huhu i'm sick and tired (literally!)

hmm... i feel better now. maybe the jasmine tea and calamansi juice and sugar helped =). i was sneezing like hell (well, hanggang ngayon naman e...) for the past few days. back track... been quite a while since my last post.

thursday night 7pm: videoke with office buddies... grabe! 'di naman ako singer so naturally, sa lalamunan galing ang voice ko -> this produced a mega ouch after the 3-hour singing, errrrr.. sigawan and dance dance session.

thursday night 11pm: had a good swim at rv's place... hmmm it was raining and the water's soooo cold! since it was cloudy, we didn't see the stars... too bad. it was a good swim though, bura lahat ng pagod!!! sarap!

thursday/friday: supposed to sleep over at rv's place... but we didn't sleep... ay naku awake til 530 am! just talked about anything and everything: aroma, super run, formation! name it we talked about it! haha the best!

friday: didn't go to work... bad girl! well, super pagod and feeling sick na e! so i decided to head straight home na lang.

* watched my sassy girl... hay naku, the best itu! made me cry (what doesn't make me cry?)... "fate isn't just waiting for a chance to happen... it's making bridges for the chances..." nice no!

isang rebolusyon

i feel terrible... i have the following stuff making aklas in my tummy:

banana (1 pc)

oatmeal (1 mug)

lunch (about 1 1/2 cups of rice + ulam)

banana (1 pc)

green tea with creamer (1 mug)

water (about 4 glasses)

imagine how i feel today!!! wanna go home na!!!! huwaaaaah!

i tot i taw a scawy biwd...

...saw this display at ace hardware... even tweety bird is in the mood for halloween haha...

my third post

ok... this is my third post. i'm really down today. it all started when i heard the "bad news" this afternoon. now i'm worried. what's next? this isn't an oh-it's-just-a-trivial-matter material... and christmas is coming. everybody should be happy during the pre-christmas, christmas, and post-christmas season...

i'm not really in the mood to be cheerful today or to talk with anybody. can't even force myself to "produce" a fake smile... =( cranky cranky me... =( mom was trying to make a conversation with me earlier, i managed to give her a few nods and aaahs... but my mind was wandering elsewhere. sorry, ma...

i don't know if this headache is a result of the bad news or i just have a headache that's why i'm fussing about the bad news.

focus, caths! it's not what happens, it's how you take it...

i read last night from PDL: train your mind to whisper to God constantly... i chose the phrase "Help me trust you". it was a very timely lesson...

help me trust you...

oops, that was bad news

Lord, help me trust you...

love notes day

for the QA team, friday = love notes day. all works are put on hold and all ears are on rv's boombox hehe! well, it's just a cellphone inside a mug - that's our boombox haha! it's quite difficult to listen so you really have to come closer.

today's letter was from a girl named cathy (not caths hehe). she had a bf who's 5 yrs older than her. he took care of her and really loved her and treated her like a baby (oh, shocks, so sweet. haha!).. and the usual crap happened - the guy met another girl and simply said goodbye to cathy. her story's twist is, the other girl got pregnant. so the guy had no choice but to marry the girl and live in the states.

after 7 years, cathy saw the guy. he tells her he loves her still. all the while, she thought she was over him. but, if i heard it right, she said she thinks she's willing to be a mistress. duh... all the things one can do for love...

anyway, joe d mango naturally took the guy's side (another mega duh) 'cause he was able to give up his happiness for a noble cause, and that is to be responsible for the child. he actually thinks it was a noble act? HE SHOULDN'T HAVE PLAYED AROUND WHILE HE WAS STILL IN A RELATIONSHIP... AND YET ANOTHER DUH!!! ... nde naman ako masyadong galit no? haha sorry it all comes back every once in a while when i hear sad tales like that...

hmmm... my story could qualify for a love notes story haha! magpasa ba raw?

