sabi ng kantang 'to

and all at once the crowd begins to sing
sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same

all at once
-the fray

hankyut

ok lang naman pala

bakit ko naman ine-exhaust ang katawan ko over things na hindi naman worth pagkapaguran? :)
marami pang bagay na mas worth pag-exertan ng effort, right? :)
transform negative vibes into positive. :)
mamuhunan ng positive energy. :)
gain positive energy. :)
may tubo pa. :)
ayz? :)
ayz! :)
i love life! :)

"bantay, play dead"

diba dapat, para kay bantay lang ito? :(

annoying tv, annoying remote control

our tv remote control has been this useless piece of crap for the longest time now. we don't know why it suddenly stopped functioning. its time here on earth has just come to an end probably. it just ceased to serve its purpose. we kept it anyway. while waiting for the good timing to purchase a new one, it just sat there on top of the magazine rack. sometimes, we try if it would still breathe into life. it won't. crap.

how do we control the tv then? it's the biggest challenge of the century. instead of sitting comfortably on the sofa, munching on something, and channel surfing, we do everything manually - as in go in front of tv, turn it on, push channel up/down buttons, push volume up/down buttons, turn it off. i guess i'm just a lazy person that's why i find these burdensome. fine. it's not that much of a task provided the buttons function correctly. they don't. they have lives of their own - stubborn lives.

channel up button - also functions as off button - almost always. imagine the frustration it brings when you try to switch channels! mikey actually thought i was pulling a stunt on him once. he was changing channels and was getting really annoyed because he thought i was using a remote to switch it off. hahaha... and he gave me a mega glare. and i was like "what?!?!". hey, i'm not an alien! hahaha really annoying.

channel down, volume up, volume down buttons - also function as volume up. annoying. really annoying! imagine the bugnot i feel when watching the tv at 2am. naturally i have to turn the volume down - only it gets louder! at 2am. syet. louder and louder until it reaches the maximum volume. harharhar. sorry neighbors. you have to push really, really, really hard to turn the volume down. syet.

so watching tv has become this big, annoying, painstaking activity. hahaha. bakit ba kasi hindi pa bumili ng remote?! ilang buwan na yan e!

when i got to the office today, i called win. he said he miraculously brought the remote back to life! oh, good! yipee! tv, wait for me!

sobrang maling reaksyon

papasok sa office at 3pm, it was the usual super init day. todo wipe na naman ako ng kapawisan ko sa ilong (uuuyy selosa!), sa batok, leeg, at hairline hehe! pero ang summer season ay hanggang buendia lang. yez. dahil pagdating ng bandang mayapis, rainy season na. weird.

medyo windang ako... parang lagi naman e. basta papasok ako kse naman todo ang init! tapos biglang umulan so ang confusion at katuliruhan ko ay umabot sa maximum level. wala ba sa sarili. ang gusto ko lang talagang mangyari ay makarating ako sa comfort ng aking cube.

bago ako pumasok sa lobby ng rcbc, yung before na magcheck ang manong guard ng bag, may mga lalaking nakatambay dun. mga naka sports attire ba... parang kaka basketball lang. parang, aah, san kaya sila galing? pero kebs lang ako. muka silang sumilong lang dahil umaambon nga nang malakas. or hindi pa makababa... something like that. or parang waiting for someone. i didn't really care 'cause hindi ko naman sila kilala.

"hi cat!", yan ang narinig ko from one of them. sounded an awful lot like "hi cat!".

dahil likas akong magugulatin, halos napatalon ako sa gulat. i looked at him at todo smile sya... kung nakakapagsalita lang ang mukha, ang sabi siguro ng mukha ko ay: "sino ka?!?!?" at medyo lalong naghalo-halo ang naramdaman ko. hindi ko sya kilala, pero ang face nya ay parang "uy! ako 'to!". i smiled - a confused smile at hinukay ko ang utak ko pero his face wasn't even familiar! i was super clueless talaga!

i didn't stop. i just walked towards the lobby... and into rcbc. hahaha! i assumed he thought i was somebody else. i was sooo rude! grabe sorry! ang feeling ko ay nagkamali lang sya ng tawag, at akala nya ay ako si... cat? oops teka ako nga si cat! waah! kung sino man sya, sorry! nalito talaga ako... sino ako? asan ako? sino ka? hahaha! sisa! magpakita ka ulit sa'kin at magsosorry ako sayo... waaah!

