feeling ko, kuya na ako

hihi... excited... with my new mp3 player! woohoo! it came out of nowhere, last saturday, kuya and i were supposed to go to a computer shop to have our pc repaired. but the service for repairs is available on weekdays lang pala.

i have nothing to do so i thought... bakit si kuya may mp3 player... si win may cd player na hinihiram ko lang paminsan-minsan... si mike meron din... e bakit ako wala? mahilig din naman ako sa music ah... haha nagpaawa para lang magkarason bumili...

oh well... i've been eyeing that player since last april pa... naiinggit ako kay mike (at kay leah) hihi. so dapat bibili na rin ako, kuya talked me out of it... di ko naman daw gagamitin... a few weeks after i got home, bumili si kuya ng exact same player... haha...

so... ayun na nga... laging nakatapal sa tenga nya yung earpiece... asus...

going back, last saturday, edi wala na nga kaming lakad kse sarado yung shop... out of nowhere, i pushed his door open with a scary force (na nde ko alam san galing), and i blurted out "kuya, bibili na ko ng mp3 player" (*parang ang tono e super excited... i swear halos napatalon ako pagkakasabi ko nun, smile from ear to ear).

tingin lang sya... ang weird ko raw bigla-bigla lang... kung kelan ko raw nadecide yun. sabi ko, ngayon lang as in ngayon naisip ko lang hihi.. walang pakialamanan. bakit ba? hehe...

so ayun. he was forcing me to get the ipod na lang para nde kami pareho hehe (kse pareho rin kmeng 7650 ang phone na binili 2 yrs ago)... cute yung ipod kulay apple green... kaya lang may mga features na meron sa creative na wala sa dun sa lech na cute na ipod na yun... like hmmm... fm tuner, yung maliit na panglipat na kinakabit para nde naka-expose yung player mo, at yung stand... hehe... yun lang naman. pero for the same price, why settle for mas konting features diba? so creative it is... plus... 5 gigs yung creative, 4 lang yung ipod.

binilhan na rin namin ng speakers para share mo naman ang tunog diba... wag madamot ba... so 1 speaker kay kuya (na birthday gift ko na rin... sabi nya, buti na lang nilibre ko sya. sabi ko mali... buti na lang birthday nya... kse nde ko naman sya ililibre kung nde nya birthday hihi) at isa rin for me...

so ayun. ang haba ng kwento ko... nakakainis. e sa tamad kong to, sabi ko kay kuya, he could do the job of loading up songs in my player. i told him to copy whatever he has in his list. he's more than willing to do the task.

ok monday na, dala ko na sa work si player... ayos... pagkatapos ng araw, feeling ko e kuya na ko. ang mga songs na narinig ko maghapon puro pearl jam, razorback, parokya.. haha pang-kuya ehhh!!! ang lagay pa eh... 3 versions each song pa, 1 original, 1 acoustic, 1 live... asus... sumakit ang ulo ko.

hehe anyway, na-aappreciate ko naman... maganda rin naman and gusto ko rin naman mga songs na ganun... lalo ng pearl jam... astig yun bow ako dun idol ko rin yun.

marami ring lifehouse at coldplay... may naligaw na mga 10 songs ni nina and mymp hihi... kaya ok naman hehe... pang kuya... sana ganahan na ko mag load ng songs "ko" hihi...

3 things

kita ko sa site ni liza

Three names you go by:
1. caths
2. cat
3. karen

Three screen names you have had:
1. irish
2. hapon
3. lucky deleon

Three physical things you like about yourself:
1. maliit
2. mata
3. dimple hihi

Three physical things you don't like about yourself:
1. kulot (wavy lang hihi)
2. pango hihi
3. pimples sa likod

Three parts of your heritage:
1. filipino
2. chinese
3. --

Three things that scare you:
1. death of loved ones
2. lokohin ng bf (ulit?!? what the...?!?!)
3. earthquake

Three of your everyday essentials:
1. perfume or cologne
2. petroleum jelly
3. cellphone

Three of your favorite bands/musical artist:
diverse sobra ang gusto ko hihi...

