sobrang maling reaksyon

papasok sa office at 3pm, it was the usual super init day. todo wipe na naman ako ng kapawisan ko sa ilong (uuuyy selosa!), sa batok, leeg, at hairline hehe! pero ang summer season ay hanggang buendia lang. yez. dahil pagdating ng bandang mayapis, rainy season na. weird.

medyo windang ako... parang lagi naman e. basta papasok ako kse naman todo ang init! tapos biglang umulan so ang confusion at katuliruhan ko ay umabot sa maximum level. wala ba sa sarili. ang gusto ko lang talagang mangyari ay makarating ako sa comfort ng aking cube.

bago ako pumasok sa lobby ng rcbc, yung before na magcheck ang manong guard ng bag, may mga lalaking nakatambay dun. mga naka sports attire ba... parang kaka basketball lang. parang, aah, san kaya sila galing? pero kebs lang ako. muka silang sumilong lang dahil umaambon nga nang malakas. or hindi pa makababa... something like that. or parang waiting for someone. i didn't really care 'cause hindi ko naman sila kilala.

"hi cat!", yan ang narinig ko from one of them. sounded an awful lot like "hi cat!".

dahil likas akong magugulatin, halos napatalon ako sa gulat. i looked at him at todo smile sya... kung nakakapagsalita lang ang mukha, ang sabi siguro ng mukha ko ay: "sino ka?!?!?" at medyo lalong naghalo-halo ang naramdaman ko. hindi ko sya kilala, pero ang face nya ay parang "uy! ako 'to!". i smiled - a confused smile at hinukay ko ang utak ko pero his face wasn't even familiar! i was super clueless talaga!

i didn't stop. i just walked towards the lobby... and into rcbc. hahaha! i assumed he thought i was somebody else. i was sooo rude! grabe sorry! ang feeling ko ay nagkamali lang sya ng tawag, at akala nya ay ako si... cat? oops teka ako nga si cat! waah! kung sino man sya, sorry! nalito talaga ako... sino ako? asan ako? sino ka? hahaha! sisa! magpakita ka ulit sa'kin at magsosorry ako sayo... waaah!

* ang tumatawag lang sakin ng cat ay mga kapamilya ko... as in mami, wawin, kuya, a few relatives, mikey. at hindi sya isa dun... waaah! must be a relative... or a neighbor?

quickie tuesdays and/or thursdays

i so look forward to tuesdays and thursdays (bukod sa friday, of course). if the circumstances permit, mikey and i eat out. quickie ito hihihi. i say quickie 'cause we try to squeeze in eating, story-telling, kulitan, picturan, and all in more or less an hour. after his class sa vito cruz, he rushes to makati. kitakits, pre. hihi.

medyo challenging maghanap ng mga food spots na open pa at past 9 pm. well, marami pa rin namang bukas. and it doesn't really matter kung saan, as long as there's foodie.

after ng medyo mabilisang dinner, we head off to ate yogi's office. pick her up (sa pick-up point) and drop me off (sa drop-off). ayos sounds cute. that's the set-up. hihi.

one of my little joys in life... the feeling is light yet overwhelming... :) just right.

summer na naman

grabe na ang init ng panahon! parang kailan lang, matutuwa ka pa kahit na lumabas ka ng 2:00 ng hapon kse medyo chilly pa ang panahon kahit na may araw. e ngayon, hay. kasabay ng pag-init ng panahon ang pang-init din ng ulo ng mga taong nasa ilalim ng araw. halos lahat nakasimangot! kasama na 'ko dun. hehe. mahirap talagang ngumiti kapag mainit ang araw. ewan ko. instinct ko na sigurong kumunot ng noo. kse silawin akong tao. at hindi ako palangiti lalo na kung mag-isa lang ako. may mga tao lang sigurong nasa nature na ang pagngiti (hindi ako isa sa kanila. sorry :-S).

masaya ang summer. favorite ko itong panahon. mas natotolerate ko kasi ang init kesa sa lamig. hehe. pero... may mga bagay lang talagang nakakairita kapag summer (specifically kapag namamasahe ka lang):

mga mukang nakasimangot dahil sa init

mga pathetic na aircon sa mga fx at bus. hindi talaga nila carry ang init.

pawis. maraming pawis.

ang pawis ng katabi mo ay pawis mo na rin. yak.

isama na natin sa pawis ang amoy ng pawis. yak. (ok lang ito as long as hindi lilipat sayo ang amoy ng katabi mo)

dahil kulot ako, nagpaparelax ako ng buhok. at kapag naarawan ang relaxed kong buhok, lumulutong ito. ayoko nito.

yung mga taong sobrang vocal na naiinitan sila. mga super sighs at kung ano-anong sinasabi kahit na mag-isa lang sila. cool, man! bawal init-ulo.

yung init pag sinamahan mo ng traffic, riot ito. mas maraming nagiging vocal sa mga feelings of disgust nila. dangerous combo.

nakakaitim ang araw. kundi rin lang sa beach iitim, sayang naman. sa beach lang ako lisensyadong umitim.

hmm... yun lang naman other than those, i love everything about summer! what do you know? SUMMER NA TALAGA!!!! woohoo! life is good!!!

malaya na si wawin (for now)

wawin has just completed the school requirements for this term. today is their finals week and yesterday was the last day he did stuff to complete the projects.

things wawin did for this term:

sulat mania - i remember during elementary, we had this paulinian writing and we grew calluses writing on our paulinian writing book. win's engineering writing, i guess, is the counterpart for this. a paper would probably mean research, type, print, and submit. that is a REGULAR paper. win's paper meant manually writing and drawing on hundreds of pages using this engineering stroke. and i can't help him because my writing doesn't have an engineer's touch. i don't get it why their profs want it that way but they sure do get it the way they want it. as if students have a choice. it's just that it sounds freaky writing hundreds of pages. poor wawin.

sleepless nights - of course kadikit ng sulat at drawing kamay ay oras. win had a couple of nights with 0 hours of sleep talga. i used to do this during college. i guess, it's really a part of college life. you stay awake all night, and you go to school the next day looking and feeling like a zombie. mahirap ito. i remember i invited mosquitos to bite me just to ward off feelings of antok. bangenge.

no social life - for most days, weekends included, win was this geeky boy. he didn't have time to eat decently, he didn't have time to even make kwento with us, he had to say goodbye to his pc games, i hardly saw him watching tv, he never played his guitar, he didn't even have time to smile! beat that! although i know they manage to have alak sessions every now and then. ang kapatid ko'y masipag sa pag-aaral ngunit mabisyo rin. hehehe

marathon - ate had to be part of this ordeal. yesterday, i accompanied him in searching for a bookbinding shop. we were in crappy pambahay attire... as in crappy shirt, shorts, and tsinelas kse sa sucat lang naman, pero no luck. we were out of time so we rushed to moa - looking crappy and all. no luck pa rin, we headed to sm manila. and we made libot intramuros ata e and the whole of manila! grabe!!! we looked like palaboy people. argh. and i swear, the soles of my feet were all crappy na rin after ng hiking namin. ang libag! kung di ko lang lab si baby wawin hehehe.

i may have missed something. these are really exhausting... yesterday, after the bookbind session, win was really happy and relieved. he started watching tv series again, he even played his guitar! yehey! way to go! a few more months and your student days are done. good luck!

mga parte ng araw

umaga
dead pa ako.

tanghali
birthday treat nina ate maj at char. it was a trip to spi memory lane. dorots, jet, nina (paksyet ayaw gumana ng alt164 ko hehe. klangan talgang sabihin yun?), kent, joy, anabelle, angie, mumay, and iane were there. cool ang food sa dampa, macapagal. masarap. para ano pa ang masarap na pagkain kung walang masarap na ka-kwentuhan? everyone had a good dose of updates and chisms.

bad trip ang u-turn slot sa may coastal mall. ah eh, lalong nagpapatrapik ito, mga manong. mas maigi siguro kung paderetsuhin na lang sa coastal mall kesa mag u-turn pa. hassle e.

salamat sa great food at great company! happy birthday, ate maj and char!

gabi
sa mga hindi nakakaalam, 2 ang gf ni wentworth miller - si tonette at ako. this is the only time i could tolerate sharing of bfs. i wouldn't mind sharing a bf as cutie as went. and i wouldn't mind sharing him with a friend as special as tonette. tama na ang kalokohan.

i invited tonette to watch the 2 latest episodes of prison break since pareho kaming crazy over went. ang ingay namin. marami kaming shrieks of kilig and excitement and oa stuff na pinakawalan at 12 midnight. good luck sa mga kapitbahay namin. wala namang tanod na sumugod sa bahay namin. so good noise pa naman ang ginawa namin siguro.

ayos talga ang prison break. twist na naman! mukang may season 3 pa a. baka naman umabot na sa manhunt ng kaapu-apuhan nila. hehe.

madaling-araw
ganado ako magpost. bakit? ewan. good chat with acy about kiri and good chat with kuya about tfc. i never thought kuya would be a tfc advocate. he's asking me to have a week-long vacation dun. awww... miss na talga nya siguro kami. i will once i get enough leave credits.

