gula-gulanit

kawawa naman, walang pambili ng pajamas.
nabili ko pa sa baclaran ang pantulog kong itong.
murang-mura, 3 for 100PHP. mantakin mo, 1SGD lang. hay.
presko ito - dahil manipis.
kapag tumapat ako sa araw, kita na ang silhouette ko.
waw. silhouette talaga.
parang mali ang salita.
para kasing pang sexy lang ang silhouette!
so sasabihin kong, "aninag na ang binti ko"
wenongayon yung sira?
masarap pa rin isuot!

what it only means

i don't mind falling badly
it could only mean one thing:
i will stand up gracefully
and be there eventually with Him

losing interest

when someone loses interest in something, it gets bad. it will get bad.
you wake up each morning and you realize you don't look forward to certain things. it will get bad.
when you withdraw from something you really, really like, it will eventually turn out for the best. but initially, it will get bad.
when you see a pattern forming, it sometimes seems to be leading to something dim. it will get bad.
you try to swallow it in any way possible, but you just can't... makes you puke... it will get bad.
you start to sigh - the way you sighed before when things were like hell. it will get bad.
when you find yourself standing still amidst everybody else's pompous jumps, you realize life gets dull. it will get bad.
it makes you beam like elmo before but now, the very sight of it makes you glare. if looks could kill, it will get bad.
when you start concocting these crappy negative thoughts in your brain, you will end up being a crazy witch. oh, it will get bad!

i will not forget

it was mother's day yesterday. the very best i could do was send my mom an sms and call her in the afternoon. it was just a regular chika, like any ordinary weekend where i'd call her and gossip like a teenager.

when i was a little girl, i used to make hand-made niceties for her on mother's day. mostly hand-made cheesy cards. it always made her cry. no matter how cheesy or corny the contents were, the cards never failed to make her cry.

todo effort, i would prepare to make the card in advance and on mother's day, i would shyly give it to her, or probably leave it on a spot where she would easily find it. decors galore! colors, glitters, cut-out papers, hala, sige mistulang art class ito.

i also used to jog with my lolo during mornings. he would urge me to pick flowers so i could give them to mom as a present when i get home. there was also a time when i crafted one of her photos so it would appear 3d. it still stands on our piano, collecting dust, but the lady in the photo is just as pretty. i wish i had her pwetty looks ;) especially the overly tangos nose. yup ako lang ang pango sa amin! haha! fine.

and then i thought today. sms and phone call? is that the best i can do?

i sent her an email. i told her that now that i'm all grown up, i will not forget that she is my mother, I will not forget that i love her, i will not forget all the sacrifices she did for us, i will not forget to thank her each day of my life, I will not forget that I should be a better person each day because that's what she wants me to be - and it's the right way to be!

yup, i'm still cheesy. yup, i know she will still cry when she reads the email. we are licensed to be cheesy when it comes to our moms. if it's for mami, it's not cheesy at all. ;p

paru-paros

i seldom buy hair clips - even if i tie my hair in a half pony tail everyday. i have 2 yellow clamps now and they're starting to break :( time to say goodbye to the yellow clamps :(

saw these cute shokshoks at the grocery earlier today. hehe, mailagay sa punda kong bulaklakin. para lang akong nasa hardin. it's cute!

sa kaitaasan

view from carslberg tower, sentosa. last week was my first time to get
to the tower. cc and maria and i had a great 360-degree view of the
sentosa vicinity from the top of the tower.

I love the wonderful clouds. i love the way the sky seemingly meets
the water. i love the way the white sand peeks from the sea. i love
the richness of the color of the trees.. lush lush! great view :)

anong itsura kapag bangag?

pagkatapos manood ng mini concert, uminom ng kaunti, mahilo sa taxi,
at magsuka dahil nakainom, anong itsura ng isang tao?

i love...

it's your time to shine

if there's one thing i learned today, it's the fact that i have the right to shine on my own sweet time. i can be mad if i wanted to, shout if i opted to, glare if i wished to do so. because the spotlight is on me at this very moment and i am the star! this is my show and that's how i want the script to run. i could probably act like a self-centered, spoiled little girl who's waiting to be babied and pampered and loved and all. nothing new? i'll tell you what's new. it's the reality that you have these rights too and you deserve to be angry too sometimes. and you could be the star too. i will just be the extra when your shining moment comes. oh, i was the extra a few minutes ago. you were a wonderful star! a very cute star! i loved doing the pampering hihi! another thing i learned? there's no return key on this thing. hehe so they are all contained on a single paragraph. eek ugly!

frogging

they sell these poor creatures in shengshiong. yep, they're big, big frogs - leaping and croaking and all. if in pinas, you have to cave into the muddy rice fields to get hold of them, here, you could conveniently sort of "frog" for it from this plastic container and bring it home and cook it.

