5am

and i'm still here. i've been here for 16 hours. argh... and i'm still getting a lot or variations in my data! my goodness... i thought there's this word.. hmmm... STANDARD? apparently it's an alien term for some. argh...

thank you for understanding me still... despite the oddness and irregularity of my work-clock (and my body clock just the same) hehe... despite the constant change of plans... and the seemingly snob attitude for your motivations (which are very much super dooper appreciated)... and the weekend-lang-ang-kita-every-two-weeks-kse-2nd-(and-3rd)-shift-ako schedule... thank you for just sighing and uttering, "i understand..." don't ever get tired of it... it's only temporary. what we have "might" last a lifetime =)

and i'm outta here... *yawn... got less than 5 hours to sleep... sana wag ako singilin ng katawan ko someday... huhuhu.

shake it! shake it! hehe =)

hehe... announce ko lang... nood kayo ng star in a million ah... may friend ako dun from lcg... si shake (ardie shane) =) galing na bata yun hehe! napanood tuloy ako ng star in a million. =) woohoo!

nood kayo ah =)

siguro...

pwede ko nang papalitan ang home address ko ng SPI Technologies, Inc., PITC bldg. achuchuchu hihi...

bakit? you may ask... kasi dito na ko nakatira hihi!

for the past week, my life drama has been... wake up at 10am -> go to work -> work like a slave 'til 3am or 4am -> walk home -> sleep -> wake up at 10am... (syempre may constant checks yan... so it's not that bad) gosh... kawawa naman katawan pagod na.

ayan walang patawad, sunday, nasan ako? imbis na nasa bahay at nakatunganga or nakikipaglandian... hihi ayos... andito ako sa SPI Technologies, Inc., PITC bldg. achuchuchu.

mag-isa, walang makausap, walang makapagsabi sakin na... ok lang yan... wlang mumu dito. kasi ang tahimik... so quiet it's freaking me out.

nag reboot pa ang citrix. asus... hello?!?! pano ko matatapos? gusto ko nang umuwi...

* sana saturday na... hehe. wala lang. sana. saturday na =) mwah...

* i can't take it... going home... can't stand the silence... freaking me out.

observations...

first day of work after the long weekend.

newbies --->there are 1 million new employees here at SS sheesh... the new batch is composed of around 30 people ata. wow... we're really growing, huh? i also realized that i've been here for more that three years and the newbies are most probably 3 yrs (+) younger than me. i'm old(er)! hehe! grabe they all look so young!

natipos ako... ---> ya uh! with my new hair cut! i observed that when you request your manggugupit to trim off 3 inches from your hair, they double it! so he slashed off a good 6 inches from my hair. next time, i'll say "trim lang... 1 inch lang..." para 2 inches lang ang bawas hehe.

special day ---> why? you might ask... 'cause today is mommy riche's birthday! happy birthday! hmmm... once a week? that's cool! way too cool! *evil grin...

pouring rain ---> had a rainy dream. super rain! pouring rain talga! iiyak na naman ako? it's probably all in the mind. baka imbis na tears, e more blessings ang uulan. not that i'm asking for more. wag lang sana tears. =)

looking forward ---> to a great week =) and lifetime!

unwell no more + nursing the sick

i'd like to thank my mom for making me well. =) so they do work... honey and calamansi and salabat... those were enough to ward off the evil spirits in me. hehe may sapi pala.

ok. so i had too much rest. that made me well =)... so well!

so... papa mike and i went out to watchamovie na... mr. and mrs. smith. ayos. good watch ito. very good. super funny talga sya, medyo exag pero kakatuwa naman. siguro kahit may sakit pa rin ako, papanoorin ko pa rin to.=)

i'm so glad i'm feeling better now, kaso lang, 2 of the men i love most (in the entire universe) are sick right now... same symptoms. everybody seems to have the same sakit lately. hay naku. now i'm playing the role of nursing the sick... and no... nde ko sila hinawahan ah!

guy A "seems" obedient. told him to drink lots of water and calamansi... done daw. told him to sleep early, ok tulog na raw sya ngayon. pero hmmm... nag sign on as mobile sa ym... so late din pala natulog... argh. bahala ka dyan.

guy B is completely stubborn. i heard he hasn't taken his meds since 4pm e may lagnat na raw sya ng time na yun... so mega cook naman ako ng noodles... tamang-tama, when he woke up, i forced him to eat. ayaw eh =( ni-reject ako. kung di ko lang alam kung gano ka ka-stubborn na tao, ay magtatampo na ko sayo.