Three of your favorite songs:
1. into you
2. make me whole
3. for you
4. twisted
5. you first believed

Three things you want in a relationship:
1. consistency
2. patience sa pagiging isip bata ko =)
3. respect

Three truths and lies in no particular order:
(truths)
1. super mababaw - patawanin at paiyakin
2. nang-aaway ng bf pag magkakaron
3. i don't voice out what i really feel
(lies)
1. i'm assertive
2. i'm a good decision-maker
3. i don't value my family and friends and blessings

Three physical things about the opposite sex that appeals to you:
1. eyes
2. smile
3. naka-white

Three of your favorite hobbies:
1. watching tv
2. blogging
3. reading

Three things you want to do really badly now:
1. cuddle with someone
2. go to hawaii
3. go home and sleep.. i'm dead tired

Three careers you're considering/you've considered:
1. pre-school teacher at makipaglaro sa mga bata
2. travel and adventure show host or staff
3. accountant

Three places you want to go on vacation:
1. Hawaii
2. Japan
3. Bora

Three kid's name you like:
1. Nikkie
2. Therese
3. Sebastian

Three things you want to do before you die:
1. travel the world din
2. live comfortably and contentedly with my family
3. hmmm... yun... hihi

Three ways that you are stereotypically a girl:
1. masungit pag magkakaron hihi
2. fickle-minded
3. mahilig sa sweet-nothings

Three ways that you are stereotypically a boy:
1. i don't nag (may mag-oobject ba? hihi)
2. nde ako matagal mag prepare for a lakad (again, objections?)
3. i do not show affection that much (same here, liza)

Three celeb crushes:
1. si adam sa smallville
2. si lex sa smallville
3. si jason sa smallvile

People you would like to pass this tag:
hmmm... kahit sino =)

2 odd things

i've got two interesting stuff to share today. it's a gloomy day, looks like it'll rain soon but it's a fine day still. =)

"tumataba ka"

woohoo! the best thing i heard this morning. =)

mauie, lamo ba na the ever famous sol anne's bakeshop/tambayan during our HS days is here at spi... hihi nagulat nga ako at nakita ko si aling sol (that's how the people here call her) nung pagpasok ko pa lang dito eh... (that was 3 yrs ago.. and heck, yes, i'm old [old and happy])

well, masarap yung food nila. medyo expensive nga lang pero i think mataas kse yung rent nila dito eh kaya ganun.

anyway, so ayun, i was buying my breakfast this morning... pandesal with cheese pimiento and ovaltine 3-in-1. tapos yung 1 tindera nila, tingin sakin sabi, "tumataba ka... yung pisngi mo gumaganon" sabay demo na parang lumolobo yung pisngi ko...

i just answered, "wow, talga? yehey!" hihi...

i don't know what makes me taba... but whatever it is, i give it a high-5... woohoo!

it could be hmmm... my work? makes me eat at odd hours and odd quantities and odd whatevers...

it could be hmmm... my shift? when i'm in 2nd shift, i get more than 8 hrs of sleep...

it could be hmmm... because i'm happy? although medyo sad ako ngayon kse some people in my life are acting kinda childlike and ang tagal nang nde maresolve ng conflict... hay. guys, let's all grow up! (kasama ako)... at nasasad ako pag tumataas ang level ng hormones na lech... hehe

buhay si caren carpenter

5 minutes ago, i answered the phone... conversation went...

caths: servisoft
guy: hello, good morning. pwede kay caren?
caths: caren?
guy: caren carpenter?
caths: caren? (*super pigil ang tawa)
guy: caren carpenter
caths: (*pigil pa rin pero medyo natawa na talga ko...)
guy: (*nakahalata... nag-isip) ay sorry caren gaspar pala (*giggles)
caths: ay wala pa po sya eh (*di nakapigil bumungisngis na... hihihi!)

it was so funny! ayun pareho kami tawang-tawa... akalain nyong hanapin si caren carpenter?!? sana sinabi ko... caren carpenter as in "rainy days and mondays always make me cry?" hihi... the odd things in life! are so funny! =)

on war of the worlds...

