need it. i've had too much this afternoon and as a consequence, i can't sleep now. so here i am, eyes wide open, sitting on my bed, lights out, and writing my whatevers.

kuya and i went to vivo city this evening. he bought his gym bag and i was supposed to buy me a sweatshirt... couldn't find one. too bad. i was looking for a white one with little touches of pink. naaah... walang ganun.

we had subway sandwiches for dinner. i insisted he had one despite his diet. darned diet. hehe. roast beef is just superb - not with everything on it... just lettuce, tomatoes, cucumbers. just right. parmesan oregano bread is out so honey oat it is. goody.

i wonder why i had to be shut out. well, if it's the way you want things to be, then so be it. you won't hear a word from me from now on. i hope i'll have the strength to pull this act somehow. if you ever need me, i'm just a buzz away. it's been some time since i unleashed words of anger... they may sound harsh, sorry. but they've been kept in there for too long, had to let it out somehow. :) and i did, and it feels good, and it felt bad (a little).

oh, did i mention it's independence day? independence from everything. woohoo!

hala hala

naninikip ang dibdib ko. syet... buti na lang... ano... kwan... yun na nga yun. buti na lang! thanks.

makabuluhang usapan at ang paraiso

mabuti pa ang mga impromptu lakad natutuloy. mangilan-ngilang attempts din ang sinubukan namin ni donna para magkita. at finally this is it... nagkita rin kagabi pagkatapos nyang asikasuhin ang baby nya hehe...

since matagal-tagal ang papatayin kong oras, sabi ko makahanap ng library. stick my nose in a book or two - yesss corny ba? bakit ba? this is my trip. pero mukang natakot ako maghanap kse baka maligaw ako hehehe... buti na lang busilak ang puso ni janise. sinamahan nya muna ako. chumika muna kami sa bonsai garden. the same garden we so desperately searched for during our first day. awww memories.

ayun naupo kami sa gitna ng hardin - na amoy incense (either that or jebs). nag-usap about love life. hehe. that's life. realizations, thoughts, ayos, airport moments, how much some people are willing to give it another chance... and another one after the another... and another one... sigh. if only things are running how you want them to... but that's not life. that probably is paradise and paradise is in heaven, not earth. whatever happened to heaven by your side... hmmm...

so time check, time to meet donna. byebye chumy janise. thanks for the good conversation.

hello, donna. kain sana kami sa new york new york kaya lang 1 mile ang pila e patay gutom na kami. lipat kami sa aming first-date spot - thai express. chow = baby squid, at some gulay in oyster sauce. yum.

okray... maraming okray... yun lang hehe... hindi naman. maraming boy talk. kung bakit sila ganun, hindi ko na talaga maipapaliwanag. hehe. it's a common denominator. boys will be boys and girls will be girls. alter some bits and pieces and again, it will come down to "but that's not life". :-) fine.

"you've had your chance and you didn't grab it". yan. magandang theme din ito (pwedeng pang formal theme writing nung high school). :-) di ba? pagkatapos ng lahat you just shake your head and tell yourself, bakit ba hindi ko pa kinuha nung may pagkakataon pa ako. mwehehehe. well... wala lang. sorry na lang sa ating mga taong nagkamali ng pinili. baka sa paradise, tama na lahat ng decisions natin hehe.

life is good with great friends. :-) almost as good as paradise if you come to think of it.

solitude

this world is full of chaos, full of shame. you hardly have space to do what you have to do. it's hard, almost impossible, to find a silent, peaceful spot for you and you only. and when you find that sacred place of peace, what do you do? you hold on to it as if it's yours. it may not be yours at all moments, but at certain moments of need, you know you can have your share of serenity and secrecy and privacy and hush. and then you can act freely and do everything you can to make you feel good and relieved. get rid of everything that's negative!

sa 4th floor. ok ang cr dito. walang tao palagi. hehehe!

maybe

it's better this way...
maybe not...
who knows?

i love my job

gets my mind off things…

thank God for ears and lips

for the past few days, there is an ongoing battle. the war within isn't over yet... and won't be over soon. both leagues are not showing any sign of white flag. wit, sarcasm, pity, almost hatred, love, unanswered questions, frustration, sadness, fear, deceit, doubt, pain, hope. name it, the feeling is probably there... all these except happiness. at least not for now.

if there's one thing i pray for, it is courage. courage to face tomorrow even without the light you're accustomed to see. i pray i will be like the blind. he does not see the sun but knows that it is there just because he can feel the warmth. he has the wisdom to understand that the absence of light doesn't necessarily mean that warmth is hiding beneath the clouds as well.

at the end of this day, i thank God for ears and lips... ears that patiently listen to your tales no matter how negative they may sound, and lips that tell you the truth no matter how painful they may make you feel. words you probably don't prefer to hear, but heck they are nothing but the truth and these are all you need to hear :). you see these ears and lips come along with this package most people call friends.