get well soon, papa mike (haha pipitikin na siguro ako neto pagtawag ko ng papa mike sa kanya).

get well soon, kuya pogi-nde lang ang physical na weakness, sana pati emotional weakness maging ok na rin...

love you both. =) mwah!

bum and reyna ng praning

ayan... official bum na ako for 2 days. kami ng mom ko. as she said, "grabe 2 araw na tayong nakatiwangwang dito sa bahay. 'di rin pala masaya". and i thought i could last for years just being in the house doing nothing... not working and all.

masarap na nakakabugnot din palang maging bum. promise, bigla na lang umiinit ang ulo ko nang walang dahilan. tatahimik na lang ako and nde magre-react sa kahit anong makita ko. is it because wala akong magawa or... dahil... never mind.

arrrggh... i have monthly posts like this, at hindi sya nakakatuwa. hehe. sabay tawa.

praning... lagi akong praning. tama ba namang isipin ko yun? kaya ako napapagsabihang hindi nakikinig ng lessons nung HS eh... fine. attentive naman ako ah... sometimes.

at kahit anong sabihin, it still is NOT ok... ok? =( na-sad ako promise. i didn't expect that... =(

wish i were...

weekend... it's a beautiful day outside... not too scorching, yet not raining. the sun's a little lazy, but just fine, just right.

and as the mole on my talampakan insinuates, i wish i were elsewhere. maybe:

walking non-stop, leading to nowhere

or cozily watching mr. and mrs. smith in a movie house somewhere in makati (with sir and 2 moms)

or madagascar somewhere in manila (with the girls)

or drinking kape somewhere out there with someone

or hearing mass at 6pm, not 615 or 630, somewhere in greenbelt

or attending a wake, and possibly a cremation ceremony somewhere in cavite

or spending the entire day at a spa with my mom... geez... this one's sooo overdue!

or just making gala!!!

instead i'm here somewhere in pque, somewhere in my home:

sitting here in front of the pc,with a fan by my side

coughing and sneezing and blowing my nose like hell, and most probably having a slight fever

preparing a home-made body scrub (out of epsom salt, olive oil, honey, ginger, vanilla) (geezzzz... am i so bored?!?) (and my brother insists i'm weird... malalapnos daw balat namin sa pinag gagagawa ko hehe)

channel surfing every 30 minutes or so

asking my mom, who's unwell as well, if she's feeling any better (mom, let's get well)

taking naps

which is good, by the way, i need all the rest and relaxation i could get... ang hirap magkasakit... promise.

tired

yeah... that's how i feel right now.

tired and almost sick. i've been coughing and sneezing like hell at work... groaning and sighing and all...

if i had a stress-o-meter with me right now, i'd probably break it into pieces hehe... it won't probably handle the amount of stress i have in my system. sigh...

i sooo want to just lie down, have a good massage... sige kahit wala nang massage. just lie down and fall in the deepest most peaceful slumber...

oh... a cuddle is good =) i'd love to have a good cuddle right now... =)

5th of june

remembering my father
june 5... my late father's birthday. if he were still with us, we would've gone to antipolo church to hear mass. it was a tradition that we had... he didn't hear sunday masses, but strived to keep up to the june-5-antipolo-day and christmas masses.

what are some of the things i associate with my father? let me recall only the good ones. give tribute to the man who almost tried his best to be a good husband and father.

cheek lamutak

when i was a kid, he used to pinch my cheeks really hard... and my mom would sternly say, "lamog na yung pisngi nyan!". but i liked it. gave me the warmest feelings - how a father expresses his affection to his daughter.

favorite child

was i? that's what they say. well, it was noticeable. maybe because i'm the only girl. maybe because i tried to keep up to his expectations as a kid. maybe because i look a lot like him. maybe...

kilitian blues

was what he did best when i was a kid. you should never ever leave your armpits exposed or else, susundutin nya talga yun hehe, and tickle you 'til you drop. hmmm... we still do that 'til now... with my 2 brothers =).

yosi on christmas day

not knowing what to give him that christmas day (around 17 yrs ago), i gave him a pack of marlboro red 'cause i knew he smokes... hehe and it was very much appreciated. lousy gift.