hehe... well, it wasn't really one of those days that i would like to remember. but every memory, good or bad helps shape whatever you have in your being.

literally, there was a war of the worlds hehe... two worlds, that is. semi lang. oa naman ako you know. minsan kahit super babaw, e nagiging gigantic sakin hihi...

watched uaap with (or without? hehe) mike. i felt goosebumps just watching the opening ceremonies and feeling the oh-so-high school spirit of everybody there. i was among the adamson crowd hehe wrong gate... good thing the family beside me were clapping for my team... heck, i clapped with them hihi... kahit na 4 lang kami cheer for my team, at least i was not that alone.

and then... off to another war, we watched the war of the worlds. i know almost everybody didn't like the story... but heck, i think i liked it! yeah... i think it's great. i dunno if i'm just mababaw or it's really good.

that day... hmmm... revealed a lot of firsts. i know i don't always speak or yell out what's on my mind, but i always strive to be honest on how i feel... one way or another. i know it shows in the way i act... i know i make "certain" people crazy the way i shut myself out and just play dead and numb... or maybe enforce "certain" people to play guessing games with me... but you could never deduce anything from me if i opt to shut myself out... until, of course, i'm ready to spill it all out.

and if in the process, i was able to somehow hurt somebody's feelings, i'm deeply sorry but that was how i felt.

i'm ok now... we're ok now. i just felt the urge to speak out how i felt that day. =)

i'm so A-ok... in fact i can't wait to see you hihi...

it's kuya's birthday tomorrow. well, we're in the midst of another war... i'm in another ipit-na-naman-ako-session (i'm not complaining) and i don't know if i could manage to resolve it tomorrow, but i'll try my best. after all there's only 4 of us left and i don't want to disrupt the harmony of what i call the perfect family (for me, that is). panindigan ang pagiging middle child, mediator, barangay captain, lawyer, na nasa gitna ng anumang sigalot... asus ano raw?

it's a fine day. =)

mellow friday

another friday... and i find it rather hard to smile today. as in almost nakasimangot ako... hay pero nde naman ako nagsusungit pag may lumalapit sakin hehe. i'm not that type. i could smile naman and be good to the unsuspecting people around me... after all, they don't know what's going on inside my body and soul and mind naman diba... why the heck should i make sungit naman diba?

feeling heavy because of the pre-monthly thing... ayoko nga tumayo kaninang umaga eh... bakit ba kse every month na lang kailangan bumigat ang kalooban dahil sa mga lech na hormones... hay.. kakainis. yung parang kahit pilitin mong maging light, argh ang bigat pa rin...

tapos... last night, pumunta kami ni papa mike sa wake ng mom ng close friend ko. it's just so sad... seeing them all so sad and mourning.

made me think of my loved ones and what i'll do if the same thing happened to me. yung sa iba nga, ang bigat na sa kalooban and heck... i'm not even in their shoes. yun pa kayang sayo mangyari...

well, eventually, dun din naman lahat mag-end up kaya lang it's just a sad thing. para kasing in my head, caths = mom + kuya + win... tapos... pag may nawala, incomplete na... and i don't want that to happen. sana mauna ako... hihi shellfish... selfish pala.

ayan muka tuloy akong tanga... umiiyak... unti-unti... tapos punas punas lang panyo para matuyo... hay... i get really weird at times... baka isipin ng mga tao dito may mabigat akong problema hihi...

oa scripts

the grudge scare

last sunday, the grudge 2 was aired on abs-cbn... and yes, it was scary as hell even if it was dubbed in filipino... argh. my mom and i were pretending to be women of courage and strength as we watched portions of the freaky film.

after that, our lives have never been the same (hihi oa).

imagine how scared i got two days ago... 3am, i woke up and felt this sudden pang of lbm attack... how i managed to beat the scared cells in my body, i don't know... but i definitely had to go... so mega run ako... mixed emotions of being scared and wanting to ebs is reaaaallyyy bad! argh argh...