* ang tumatawag lang sakin ng cat ay mga kapamilya ko... as in mami, wawin, kuya, a few relatives, mikey. at hindi sya isa dun... waaah! must be a relative... or a neighbor?

quickie tuesdays and/or thursdays

i so look forward to tuesdays and thursdays (bukod sa friday, of course). if the circumstances permit, mikey and i eat out. quickie ito hihihi. i say quickie 'cause we try to squeeze in eating, story-telling, kulitan, picturan, and all in more or less an hour. after his class sa vito cruz, he rushes to makati. kitakits, pre. hihi.

medyo challenging maghanap ng mga food spots na open pa at past 9 pm. well, marami pa rin namang bukas. and it doesn't really matter kung saan, as long as there's foodie.

after ng medyo mabilisang dinner, we head off to ate yogi's office. pick her up (sa pick-up point) and drop me off (sa drop-off). ayos sounds cute. that's the set-up. hihi.

one of my little joys in life... the feeling is light yet overwhelming... :) just right.

summer na naman

grabe na ang init ng panahon! parang kailan lang, matutuwa ka pa kahit na lumabas ka ng 2:00 ng hapon kse medyo chilly pa ang panahon kahit na may araw. e ngayon, hay. kasabay ng pag-init ng panahon ang pang-init din ng ulo ng mga taong nasa ilalim ng araw. halos lahat nakasimangot! kasama na 'ko dun. hehe. mahirap talagang ngumiti kapag mainit ang araw. ewan ko. instinct ko na sigurong kumunot ng noo. kse silawin akong tao. at hindi ako palangiti lalo na kung mag-isa lang ako. may mga tao lang sigurong nasa nature na ang pagngiti (hindi ako isa sa kanila. sorry :-S).

masaya ang summer. favorite ko itong panahon. mas natotolerate ko kasi ang init kesa sa lamig. hehe. pero... may mga bagay lang talagang nakakairita kapag summer (specifically kapag namamasahe ka lang):

mga mukang nakasimangot dahil sa init

mga pathetic na aircon sa mga fx at bus. hindi talaga nila carry ang init.

pawis. maraming pawis.

ang pawis ng katabi mo ay pawis mo na rin. yak.

isama na natin sa pawis ang amoy ng pawis. yak. (ok lang ito as long as hindi lilipat sayo ang amoy ng katabi mo)

dahil kulot ako, nagpaparelax ako ng buhok. at kapag naarawan ang relaxed kong buhok, lumulutong ito. ayoko nito.

yung mga taong sobrang vocal na naiinitan sila. mga super sighs at kung ano-anong sinasabi kahit na mag-isa lang sila. cool, man! bawal init-ulo.

yung init pag sinamahan mo ng traffic, riot ito. mas maraming nagiging vocal sa mga feelings of disgust nila. dangerous combo.

nakakaitim ang araw. kundi rin lang sa beach iitim, sayang naman. sa beach lang ako lisensyadong umitim.

hmm... yun lang naman other than those, i love everything about summer! what do you know? SUMMER NA TALAGA!!!! woohoo! life is good!!!

malaya na si wawin (for now)

wawin has just completed the school requirements for this term. today is their finals week and yesterday was the last day he did stuff to complete the projects.

things wawin did for this term:

sulat mania - i remember during elementary, we had this paulinian writing and we grew calluses writing on our paulinian writing book. win's engineering writing, i guess, is the counterpart for this. a paper would probably mean research, type, print, and submit. that is a REGULAR paper. win's paper meant manually writing and drawing on hundreds of pages using this engineering stroke. and i can't help him because my writing doesn't have an engineer's touch. i don't get it why their profs want it that way but they sure do get it the way they want it. as if students have a choice. it's just that it sounds freaky writing hundreds of pages. poor wawin.

sleepless nights - of course kadikit ng sulat at drawing kamay ay oras. win had a couple of nights with 0 hours of sleep talga. i used to do this during college. i guess, it's really a part of college life. you stay awake all night, and you go to school the next day looking and feeling like a zombie. mahirap ito. i remember i invited mosquitos to bite me just to ward off feelings of antok. bangenge.

