thoughts daw

1. Have you said "i love you" today?

♥ nope

2. What's your nickname/s?

♥ cat, caths, katuting

3. How do you calm down when you’re extremely angry?

♥ i take deep breaths, i cry

4. A movie or a long walk in the beach on a date?

♥ long walk

5. A guy/girl comes up to you says "hey babe", you say?

♥ ha?

6. What's first thing you notice in a boy/girl?

♥ eyes

7. Would you ever date someone covered in tats and piercings?

♥ baka hindi

8. Would you want a house at the beach or in the mountains?

♥ beach, i love swimming!

9. What are 2 of your favorite colors?

♥ pink, yellow

10. What time is it right now?

♥ 2:11AM

11. Are you a party animal or someone who prefers to stay in a quiet place?

♥ quiet place... but i like to party too :)

12. Do you prefer dogs or cats?

♥ dogs

13. Would you drive 100 miles for the one you love?

♥ of course

14. Does love really make you act crazy?

♥ hmm, yes

15. Are you brave enough to tell a guy/girl you like him/her?

♥ nope... coward

16. What do you usually do when you're starting to fall for some guy/girl?

♥ i wait

17. If you had a son what would you name him?

♥ haven't thought of it yet. miguel is a good name :)

18. Do you like shrimp or crab better?

♥ mas madaling kainin ang shrimps... kung may magbabalat, pipiliin ko ang crab

19. Who is/are the last person/s you kissed?

♥ beso beso beso - martin at assad

20. Which of your friends do you argue with most?

♥ i don't like arguments

21. Do you think you're attractive?

♥ payat

22. Have you ever flown a kite?

♥ i haven't. now, that's sad.

23. Where is your cellphone?

♥ on my bedside table

24. What was the last thing you put in your mouth?

♥ water

25. What does your last text message say?

♥ 2log na?

26. What's irritating you this very moment?

♥ nothing. it's a good day :)

27. Where is the rest of your family right now?

♥ singapore and philippines

28. How old is your dad?

♥ he should have been 54

29. If you could change your name to anything what would it be?

♥ wala kong maisip ngayon

30. What do you hate most about your school?

♥ uhmm... malayo sa bahay

31. ?

♥ "???????????????????????"

32. What's the first thing you would do with five million dollars?

♥ planuhin kung saan ko ilalaan ang parte parteng pera

33. Next thing you'll spend money on?

♥ i-execute ang plano :)

34. Do you tan easily?

♥ super... ulikba agad

35. if you could have any car what would it be?

♥ something small

36. are you listening to anything right now? what is it?

♥ get me

36. what did you last drank?

♥ water

37. how's life?

♥ life is good!

38. are you frustrated?

♥ hmm, not so

39. what do you want to do right now?

♥ i want to sleep

40. what annoyed you last?

♥ kung bakit ko ginawa yun

my legless, blind gingerbread man

yesterday, paul brought some gingerbreads from the opfikon office. everybody from the opfikon office got one. since we're in altstetten, paul brought some for us. i'm not sure if this has something to do with the feast of st. nicholas. i was hesitant to take one because i know it will go to waste. it was almost a foot long. i could never consume that much bread! he insisted.

here is my gingerbread man, i'll call him alfie. he lies on this neat christmasy napkin on my table. all prepped, hands on his waist. :) head high, all shiny and proud.


time check: 11:00am. alfie is legless. huhuhu. i had to take a bite. i'm starving and lunch seemed a lifetime away. forgive me, alfie. my legless alfie. yet you stand so tall! that's the spirit, alfie!


alfie was born blind - no right eye. poor alfie. and his mouth is like a chick's beak. he has all the imperfections in the world but he will always be my alfie.


time check: 5:30pm. alfie is still in the same state - legless and blind. i asked scott to take him home. he said he could take him home to felicidad. i couldn't just throw him! i wrapped him delicately and put him in a bag. "take him." i sadly said. and he did.

wow. reyna ng drama. harhar.

when i'm sick...

i get weak.
it was definitely not a witty thing to do.
in fact, it was dull... more of stupid.
i'm so embarrassed.
why do i feel this way?
i know perfectly well it has nothing to do with my stupid colds.
why?
what now?

and the song playing now is:
take me out of the dark

hehe. timely.

sun peeks...

spotted: sun peeking from behind the house of parliament in bern. jan and i went to the capital of switzerland, bern, last 10 oct. 2008.

nag-iisa't walang makasama

my brothers were out again. this meant i had to eat all by myself for lunch. i don't mind being alone anymore. got used to it somehow.