*sige camille, dagdagan mo pa ng pagpost mo ng mata mo! hehe... cool!

on cold, dark showers

summer's gone and the cold rainy season is embracing us all now. apparently, a leak on our roof caused an explosion in our bathroom light. a million and one sparks drizzled while i was inside the bathroom. hihi oa ulit. nag short circuit lang yung ilaw... and now, we take our showers in a sort of romantic way.. hihi candle light... candle light shower? hihi...

the attack of the pimples

pimples on my back freak me out... hay i hate it. i remember i once tried extraderm #50. oa ulit #3 lang hihi... at nagbalat akong parang ahas... matapos ang pagbabalat, nanumbalik ang mga tighiyawat sa aking likod... darn it. can't i just have a normal errrrr back? hihi... after my countless puyat nights dito sa office, ayun, medyo kumakalat sa muka ko yung pimples... argh! stop!!!

juana tamad's remedy

want to know what caths does when the seams of her pants become tastas?

sew it? nah... (although i know running stitch, back stitch, cross stitch, hemming stitch, burda stitch, cross bone stitch, at kung anu-ano pang stitch... promise! di oa to! salamat kina mrs. cruz, mrs. ramirez, mga huwarang gurong nagturo ng pananahi noong kabataan ko hihi oa alert)

ask others to saw it? nah... (pandidilatan lang ako ng mata ng nanay ko kung ginawa ko yun)

tape it? nah... natatanggal... nakaka conscious lagi ko tinitingnan kung naka-tape pa.

the answer? STAPLE it! the staple wires are slightly visible but it's pretty much reliable. woohoo! hehe sorry! tamad ako eh... =)

GONE off-key

hay... guess what time i got home? 630pm! wooohoo! that's what i call normal =). just in time to see the almost setting sun. i'm back to my regular shift and i'm not yet THAT busy (ah ganon ah! wait for a few more days... i bet balik sa dati ka na naman hihi!).

when i got home, i got bored watching the news and hearing about the millions of dilemma we're into right now. argh... too much bad news is pouring our way. heeding somebody's advice, i turned the tv off... what to do? darn it... i've got to do something. sayang ang pag-uwi ko nang maaga...

and then i saw the piano and thought, when was the last time i hit the keys? grabe... kung merong nangangalawang, mga kamay ko yun. grabe! i'm so lousy na playing the piano... i was actually making noise rather than music hehe... dagdagan pa ng pagka-off-key ng piano dahil sa kalumaan at tagal nang hindi natutugtog. hay... what the heck... to hell with critics... i played along. my favorite's GONE... and karaniwang theme song sa mga drama shows hehe... i was teary-eyed as i played the piece. kahit wala sa tono, wala sa tyempo, i'm so into this piece. sa loob-loob ko, kebs kung wala sa tono ang piano ko? deep inside, i'm playing the right tune. hehe lakas ng fighting spirit!

the simple pleasures of life =)... so nice

how will you take it?

hay... i know telling the truth is the RIGHT thing to do... but what if telling the truth would make it impossible for some of the "essential" and "necessary" things to push through? twisting some of the facts would be a remedy, but bending some facts means NOT telling the truth; therefore a lie.

i have no idea how you'll take it, but i guess the bottom line is trust. i know you trust me and i don't want to break this wonderful gift you've given me.

i have two options:

muster a zillion and one tons of guts and say it point blank... give it a shot...
two things could happen:
* you might think it's probably fine and just tell me... go ahead
* you might give me a stern look from head to toe... and just hate me until you forget what i just told you

not divulge too much information. filter some stuff for the good of mankind (yeah convince yourself that it's not a lie... go ahead use some flowery terms! duh!)
two things could happen:
* i'll have it my way woohoo! and you'll never ever know that some things transpired
* you might eventually find (not necessarily seek) the truth and spit on my face ewww... hehe brutal eh! of course, you'll not do that... but you just might.

what to do? what to do? the first option has more weight for me 'cause it's the right thing to do. either of the two is risky, though. i'm on the losing end no matter what hehe. =( sometimes it's just so hard and painful and undesirable to do the right things...

well, i could always delay things... no action, no lie. no lie, no sin hehe! argh!