another anyway, i liked what joe said, ...you may be in his heart, but you could never be in his life... that's too sad but it's true... that the only remedy is to let go and move on... =)

childhood kalokohan

just wondering if all filipino children experienced this unexplainable act either in the shower or under the rain...

get a tabo that could snugly fit on your head.

salok water from a timba (or from any water source).

put the tabo firmly on your head, like a hat. be careful so the water won't spill.

feel the vacuumy effect as the water is trapped in the tabo.

then feel the water slowly dripping from the tabo, all over your face and neck and body.

enjoy every dripping moment until there's no more water left in the tabo.

repeat til you feel tired and sawa.

haha wala lang, we were talking about childhood play times. i was surprised to learn that we all, at a certain point in our lives (chilhood phase ha), did this thing. we were wondering where we learned it. did anybody teach that or was it just done out of curiosity by a child?

comments are most welcome! =)

urban legends and my mom's better mood

i don't know what hit the pretty QA people (kasama ko dun ah!) today. we had an extreme chika day! the tales ranged from exorcists to worms to dwendes to kapres to paglilihi and all sorts of creatures and stories that'll give you goosebumps. maybe because halloween is coming and the tv networks air nothing but scare-you-to-hell-movies. ok season na naman ito ng i'm-alone-late-at-night-watching-tv-then-a-scary-scene-is-shown-and-i-run-with-all-my-might-to-my-bedroom-kse-natakot-ako! susme... napakatapang ko talaga!

oh, my mom's in a better mood today! a few weeks ago, her office in NAIA closed and they had to transfer to the fort in makati. she was a bit down because she had to give up the comfort of working nearby (tricycle ride away, like my office =)). plus she had to say goodbye to the people she worked with for quite some time now. she had been pretty quiet and not her usual kulit self, but i noticed a better transition lately. funny pa nga last night, while making kulit kulit and munching a large block of chocolates, she had her jaw locked. susme, di magkaintindihan pag massage and pag rere-align ng jaw nya... she was pretty scared haha! and kanina, while preparing dinner, may pasayaw-sayaw pang nalalaman! kuya and i just rolled our eyes and told her, "o kulit kulit ka mamya, mag lock na naman jaw mo!" haha!

i asked her if she still feels sad about this sudden change. she answered with a nice grin, "i'm feeling better!"... yeah, that's the spirit, ma! =)

a comparative study between a wife's prayers and my prayers

just got home from baclaran for the novena. at the start of the novena, an inspirational letter was read. it was a thanksgiving letter from a wife. it was something like...


dear mama Mary,
i thank you for bringing back my husband. a few months ago, he left me for another girl. i completed the novena and i prayed hard for his change of heart and repentance. and indeed, he came back and sincerely asked for forgiveness. now we are happy and we are blessed still with a little angel.
*and the letter was signed.


i was smiling (i was alone, btw. hehe!) as the reader ended the letter... knowing that we were entrapped in a similar dilemma but our prayers were extremely different.

she prayed for her husband to come back.

i prayed that i may learn to let go of the one man i loved and accepted wholly.

she prayed for her husband's repentance.

i prayed that he (and i) may be happy eventually living our separate lives.

we both prayed for acceptance but in different perspectives...

she prayed that she may accept him despite his weaknesses.

i prayed that i may accept the situation and learn to move on without him. (i read in a good book: learn to move on, he has moved on anyway...)

it was good to hear though that it was a happy ending for that couple, they're married anyway... God has blessed them with a union no barrier could ever separate. =). God has blessed me with a "separation" that will open the door to a true happiness - one not stained with lies and deceit. =) it all comes down to francis kong's most inspirational phrase... it's not what happens, it's how you take it. *double grin

name vanity

i saw this name pendant in silver works. i didn't know they do this stuff... =) i really want one like this. my officemate knows a shop who does this for 2500 (gold). i almost got one a couple of months ago. whew... it's a good thing i wasn't impulsive that time. 'cause back then, i naturally wanted his name on that pendant!!! haha what would i do with that pendant if i had it done?!?! have it done again to spell caths haha!