for a change, i didn't settle with take-away salat und jogurt that i had to eat at my desk. work load wasn't something i couldn't handle today so i told myself i will have a good, long walk and eat a good meal if i find one place i fancy.

the sun was out! perfect for a walk, though i could still feel the cold wind seeping through my soul. this place is not for humans. this is for penguins! hehe.

and there it was, a diner that looked ok. i badly wanted shawarma but i thought it would be hard to eat it. i am an overly self-conscious person! it's a struggle for me to be alone in public places. i know, i'm weird!

flashback (complete with stardust): the only time i remember i ate alone in public was in atc (during college), while waiting for kuya to fetch me. i had a few hours to kill and i had no choice but to eat alone.

going back to the present time (complete with stardust):
so i had pasta, very convenient to eat! i wasn't at ease for the full 20-ish minutes i was eating. but i made it! i got out and strolled on the sunny street again, like i was the breeze!

when i got back to my work area, i felt very accomplished. i seriously think this is just my 2nd time to eat alone in public (pangatlo ang meryenda ko sa starbucks while waiting for jan and marco). i'll probably have more of this in my lifetime. better start early!

sometimes it's good to eat alone (twice on the same day)

feel na feel ko ang pagiging mag-isa ko ngayong araw na ito. tinawagan ko si kuya marco at ate jan pagdating ko ng bahnhofstrasse. malayo-layo pa sila so sabi ko, stroll muna ako under the christmas lights. enjoy na enjoy ang bata, hanggang nafeel kong todo lamig na! at nag-uubo ako nang walang pasintabi. susme. parang tatrangkasuhin ang pakiramdam ko. nakakita ako ng starbucks at nagmistulang refuge ko ito. hehe. arte.

masarap ang ham and cheese nila. partneran mo ng hot choco. parang meryenda lang sa kanto. :) ayan nasasanay na talaga akong kumain mag-isa. hehehe.

the closest i could get to having that christmas feeling...

is going to bahnhofstrasse and seeing some of the christmas lights ablaze. it's still a bit dull compared to the manila atmosphere, but it's good enough to stir up some christmas spirit!

another moment with me, myself, and i... while waiting for jan and marco :)

sometimes it's good to eat alone

slowly overcoming my fear and disgust of eating alone... :)

sun peeks...

spotted: sun peeking through the gap of 2 buildings. taken during a good time walking alone. i realized lunch time is the only time i could feel the sun!

walking alone

this was my good walk for lunch. i love the time alone and the sunshine!

i get nervous when

people find trivial stuff and make a big fuss about it

people start pointing their fingers on someone - even if it's just a guess. see, a guess could still be wrong!

people start raising their voices

others join the frenzy and talk in equally booming voices

-- as if it's a contest and the louder you talk, the more points you earn

people's sense of hearing is temporarily shut down, the objective is to fire more words in the shortest possible time

and no one wants to concede and admit he's wrong

and people start going to other people's desks digging for evidence

and all i could do is munch on my gum and sync this chewing sound in my ears to the music playing on my player

sometimes i get out of beat... but i pick up just to ease the tension

i am nervous. as i said before, mana ako sa lola kong nerbyosa!

what's good, though, is they go back to their normal bubbly personas after the 8-hour work window. hehe. all good? later maybe

sun peeks...

spotted: sun peeking through the clouds and through my bedroom window. i love it when the sun is this active! :)

yummy

after devouring on the dark side photo museum, we found this cozy coffee shop across the street.

jan i had yummy brownies with chocolate powder and slices of kiwi on top! i've never tasted anything like it (a bit royce-like, i think). i just love it!

it matched perfectly with my hot chocolate-coffee.


good stuff = happy caths. with flowers pa!

dark side

last nov 7, jan and i had another brilliant impromptu move: we went to see the dark side photo museum in winterthur. we saw the museum ad from a magazine while eating in a diner one night.

it was called dark side. and dark it was! dark because the photos they featured are meant to stay in the dark crevices of the mind only. hehehe! it featured photos ranging from fetishes to preferences to desires that were lewd in nature.

of course, they say it's art. ok, but i was a bit shocked with some of the photos. i've never seen such vulgar views!

it was a good experience, though. :) recommendable...

sun peeks...

spotted: sun peeking somewhere in winterthur. :) gotcha!

sun peeks...

i love it when the sun peeks like this!
pic taken somewhere in winterthur when jan and i went to the dark side photo museum.

chocolate

it's a mystery why i seldom buy coffee from starbucks
i gulp down hot choco instead ;p
mind you, it has to be hot and not iced
caramel is a wonderful treat too!

pic taken from starbucks in oerlikon
while waiting for jan
wonder why?
we have only one key to the house
(back then)
now, we have two!