*just a thought... maybe it's time to change strategies. i had a couple of useful tips and hints. :) thanks, pals!

walang punctuation marks

disappointed
over a lot of things
but like everything else
this too shall pass
but when it does
what happens next
it just goes by i guess
just like time
just like a moment
just like you and me

i remember
when as a kid i used to play
with this thing called magic slate
jot it all down
mess with it if i wish to
and in the end
if i dont find it appealing
just lift the tab
and what do you know
it is a clean slate after all

i can do just that if you want me to
but life is not a magic slate
neither am i

life is a big question mark

i had a good chat with michie. i told her things i was afraid to admit even to myself. the words just kept flowing out of my mouth... make that my fingers - i was typing LOL!

i realized it was the first time i ever talked it over with somebody else. i dunno if i'm just being affected with the sad circumstances around me (i'm being so vague sheesh), but yeah. THAT really is the case and it will stay that way.

it is a sad realization... sad but it felt great to say it point-blank. so there really is some sense beyond the bungisngisan and childish talks! we made so much sense in between laughs. and it all summed up to: life is a big question mark. it is not harmless to take risks, but what harm would it do to take them anyway? you'll never know until you try. if you feel it's worth a try, then go ahead! jump! as long as it makes you happy (and you don't use someone, that is).

nice talk, michie. ulitin natin. :)

being a user... is another topic i'd gladly blab about in another post... just you wait. hahaha. is this a threat?

what's up, doc?

i know three people who passed the Physician Licensure Examination:

GERVACIO, CHARMAINE ZITA LARDIZABAL
SIAPNO, DEBRELLE LOU PUCHERO
OBLEFIAS, JONATHAN ZAPATOS

charm and debbie were HS classmates from st. paul. charm was a class officer from 1st yr to 4th yr. she always has this blush on her neck and face probably because she's so puti hihi. her theme song is "love me for a reason" mwehehehe. debbie, i remember was a shy girl. i think the last time i saw her was on HS graduation. we were never that close but i know she is debbie and i am proud of her as well. and jo is a friend whom i met through friendster. i pest him with med questions from time to time - make that every time i see him online. hehe. i haven't met him personally but i know he's a good-hearted person.

it has always been every child's dream to become a doctor someday. i know i hoped for it once in my childhood. the difference, i guess, is they lived to make their hopes come true. it wasn't just a child's play but they were really called to it. some were called but didn't have enough dedication and guts to get through with it. i guess they're among the toughest bunch. they made it this far.

so there, i think i'm somehow proud to be acquainted with these great people. i know they're going to be good doctors with the biggest hearts. with this big leap, they have empowered themselves with the ability to heal, cure, and serve people. and what's next is really clear - people will entrust them with their lives and these lives will lie on their hands. they may pursue further education, but the important thing is, they're an inch closer to that every child's dream. :)

congratulations dear friends! libre?

tigdas updates

i'm just at home. all day and all night. what could i possibly write about but my tigdas...

so i went back to the clinic for my cbc count. i waited for an hour for the results. in the meantime, i watched dozens of kids waiting for their turn to be checked as well. doc is actually a pediatrician and so there were tons of kids there. i thought sobrang tiba-tiba si doc dito ah... hehe. that clinic is always that packed! everyday!

after an hour, i have the results and brought them to doc. she said that the platelet count is a bit low: 176. the normal value is 140 - 440. she asked me if i don't feel drained. "a little," i answered. so she wants me to be back on friday for another cbc count. she said she just wants to be sure the count is not dropping.

i'm not 100% dengue free. sheeez. ayaw ko na magka dengue. it's a traumatic disease for me - it almost killed me once way back 3rd yr hs. well, maybe because it was too late when we found out then. i've been having fevers for almost a week before we consulted the doctor. today is different. daig ng maagap ang maingat. maagap na ako. hehe.

i didn't get feedback from big boss about that vpn account so i don't know how i could work from home today. what keeps me busy?

matulog

at matulog

mag sudoku

manood ng tv

mag-internet

kumain

masaya diba? btw, i asked doc if it's german measles. yes daw. i also asked if i could take a bath. yes daw! yehey! and i also asked if nakakahawa pa ako by friday. yes daw so i should take friday off as well. haay. i miss my new cube.

meron akong...

tigdas hangin... sabi ni doc. viral exanthem - sabi sa medical certificate ko.

di ba masyado na akong matanda para magkaron nun? i thought. "uso ba yun ngayon doc?" i asked. yes daw, kahit matanda kahit bata. where the heck did i get that communicable disease? syet.

last sunday, my lymph nodes were swollen. particularly on the neck and behind the ears. i was feeling unusually tired. i thought all that sudoku made me drained haha meron na pala akong slight fever.

when i was about to take a bath yesterday,i noticed some rashes on my chest, neck, and arms. i thought those were just plain rashes and i went to work anyway. maria noticed my eyes were peachy in color... and true enough, my eyes were a bit swollen. when i got home last night, i had slight fever again.

mom said it looks like measles. i searched for symptoms and super swak sa mga symptoms ko. so i went to a clinic nearby and doc confirmed that it was tigdas hangin nga raw. i have to go back tom for blood tests just to be sure it's not dengue. not again, please.

so i'm on a three-day sick leave. i haven't earned that much leave credit yet so i requested for a vpn account so i could work from home on the 21st and 22nd.

hay. bawal magkasakit eh!

greatest gift on valentine's day version 2.0

it has always been a tradition for kuya to give me and mom flowers on valentine's day. i thought this year that it will be different and incomplete. kuya is away, so there will be no more flowers on vday. when i got home last night at 1:30am, there was this bouquet of red roses on my bed. in the card, it read:

dear ate/cat,

happy valentine's day!

love,
erwin/kuya

it was from a flower shop nearby. and i figured that kuya must have been the master mind but win was the implementor. hehe. i was teary-eyed. you thoughtful guys you... hihi.

it's not so much about the grandeur of the bouquet of roses thing, but who wouldn't want to receive roses, right? but for all i care, it could have been a mini cloud 9 chocolate, a bazooka bubble gum, a pretzel stick. wehehe... whatever. the thing is, he's far away and he still thought of giving us something. touched... sofer. mapalad ang mga babaeng iibigin ninyo at malas ang magpapakawala sa inyo. bwahahahaha!

greatest gift on valentine's day version 1.0

the greatest pre-valentine gift i probably received was the gift of forgiveness. a good friend has been aloof for a couple of weeks now. prior to that, he has been a great colleague. we shared sincere laughter, sentiments, and real friendship. he would pass by our work area to just fool around and laugh with us and, believe it or not, to impart the greatest lessons in life.

he started to avoid us all of a sudden. we didn't know why. we had a few paranoid clues but they were, for us, too shallow to repel him like that. we exerted effort to hopefully bring back what has been lost, or to simply know why he has been acting that way. but he continued to avoid us... said he was just too stressed with work. and we took it that way and we respected his indirect request for space. we found ourselves avoiding him just the same, bowing down whenever we see him just so our eyes won't meet, and yes, lousily pretending that we didn't see each other. it sucks.

we learned that yesterday was his last day at work. we received an email from him. he was apologizing and he told us that things were out of his control, but he promised us that he would keep in touch in the following days. we were in tears - a mixture of sad and happy tears, and every emotion imaginable.

thank you for the gift of friendship and forgiveness, given on the 13th day of february, year 2007. you can't get back what you have already given, and we'll keep this as long as we can... no matter what. we love you and you'll be a friend for life. 101.9

ulirang empleyado

whoever said that drinking on a monday night is ok? not that i had too much to drink. it's just a bottle, but we stayed out until 4 am. and i woke up this morning with a light head... and that's not good. i should get a plaque for being model employee. hey, i was able to balance social life with work! that's tough job!

the buzz

my current hit list:

heroes - is at the top of my list woohoo! i definitely love heroes! i'm aching for more every time i watch it. the twists make me feel bad at the end of each episode, and at the same time i feel good with longing for the next one. i used to not like claire. but now, i think she's very pretty and smart. peter is eventually getting control over his powerssss and i hope it'll be all good. my favorite character is hiro nakamura. he's so adorable! with that gigil look on his face every time he tries to control time, he looks like a baby. heroes... is simply the best. i wish i had an ability too. hehe. save the cheerleader, save the world!

prison break - i used to only roll my eyes when kuya would watch the first few episodes of prison break. he explained with eyes wide open that michael had the map of the prison tattooed on his body to save his innocent brother. lame, i thought. boring, more thoughts. but i was eventually forced to watch it. and there were two discoveries i made about myself. first is, i'm so in love with wentworth. hehe. and the second is, i probably missed 3/4 of my life had i not hooked up with him.. errrr with the series, i mean. there are so many twists as well, but i wonder how they could further prolong the story when the concept, really, is just prison break and man hunt. we'll see. i'd watch it forever if i have to. oa.

the holiday - is the latest movie i saw. fresh na fresh. something new for cameron - her role's not so kikay. kate was so pathetic at first - three years to get over someone?! and it's not even a relationship! jude was simply... yummy! overly perfect, though. he can't exist in real world! jack was cute! "boob graze!", i think, was his best line. mr. abbott's scenes were very touching. i would want to meet someone like him someday... someone who will make a difference in my life, and vice versa. there were a couple of good insights about relationships. very light, funny in some sense, romantic, cute film.

the messengers - haven't seen it. probably won't. i'd love too. but my movie partner doesn't want to see it. although i gave assurances that i'll hug him for the entire duration of the film, pat his butt so he can just meme, do whatever it takes to make him watch it with me, he wouldn't watch it. it'll give him nightmares daw. according to him, he'd rather watch it on dvd at home (where screams are allowed, probably). i'll take his word for it. just wait till i get one. just wait! and we'll watch it no matter what.

smallville - has been evicted from my list. i stopped seeing it. i used to love it, but it became this dragging piece of crap. how long till i see him fly with that spandex costume? argh. too much. win convinced me that the story's becoming interesting again with the justice league in the scene... so i watched the 2nd to the latest episode last night. it's becoming cute again but i'm still not that interested. giving it a chance though, so i'm putting it back at the semi-bottom of the list. we'll see.

maging sino ka man - dang. i used to watch it over youtube at the office (i'm not alone with this ordeal ha!). hehe. bad. but they probably found out about the mega bandwidth so youtube was blocked. clever. i sooo love celine and jb. not so much for bea and john loid. too mushy. all i could do now is ask cecil about it. what happened? so it's like this big jigsaw puzzle with too many missing pieces. i won't probably fill them in. sad.

on stepping stones

i know we all have a common goal and it is to be successful in life. we have different definitions of being successful.

to some, success is having megazillions of money in numerous bank accounts. the more money they gain, the more secured they feel, the more power they think they have. have an overflowing pocket and you own the world. the possibilities are endless. there's nothing you can't do or have, and they are happy that way.

others equate success to a happy family life. to have a decent and comfortable, if not luxurious life. putting the members of the family in a state where the necessities in life are handy is the priority. there might be a few room for the secondary pleasures, but everything could eventually come smoothly. what's important now is the family is there with a sturdy foundation.

to some, success may mean you are the apple of your boss's eyes. "yes, boss" is a staple phrase of the mouth. be good to big boss and you secure yourself of a good position in your job. you get good promises. you get to be the right hand. you get to know the headlines. you become almost immortal... almost. give boss a few "useful" information and you might have yourself grinning for some great surprises.

i recall that someone defined success as being anywhere you want to be at any given time. sweet! i like! hahaha!

people have different definitions of success and different strategies in life. we all have unique ways of reaching that end line. others are kind-hearted, others are built for the kill. when grasping for that medal we call success, we may step on other people, knowingly or unknowingly. we get what we want at the expense of stomping on other people's rights, make that SIMPLY stomping (not just stepping) on other people. and the others are just helpless and clueless that they're being treaded on. "i don't care, as long as i get there".

