mellow friday

another friday... and i find it rather hard to smile today. as in almost nakasimangot ako... hay pero nde naman ako nagsusungit pag may lumalapit sakin hehe. i'm not that type. i could smile naman and be good to the unsuspecting people around me... after all, they don't know what's going on inside my body and soul and mind naman diba... why the heck should i make sungit naman diba?

feeling heavy because of the pre-monthly thing... ayoko nga tumayo kaninang umaga eh... bakit ba kse every month na lang kailangan bumigat ang kalooban dahil sa mga lech na hormones... hay.. kakainis. yung parang kahit pilitin mong maging light, argh ang bigat pa rin...

tapos... last night, pumunta kami ni papa mike sa wake ng mom ng close friend ko. it's just so sad... seeing them all so sad and mourning.

made me think of my loved ones and what i'll do if the same thing happened to me. yung sa iba nga, ang bigat na sa kalooban and heck... i'm not even in their shoes. yun pa kayang sayo mangyari...

well, eventually, dun din naman lahat mag-end up kaya lang it's just a sad thing. para kasing in my head, caths = mom + kuya + win... tapos... pag may nawala, incomplete na... and i don't want that to happen. sana mauna ako... hihi shellfish... selfish pala.

ayan muka tuloy akong tanga... umiiyak... unti-unti... tapos punas punas lang panyo para matuyo... hay... i get really weird at times... baka isipin ng mga tao dito may mabigat akong problema hihi...