i love hot choco!

jogurt

i love jogurt!

is-now

pic taken from my room window on the first fall of snow. keputi :)

swim under the snow

the weekend was a lazy one. saturday was snowy. we just went for groceries and fought with the snow on our way back home. the rest of the day was spent lazily on bed (playing with my new addiction: weff [thanks to ate josh for introducing]).

sunday was sunny but was still too cold. we were very lazy until kuya bem and tope and kuya jun and ate fritzie and chloe invited us in an indoor swimming pool in rapperswil. swimming is my weakness and no amount of cold could hinder me from having fun in the water. :) it was indoor anyway, so how cold could it be?

it was actually a paradise! i could compare it to ace water spa in the philippines, but this is way much better! they have a pool with big waves - where i drank 100 liters of water :-S but it was all worth the chlorine-y water intake. hehe!

next stop was the outdoor pool. outdoor ba kamo? yep! it was, but the water's too hot you wouldn't feel the biting cold temp outside the water. haay sarap.

then we moved on to the medicated pool. i don't know what stuff they put in there but the water was salty and it sure felt good on the skin. i'm guessing my facial pores all exploded and out came the eeky white heads. haha. so what else is in that pool? :)

they also had these awesome slides. maybe we tried 6 out of 10 and it was pure fun - with all variations of shrieks that i could make. hehe.

and there was the pool that was a quasi-river... literally, you should go with the flow! :) i'm a dead fish naturally and this is a good moment for me.

and then there was snow. :) it started snowing when we were on the outdoor pool. it was very relaxing just lying on the water, gazing up the sky, with flakes falling on your face. almost looked like stars :)

sana ganun lang ang buhay. palangoy-langoy lang, parang walang problema! hehe. on a side note: bakit ang daming nag chuchukchakang labers? gas! so kainggit ha! with the hug hug and kiss kiss atbp. so what else is in that water?!?

it was a perfect way to end the weekend. when we got home, the streets were all covered with snow. picture ever! kaaliw. and then we were dead to the world in our deepest slumbers. saya!

kambal tuko

yes, these crazy girls have identical jackets. we bought it a few months ago. and what's inside the paper bags?

almost the same black jackets. sheesh. these crazy girls!

waiting in vain for my train

@ altstetten train station
waiting for my 5-minute train going home to oerlikon

sunny and tomato-ey at 8 deg

scott and paul and i invented a game that we play everyday. it's called "guess the temperature" haha. saya diba?! pagbigyan. walang mapagkalibangan!

when we buy lunch, we go by the bus stop - there's a board there that says what the temperature is. so we make our most intelligent guesses and then happily check the temp and pat the winner on the back.

scott always wins. but hey, i've had a few lucky guesses! coming from one of the warmer havens on earth, i'm not that bad! :)

today, i said 10 deg because i didn't really feel it was that cold. scott guessed 7. it was 8 deg. he won again. he said i was deceived by the sun! can you believe that, the sun here actually did its job today, that is, to keep me warm. :)

i don't mind being deceived by the sun everyday. it makes me happy. :)

and then off to lunch. i had the usual salad. this time i had the one with the cheese and cherry tomatoes and italian dressing. i love those cherry tomatoes!

scott told me i should try the tomato juice for drinks. he said this goes very good with worcestershire sauce and pepper. weird, i thought. being the kaladkarin me, i said ok.

he paid for the stuff and i put them in my bag. mabigat ang tomato juice. lalo kung ikaw lahat ang magdadala ng 3 pakete. nakngweteng. hahaha. pinawisan ako! di nyo ba alam na payat ako?! hahaha.

and last stop was the fruit stall across migros. bought a couple of bananas. mukhang healthy na ang lunch ko. let me be. it won't last long. when i go back to sg, dating gawi. taba ng baboy kung taba ng baboy. balat ng manok kung balat ng manok. hehe.

so all of those mentioned above are now in my tummy. yum! i'm so full! all those healthy stuff! hahaha. kunwari! hmm, i loved the tomato juice! mistulang naging bar ang office namin habang may-i-timpla sya ng tomato juice. hahaha. sarap! magawa sa bahay.

hmm... ang haba ng kwento ko. ganun talga. 'di gumagana ang mga sistema kaya, medyo malaya tayo. hehe!

uy… medyo nagtatago naman ang araw. wala namang ganyanan!

personification

draft found from last Friday… one of those sad days…

the sun was out this morning. not completely, but it's the best sunshine i've seen for days. on my way to work, i saw the reflection of the sunlight on glass windows of houses. it was a marvellous sight. just a faint light but very, very pleasing to the eyes. he's being playful as sometimes he'll hide, at times he'll show up.

we went to our usual lunch spot: migros. bought some food and went back to the office. it was a good walk. the cold temperature at 9 deg overpowers the sun, but it's good to have a feel of that golden sun on my skin.

from where i came from, we have a real sun - haring araw ang tawag namin sa kanya. the one here almost feels so artificial. he must be sick and needs his regular dose of vitamins.