anyway, gold is out and i think silver looks better. so maybe i'll get one some time (a little impulsiveness won't hurt, it'll be my name anyway!). i think it only costs 500 for the 1st 5 letters, excluding the necklace.

oh, holy night

just got home from a rather holy night-out haha! it was our ex parish priest's dinner treat at blue wave. had bacon and asparagus tempura and it was yum! and the sushi's good! hmmm...

on our way home, we saw some of father's friends from the rogationist; aaah they looked cute, drinking coffee, all dressed in white shirts... mymy! some of them were soo pogi haha! plenty of time to get out of the seminary! and "befriend" us haha! they all looked so neat and kind and goody-goddy in their white shirts. one was even wearing a white shirt with a teddy bear print aaaah... cutie! kung pede lang makijoin sa coffee-drinking session nila e... haha! pag-interesan ba ang mga kaparian? haha! onti na nga lang sila e!

sa ride home, we asked fr. about the da vinci code and angels and demons... well, of course he negated it. he said those were mere speculations. i dunno, dan brown somehow convinced me with his "speculations"... but as grandpapa-guy-in-da-vinci-code-or-angels-and-demons-nde-ko-sure (ang haba hehe) asked his grand daughter, "would it matter if you knew those facts?"... no, it doesn't really matter. 'cause i still know what i believe in... foundation's quite good. =)

* i dunno what it is with guys and white shirts... and eyeglasses. attractive talga for me haha! or guys in white shirt and kalbo (or semi-kalbo lang)... attractive din! hmmmm...

2 plans down the drain

nothing much to nag about... i've been pretty busy in the office... hanep! as if! yeah, it's true! i was really beezee this week! defensive! kontrahin ba ang self? haha!

well, it's another weekend. my mom and i were supposed to hit the road and have this trip to laoag tonight (together with ma's friend). but there were a few hassles so to cut it short, we didn't go. sayang. it could've been a perfect bonding aka pictorial activity with my momma!

the second purnada gimik is our supposedly red-box-night gimik (with QA people). we postponed the night-out so the boot campers could take a rest tonight. hopefully, we'll get through with the plan next friday. biritan itu!!! hehe! ehem ehem... the rules say: no practice! come as you are!

tomorrow, i have no clear plans yet, but i hope i'll just be a regular bum so i could heal my literally broken and hurting heart. haha! funny my mom told me that i shouldn't lock my door tonight, just in case. haha pa-paranoidan kami ng mom ko!

i was also browsing through my past posts... haha i have a funny life! actually, i was hoping i could someday look back at my bitter posts and just laugh at them. and now, i just did! it's good! now this is the good transition i'm talking about. =) weee!

OA queen

i'm having these chest pains again... i feel it when i inhale, like big needles pricking my heart. i wait for a couple of seconds, and try to inhale again. basta it's like a pinching feeling and i can't really breathe well. basta masakit since early this morning pa... why? am i dying soon? sigh...

just in case, i have an "exit letter" for you guys:

dear ma, kuya, wawin, and friends,

i want you to know... i love you all and i treasure every moment i had with you guys... you all made my life extraordinary.
thanks for sharing my short but meaningful life with me. I thank God that our paths have crossed; it made me realize that life is really wonderful.
thanks for all the heart aches and pains, without them i may not have been a complete human. thanks for the countless laughters and smiles, these all graced my existence.
if i may have hurt you sometime in the past, i now say i'm sincerely sorry. please forgive me. and i now forgive all those who have hurt me.
if tomorrow, i may not be given the chance to see the sunrise again, i have cleansed my heart and i have expressed my love to all my treasures in life.

love,
caths

OA no? geez! hormones! haha!