"papa, penge pera"

was my line every morning when i was a kid. my cue was the car engine starting up hehe... that's when i'd lean by our window and extend my palms... hehe... he would give me coins (P5 maximum) and i become the happiest kid alive hehe.

music and movies

yup he was really fond of music... jazz, in particular. he set up this neat sound system years ago... and every morning, the atmosphere around the house was really jazzy hehe. he was also fond of movies - laser disc at that time. an explosion in the film could be mistaken for an explosion inside our house... hehe he wanted it really loud!

on hobbies and ningas kugon

he had a wide array of hobbies... fishing, music, cars, sound system, 2-way radios, cell phone shop... name it, he has probably tried it - but on a ningas kugon level. haha his passion dies as soon as he has found something more interesting. this probably explains why i behave exactly like that. =) hehe

* hmmm... as i create this post, i smell flowers... which is weird 'cause there are no flowers around me... and i'm all alone right now. hi po... =) don't scare me =)

ok... change topic na nga...

a month
incidentally, we're on our first month on june 5. woohoo!

what are some of the things i'm thankful for for the past month? (love-wise, that is)

just about everything.

for being patient with my being indecisive and being fickle-minded - that's why you're decisive (at times) and firm. =)

for being patient with my hectic work life - that's why you get off at 5 and do the constant checking instead. =)

for dealing with my being childish and overly giggly - that's why you act more matured that i do... despite the fact that i'm older. =)

for understanding my past pains - that's why you're here with me now... the ever understanding creature. =)

let's quit counting months or years... it isn't an assurance that we'll be happy in the end and it's merely a figure, senseless at times. let's just live a day at a time and look forward to the best there is that fate has to offer us.

talk about impromptu

it came out of nowhere...

girl 1: tara, swimming tayo sa saturday!
girl 2: tara! saan?
girl 3: kahit saan!
girl 4: sige! tara! bahala na basta meet tayo office 10am saturday.

bringing only ourselves, our wallets, cell phones, and swim suits, we hit the road and headed off to laguna...

we had a quick lunch at red ribbon and then we dropped by walter mart for a few groceries... by few, i mean supplies-that-could-last-for-a-week.

we didn't know where we're going but we just headed to laguna and scouted for ok-na na resorts... after 3 walk-ins to different resorts, we finally and accidentally landed to valley view. just perfect for the weekend.

check-in time was around 3pm. no time to waste, we started swimming right away and nang makaramdam na ng gutom, time for inihaw na hotdogs na! yuuummmieee! i've never tasted something that heavenly!

and then, sabay ng hotdog, dinner na... thanks to harbie's mom's afritada and tonkatsu... sarap!

after dinner, swim galore ulit =)... swim 'til we drop woohoo! at syempre pwede ba mawala ang inom? the first batch was really subtle... wala masyado tama eh... but the second one was really wapak... hehe syempre drinks and swimming, when done alternately is just perfect. woohoo!

at around 2 am, when we were all wrinkly and raisin-ey, we decided to retire to bed... ang mga lola, tulog nang basa ang buhok malamang super pagod eh...

sobrang pagod, we woke up at around 10? we didn't have enough energy to swim na that sunday... duh with all the paglilikot nung saturday? asa ka pang makabangon kami?!?

and then lunch was also divine... bulalo in one of the restos there... yum... everything's perfect...

what were the crazy things we did? not so much... but very memorable. these would always make me smile:

doing something unplanned. it was really adventurous... =) the only requirement was... to bring yourself... i love that

walking and laughing under the rain... no worries... i can't even recall the last time i did this... =)

talking with "teber"... there was this kid we met. asked him what his name is and he said "teber"... xavier pala hihihi cutie kid... mwah!

skinny dipping ulit haha ya! super crazy na talga kami... funny talga! muntik pa kami abutan ng mga batang may goggles bwahaha!

drinking like there was no tomorrow... nang nde ka nalalasing =) perfect!

swimming for the longest time - nang nde ka nangingitim hehe

just spending the whole weekend with 3 of the greatest people in the world... =)

and of course, pics =)

the fave pose


the divine food (notice the yummy hotdog)


habang naghihintay sa mamam


group pic



pagtripan ang champola hehe


medyo bangag na


hmmm... di ako uminom, promise!



gotta text... patay... harbs, borrow phone... dead ang batt ko ever...


scandal ba itu or massacre?


ayan bagong gising yiheee


preparing to check-out


hehe putol driver namin... on the way home =(


caths: luv you maricor....
maricor: you bitch! hehe


sila naman daw...


gotta text ulit... to the max itu hehe


perfet... just perfect =)