there's this game in takeshi's castle that's so like this concept. point A and point B are separated by water. player starts on point A and the goal is to reach point B by using the stepping stones. some stones are real stones, others aren't - they're merely floating and will pull the player along with it once stepped on. so you just hope that you get to step on the real hard stones. when you step on the fake ones, you fall. beware! you just might step on one of those and you too just might be engulfed by the murky water. game over. dead ka na. sa presinto ka na magpaliwanag. oh, it's just worth mentioning that this game on takeshi is sooo fun to watch! :)

lovers in bali

last saturday, after reggie's birthday party (salamat kay aman for the ride!), maria and i weren't in a let's-go-home mood yet. we decided to just stay somewhere where there's coffee and couch. and cafe bali it is (cafe bali nga ba?). it's a small cafe in megamall, really cozy! we had these potato balls with cheese stuff... and we swear manong's tukneneng tastes a lot better than those! i had strawberry with nut something coffee and maria had melon shake... and something else after that haha!

an acoustic duo was performing that night - the long haired gay-guy (ganda ng kutis!) was the vocalist and guitarist and the chubby guy was the hmmm... anong tawag sa parang tambol na kahoy na inuupan? so... the gay-guy was trying to make conversation with everybody in the room - over the mic! there were only a few of us anyway. so he asked for our names and asked if we were lovers. yes naman kami ni maria...

thus the phrase lovers in bali. duh. hindi ako masyadong natuwa sa mga talks nya. mas natuwa ako sa kanta nya. pwede bang kumanta ka na lang? if we wanted okray stuff, sa comedy bar sana kami pumasok diba? hehe.

he asked if we have v-day dates. and i said, yeah, kami nga ni maria e. LOL panindigan! and he said ang sweet naman daw namin. his partner (i think he's referring to his tambol guy partner) was never that sweet with him.

pwede syang mag sideline sa comedy bar... medyo dull nga lang mga jokes nya.. hehe good voice, though.

so, when we had the chance, we fled for dear life. haha... and we called it a night. lesbos!

"i don't drink coffee"

if this statement is true then the fact that i love to make coffee and everything about coffee doesn't make it false.

i may love the feeling of putting in half a teaspoon of coffee, a tablespoon of creamer, a tablespoon of sugar, and hot water in a cup.
i may love the aroma of coffee - be it instant or brewed.
i may love the sight of that dispenser filling in that paper cup with the essentials of coffee.
or i may love the ambiance of that darn coffee shop, along with the coffee mixes they make. i may even spend the entire day in a coffee shop, i won't mind!
i may love the act of gently stirring that lovely concoction to transform it into the most perfect coffee blend.

for all you care, i may - with a true smile on my face - lift that cup, put it near my lips... BUT I MAY OPT NOT TO DRINK IT. thus, making my statement, still, so true.

so what's the point of acting like a coffee enthusiast if i don't even drink coffee?

of course this is not about coffee! this is about something else. i absolutely drink coffee! i'm just making my point on when statements are oh so true or oh so false. and i'm oh so true! i bet ya! woohoo!

bitchy ulit

what's with the prudential life staff? they keep on calling you even if you explicitly stated you're not interested with their stuff.

this morning a new character from prudential called up again. and she was explaining the same crap. i cut her off... i'm doing her a favor - i'm helping her conserve energy and saliva.

so i stopped her... i told her, "hindi na ako interesadong i-avail yan."

"why po?" she asked. ay irritating pa rin ang tono. prudential agents have this common denominator of being irritating people.

i told her sweetly, "wala lang. :) hindi lang ako interesado."

tapos na naman ang usapan. hihi.

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getting some sense from booba

i was up a little early this morning 'cause i wanted to see erwin before he leaves for school. i was channel surfing when i saw the show sis. ruffa mae quinto was there so i thought, hey, this probably is a fun episode. so i watched on.

the topic was about making mistakes in life. they asked the guests to think of a song that they think is most relevant in their lives - for the biggest mistake they've done. and what she said awed me.

the song she chose was all this time by tiffany. and she sang a few lines...

all this time
all in all Ive no regrets
the sun still shines the sun still sets
the heart forgives the heart forgets

and she further explained what was rather obvious about the lyrics. i thought that i never really processed the meaning of this song. all in knew all along was that it was an 80's song by tiffany. a song that i would sing along with but only in my mind.

now, i think that it's a wonder how 4 lines could briefly explain how we should - make that i should - have this very good disposition in life. make that every aspect of life... love, work, family, everything!

thanks to booba for putting some sense in my life today. *getting an mp3 of the song... ssshh... hihi.

make it or break it

one lesson he indirectly taught me a few weeks ago was: if you find yourself unhappy in a relationship, you work hard to either make it work, or end it. focus on doing just one thing: make it or break it.

it's not an original line, though. he heard it in one of the tv series he so diligently patronizes. i asked him why share a quote like that? is his relationship becoming blurry? and he said he just felt like sharing it.

a few weeks after, he tells me he's having sleepless nights giving every ounce of strength he has on devising a plan and script. he's breaking up with her. he said he'll be lost without her but he can't play blind that nothing's changed. he said it breaks him more to see her transform into something she's not. so the executive decision is... to end it - after sessions of is-there-something-wrong?-NOTHING talks.

i didn't expect it from her. i know she's the most affectionate lover... so affectionate it crosses the borderline of being possessive and jealous. so why the sudden change? i asked him if he feels there's someone else, he told me he's not sure.

if he didn't baby her too much, if he didn't tend to all her needs, if he were not the most thoughtful partner then i will not be this affected... but he is all that and i love him dearly. hurt him and you hurt me. i asked him if he wants me to talk some sense into her. he declined. he'd rather do it his way, i guess. i told him i support his decision all the way... if he thinks that's the right thing to do.

this post is a little biased... i only heard one side of the story. but if you could see just one side of the wall, and if it's the side where your loved one is, i guess that's all that matters. break it kung break it. :(

bitchy ata?

there's this agent from prudential who called me up last friday and told me that i won a personal accident plan. all i have to do is sign some docs and it's good to go. although i know that this is just one of those you-don't-have-to-pay-anything-NOT! schemes, i said that i'll go on monday (yesterday). besides, i had a tiny glimpse of hope that this is different since i'm a plan holder.

so yesterday, i forgot that we were also scheduled for an APE at 3pm. agent called up again, confirming my scheduled appointment. so i told him i can't come because i have this APE thing. so he starts harassing me... "pano po yun mam? nakaschedule kayo? pag di kayo pumunta, kami ang malalagot sa head department... si sir jay, kakausapin kayo.." and the voice was really irritating! he was trying to scare me! who the hell is sir jay? and i told him calmly but i was a bit irritated na rin... "e anong gagawin ko?!!?" and he started to oblige me to go there to have the plan transferred to an immediate relative.

and i was pissed off... i told him, first of all, i didn't ask you guys to give me this plan so don't oblige me to do stuff that i don't feel like doing. i haven't confirmed and signed anything so don't harass me like hell. and... second, it's not my problem! ok?!?

and he was like... ay ok po mam. thank you.

madadaan ka naman pala sa maayos na usapan eh.

fiestah

what's with the title? duh.

3rd week of january = fiesta. the day started with the 9am mass. bishop jesse mercado was here so the lectors had to dress up in filipiniana costumes. i think my barong-style top was a bit big for me. it is dencia's and it still looked big on me. how thin am i?

it was a 2-hour mass. there were dozens of sto. nino statues in front of the altar, all waiting to be blessed. i have a confession to make. i'm not too crazy about religious statues. sometimes they scare me... especially the super old ones. maybe i've seen too much images of dancing sto. ninos on tv when i was young. and i was really scared of it... i still am. i mean, i don't need dancing statues to make me believe in God. the sight of it just scares me. maybe because i know that there is a human behind it all... and it just looks, uhh... scary. gives me goosebumps.

the entire aldaba clan was invited for lunch to introduce them to tito danny. it was a good lunch, with too much food, the usual magic sing galore, my uncle's persistent requests for me to sing (i rarely give in), a few ballroom dancing for the oldies, the evening procession, and that's about it.

oh i forgot to mention the post drinking chaos... right now, i could hear a couple of drunk men fighting, or almost fighting outside. this is the 2nd fight session for the night. it never fails. give them bottles of beer, and there's a series of war afterwards. and i don't really get it. and the barangay tanods will have to work overtime to stop the sabong. argh.

but yeah, all of these trips make up the fiesta... take one away and it's not fiesta.

the sweetest thing...

read on the rear window of a car somewhere in sucat...

"I LOVE MY WIFE"

awwww...

on the brighter side of life now

our request has been granted! we're on 4pm to 1am shift now. i'm at the office now and i feel great!

guess what? it's now 551 pm and i just saw the sun set among the tall buildings. it's not the most spectacular sunset. the best i've seen, i guess, are puerto galera sunset and manila bay sunset. but this can pass as one of the best. it's the first i've seen in ages.

and when i look behind me, my shadow was there. i was alone and i was savoring every moment of it... the setting sun, my shadow behind me, the sun tranforming from bright blue and white to gray and orange. aaaah. i love it!

and i'm beginning to sound freaky. not freaking out, just enjoying the days more than the nights now. i love my life!

abot-tanaw na ang liwanag

i don't have a problem. it's not one of those moments when there's a crisis that's coming to and end hehe...

what i really mean to say here is... we asked our boss if we could work on an earlier shift - 4pm to 1am. sure going home will literally be thrilling, but it's worth the risk. i've been on night shift for more than a year now. it has become evident on the dark circles under my eyes and the raging moods i've had and the general feeling of being unwell. i just noticed i've become more irritable and grudging lately. it probably doesn't show yet but maybe in the long run, i'll be feeling something wrong with my health.

i know i've been the most diligent advocate of the "it's not what happens, it's how you take it" motto, but darn it... i give up. this is an exception. syet. i hate night shifts! and i can't help but feel pessimistic about it now.

try it. stay awake at nights and sleep on days and you'll know how i feel. argh. bad.

we're crossing our fingers that the request will be approved. otherwise, i'm doomed. but what can i do?!? syet.

makulit

may mga tao talagang makulit no? duuuuuh.