3253

This is funny! I turned my phone dictionary on while composing my serendipity post. While trying to spell "fate", I accidentally punched in the keys 3,2,5,3. A word appeared, but it wasnt the word i was looking for so i hit the * key.. And there it was.. The 4letter name mentioned somewhere here in my blog.. Naloka ako sa sequence ng 2 words na yun! Did i say i accidentally hit 3253? Theres no such thing as an accident nga e! It was meant to make me laugh! HAHA!

serendipity

Last night, on our way home, we were listening to the soundtrack of serendipity. Allen said it was a very good record and i said to myself that yeah, i should get a copy someday.

I was channel surfing earlier when i chanced to see serendipity over this channel (whose station id, btw, resembles the logo of mcdonalds).. I remember watched that movie a long time ago with kuya. I didn't forget the plot but i forgot the details already.. I heard a couple of good lines. something like "there is no such thing as accident; everything happens for a reason and eventually constitutes to a grand plan. And this makes up your fate or your destiny".

Yeah, its a feel-good movie. If only it happens in real life.. Im saying this because i haven't experienced my own true-to-life-feel-good-movie yet.. One that will endure all tests of time and space and, yeah, maybe even distance - the most ominous barrier of them all. But i'm pretty sure others have their own feel-good tales to tell.. Proof that some time in the future, i'll forget that once in my life i said, "oh, stop! it only happens in
the movies!". =)

rape!!!

i saw the most disturbing thing yesterday. i watched "weirdest behavior caught on tape" and there was this video which showed a man with his pants off (knee-level; maybe he was trying to make ebs in the jungle) and an animal (i think it was a small elephant or hippo, i can't really remember). at first it seemed that the animal was only chasing the guy. since the man's pants were on his knees, he was having a difficulty running, so he just did his best to push the animal away... and then it appeared that the animal was really horny... goodness! somehow the animal managed to push the man down, the man's butt now exposed... and then!!! the animal started humping the guy! i couldn't really tell if the animal "got in"... but it looked really sick! the man was helpless and was literally "raped" by the animal... so animals could be rapists too?!? and they don't only rape their own kind? geeeeez! that really is disturbing!

i know this is a worthless post... but i can't help but post it!!! my goodness...

some annoying but amusing signs i look like a kid...

scenario 1: while running a bank errand for my mom, the banker (thinking that i was just a HS kiddo) was not treating me seriously. as in like joking around with me like i was a kid nga. he asked for an id and i presented my then college id. his eyes widened and he said "kolehiyala ka na pala!". it was then that he dealt with me seriously! haha!

scenario 2: my mom, kuya, and i were going to the casino (hey slot machine lang po ang alam ko ah!). syemps, the security people asked for my age. well, they were not convinced so mega ask pa sila when my birth year was! eventually, they let me in din naman. hello! do i look like a liar?!? haha! funny pa nga, i kept on psyching in my mind that "i'm above 18, i'm above 18..." so i blurted out tuloy "18" when they asked for my age... e i was 20 na ata that time... haha! bawi tuloy ako "20 pala hehe sorry".

scenario 3: the immigration officers at the airport sternly said, "ay pag minor po, kailangan ng DSWD permit bago makalabas ng bansa...". my mom said, "24 na yan". ayaw makinig haha! insisted that they require the DSWD permit... finally she had some sense in her system, and looked at my birth date... hello!!! 1980 yan! shouldn't you look at facts and not the physical hitsura?!? my gaaasss!

scenario 4: this happens quite often during reunions or gatherings with our relatives or my mom's friends. the usual how-are-the-kids stuff? then once they knew that i'm already working for almost 3 yrs now, ok eyes wide talga and, "huwaaaaaat? working na?!?! muka lang pinabili ng suka!" hay naku gasgas na yang linya na yan! 1billion times na sinasabi sakin! pede ba ibahin... "para lang pinabili ng candy" wag naman suka hello?!?! hehe umapila pa!

oh well, amusing nga (although annoying na rin minsan). better to be small and look young than be small na nga and look old pa, right? =) oh, petite is a better term! in fairness, HS-or-college-girl-look-alike na ko... nde na elementary harharhar talga!

waiting for an aftershock

Ok, fine! I thought of him today (actually, a lot)... So predictably, we had another intensity 4 earthquake at around 1030pm. Haha! I-associate ba ang earthquake dun?! Ang kulit ko kasi e! Sabi nang stop it e! But still, im doing pretty great! If i were an alcoholic, ive been sober for a couple of weeks now. Good job! I commend myself haha!

