on candles

minsan, ang kandila hyper. matindi magningas. siguro dahil dun sa mahabang mitsa. ang liwanag! ang laki ng apoy. parang nagsasayaw. malikot. masigasig. kahit merong hanging bumubuga-buga, hindi madaling mamatay. ganadong ganadong mag give light at magningning! kelangan mo ng todong effort to make a big blow bago sya ma-dead.

minsan naman, ang kandila low batt. siguro dahil halos parang nilalamon na ng kandila yung mitsa. yumyum ba. todo flicker weakly ang light. will it die? or will it not die? kahit anong gawin mong takip at pag-iwas sa hangin, wala, namamatay din. minsan nga, ayaw na sumindi e. in that case, useless na ang kandila. patapon na.

pero 'di naman laging hopeless case yun e pag ayaw sumindi. minsan kelangan mo sunugin yung kandila mismo para lumabas yung mitsa... remedyo ba. ganun naman ang buhay eh. remedyuhan lang ang mga pagkukulang, tapos ok na ulit. tapos, liliwanag na ulit. minsan. minsan, hindi rin.

what's with the candle? ewan ko. parang ako siguro...

survey

1.anong gusto mong itawag sa iyo?
- caths, cat

2.anong oras kang natutulog sa gabi?
- sa umaga, 11am

3.ano gusto mo, sports o arts?
- pareho

4.ilang beses kang kumain sa isang araw?
- three..

5. ano ang nagpapasaya sa araw mo?
- maliliit na bagay, malalaking bagay na kasiya-siya

6. umiinom ka ba ng beer?
- pwede na rin

7. madali ka bang masaktan?
- super

8. pano ka nagpapapansin sa crush mo?
- hihi... i'm too shy to let him know i exist

9. mahal mo ba kaibigan mo?
- butopkors

10. wat turns u off?
- mayabang

11. naranasan mo na bang magmahal ng isang
tao na d ka mahal?
- yuh

12. sa tingin mo ba meron kang secret
admirer?
- wala siguro

13. panu mo malalaman kung mahal mo na?
- pag naiinis na ko pag di sya nagpaparamdam

14. close ka ba sa mommy mo?
- yuf

15. eh mga kapatid mo?
- uu

16. ano fave mong gawin kapag may free time
ka?
- makinig music, manood tv, mag internet

17.masasabi mo bang kumpleto na ang buhay
mo ngayon?
- there are certain things na medyo kulang pa pero pwede namang wala. :) ibigay or hindi, hindi sasama ang loob ko hihi. ay kulang pa pala... wala pa kong anak e

18. masarap bang magmahal?
- soper

19. pano ka magselos?
- "sige kayo na lang kaya?!? babye" sabay irap

apart but not torn apart

wishing you all the best in life... wishing you all the best in love. i swear, i wouldn't approve of long distance relationships ever. but there's no guarantee that what happened to me will happen to juan and maria. :)

maybe there's a love that gets weak over time. maybe there's a love that doesn't get contented and wanders away. maybe it's not love after all. but there's also a love that's as sturdy as bamboo, just sways along with the challenges and gets stronger in the midst of chaos.

being apart doesn't necessarily mean you'll be torn apart. it's just a phase. i'll be there with you in your happy ending... and maybe, eveybody might just live happily ever after... distance or no distance. together forever. dick and carmi. whatever.

moments and oh moments

multinational village trip/lcg renewal

mark, ate estrella, joycha, and i headed to the holy eucharist parish in moonwalk for the yearly lcg renewal. we decided to just hail a tricycle and use the multinational village route to get there instead of the longer way - via sucat road. so we asked this tricycle driver if he knew where the holy eucharist parish was. he said yes. we took the long journey. after many lefts and rights, we realized we're kinda lost and that manong tric didn't know where we were going. syet. anyway, we found the church at long last and we were still early for the event.

the seminar was rather informative, not really boring. thanks to the good speaker and good company, everything went out well.

oh moment: oh! i saw monty in the rest room! i didn't know she was in the lcg. it was good to see her. :)

ang pananghalian (or merienda na?)

it was mikey's mom's and dad's birthday party last saturday. mom and i were invited. i got home from the renewal at around 1230 and mom and i rushed to imus for the lunch. yes, lunch at 2pm. the food was great. the people were great. and it was a heart-warming sight to see mikey introduce my mom and i to his relatives. there were good realizations and it's nice to hear those words from my mom.

oh moment: oh! i finally met the friend - M... the famous M. i don't know what to say. pleased to meet you? maybe.

ang handaan ni donya mary

lola mary, our fammily friend and neighbor, celebrated her 75th birthday in the magsaysay hall along roxas boulevard. it was a sosyaling event. all her siblings from the states were there to grace the event. she looked really elegant in her maroon beaded gown. but what is elegance without bliss? with all her family and friends there, i could testify that she IS happy that night. when (and IF) i turn 75, i want to be as happy as donya mary. :)

oh moment: wala naman hehe.

manibela at ligaw

wawin gave me driving lessons yesterday. sa multi sana, kaso this manong rude guard didn't let us go in the village. fine. iyo na yan. we went to manila memorial instead. first to visit papa-yo and lolo-yo and lola-yo and then to practice driving na. yes. very "challenging" ang lesson na ito. bwahaha ... practice na practice. manila memorial ba naman e. sus. and then we headed off to fort estate to get kuya's atm from lui.

oh moment: oh syet! naligaw kami! as in super ligaw. do maps expire? hahaha expired na ata ang map namin. or hindi lang kami marunong tumingin... syet na map yan.

on dreams and visions

i've had surreal dreams for the past three nights. the dreams range from peaceful calamities (however weird that sounds), to getting lost, to making out (that's not weird), to asking favors from a city mayor who used to be a chicharong bulaklak vendor, to switching mothers, and to solitaires in a wooden house.

weird dreams aren't destructive, i think, but a regular dose of them doesn't put me in a feel-good state either. i woke up in a rather uneasy and heavy state for the past three days... which later on resulted to headeaches. argh.

for that reason, i now keep track of my dreams. who knows, somebody is trying to tell me something... when i wake up, i get my cell phone and jot down keywords of the dreams i had and then when i get to the office (talagang sa office ginagawa ito e no!), i make a detailed account of the dream... voila, a dream blog. make that a secret dream blog. who would ever be interested in reading somebody else's dreams and subconscious contents (or crap?!)? hehe.