[04:39] manongkulit: hehehe
[04:39] manongkulit: musta na?!??
[04:39] manongkulit: wat tym is ur shift nyway ba??
[04:39] cathscamacho: 9pm to 6am forever
[04:39] cathscamacho: ano ba ang kulit mo kanina
[04:40] cathscamacho: a regular person... will somehow think that if one doesn't respond to messages, she probably doesn't have access to her phone...
[04:41] cathscamacho: probably away from phone... probably sleeping
[04:41] cathscamacho: and will probably get back to you... once she wakes up
[04:48] manongkulit: hehehe, bakit ka naiinis?!?? hehehe
[04:49] manongkulit: *giGgLe!*
[04:50] cathscamacho: e ang kulit mo eh
[04:50] cathscamacho: diba alam mong night shift ako!?
[04:51] cathscamacho: edi siguro tulog ako nun!
[04:51] cathscamacho: may mga taong nagigising kahit sa little beeps no!
[04:51] cathscamacho: at isa ako dun
[04:55] manongkulit: hehehe
[04:55] manongkulit: 'di ko mapigiLan yung tawa ko ah =D...
[04:56] manongkulit: cge, 'di na mauuLit ...
[04:56] manongkulit: peace tayo ah, caths ;D...
[04:56] cathscamacho: 2nd time na to no
[04:56] cathscamacho: hmp
[04:57] manongkulit: o cge nga, keLan yung 1st?!??
[04:57] cathscamacho: nung holidays
[04:58] cathscamacho: kaw p galit na d sinasagot ang call duh
[04:58] manongkulit: ows?!?? yung nasa singa ka?? hehehe
[04:58] cathscamacho: oo kaya
[04:58] manongkulit: hehehe
[04:59] manongkulit: oo nga naman... duH!
[04:59] manongkulit: hehe
[04:59] manongkulit: o cge, 'di na taLaga mauuLit...
[05:00] manongkulit: napangiti mo ko dun sa mga hirit mo ah...
[05:00] cathscamacho: ewan
[05:01] manongkulit: hanggang ngayon gaLit ka pa din dun sa nasa singa ka?!??
[05:01] manongkulit: cge na nga tatahimik na nga ko ...
[05:01] cathscamacho: naalala ko lang
[05:02] cathscamacho: kse makulit din nman ako.. pero medyo marunong nman ako mag translate ng signs no!
[05:05] manongkulit: I was never any gud w/ the signs ...

thirteenth of january...

is not a very good time to put up updates on the happenings of my life for the past few weeks. rather late, i'd say but better late than never.

i guess the highlight of the year 2006 was the singapore vacation i had with my family. yes, my brother is an ofw in singapore haha. it's the first time kuya is away for the christmas and new year holidays... so if he can't be with us then we'll be with him!

it was wawin's first out-of-the-country trip, so this made it more exciting for all of us... besides the fact that we'll be together, of course.

we were there from the 23rd of dec 'til the 2nd of jan. every moment was a blast. kuya's housemates all went home to pinas so we had all the freedom that our hearts desired inside the house - errrr dirty house?

we went to the usual spots. we were amazed by the efficient systems that are in place in that small country - from transportation to laws to cleanliness to big vegetables to meeting some people from the past to lqs to everything. we were hoping to stay (make that come back), if only i could find a job there - but i'm guessing it's not (yet?) written in God's planner.

but those are merely trivial details of the trip and i'd rather not elaborate on superficial stuff. i guess, more than all the glitz and radiance of the travel, i'd rather make a detailed account of how kuya has been at his best.

he took charge of everything. he cooked dinner for us for the first night - something he would never do had he been stuck in pinas. and yeah, even if it's just fried instant chicken tempura and maggi noodles, it is by far the best meal i've had in singapore.

having stayed there for only 3 months, kuya's a tourist himself. but he did his best to be the best guide there is (next to camille hehe. camille's still the best tour guide!). he didn't visit certain spots with his friends 'cause he said he wanted to experience the first time with his loved ones. awww.

i say he's at his best because he personified the word "kuya". he's characterized it perfectly it's almost close to representing the word "father". he's so responsible now. i bet papa will be so proud of him if only he could witness all this.

the only negative feedback i have now is... his nasty yosi habit. break it or you'll be damned. you're damned, we're damned. as simple as that.

overall, i give this experience a five-star rating. call it the first time we're complete as a family on an out-of-the-country trip. call it special because we felt reunited after three months. call it memorable because we opt to make it memorable. call it perfect. this is one of the moments that will always give a dreamy look on my face. and it's not oa. :)

pwede pong bumati?

happy birthday sa lola ko sa mindoro nung dec. 8. mami yan ng mami ko. happy birthday, lola! labyu! see you next summer!

happy birthday din pala sa pinsan ko si ate aileen nung dec. 9. first cousin ko yan sa mother side. happy birthday pinsan!

chaka pala birthday din sa pinakamamahal kong mikey nung dec. 10. hamberdeybebe! labyu! babuy! lab mo ko?

tapos, tapos, si aira birthday din nung dec. 11. gf ng kuya ko yan. happy birthday, girl. fly high. be happy.

isa pa sa dec. 11 yung first cousin ko rin sa father side si ate elaine... preggy na nga pala sya, first sa camacho cousins na preggy.

tapos sa dec. 12 naman, syempre mami ko. pwede bang di ko batiin yan?!? happy birthday, mami! love ya so! mwah!

tapos last na.. may time pa ba? last na. yung inaanak ko sa dec. 13. si brenna. happy birthday brenna!

* super last na... si lola floring pala death anniversary rin nung dec. 10. rest in peace lola wherever you are! miss ya! mama ng papa ko yan.

uy may isa pa pala... sa dec. 14 birthday ng pamangkin ni maricor, si lance. happy birthday lance. makulit yan na cute hihi.

yun lang po salamat!

someday ni nina

Someday you’re gonna realize
One day you’ll see this though my eyes
By then I won’t even be there
I’ll be happy somewhere
Even if I cared
I know you don’t really see my worth
You think you’re the best guy on earth
Well I’ve got news for you
I know I’m not that strong
But it won’t take long
Won’t take long

Someday someone’s gonna love me
The way I wanted you to need me
Someday someone’s gonna take your place
One day I’ll forget about you
Someday someday

Right now I know you can tell
I’m down and I’m not doing well
But one day these tears they will all run dry
I won’t have to cry, sweet goodbye

maganda sana ang melody. sinulat daw ni nyoy para kay nina. hindi masyadong angkop sa kanila kse sila diba? pero bakit ang sad ng song?
akala ko nung una, it's a bitter song... tipong guy leaves girl and girl is in the process of healing. hindi pala. parang nagbabadyang mag byebye si girl pero bumubwelo pa lang hehehe. di pa kse kaya. parang... hintay ka lang... soon... kaya ko na. hehehe. coolness. pero ang sad. :(

ending the year right

our house is a mess. we had a picture taken in front of the house some weeks ago, and in the picture, we saw a house that looks dilapidated hahaha. more like a haunted house. so my mom thought it was about time to have the front part fixed. the plan was only to change the ceilings since they were kind of dangling loose. also, the walls and roof have to be repainted because what's left of the off-white paint is just off LOL.

a can of worms was opened, though. and a simple repair isn't going to happen. apparently, the whole of the roof/ceiling part must be changed because termites left merely a skeleton of the supporting lumber. sheesh. so there, for more than a week now, our front yard (?) is a complete mess, just in time for Reming season (may their souls RIP) i guess. a few more pieces should be in place this afternoon, and then just the paint and we're ready for the christmas decors.

while we're at the mess part, we're also trying to get rid of the clutter inside the house. i rummaged through my closet this morning and i filled a whole trashbag (size: large, color: light yellow) with rubbish. i can't believe i've been keeping those trash for almost a decade now. some notebooks date back to high school! some were notes during college and some were from spi. i'm really a sentiment freak. i don't even look at them, why keep them? i say throw them all away. my neighbor knows a recycling shop nearby so all those junk will have a bright future ahead of them. good for them. :) and good for us too. just a good way to end the year. rubbish-free. :)

if not time, then attention... if not attention, then what?

...

on candles

minsan, ang kandila hyper. matindi magningas. siguro dahil dun sa mahabang mitsa. ang liwanag! ang laki ng apoy. parang nagsasayaw. malikot. masigasig. kahit merong hanging bumubuga-buga, hindi madaling mamatay. ganadong ganadong mag give light at magningning! kelangan mo ng todong effort to make a big blow bago sya ma-dead.

minsan naman, ang kandila low batt. siguro dahil halos parang nilalamon na ng kandila yung mitsa. yumyum ba. todo flicker weakly ang light. will it die? or will it not die? kahit anong gawin mong takip at pag-iwas sa hangin, wala, namamatay din. minsan nga, ayaw na sumindi e. in that case, useless na ang kandila. patapon na.

pero 'di naman laging hopeless case yun e pag ayaw sumindi. minsan kelangan mo sunugin yung kandila mismo para lumabas yung mitsa... remedyo ba. ganun naman ang buhay eh. remedyuhan lang ang mga pagkukulang, tapos ok na ulit. tapos, liliwanag na ulit. minsan. minsan, hindi rin.

what's with the candle? ewan ko. parang ako siguro...

survey

1.anong gusto mong itawag sa iyo?
- caths, cat

2.anong oras kang natutulog sa gabi?
- sa umaga, 11am

3.ano gusto mo, sports o arts?
- pareho

4.ilang beses kang kumain sa isang araw?
- three..