2:50pm. we have a glass wall at the left side of this office. i was enjoying the view until it got all gloomy and sad.

the clouds have a heavy burden, they're all pouting and ready to cry - almost, but not crying at all.

the trees are swaying faintly. surely they need jackets with this bitter, cold wind. especially now, they're losing all their leaves. what a pitiful sight. what's once lush is now barren and lifeless. almost scary.

i don't like it when the weather is all sad… it affects me, you see. :(

all you need is...

all you need is...

salat und jogurt

i saw this draft from thursday. posting now...

salamat sa yahoo babelfish, nai-salin ko sa german and tanghalian kong salad at yogurt. hehe parang ang layo e no. salat lang din naman at jogurt. kunwari healthy. wala lang talagang makaing ok. mag-isa lang akong kumain ngayon.

ako ay ipinatapon sa malayong tanggapan ng ubs sa altstetten. malayo na ako sa mga babae ko. ang mga barkada ko rito ay sina scott at paul - mga kapangkat ko rin sa proyekto ko. para kaming 3 itlog, lagi kaming magkasama mananghalian. duguan na ang ilong ko kaka-inggles at malapit na rin siguro akong maging lalaki. minsan, kapatid na ang turingan namin. susme. pero ngayon, wala sila. kaya ako lang ang lumabas sa nangangagat na lamig upang bumili ng tanghalian ko.

kaunti lang ang pwedeng kainan dito:
1. coop - maliit na grocery na may mga salad, tinapay, mga tipikal na lunch nila dito.
2. migros - grocery rin ito na may mga tekaway na pagkain. maraming pagpipilian, pero medyo malayong lakarin.
3. scent of bamboo - thai na kainan na 'di masyadong maraming pagpipilian pero ok na rin naman... ngunit 'di sya yung totoong mapapa-aww ka sa sarap.
4. kantina ng ubs - dito lang ako nakakita ng kantina na iba ang presyo ng regular at eksternal na empleyado. kawawa ang eksternal - kami yun. dahil mas mahal ang presyuhan. so ayaw nilang kumain dito. alangan kumain ako dito mag-isa?!
5. chinese - mayron ding chinese pero 'di masyadong masarap. sinubukan ko ang bibe nila. mukang di sariwa ang lasa.
6. mcdo - medyo malayo mag bus ka pa. isang beses pa lang kami nakakain dito tekaway pa.

dun ako bumili sa coop ngayon. ok naman busog na ako sa tanghalian kong salat und jogurt. bow.

cjm

c - caths

j - jan

m - marco

that fateful day, 24th of april 2007, my destiny intertwined with two great beings' destinies - janise and marco.

a few days prior to my flight to sg, donna gave me marco's ym id. they were colleagues from misys. i asked marco about his flight details and i was hoping i could meet him outside the building on the first day so we could go up together. i am the i-need-a-buddy-anywhere-i-go type of person. we agreed to meet at the escalator.

when kuya brought me to suntec tower 5 on my first day at work in singapore, i saw a pinay sitting on one of the benches outside the building. she must be janise, i thought. honestly, i was a bit shy (read: afraid) as i found her mataray ;p i didn't approach her.

a few days later, we were a team. we make each other laugh. yes, even at the corniest blows. we share secrets. we give pieces of advice - solicited or not. we have opinions for everything and each one is entitled, more of obliged, to share his/her mind contents. every opinion, be it wicked or witty or goody, is appreciated and respected.

we worked together in one project for a couple of weeks. there was good rapport. at least that's what i think. i hope they agree. ;p

we flock together in good times. we flock together in bad times. hey, we have the same feathers! how could we forget this one incident when we were stripped off of every ounce of dignity we had? hahaha! yes, i could laugh at it now. it was our defense moment. we were defending something. if we didn't, we're dead. double dead. triple dead. but everything is fine now. maybe we have earned someone's trust and respect somehow.

if caths or jan or marco has a heavy load, this calls for an opinionated session. we could have it anywhere. we could sit and talk over cups of coffee. this is the comfy style. or we could sit together on a bench that's built for just 2 persons. this is the pathetic style. my point is, we don't choose a perfect venue. anywhere is ok as long as we could talk and laugh.

