how will you take it?

hay... i know telling the truth is the RIGHT thing to do... but what if telling the truth would make it impossible for some of the "essential" and "necessary" things to push through? twisting some of the facts would be a remedy, but bending some facts means NOT telling the truth; therefore a lie.

i have no idea how you'll take it, but i guess the bottom line is trust. i know you trust me and i don't want to break this wonderful gift you've given me.

i have two options:

muster a zillion and one tons of guts and say it point blank... give it a shot...
two things could happen:
* you might think it's probably fine and just tell me... go ahead
* you might give me a stern look from head to toe... and just hate me until you forget what i just told you

not divulge too much information. filter some stuff for the good of mankind (yeah convince yourself that it's not a lie... go ahead use some flowery terms! duh!)
two things could happen:
* i'll have it my way woohoo! and you'll never ever know that some things transpired
* you might eventually find (not necessarily seek) the truth and spit on my face ewww... hehe brutal eh! of course, you'll not do that... but you just might.

what to do? what to do? the first option has more weight for me 'cause it's the right thing to do. either of the two is risky, though. i'm on the losing end no matter what hehe. =( sometimes it's just so hard and painful and undesirable to do the right things...

well, i could always delay things... no action, no lie. no lie, no sin hehe! argh!