5. ano ang nagpapasaya sa araw mo?
- maliliit na bagay, malalaking bagay na kasiya-siya

6. umiinom ka ba ng beer?
- pwede na rin

7. madali ka bang masaktan?
- super

8. pano ka nagpapapansin sa crush mo?
- hihi... i'm too shy to let him know i exist

9. mahal mo ba kaibigan mo?
- butopkors

10. wat turns u off?
- mayabang

11. naranasan mo na bang magmahal ng isang
tao na d ka mahal?
- yuh

12. sa tingin mo ba meron kang secret
admirer?
- wala siguro

13. panu mo malalaman kung mahal mo na?
- pag naiinis na ko pag di sya nagpaparamdam

14. close ka ba sa mommy mo?
- yuf

15. eh mga kapatid mo?
- uu

16. ano fave mong gawin kapag may free time
ka?
- makinig music, manood tv, mag internet

17.masasabi mo bang kumpleto na ang buhay
mo ngayon?
- there are certain things na medyo kulang pa pero pwede namang wala. :) ibigay or hindi, hindi sasama ang loob ko hihi. ay kulang pa pala... wala pa kong anak e

18. masarap bang magmahal?
- soper

19. pano ka magselos?
- "sige kayo na lang kaya?!? babye" sabay irap

apart but not torn apart

wishing you all the best in life... wishing you all the best in love. i swear, i wouldn't approve of long distance relationships ever. but there's no guarantee that what happened to me will happen to juan and maria. :)

maybe there's a love that gets weak over time. maybe there's a love that doesn't get contented and wanders away. maybe it's not love after all. but there's also a love that's as sturdy as bamboo, just sways along with the challenges and gets stronger in the midst of chaos.

being apart doesn't necessarily mean you'll be torn apart. it's just a phase. i'll be there with you in your happy ending... and maybe, eveybody might just live happily ever after... distance or no distance. together forever. dick and carmi. whatever.

moments and oh moments

multinational village trip/lcg renewal

mark, ate estrella, joycha, and i headed to the holy eucharist parish in moonwalk for the yearly lcg renewal. we decided to just hail a tricycle and use the multinational village route to get there instead of the longer way - via sucat road. so we asked this tricycle driver if he knew where the holy eucharist parish was. he said yes. we took the long journey. after many lefts and rights, we realized we're kinda lost and that manong tric didn't know where we were going. syet. anyway, we found the church at long last and we were still early for the event.

the seminar was rather informative, not really boring. thanks to the good speaker and good company, everything went out well.

oh moment: oh! i saw monty in the rest room! i didn't know she was in the lcg. it was good to see her. :)

ang pananghalian (or merienda na?)

it was mikey's mom's and dad's birthday party last saturday. mom and i were invited. i got home from the renewal at around 1230 and mom and i rushed to imus for the lunch. yes, lunch at 2pm. the food was great. the people were great. and it was a heart-warming sight to see mikey introduce my mom and i to his relatives. there were good realizations and it's nice to hear those words from my mom.

oh moment: oh! i finally met the friend - M... the famous M. i don't know what to say. pleased to meet you? maybe.

ang handaan ni donya mary

lola mary, our fammily friend and neighbor, celebrated her 75th birthday in the magsaysay hall along roxas boulevard. it was a sosyaling event. all her siblings from the states were there to grace the event. she looked really elegant in her maroon beaded gown. but what is elegance without bliss? with all her family and friends there, i could testify that she IS happy that night. when (and IF) i turn 75, i want to be as happy as donya mary. :)

oh moment: wala naman hehe.

manibela at ligaw

wawin gave me driving lessons yesterday. sa multi sana, kaso this manong rude guard didn't let us go in the village. fine. iyo na yan. we went to manila memorial instead. first to visit papa-yo and lolo-yo and lola-yo and then to practice driving na. yes. very "challenging" ang lesson na ito. bwahaha ... practice na practice. manila memorial ba naman e. sus. and then we headed off to fort estate to get kuya's atm from lui.

oh moment: oh syet! naligaw kami! as in super ligaw. do maps expire? hahaha expired na ata ang map namin. or hindi lang kami marunong tumingin... syet na map yan.

on dreams and visions

i've had surreal dreams for the past three nights. the dreams range from peaceful calamities (however weird that sounds), to getting lost, to making out (that's not weird), to asking favors from a city mayor who used to be a chicharong bulaklak vendor, to switching mothers, and to solitaires in a wooden house.

weird dreams aren't destructive, i think, but a regular dose of them doesn't put me in a feel-good state either. i woke up in a rather uneasy and heavy state for the past three days... which later on resulted to headeaches. argh.

for that reason, i now keep track of my dreams. who knows, somebody is trying to tell me something... when i wake up, i get my cell phone and jot down keywords of the dreams i had and then when i get to the office (talagang sa office ginagawa ito e no!), i make a detailed account of the dream... voila, a dream blog. make that a secret dream blog. who would ever be interested in reading somebody else's dreams and subconscious contents (or crap?!)? hehe.

There's a Right Time for Everything

There's an opportune time to do things,
a right time for everything on the earth:

A right time for birth and another for death,
A right time to plant and another to reap,
A right time to kill and another to heal,
A right time to destroy and another to construct,
A right time to cry and another to laugh,
A right time to lament and another to cheer,
A right time to make love and another to abstain,
A right time to embrace and another to part,
A right time to search and another to count your losses,
A right time to hold on and another to let go,
A right time to rip out and another to mend,
A right time to shut up and another to speak up,
A right time to love and another to hate,
A right time to wage war and another to make peace.

Ecclesiastes 3:1-8 The Message

... my question, though, is when? :(

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on river wild and laser discs

monday morning, nothing to do, chanced upon river wild showing on hbo. and i was instantly glued to the couch/tv screen. it was a film i've seen so many years ago... roughly more than 10 years ago! i was so young then! it's a good film - heart pumping and adventurous. and i read just now that meryl streep did most of her stunts in that film. amazing actress. if i were trapped in that situation? what would i have done? sus... parang ang lakas ko e no!



speaking of ages ago, i recall this was one of the films i've seen on laser disc pa! it was the hype after the betamax and vhs eras. according to wikipedia, "The laserdisc (LD) was the first commercial optical disc storage medium, and is used primarily for the presentation of movies." ok very informative hahaha! well, i remember it looked like a compact disk, only it wasn't compact! LOL! actually it was about a foot in diameter! geez! this medium was gigantic! and the only laserdisc rental place i know back then was in makati cinema square! and papa would bring home these square silver plastic bags that contained the dozens of laser discs he rented from that shop. was it apple or the logo was apple? something like that...

my father was an advocate of home-viewing and super loud sound systems. the funny thing is, our neighborhood is infested by millions of tricycles and i swear, when we're viewing a film at home, you could forget about the irritating tricycle sounds! my papa's sound system could be heard even from a good distance hahaha!

happy shalala

di naman mukhang happyng happy si kuya hehe... this is the usual weekend setup, a family conference call via skype. kulitan lang. kumustahan. hehe.

we miss this guy so much.

survey #13

1. In one sentence, explain what ended your last relationship:
-infidelity

2. What made you smile today?
-hmm... talking with mikey about timpi

3. What were you doing this morning at 8 a.m.?
-talking with mom

4. What were you doing 15 minutes ago?
-sleeping

5. Something that happened to you in 1986?
-my baby brother was born

6. Your prom night?
-hmmm... overnight with kada

7. Last thing someone else said to you?
-"sabihin ko hinahanap mo?"

8. What was your answer?
-sige

9. Worst thing currently on television:
-ewan

10. What was in the mail today?
-bills

11. How many different beverages have you drank today?
-2 lang

12. What is your favorite part of the day?
-sunrise... and i don't see it often

13. Your current To-do list?
-hmm... mag test

14. Where is your best friend right now?
-ewan ko

15. What color is your toothbrush?
-green

17. Any plans for Friday night?
-wala e. pumasok

18. Least favorite place to shop?
-hmmm... dunno

19. things you bought today?
-chicken mcdo

20. Last gift you received?
-hikaw

21. Funniest thing that happened all day?
-walang funny

22. Favorite mug?
-wala rin

23. What color is your front door?
-brown

24. Describe your keychain:
-silver sya

26. What was the weather like on your graduation day?
-sunny

27. Last ice cream flavor?
-buko pandan? yak

28. Last rainbow you saw
-a few months ago

29. Something you are excited about?
-my christmas vaca!

survey #12

THE PAST 24 HOURS HAVE YOU.

1.) Cried:
-no

2.) Worn jeans:
-yep

3.) Met someone:
-ay wala

4.) Done laundry:
-no

5.) Talked on the phone:
-yeba

6.) Kissed someone:
-no... ang tagal na!

7.) Said I love you:
-yeah

DO YOU BELiEVE iN

8.) Yourself:
-sometimes

9.) Your friends:
-yes

10.) Tooth Fairy:
-no

11.) Second chances:
-no... a big no

FRiENDS AND LiFE

12.) Do you ever wish you had another name?
-no

13.) Do your friends like you?
-sabi nila... like ko rin sila hihi

14.) Which one of your friends acts the most like you?
-hmmm... most of them are like me.. tawa nang tawa

15.) What's the best feeling in the world?
-being with someone you love

WHiCH iS BETTER

16.) Chocolate or vanilla?
-chocolate

17.) Coke or Pepsi:
-coke

18.) Love or Lust:
-pareho hihi

19.) Sprite or 7UP:
-Sprite

21.) Blonde Guys or Brunette Guys:
-ayaw

23.) Movies or Dinners:
-movies

24.) Night or Day:
-gabi

THE LAST TiME YOU

28.) Showered:
-10/18 7pm

29.) Cried:
-last week?

WHO

30.) Makes you smile?
-marami

31.) Who makes you laugh no matter what:
-hmmm... marami rin

32.) Has a crush on you:
-ewan

33.) Are you in love right now?:
-yea

DO YOU EVER

34.) Sit by the phone waiting for a phone call?
-yup

35.) Save IM conversations:
-hmmm.. work related lang

36.) Wish you were someone else:
-nope

37.) Wish you were a member of the opposite sex:
no. eeww

39.) Got online for longer than eight hours at a time
yeba

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON

40.) That you saw.?
-maricor?

41.) You talked to?:
-maricor

42.) You hugged?:
-mikey?

43.) You instant messaged?:
-jana

44.) You messaged on myspace?:
-si eric?

45.) You yelled at?:
-hmmm. win

46.) You thought about?:
-si win

47.) You loved?:
-si mikey

DO YOU?

48.) Color your hair?:
-no

49.) Have tattoos?:
-ala

50.) Have piercings?:
-thenga lang

51.) Own more than 10 pairs of flip flops?
-hindi

52.) Like someone?
-yeah

53.) Hate someone?
-oo ata eh

54.) Have any money on you?
-yeah

55.) Play any sports?
-no ngayon

survey #11

ten ten ten

TEN EMOTIONS.
1. are you missing someone right now? yes
2. are you happy? yes
3. are you talking to anyone right now? sa ym
4. are you bored? and sleepy
5. are you german? no
6. are you irish? no
7. are you spanish? no
8. are you asian? yes
9. are your parents still married? pag byuda si mama, married pa rin ba yun?


TEN FAVORITES.
1. televison show: prison break!
2. flower: roses na lang
3. color: lilac
4. sport: swimming
5. mall: kahit saan
6. music: depende rin sa mood
7. food: may sabaw, pagkaing pampista hehe
8. seasons? summer!
9. animal: dog
10. state: ewan

TEN FACTS.
1. hometown: parañaque
2. hair color: brown
3.perfume: light blue
4. hair style: layered?
5. eye color: brown
6. shoe size: 5
7. mood: sleepy
8. skin color: brown?
10. lefty/righty: righty

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE.