they are two of the "easiest" persons i know. easy because we agree about things, no explanation needed. easy because we jive. easy because we are all equally crazy.

when we learned that they need staff in zurich, we prayed hard that it will be the three of us together. we knew we had to pray hard because we thought then it was impossible. they choose based on the project that we work on and there is no immediate need for marco's project.

what do you know? prayers are indeed answered as marco is coming tomorrow. :) we were crazily harmonious as friends. we were harmoniously crazy as teammates. we'll see if we'll be just as good if we become house mates. hehehe!

see you tomorrow, marco! cjm reunite! let's volt in!

cjm, from right to left ;p

medley

i will never understand the reason why
we fail to learn from our mistakes
i will wait for you as the days go by
with my dream - though I am wide awake
-wide awake-

yesterday,
love was such an easy game to play,
now I need a place to hide away,
oh, I believe in yesterday
-yesterday-

but you can say baby
baby can I hold you tonight
maybe if I told you the right words
at the right time you'd be mine
-baby can i hold you tonight-

officially announcing that this is warfare
'cause back in the day my clouds was grey
and it seemed like my angels couldn't blow them away
-can i have it like that-

i can't blame you if you turn away from me, like I've done you,
i can only prove the things I say with time,
please be mine,
-i'd rather-

five songs that randomly played on my player... now i'm sad... :(

conclusion

this is the last drama post, i hope.

gusto ko lang sabihing sayang.

hindi rin siguro. pero... sayang pa rin.

on dramatic actors

susme, naglabasan ang mga diether, jericho, philip, jomari, mark anthony, at pati si dolphy ngayong weekend.

tama na ang drama, mga kuya. baka 'di enough ang mga award para sa inyong lahat.

'di pa masyadong nag sink in sa 'kin pero sana mafeel ko na para matapos na. and sana this is it. Lord, make me strong. ayaw ko na po e.

i told you so

you have to learn your lessons the hard way. yes, there will always be tears and a splitting headache after all the drama. you can't hide your swollen eyes behind your glasses.

you have to swallow the bitter consequences... mothers do know best. mothers are the ultimate gurus. every mother should be enthroned on a pedestal. they are simply wise.

all secrets will be brought to the open. beware! so if you were asked a question, don't lie. if you can't control it, you are probably ill - make that sick - and you need professional help.

once a maggot, always a maggot. they may grow wings and fly, but they're disgusting flies just the same - not much difference with the maggot they once were. once a maggot, always a maggot.

when you are offered all sorts of glittery, sparkling niceties, ask why. this is usually the work of the devil. devils are not good. obviously.

not all tears are real. that's why there are artists. come on, you are not diet. you are not kristine.

two is a bad number. it means game over.

this is definitely bad karma at its finest... or worst?

lightning never strikes twice in the same place. it strikes thrice (or more). every bolt hurts like crazy. nobody knows if you'll ever be numb if you get it that often.

i told you so. i know, i hate it.

tell you what...

tell me about the shirt you're wearing.
♡ black and white long sleeved cardigan with black sleeveless shirt underneath
What's currently bothering you?
♡ my project
Are your toe nails painted?
♡ nope
When was the last time you had your hair cut?
♡ 3 months ago
Where were you last night?
♡ at home
Are you wearing shorts?
♡ yes
Does the thought of marriage scare you?
♡ sometimes
What did you do today?
♡ worked, walked under the snow :)
What time did you go to sleep last night?
♡ 11.30pm
When is your birthday?
♡ aug 17
Do you like/love anyone?
♡ yes
What are you going to do this weekend?
♡ maybe bum around
Were you happy when you woke up today?
♡ hmm, i'm worried
What would you do with 5 million dollars? why?
♡ a lot, baby :)
Have you ever crawled through a window?
♡ yes, i have vivid memories of it
What do you spend most of your money on?
♡ bills
Are you wearing a shirt?
♡ yes
Is there anything in your past that you'd like to try again?
♡ none
How's your heart lately?
♡ it's fine :) still alive and beating
Would you ever donate blood?
♡ if i am fit to do it, yes
Do you wish someone was with you right now?
♡ yep
What were you a year ago?
♡ i am an OFW
Is there anything annoying you right now?
♡ wala naman
How old is the first person on your top friends?
♡ 28?
Do you have a reason to smile right now?
♡ yes
What do you do when you need to relax?
♡ i just lie down and listen to music
Would you honestly say you'd risk your life for someone else?
♡ yes
Do you have a best friend?
♡ yes
Are you afraid of death?
♡ yes
Are you looking forward to anything?
♡ going home :)
Do you open up to people easily?
♡ yes
Has anyone upset you in the last week?
♡ hmm, wala naman
Do you think you would be a good parent?
♡ i would love to be a good parent, so yes.
Who was the last person of the opposite sex you had a conversation with?
♡ my boss
What are you going to do tomorrow?
♡ work
Favorite color?
♡ white, pink
Do you think you will still be in a relationship 3 years from now?
♡ hmm, i can't tell.