no social life - for most days, weekends included, win was this geeky boy. he didn't have time to eat decently, he didn't have time to even make kwento with us, he had to say goodbye to his pc games, i hardly saw him watching tv, he never played his guitar, he didn't even have time to smile! beat that! although i know they manage to have alak sessions every now and then. ang kapatid ko'y masipag sa pag-aaral ngunit mabisyo rin. hehehe

marathon - ate had to be part of this ordeal. yesterday, i accompanied him in searching for a bookbinding shop. we were in crappy pambahay attire... as in crappy shirt, shorts, and tsinelas kse sa sucat lang naman, pero no luck. we were out of time so we rushed to moa - looking crappy and all. no luck pa rin, we headed to sm manila. and we made libot intramuros ata e and the whole of manila! grabe!!! we looked like palaboy people. argh. and i swear, the soles of my feet were all crappy na rin after ng hiking namin. ang libag! kung di ko lang lab si baby wawin hehehe.

i may have missed something. these are really exhausting... yesterday, after the bookbind session, win was really happy and relieved. he started watching tv series again, he even played his guitar! yehey! way to go! a few more months and your student days are done. good luck!

mga parte ng araw

umaga
dead pa ako.

tanghali
birthday treat nina ate maj at char. it was a trip to spi memory lane. dorots, jet, nina (paksyet ayaw gumana ng alt164 ko hehe. klangan talgang sabihin yun?), kent, joy, anabelle, angie, mumay, and iane were there. cool ang food sa dampa, macapagal. masarap. para ano pa ang masarap na pagkain kung walang masarap na ka-kwentuhan? everyone had a good dose of updates and chisms.

bad trip ang u-turn slot sa may coastal mall. ah eh, lalong nagpapatrapik ito, mga manong. mas maigi siguro kung paderetsuhin na lang sa coastal mall kesa mag u-turn pa. hassle e.

salamat sa great food at great company! happy birthday, ate maj and char!

gabi
sa mga hindi nakakaalam, 2 ang gf ni wentworth miller - si tonette at ako. this is the only time i could tolerate sharing of bfs. i wouldn't mind sharing a bf as cutie as went. and i wouldn't mind sharing him with a friend as special as tonette. tama na ang kalokohan.

i invited tonette to watch the 2 latest episodes of prison break since pareho kaming crazy over went. ang ingay namin. marami kaming shrieks of kilig and excitement and oa stuff na pinakawalan at 12 midnight. good luck sa mga kapitbahay namin. wala namang tanod na sumugod sa bahay namin. so good noise pa naman ang ginawa namin siguro.

ayos talga ang prison break. twist na naman! mukang may season 3 pa a. baka naman umabot na sa manhunt ng kaapu-apuhan nila. hehe.

madaling-araw
ganado ako magpost. bakit? ewan. good chat with acy about kiri and good chat with kuya about tfc. i never thought kuya would be a tfc advocate. he's asking me to have a week-long vacation dun. awww... miss na talga nya siguro kami. i will once i get enough leave credits.

*just a thought... maybe it's time to change strategies. i had a couple of useful tips and hints. :) thanks, pals!

walang punctuation marks

disappointed
over a lot of things
but like everything else
this too shall pass
but when it does
what happens next
it just goes by i guess
just like time
just like a moment
just like you and me

i remember
when as a kid i used to play
with this thing called magic slate
jot it all down
mess with it if i wish to
and in the end
if i dont find it appealing
just lift the tab
and what do you know
it is a clean slate after all

i can do just that if you want me to
but life is not a magic slate
neither am i

life is a big question mark

i had a good chat with michie. i told her things i was afraid to admit even to myself. the words just kept flowing out of my mouth... make that my fingers - i was typing LOL!

i realized it was the first time i ever talked it over with somebody else. i dunno if i'm just being affected with the sad circumstances around me (i'm being so vague sheesh), but yeah. THAT really is the case and it will stay that way.

it is a sad realization... sad but it felt great to say it point-blank. so there really is some sense beyond the bungisngisan and childish talks! we made so much sense in between laughs. and it all summed up to: life is a big question mark. it is not harmless to take risks, but what harm would it do to take them anyway? you'll never know until you try. if you feel it's worth a try, then go ahead! jump! as long as it makes you happy (and you don't use someone, that is).

nice talk, michie. ulitin natin. :)

being a user... is another topic i'd gladly blab about in another post... just you wait. hahaha. is this a threat?