1. have you ever been in love? uu
2. do you believe in love? oo nman
3. are you taken? oo?
4. have you ever been heartbroken? yup
5. have you ever broken someone's heart? i don't know baka kebs lang haha
6. have you ever fallen for one of your best friends? nung nakaraan, oo
7. have you ever liked someone but never told them? yes... sniff
8. are you afraid of commitment? hindi naman
9. has someone ever kissed your hand? yes
10. have you ever had a secret admirer? hewan ko

TEN THINGS: THIS OR THAT.
1. love or trust: hmmm... pareho siguro
2. hard liquor or beer: hard
3. night or day: day
4. one night stands or relationships: relationships
5. television or internet: internet
6. pepsi or coke: coke
7. wild night out or romantic night in: wild night out
8. colored pictures or black and white colored
9. phone or in person: in person
10. friendster or myspace: friendster

TEN HAVE Y0U EVER's.
1. have you ever been caught sneaking out? no
2. have you ever skinny dipped? oh yeah! the best!
3. have you ever done something you regret? yes
4. have you ever bungee jumped? i'd love to
5. have you ever been on a house boat? not yet
6. have you ever finished an entire jaw breaker? huh?
7. have you ever wanted someone so badly it hurt? yes
9. have you ever danced in the rain? yes!
10. have you ever had a hang over? hindi pa ata

getting better

history 101: i never had problems getting along with the ex's mother-father-brother-sister-how-do-you-brush-your-teeth a.k.a FAMILY. in fact, up to now, i still get in touch with the mother - i more fondly call nanay. i got along well, in fact, i felt really accepted and loved and wanted from the first time we met up to this moment. the father is a seaman and is super maboka and funny man.

with the current: the mother is a-ok, equally welcoming and heart-warming as the ex's mother and i feel like i've known her for the longest time. the father? is a seaman and is currently home for a couple of months. i was certain i didn't want to meet him. thanks to the current's (na itatago ko sa pangalang mikey) not-so-positive feedback about him.

i was afraid to meet him for the first time 3 weeks ago. i was terrified that i might be rejected and unwanted. whoever wants to feel rejected? i asked, "pwede bang wag ko na lang sya i-meet?" i felt i just might cry of humiliation if i were shown even a tiny hint of rejection or i-don't-want-you-looks. and he said, "out of the question"... yeah i know. i had to meet him. really, really had to meet him.

so for 3 consecutive weekends, i was meeting with the parents (particularly with the father). here are some signs things are getting better... from good, that is. :)

weekend 1: i felt there was a high level of ilang factor. i was addressed indirectly, as if speaking with me, but statements were coursed via the mother and the son... he couldn't call me by name... hahaha! as in he was referring to me as "ano". super funny. i wasn't offended but i felt equally ilang. i think i understand where he's coming from - having to meet his only son's girlfriend for the first time. no sour faces though. which was really good... more of ilang lang siguro and shy.

weekend 2: getting a little at ease... he called me catherine. full name. the only times i'm called catherine: a. job interview, b. business matters at work, c. the newest addition to the list - when meeting the bf's father for the first time. haha! nick names could come later. i didn't remember if we had a direct conversation, but things were definitely more comfortable this time around. now, i have a name. i'm not "ano" anymore.

weekend 3: hey, he spoke with me! for a couple of times! and i'm positive he addressed those statements to me directly! nice. and he called me cat! now, that's what i call super heart-warming...

i wanted to make pingot mikey for scaring me about this whole meet-my-dad-thing. he's not stern as i thought he might be. in fact i think he's really nice. i'm not the maboka and ma p.r. type, but i slowly manage to be in good terms with the dad - who's someone like me too, i guess... not too much of the talkies type... but not rude. i'm not certain what things run through his head, but i'd rather not know. for now, i'm contented with the positive signals he's showing me. after all, the son says, "like ka nya". and that's all i need to hear and know. :)

busy no more - for a while

for the past few weeks, we've been pretty hyped up at the office. tasks here and there... make that super urgent tasks. can't eat on time, can't have rest room breaks, can't chat, can't do any thing that's outside the scope of work. hehe. too bad.

today is a new day, the major task was put on hold to, first of all, gather the correct requirements from the client... which should have been the first step. hehehe.

oh well... a couple of flashbacks:

how i felt so terrified to meet someone for the first time. i was hoping i could get away with it, not meet him at all, but the day came and we had to meet. he referred to me as "ano". as in, "ihahatid pa natin si ano". i wanted to laugh out loud, but thought it was better not to. harharhar... last sunday, he was able to utter my name - which is a good progress. we'll see.

wawin is the family driver now. make that family student driver :) kuya has been gone for a couple of weeks now and wawin is learning really fast. i tried to drive a little.. and i was just too weak to go on with it. another we'll see. hehe.

last sunday, we visited a new born niece, brien. she was born premature at 8 months and last sunday marked her supposed to be 9th month. just a thought. when somebody asks, "ilang months na sya?" is the answer 9 months? or 1 month? hmmm...

galit sa 'kin si mungmong...

no, not the kitty-mungmong... the real mungmong, as in wawindawiwi-win-erwin-mungmong. he asked me to print a 4-page report at the office since our printer ink dried up ages ago, and we have no plans of replacing the cartridge anytime soon. he was supposed to bring this report to school today. he painstakingly reminded me a dozen times before i left for work last night. when i got to the office, i opened my email and confirmed to him that i got the report and it's ready for printing.

after a stressful 8-hour work time, silly me obviously forgot about the report. i was already in baclaran this morning when i remembered. it was a shrieking sound in my ear when it hit me. and there were tiny streaks of light that flashed through my eyes. shucks. the report. i'm dead.

what the heck, i thought i couldn't get back to the office, i'm so, so, so, so tired. i'll just look for the nearest internet shop in our neighborhood. there's one that's super near, but i'm doubtful they're open at 8am.

i got in the house and saw win, playing this monster thing at the pc. i told him i forgot, and i'm so sorry, and volunteered to accompany him to the internet shop. he smiled a fake smile and told me nevermind, he'll figure out a way when he gets to school. and he never talked to me again.

teka ako ang ate ah. bakit parang pinaparusahan ako? linsyak na bata ito. i said i'm sorry! and the last time he asked me to do this kind of favor, i did it right. it's just that things are heavy-flowing at work. (do i hear excuses? i do!)

puwes, manonood ako ng prison break mag-isa! manood ka rin mag-isa mo! 'di tayo bati! wala akong prison break buddy this week, fine! hmp

mungmong

meet mungmong, the new baby in the house. :) there was this big, white cat who brought her new born kittens in our house. we kept the black one - mungmong. it was win's nickname when he was still a baby... and i decided to use that name for this cute, little kitten. despite win's wild protests of using that name, everybody calls the black kitten mungmong now. hehehe.

countdown: 4 days

4 days to go... and kuya's out of here. woke up at 7:30 PM and i passed by his room. he's home early and he's starting to pack his things.

it's a sad sight - kuya filling in a black backpack with some of his shirts, some pillow cases, and a few more kuya-stuff. and i just told him, "aww...". he replied, "ma-mi-miss mo ba ko?". "hindi," i lied. and left him to hide tiny tears.

no superman part 2

i've always found strength in my mikey. he works on weekdays and attends classes on saturdays. plus extra-curricular activities i.e., watching the UAAP, spending time with me, and sometimes going out with his friends on weekends. he's as strong as a horse... i swear!

and i find him invulnerable to pain and sickness. he only gets sick of colds or cough or mild fever, and that's it. he gets tired from time to time but i know he has the strength to get by no matter how tiring his activities are. aba dapat lang. with his appetite, super solid ang mga trip nyang ulam e no!

while i'm lame and payatot, i think he's leaner and mightier. while i'm a cry baby and immature, i think he's sensible and mature and objective. while i have no bilbil at all as in flat tummy, i think his bilbil is so big eeeww yak (wehehe dead ako neto. of course, i'm joking 'cause i do have eeeww bilbil). while i'm moody and impatient and sungit, he's the suyo-kita and ever patient type. see, he's really strong! makes me think sometimes that he's a super mega hyper creature.

pero... as i've made my point on my latter post, i have to keep in mind that he's just human too... and he does get sick, and his body doesn't function at its optimum level at all times, and he's also rushed to the hospital just like any human being who feels unwell, and i can't get to his side always, and the only thing i could guarantee is that he's thought of so much and i'm worried as hell, and i get misinterpreted by other people for not being there at a time like that, and i can't keep telling them that i'll be there if only i could, and i'm judged like hell... just because they don't know me. well tell you what, i don't know you too so don't give me that crap - and they're probably drunk. and i get helpless too just like a regular human being. 'cause after all, i'm no superman too. :(

no superman part 1

the elderly couple lolo heny and lola felicing are our quasi-relative, friendly neighbors. they have always been here for us, acting like boy ang girl scouts. we don't even have to ask for their help 'cause their hands are just there always extended by default. all we need to do is grab them.

lolo heny has always been our landscape artist. naks. that simply means he takes care of the plants surrounding our house. he loves plants and flowers and it is his pleasure to arrange and take care of our plants. everything is lush and pretty. oh, he does this knowing he gets nothing in return - nothing but sheer bliss that is the product of his tending to green life.

growing old means certain body parts will eventually fail to function as expected. for lolo heny's case, his gall bladder (if i remember it right) is failing. he was rushed to the hospital for an operation that almost took his life. thank God he's now getting well in his daughter's house in muntinlupa.

it was here that we visited him last sunday, and what i saw devastated me. the usual upbeat, mestizo lolo heny is now so thin. there's a tube that's connected to his stomach that secretes the bile. he manages to walk, but it is very evident that it's not easy for him. top it all with words that signify he's almost giving up. he said hirap na hirap na sya. and i'm not used to hearing pessimistic words from him.

when somebody is constantly there, you don't notice that they're just people who are also subject to wear and tear, that they get weak over time, and that no matter how wonderful and great their souls are, they're no superman at all. that's what makes us human after all. we bleed, we cry, we learn to say good bye, and we adapt once we are left behind - no matter how painful the whole process is.

i will root

in tagalog... uugatan na ako paghihintay... betchabygollywow naman 2AM na! kanina pa ko 9PM naghihintay naman naman.

ni-message ko sa IM, mga 10x na. itago na lang natin sya sa pangalang estregun. "hi, estregun". magfo-follow-up lang naman ako ng fixes sa issues para matapos na to... hindi nya ko pinapansin. :( 10x na ko nag "hi, estregun" i swear! dine-deadma nya ko! since last week pa.