laughter and you

i heard you laughing today. it was almost an unfamiliar sound for i haven't heard it for some time. it was music, all harmonious and pleasant. it replaced the eerie stillness, i know it's there, despite the wall that divided us.

i hope this is it. i hope things will be back to normal, and normal is: your bubbly alter-ego conquering the dark and pessimistic character. ;p

your laughter completed my weekend. you completed my weekend. thank you. :)

jodorant

jodorant, as my brother's elementary teacher pronounced with conviction, is something that you apply on your underarms to ward off unpleasant smell in case you perspire. in tagalog, para hindi ka magkaputok.

sa mga pinoy, we apply it after taking a bath, which is like everyday. it is something we do in private. siguro hangga't maitatago natin ito sa paningin ng iba, gagawin natin.

waiting for my flight going here, at the airport in sg, i was at the boarding gate when a couple (mukang tiga-rito) sat in front of me. all of a sudden, si kuya, biglang nagjodorant! as in nilagay nya yung jodorant sa loob ng damit nya at pinahid sa kili-kili nya. naturalmente, na shock ako! susme. wenong magagawa ko, ganun sila, ok lang sa kanila yun.

akala ko e isolated case lang yun hala sa office, ganun din. nasa lamesa nila ang mga jodorant! parang powder lang ba ito kung sa ating mga girls - na ok lang na nakikita ng ibang tao na ginagamit mo.

cultural differences, ate. hehe. ang ok sayo ay di ok sakin. ang ok sakin ay di ok sayo. weh. :)

reflections

restarting my bulok laptop. i saw my reflection was very clear. naaliw ako. parang horror. :S

annoying blue socks

sheesh... i'm wearing powder blue socks and black shoes. eek. no more black socks on a thursday. i tried my best to hide it, but it just peeked that way. it irritates me. i should buy more black socks. better than nothing, though. yak.

friday night and the lights are low

one friday night, jan and i had an awesome dinner at - dig this - "mexican restaurant and cuban bar." how creative could they get in giving a name? we desperately searched for this "romantic" park near niederdorf. not that we have any reason to be in a "romantic" park together, we just wanted to see it. haha.

pics: overlooking the lake and niederdorf. nice lights. nice calm water. you could even see the tram tracks.

sitting on a bench

globus mall near hauptbahnhof. this has been our tambayan for some afternoons. after work, head to the malls, buy dinner at the thai stall in front of globus, sit on an old bench, eat dinner, watch people pass by, talk, laugh, and yes, look at the big globus sign - globus and the clouds.

tamarraw falls

taken last july when we went home to pinas. we visited my dear lola in mindoro. this is tamarraw falls. i have very fond childhood memories as mindoro visits are not complete without going to the falls. cool, clean water, lush surroundings, simple life. looking forward to these when i grow old(er) someday.

pillars and clouds

one fine afternoon, a few months ago - walking from kembangan mrt station to our house. i miss sg mrt. i miss sg. i miss kuya.

yapak

taken in city link, singapore - i saw this poor baby walking without his shoes on! anaps sila. pic is a little blurry so it's not that obvious. daddy has shoes on. poor kid.

battered

tired at work.
traffic.
inching my way to a a place i temporarily call home.
i'm facing the opposite direction of the moving bus and i'm typing on my phone so i feel dizzy...
but i key in the words anyway.

i THINK i'm FEELING sad.
i FEEL i'm only THINKING i'm sad.
i'm hoping it's the latter.

i feel i'm forgotten.
i feel i'm ignored.
i feel i'm taken for granted.
or am i the one forgetting, ignoring, and taking people for granted?
or maybe i'm just being in a selfish mood?
i bet everyone has something crazy to think about.
maybe not crazy at all, but still, something.
my point is, the mind could never be in a vacuum state... maybe.
and my mind is full of crap right now.
i want to rest.

swiso sila

i've been here for more than 2 months now. kung meron man akong napansin, yun ay ang pagmamahal nila sa sariling wika nila. pagmamahal nang sobra. bakit kamo?