I cant sleep yet. Actually, im kind of afraid to sleep.. Anticipating the aftershocks (pessi ako ngayon a). The philvocs guys warned kse that there could be a couple of aftershocks pa e. Good to hear though that the intensity of an aftershock is always less than or equal to the intensity of the main (?) earthquake.. The earthquake guys also stated that we actually experience up to 20 earthquakes a day.. And there goes my feeling of security... Down the drain. Thanks a lot, earthquake guys!

Ok.. Looks like there'll be no more aftershocks.. Im outta here!




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toot-toot

i was browsing one of the appendices of a certain document here in the office. it contains all the cities in US (i think). that four-letter name kept on catching my attention... geez! out of curiosity (and wala lang), i searched and replaced that four-letter name and this stupidity(?) showed that there are 413 cities in US that contain the name... uhmmm... yun na nga. hehe!

ex:
FOREST[toot-toot]
[toot-toot]VILLE
CLOVER[toot-toot]
COTTON[toot-toot]
GARDEN[toot-toot]

hey, i did not violate any rules of moving on here... i just found it interesting hehe!

nagulat ako...

at about 1230 this morning, i received a rather surprising message from someone who's obviously sorry for what he's done in the past. i guess i wasn't the only one who received that message, right? i mean i know it's addressed to a number of people.

of course, my sympathy and loyalty is still with my friend, and i still think he is a jerk (i'm not sorry for feeling this way!), but i have to say i salute him for sincerely admitting that he was wrong and that he'll never love again like he loved her. well, no matter how sorry he is, it can't bring back the past and now he has to face the consequences.

sometimes, i wish we have this control z button in our lives. if we've done something nasty, hit control z and remove all emotions and memories from our being... start anew, and everything will turn perfectly well. but life just doesn't work that way, dear. he seems really sincere and bothered though. =( i didn't reply. i'm not in the position to reply anyway...

mushy but good

"Lana, i didnt come here 2 get you.. I came here to be with you." -Jason.

Who needs superman when youve got jason.. Haha! Darn it.. Why didnt they give that line to clark?! or better yet kay lex na lang haha rumble na ang characters... =) episode 2 is good =)

weekend ender

For my weekend ender, Oh my...Kuya asked me to watch this, what do you call this? Free style boxing slash wrestling (i really had to spell slash no?). This is not one of those too-violent-but-look-theres-no-blood type of wrestling... Man, they're bleeding! Too many punches! The floor is already blood-stained! Nasty!

For a moment, i thought the other guy's dead.. Hehe.. Brutal! Oh well, the game is (is this considered a game?) over. The japanese guy won.. guess they really have very high pain tolerance... Unlike me.. When i have to go, i have to go.. Napakadaling kausap.. Hehe.. Call it giving way for other people's uhmmm, convenience... =) and happiness...

if it makes you happy... =)

To start off with my rather peaceful weekend (all gimmicks are cancelled hehe), i cleaned my email inbox.. There are a lot of unnecessary clutters in there.. Remnants of the past i'm slowly trying to forget.. If you want to forgive, you have to forget; and the only way to forget is to empty your memory bins. Just a few more stuff in my room though. I have the whole day tomorrow to clean up anyway.. *triumphant grin..

I just wish everybody well... Like the song goes ~~if it makes you happy, it can't be that baaad..~~ You happy? Im kind of happy na rin! Pde na.. =) Everybody happy! No problem with that! Thank God for all my life lifters!

(off topic: he's joking, isn't he? Everythings just a joke.. Remember? Of course it's a joke - and a good one huh!)