tapos, nag-email ako ng issues... dinedma nya rin! betchaby talaga... dumarami lalo varicose veins ko eh... waaah! natatamad na ko maghintay!

mapapanood ako ng manhunt nyan... eto na malapit na... natetempt na ko... argh...

si kuya

kuya's leaving... soon. he finally got what he's been hoping and praying for. either that, or God granted my birthday wish - that He give what kuya is asking for, if that will be the best for him. or maybe, God listened to us both. we're equally loved then. :) as if there are favorites, duh! hehe.

kuya has been eyeing this good opportunity. he says it's about time he prepare for his future and he really wants to marry his gf soon. i'm so proud of him for having been transformed into someone i could look up to. he's changed over the years to become a man i could proudly refer to as, "kuya ko yan!".

as younger kids, we used to fight a lot. he was the antagonist, i was the underdog. he was the teaser, i was the cry-baby. i dunno if it had something to do with him being older, and with him being male, but we definitely were cats and dogs back then. and they were always on my side. who wouldn't be touched and comfort a crying tiny girl? and who wouldn't look down and point their fingers on a bad bully? hehehe...

despite all those fights, i could never forget that time when we were playing taguan with our neighbor playmates. i might have been the youngest among the pack, thus the slowest and the weakest weakling - that meant i had to be IT for the longest time! i just can't catch anybody! or make it to base before they do! and i was teary-eyed... just too tired of being IT, i guess. kuya noticed that i was all upset and he volunteered to be IT, and he took my post. awww. my big brother. my savior.

i could tell him everything, i could ask him anything. although there's still this wall of personal space, i know it's something we won't mind breaking or trespassing.

it hasn't really penetrated my system yet, the part that processes the major changes of life, but everyday i know we're getting there. and i can't help but feel a tinge of sadness too. i guess he's the next best thing to the father i never had and we've been pretty close now that we're older. we learned to share the same interests and i swear kuya is the type of person who could convince me to buy a jacket in a desert, or have a halo-halo in a snowstorm. :( i just believe in him, agree with him, and i know that his systems work. and yeah, he's earned my respect over the years.

oh, but he hasn't earned my love... you see, it's one thing that's innate. i'll miss you, big, silly, smelly guy! :( fly high but never fail to look back. keep our love in your pockets and it might just do you more wonders. have more faith in God and have more optimism. i think you have to work a little overtime for those two fields. above all, be a good boy and never ever forget to make your presence felt always. i luvya so much!

happy 2nd year anniversary...

sa blog ko! woohoo!

2 years of every emotion imaginable. :) i guess this is my longest running journal. sometimes, i manage to filter raging emotions into artsy words... sometimes i don't. hahaha... it is during those times i somehow regret how i say things. hehehe. like, did i just say that? but hey... i know i have the power to delete posts... edit the way i say things to make them sound subtle. but i don't. hehe maybe i just choose to say those... no matter how bitchy i may sound. sheesh. hehe. that is, after all, how i really feel. :)

and when i feel happy, i REALLY portray that i am happy. proofs are my sometimes overly exaggerated elated posts. to the highest level ba... hehe.

everything started out as a gaya-gaya stuff... with my college buddies. it so happened that, back then, i had a lot of hurt emotions that i had to let out. :) so blog it is. sige mega pour out ng mga emotions chuva na kaartehan ko lang naman din siguro. hehe. i think up to now, every single post e kaartehan ko lang din. hihi. life is a big piece of kaartehan... that's what i believe in. take away kaartehan, and you take away the colors of life. :)

btw, the hot pink sakit-sa-mata layout is the original layout. nothing's changed. except for the tadtad-mukha-ko pictures... hehe. i'll probably keep it this way... for a long time. :)

i choose to be positive

sabi ni aling merriam at ni manong webster, ang positive at negative ay nangangahulugang,
positive: 'pä-z&-tiv, 'päz-tiv - having a good effect : FAVORABLE (a positive role model) b : marked by optimism

negative: 'ne-g&-tiv - lacking positive qualities; especially : DISAGREEABLE b : marked by features of hostility, withdrawal, or pessimism that hinder or oppose constructive treatment or development (a negative outlook) (negative criticism)

i know i sometimes have my crazy spells of pessimism. and i have no excuse for moments like that. how lame could PMS sound? yeah. maybe i could choose to be so in control of my hormones. and maybe i could choose to be so in control of my outlook in life.

if there's one thing i recall in tuesdays with morrie by mitch albom, it's how morrie said we should deal with sadness. first, acknowledge the feeling of sadness... grieve and cry if you must. and then give it you best shot and say, "ok i know now how it feels to be sad. it's now time for me to give way to my other emotions... like happiness maybe?". and then smile. :)

i was watching magandang umaga bayan (or is the title magandang umaga pilipinas?) this morning, and there was this very interesting topic on staying optimistic and keeping the negative vibrations off limits to your life.

i'll do my best to recall the stuff they enumerated. i think it's really neat piece of information. something i could read everyday... to ward off whatever evil forces there are that try to contain caths. :)

tips:

iwasang maging materialistic

iwasang maging competitive

patawarin ang iyong sarili at ang kapwa mo

sa simula ng bawat araw (gabi for my case), magpasalamat para sa bagong araw at sa mga biyayang natatanggap mo

bago matulog, bilangin ang mga magagandang bagay na nangyari sa 'yo. kung wala, isipin ang mga magagandang bagay na pwedeng mangyari sa 'yo bukas

humarap sa salamin, sabihin mong, "ang ganda ko naman ngayon!"

pag may lumait sa hitsura mo, isipin mo na lang na maaaring may problema sya, or "ok lang, maganda naman ako." (isipin mo lang, kse kung ilalakas mo, baka mag-away kayo)

* items in red font are my favorites! :)

i'm not saying that there'll be 0% negative posts on my blog. that would be my way of acknowledging the sadness... the moving on part follows, hopefully! :)

overheard...

from my baby kapitbahay... while bidding farewell to his dad who's leaving for work:

baby: pa, wag ka magmatagal ha! magmadali ka ha!
papa: opo

awwww... cute. :)

mikey and the pupu

last saturday, mikey was here at home. we were supposed to go out but i managed to lure him to just stay here at the house and bum around. mom and cecil went to SM to buy some stuff. kuya was upstairs watching dvds. win was at school. and we were downstairs watching tv and sleeping.

around 6pm, caths and mikey became hungry. so mikey called shakey's and had pizza and mojos delivered here at home. after more than an hour (darn service sucks), the pizza boy arrived and mikey went out to get the foodie. when he went back to the house, he didn't notice he stepped on this cat pupu... eeew! hey that's my slippers he's using! and there was cat pupu everywhere... talk about yucky sight and yucky smell.

caths: nakatapak ka ng pupu! yak!
mikey: syet! kuha ka ng basahan biliiiiis!
* and i was like, ok... what's with the panic mode? but i went ahead to look for a basahan.
mikey: bilisan mo, baby!
caths: teka, naghahanap na nga e!

finally i found one. he ran to get it, moisten it, and in no time at all, he was running around the house like a mad man to wipe off the crap. totally taranta talga...

caths: ano ba? bat ka ba natataranta?
* no answer... continues with his hell-like linis movement
* caths annoyed

mikey: alcohol! penge alcohol
caths: bat ka ba ganyan? ok lang yan wag ka magmadali

* mikey ignores caths and goes ahead to make wisik the floor with alcohol. hello basbasan ba ang bahay namin? blessing ba itu?

i dunno what's with the taranta moves but he simply said he didn't want my mom to go home and find the house in disarray... and i was like, ok lang naman yun, di ka naman papagalitan. but he insisted on having the mess cleaned up. whatever.

the moment he finished the clean-up, inis na ko. he washed his hands, grabbed me in the kitchen area, and told me he's sorry for acting taranta, he's just not used to messing around in somebody else's home. haha... sya pa nagsorry for having cleaned up my place. funny. and sure enough, after a few minutes, mom and cecil arrived. he just winked and told me "i told you so". duh, para namang papahiya sya ng mom ko for spreading cat pupu no! kulit... :) but cute.

impressions

last friday, a few hours before heading off home, the office girls didn't have that much office work to do. so we were doing our usual activity - magbrowse ng mga tao sa friendster - after all, that IS our only form of social life. poor earthlings. don't deprive us of that. hihihi.

so there we were, making the usual comments, "ganda ni ano", "ay di kagandahan", "bat ganun yung ano nya?". the works...

then, there was this agent guy who went to the IT room (this is our room too) to ask for a headset from john and alex (2 other IT guys). he was kinda friendly. a few minutes passed... and then we totally forgot he was in the room.

maria (aka maricor) was browsing wolf's (not his real name) friendster. we have this thing for wolf's gf... as in we find her really pretty and cute and we swear if we were a guy, we'll hit on her. hehe. all of a sudden, maria blurted out, "ate maj, eto yung gf ni wolf na gusto naming tirahin ni caths".

note... at this point, the friendly agent-asking-for-headset guy is still in the room. imagine the shock he might have experienced when he heard that. at the corner of my eye, i saw him glanced wildly at our direction. hehehe... "crazy lesbians" he might have thought. great impression. hanep. hihi.

survey #10

1.Like to walk in the rain?
**yep..

2.Sleep with or without clothes on?
**with clothes.. kahit onti lang hehe

3.Prefer black or blue pens?
**black..

4.Dress up on Halloween?
**yeah... white lady

5.Like to travel?
**yeah..

6.Like someone?
**oh yeah

7.Do they know?
**don't think so...

8.Sleep on your side?
**yup

9.Think you're attractive?
**gosh... hindi naman hehe

10.Want to marry?
**yup some day

11.With Who?
**with the right man

12.Alaska or Hawaii?
**hawaii..

13.Are you a good student?
**i tried to be a good one... hehe

14.Are you involved in sports? right now?
**nope

15.Christmas or Halloween?
**christmas

17.Colored or black-and-white photo?
**colored

18.Do long distance relationships work?
**no... not for me

19.Do you believe in astrology?
**only if it says what i want to hear haha

20.Do you believe in God?
**yeah...

21.Do you believe in love at first sight?
**no

22.Do you consider yourself the life of the
party?
**no.. i'm the laugher.. laugher?

23.Are u an outgoing person?
**not so on the first meeting

24.Do you have a job?
**yes

25.Do you make fun of people?
**yeah.. not naman pahiya... like okray lang mahina lang.. na napapalakas minsan. is that bad?