• karatula - lahat in swiss german. i don't have a sense of direction. what more if the directions are in swiss german? ayos. mula sa airport paglapag ko hanggang sa mga karatula sa restroom. sila lang ang nakakaintindi.
• kahera - mabibilang ko ang mga ate kaherang marunong mag english. susme, ikaw pa ang masama kung 'di ka makaintindi ng salita nila. si ate sa canteen, simula pa lang ng pag-abot mo ng bibilhin mo, hanggang sa pagkuha nya ng bayad mo at pagbalik ng sukli, walang katigil-tigil ng pagsasalita - in swiss german. hay ate, i wish i could understand you. mas maganda sana ang daldalan natin.
• babasahin - i love books. i was in HB after work, waiting for jan. i saw a bookstore, may-i-enter ako. wow. magazines, books - all in swiss german. i don't love books that much after today. hehe.
• opisina - setting: conference call. ako lang ang pinoy. defects meeting daw. may-i-dial ako. english ang discussion. great! after a few minutes, ayan na umaariba na sila ng salitang lokal nila... 'di ata maipahayag nang maigi ang damdamin sa english. wow may damdamin pala sa defects meeting. "i think we should stay in english" sabi ng peborit kong dev. wow mukang may malasakit sya sakin. thanks, devboy.
• ligaw - this morning, as usual, kandarapa ako paghabol sa 8:09 train ko. si kuya, naliligaw ata, nagtanong sa akin: "nahdfashfa;skdhfvashf;akshdfkashflashvfas?" yan ang intindi kong tanong nya. "i'm sorry, in english, pls?" sabi ko. "oh, do you know the way to school?" ayan nagkaintindihan na kami, matutulungan ko na sya siguro. "sorry, i don't know that" bwahahaha! pinatranslate ko pa e mas ligaw pa ata ako sa kanya. sorry, kuya! beterlaxnektime!
• palengke - lahat ng labels nila, lokal na salita. labels sa mga produkto, pati instructions! susme di ko alam kung ang nabili ko e asin o asukal! mygas! bili kami ng pansit - cooking instructions, no english. susme gamit na gamit ang babelfish! at wag kalimutan, si ate kahera, 'di kami magkakaintindihan pagbabayad dahil di sya nag i-english. hehe

'di ko sila masisisi. magagaling sila in their own ways. 'di naman siguro sukatan ng galing ang pagiging marunong ng english. pero, mahirap lang talagang makipag-usap sa porenjers. in a way, parang 'di ko mafeel na welcome ako coming from another world dahil ang hirap talagang mag communicate. hehehe. yun lang. naikwento ko lang, 'di naman ako naghihinanakit. wow.

healthy eating habits

gumising. to eat or not to eat? 'wag na lang, male-late na ako sa 8:09AM train ko. magbaon ng muffin. kainin sa office.

pagdating sa office. wow, busy. 'di ko na nakain ang muffin ko. nakatiwangwang lang sya sa table ko.

uy, lunch na. wala pang laman ang tyan ko kundi tubig. hmm.

chinese food na lang ang lunch. greasy ito.

stressed ako. kalahati na lang ang kakainin ko. 'di ko na maubos e.

busy. walang meryenda.

uy 7:30 na. kumakalam na sikmura ko. uwian na. ano kayang pagkain sa bahay?

ay ako pala nagluto nung sunday. menudo. hmmm. sarap. totoong pagkain.

dami kong nakain! bundat! hala sige. magpakalaki ka, bilbil. bangungot pwede rin. 9pm na e. malapit na ko matulog.

bukas ulit. ganito. healthy no? :)

pagod

tiring day at work. started "hammering the deals" - as they so fondly say - at 8:30 am, ended at 7:30 pm. there's one task we are so giddily avoiding. i hope i won't do it, but if i had to, what can i do? i'm just an employee.

i feel i'm becoming one of the boys. why not, if i have to be with boys only for the rest of my stay here. i eat like them, i joke like them, i walk like them. sheesh, i miss my guuurls.

why could somebody be asking that question? could it mean, hmmm? paranoid.

if only i could take away somebody's pain and anxieties and worries, i will do it even if i have a bag-full of that right now. i wouldn't mind carrying some more - if only i could ease your burden.

i hope it is not just about "that". at the moment, that's how i see it.

this post is going nowhere. i just want to have a good, long sleep. will be tired tomorrow again.

'sang litrong beer at iba pa

somehow, we managed to gate-crash to the october fest. tagalugin natin, at walang sambitan ng pangalan...

pagpasok pa lang namin sa tent, wow ang saya-saya ng lahat ng tao. malakas ang tugtog, lahat ay may hawak na 1 litrong beer, nagsasayawan. nakita namin ang mga kasama namin sa isang mesa at nakisingit kami. hahaha wala namang naagawan ng upuan, somehow, nagkasya kami.
beer kung beer. maya-maya, sabi nila, kailangan daw tumayo sa bench na inuupuan mo at sumayaw. ayaw ko sana. pinandilatan ako, "you have to stand up!" ok fine. madali akong kausap. tayo kami. indak kami. nariyang muntik mahulog, may mga bastos na mama pero ok naman. ang alam ko lang enjoy ang lahat ng tao dun.

bandang 11pm, may mga bouncer na nagtataboy ng mga tao. hehe. nagkukwentuhan pa kami. ayaw pa naming umuwi so chika chika pa kami sa labas. may mga sumunod pang pangyayaring di na siguro kailangang ikwento dito pero sobrang freaky at unique sya. siguro minsan lang sa buhay ko mangyayari yun hahaha!

ang gusto ko lang naman ay makakita ng october fest, uminom, at magsaya! hmmm, may mga extra pa akong nakuha na hindi ko sana gustong maranasan ko. pero oh well... life's like that. :)

doggies and learnings

as a kid, i was taught that dogs produce the sound "baw-aw-aw!"
at a later stage, i learned that this sound is called barking.
now, i'm 28 years old (some say i'm at my prime).
today, i learned - and actually heard - that people could bark too!
aah, life! you'll never stop learning.
what will i learn tomorrow? that people bite too? hmmm... that would be a sight.
will let you know.

:S

fidgets

:-S

when you're anxious and you know it, clap your hands. clap, clap, clap.

:-S

how would you know what's inside a box if you wouldn't open it?

:-S

when i'm nervous, or occupied with something, or tensed, i find all the darned white head i could find on my scalp.

:-S

i don't like that feeling. neither that one. sheeesh. just stop.

:-S

when i feel i'm alone, sometimes i'm happy. sometimes it devours me - in a nasty way.

:-S

all that talk about it makes me excited, and scared, and all prepped up.

:-S

going to a battle? i find it thrilling - if only i have the armor!

:-S

that's number one on my wish list... and my prayer list... and my hope wish.

:-S

I CAN DO IT! WE CAN DO IT! HE CAN DO IT! SHE CAN DO IT! THEY CAN DO IT! YOU CAN DO IT! GO GO GO!

:-S

a moment like this

a stroll under the trees with falling yellow leaves - autumn!
a walk on sturdy bridges with crystal clear water running underneath
a learning journey on museums
a long ride on the train - with snuggles and all
a solemn moment in a magnificent church
a struggled walk on cobblestones
a soulful rest on an old bench
a breathless moment watching the ice-tipped horizon
a squinting gaze on what's beneath the fog
a bare-foot walk on the grass
a ride on a bicycle
a dip on a lake
a sip of fresh, clear water
a cup of hot choco or coffee or tea
a hearty meal
a dreamy look on jet paths in the clear sky
a nice sun bath
a cautious cross on an old street
a priceless smile on a photograph
a shriek under the drizzles of a fountain
a friendly smile offered to a stranger
a funny feeling of being lost - and eventually getting there
calloused feet and sore muscles, but a gleeful heart

wish you were here

not this time

i am a believer of the goodness in every person's heart.
i am always hopeful.
i am always open to forget any mistake if you show me even just a little nicety.
my favorite line is, "hindi naman siguro".

from now on, though, these crappy sentences don't apply to you.

* title inspired by music playing from jan's room.

entertainment live

buhay na naman ang mga series! i've seen the new episodes of heroes, grey's anatomy, gossip girl. parating na rin daw next week ang desperate housewives. hmmm, hindi ba't teleserye rin ang mga ito kung tutuusin? :)

heroes... disappointed ako kay mohinder. mukang sya ang magkakalat ng lagim sa daigdig. may-i-crawl pa sya sa pader! susme naagnas tuloy. ever cute pa rin si hiro... "i told you not to open the vault!" hehe. kakatuwa.

grey's anatomy... hmm, wala masyadong drama, wala masyadong aksyon. medyo dragging kung tutuusin yung 2-episode premier nila. ewan baka may iba lang akong iniisip nung mga oras na yon. pero ok lang, papanoorin ko pa rin next week.

gossip girl... nahuli ako sa balita. hindi ko alam na 4 episodes na pala. nag marathon tuloy ako nung friday. hehe. kakaaliw pa rin kahit mababaw. hehe.

may 2 bonus pa ako!

sa kawalan ng magagawa ngayon weekend na lumipas, nanood ako ng my super ex gf at enemy at the gates. worth watching naman. tawa ako nang tawa sa super ex, at iyak ako nang iyak sa enemy at the gates. pogi ni jude law. mukang bading daw sabi ni shine. fine. :) hehehe.