26.Do you think dreams eventually come true?
**some of them

27.Fave thing to do?
**sleep... spend time with my loved ones

28.Favorite musician?
**mosiko ba ito?

29.Fave. breakfast food?
**tuyo, sunny side up, fried rice

30.Chocolates or Candy?
**choclates

31.Fave. person?
**my mom...

32.Favorite body part of the opposite gender?
**hands siguro... pdeng hawakan anywhere anytime :)... feels good

34.Go to the movies or rent?
**movies

35.Have you ever moved?
**not yet

36. How's the weather right now?
**just right

38.Hug or kiss?
**kiss

39.Last person you talked to on the phone?
**mikey

40.Last time you showered?
**kagabi

41.Loud or soft music?
**soft

42.McDonalds or Burger King?
**mcdo...

43.More romantic baths or shower?
**baths

44.Night or day?
**day

45.Number of pillows on ur bed?
**3

46.Piano or guitar?
**piano

47.Read or write?
**both

48.Single or taken?
**taken

49.Snow or water?
**watEr...

50.What are you doing tomorrow?
**spend time with mikey

51.what clothes are you wearing?
**jeans, shirt

52.What do you drink?
**iced tea, strawberry shake, pde na rin sanmig... learning to


53.What makes you puke?
**drinking too much, brushing my tongue too much

54.What's on your computer screen?
**wentworth miller

55.What's right next to you?
**maricor to my left, blank to my right.. hehe blank

56.What's your bedtime? weekdays?
**11am

57.What's your name backwards?
**enirehtac

58. When do you get up in the morning?
**uh... 9pm

59.Who do you talk to the most online?
**beth?

survey #9

1. Start Time : 509AM
2. Name: caths
3. Nickname: caths
4. If u wer a skittle wat color wud u be: purple
5. Chinese Zodiac: monkey
6. Zodiac: leo
7. Hair color: dark brown
8. Eye color: dark brown
9. Height: 5 ft
10. Favorite Color: light violet... lilac ba
11. glasses?: none
12. Braces?: none
13. Piercing/tattoos?: on ears lang
15. Area code: 02

******HAVE YOU EVER******
17. Cut your own hair?: eyebrows
18. Did you do something in the past month
that you regret? no naman
20. Kissed someone who isn't ur gf or bf?:
oh yeah
21. Skipped school?: yeah
22. Bungee jumped?: i'd love to
23. Had sex outside?: not yet
24. Dumped someone?: dunno
25. Been arrested?: not yet
26. TP'd someone's house?: anong TP?
27. Won something?: yes - a blender
30. Been rejected?: yes
31. Been to a funeral?: yes
32. Used a lighter?: yes
33. Been on stage?: yes

*****FAVORITE*****

34. Season: summer
35. Food: filipino food... yung may sabaw
36. Ice cream flavor: chocolate... and strawberry na rin
37. School subject(s): don't like one hahaha
38. Person?: my mom
41. Book(s): marami
42. Movie(s): marami rin
43. Song? : marami rin
44. Park?: kahit ano siguro.. basta good company
45. State: state side
46. Place: home
47. Sport to watch: basketball, swimming
49. Bands/musicians: dami e
50. Letter(s): c
51. Restaurant: marami ren e
52. Cartoon Character(s): siguro si elmo hihi pde naman syang cartoon diba
53. TV Station(s): discovery, chaka mga movie ch.

54. Name for a son: allison
55. Name for a daughter: allison

******DO YOU PREFER******

56. Chocolate or Vanilla?: chocolate
58. Long relationships or one night
stands?: long relationship
59. Dogs or cats?: dogs
60. Scary movies or comedies?: comedy
61. Short hair or long: long

62. Croutons or bacon bits?: bacon bits
63. Kissing or hugging: kissing

******FIRST THINGS THAT COME TO
MIND******

64. Mexicans: bigote
65. School: st. paul
66. Grass: green
67. Cow: black and white
68. Canada: my cousin
69. Mouse: mickey
70. Hands: hold hands!

******THE PAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU******

71. Watched a movie?: no
72. Talked on the phone?: yes
73. Cried?: no
74. Threw up?: no
75. Drank a glass of water?: yes
76. Done Drugs?: no
77. Read a book or magazine?: yes
78. Watched TV?: yes
79. Looked in the mirror?: yes
80. Taken a shower? yes
81. Taken a picture?: no
82. Listened to music?: yes
83. Kissed someone?: shucks... no! :(
84. Told someone you liked them?: no
85. End time: 518AM

survey #8

L A S T P E R S O N W H O :

1. Sent you a text message:
mikey
2. Saw you cry:
guen and maricor
3. Went to the movies with you?
guen and maricor
4. You went to the mall with?
kuya
5. You went to dinner with?
ang familia ko?
7. Said 'I love you' to you and really meant it?
edi si mikey
8. Broke your heart?
someone from the past
9. Made you laugh?
i can't remember
10.Talked on the phone?
mikey rin

W O U L D Y O U R A T H E R?
1. Pierce your nose or tongue?
nose
2. Be serious or be funny?
funny
3. Drink whole or skim milk?
whole
4. Die in a fire or drown?
drown na lang parang mas hindi masakit
5. Spend time with your parents or worst enemies?
labo... parents

D O Y O U P R E F E R. .
1. Gray or black?
black
2. Colored or Black and white photos?
colored..
3. Lust or love?
hmmm... pwede bot? hehehe
4. Sunrise or sunset?
sunrise ...
5. M&Ms or Skittles?
M&Ms
6.Staying up late or waking up early?
staying up late

A N S W E R T R U T H F U L L Y !!!
1.Do you like anyone?
yup
2. Do they know it?
hindi siguro
3.Then tell me who is she/he?
shy type ako
***************

D O Y O U P R E F E R. .
1. Sun or moon?
sun
2. Winter or Fall?
fall na lang
3. Left or right?
right
4. 10 acquaintances or having two best friends?
2 best friends
5. Sunny or rainy?
sunny... but i'm starting to like rainy season because of my shift
6. Vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream?
chocolate

A B O U T Y O U
1. What time is it?
504AM
2. Name?
caths
3. Nickname(s):
caths
4. What is your birth date?
08/17
5. What do you want? more hours in a day?
no. i think 24 is enough
6. Where do you want to live?
sa hawaii hehe
7. How many kids do you want?
siguro 3
8. You want to get married?
oh yeah. in the near future

U N I Q U E !
2. Are you double jointed?
i don't know what this is
3. Can you roll your tongue?
yeah!
4. Can you raise one eyebrow?
yeah
5. Can you cross your eyes?
yeah

R A N D O M
1. Which shoe goes on first?
right
2. Ever thrown one at someone?
slippers pag naghaharutan kami ng brothers ko

OTHER
1. Do you twirl your spaghetti?
ye
2.Have you ever eaten spam?
ya
3. Favourite ice cream:
chocolate
4. How many kinds of cereal are in your cabinet?
alang cereal
5. What's your favourite non-alcoholic drink?
iced tea

I N T H E L A S T M O N T H , HA V E YO U ?

2. Bought something:
uu
3. Sang:
yeiz
4. Been kissed:
yup
5. Been hugged:
yep...
6. Felt stupid:
yes
7. Missed someone:
yep...
8. Danced crazy:
oh yeah
9. Gotten your hair cut:
nope. i badly need one, though
10. Cried
yep
11. had road rage:
nope
12. Snuck out of the house:
no

survey #7

1. Are you wearing a necklace?
>>nope

2. Do you like someone right now?
>>yup

3. Who is the main person(s) you talk to at
work?
>>maricor, ate maj, beth

5. What color is your shirt?
>> red

7. What song are you listening to?
>>dunno the title ang corny ko

8. What was the last mall you went to?
>>rob place

9. Are you alone?
>>nope

10. Do you have any older siblings?
>>si kuya pogi

11. What is the last thing you ate?
>>tuna sandwich at green tea

12. Who was the last person to come over to
your house?
>>i think my cousin, marlon

13. Who was the last person to call you?
>>si mikey

14. Who was the last person who texted you?
>>si mikey din

16. What should you be doing?
>>working pero alang magawa

17. Who is the last person you sent a
message?
>>si mikey sa cellphone, si thecx sa ym

18. Did you go out to eat yesterday?
>>nope

19. What are you thinking right now?
>>gusto ko na umuwi

20. What color are your shorts?
>>vlue jeans

21. What color is your keyboard?
>>vlack

22. What do you feel like eating/drinking?
>>hmmm... cheese pizza

23. Are you in college?
>>nope

24. What is the last text you wrote?
>>nope

25. Are you bored?
>>nde naman. sleepy lang

26. How many teeth do you have?
>>parang 29

28. Do you wear glasses?
>>nope. i want to

29. What color are your shoes?
>>beige sandals

31. Last thing you drank?
>>green tea

33. Who do you love?
>>marami akong love.

35. What are you doing right now?
>>sagot nito, listen to some strange music

37. Do you know how to spell bananas?
>>mukang

38. What're the last words you said?
>>mukang

39. Do you have clothes on?
>>yup

36. Do you like llamas?
>>no idea

42. Do you have a cut on your pointer finger?
>>nope

43. Where is your cell phone?
>>tabi ng keyboard

44. Do you have any friends named Skyler?
>>nope

46. Do you have any friends named Axel?
>>ala rin

47. Are you afraid of the dark?
>>only after watching a scary movie

48. Did you used to watch "Are you afraid of
the dark"?
>>oh yeah!

49. Does your computer have a mouse?
>>yep

50. What size shoe do you wear?
>>5

rainy days and sardines

it was not that easy getting home this morning.

buses were packed. i was able to find a seat but there was this lady standing in front of me. she has a giant bag and the bag was about an inch from my face, and the bag was almost hitting my face. luckily, it didn't get me. :) the powers of the universe conspired to make the bag NOT hit my face. ;p

fx ride wasn't a giveaway either. there were 2 girls who seemed to be call center agents. why? the accent... the sosy sound... and they were talking loudly. they weren't annoying, though. i actually found them cute and sensible. what's semi-annoying was the traffic along coastal road going to mia road. good thing i was able to involuntarily eavesdrop to the two girls' interesting conversation.

when i got home, as in when i stepped on our doorway, it started to rain. the conspiracy thing is really working my way woohoo!

breakfast was next... mom tried this sardines with spaghetti sauce thing, and i think it's a gorgeous breakfast for a rainy day. conclude it all with a hot mug of chocolate and a morning call from my mikey. purrrrrfect.