(ehem, do you frog for frogs the same way you fish for fishes?
would a conversation sound this way:
char1: wacha doin'?
char2: i'm froggin'. you? wacha doin'?
char1: i'm fishin'.
char2: fine.
char1: fine.
waw ganyan talaga mag-usap? ang aarte.)

i don't think i could eat it. one arte expression for it would be: eew.

even if it tastes like chicken, i don't think i can try it.

ok, maybe i will. one of these days. if there's a challenge... and the prize is good. if the prize is this something i have in mind, i'll do it.

excuse the arte-ness. eew.

eew.

pampa

katulad ng ina ko, mahilig akong magpapahid ng kung anu-ano sa katawan ko. hahaha! maka-arte lang ba.

heto't, masdan ang mga bago kong kakikayan.

pampatanggal daw ng peklat ng pimples
libre lang ito sa nabili kong clinique 1-2-3. nagsale kasi, so nagpabili ulit ako kay ahngel. ang cute ng freebies. sinliit ng langgam. hihi. meron akong 2 annoying na peklat ng pimple sa muka, tingnan natin kung eepek itong free na ito hehe.

pampatanggal daw ng wrinkles malapit sa mata

gas, parang ang tanda ko na ah. hehe, talaga namang intensive! susme, sabi parang natatanggal nya ang wrinkles. pero sabi ng titser ko, wala naman daw talagang way na matanggal ang wrinkles. hahaha. ay, libre lang din ito. 'di ko pa nasusubukan. saka na pag matanda na ako. bwahaha, bukas na yun siguro.

pampabango daw ng katawan
ayan, gaya-gaya lang ako, minsan kasi, naamoy ko si jan mabango ang pabango nya. pakopya lang ng amoy hehe. mabango sya pramis! tamang-tama nag-aya si kuya bumili ng pabango sa mustaps kahapon. i like!

pampabawas daw ng dryness ng hairs (waw plural talaga!)
2 linggo na siguro ako twice nagsha-shampoo ng buhok. isa sa umaga, isa sa gabi. di ko alam kung bakit. sa saliksik ko, masama pala ito dahil ang shampoo ay parang detergent na panglaba or panghugas ng plato. maaaring tinatanggal nya ang dumi ng buhok, ngunit it also strips off the natural oil of the hair. waw. since di ko maiwasang maligo sa gabi, sabi ng internet, pwede raw ihalo ang 1 tbsp ng baking soda sa 1 cup warm water as replacement sa shampoo. mild ito compared sa shampoo. sa gabi, baking soda, sa umaga shampoo. subukan natin. :) ito ang favorite kong item sa mga nipost ko today :)

awww i miss my mami, my kikay buddy.

on disappointment

why do people get disappointed?

maybe they expect too much and when they don't get what they are hoping for, it gets sour.

maybe they do not expect too much, but they hope that, at the very least, something they deserve will happen. and others may be just too insensitive to give what people rightfully deserve.

maybe they just choose to shut up when they get hurt because they don't want others to act in a certain way - just because they were told to do so. maybe they believe that people who are people do things the right way based on their judgment, and not because they are scolded.

maybe because they are promised of something good and the promise just rots and resurrects, then rots and resurrects again, and rots some more and resurrects again and again... and sometimes it just gets too tiring. promises aren't supposed to behave this way. it's a shame.

maybe because there is just a thing called difference among people, and some differences could never be settled. never. and the thing called acceptance will never be applicable. difference will not cease to exist. it just won't. i feel sorry that it's true.

some things are meant to be simple. i like simple things. but some things remain too complicated for the rest of your life. hehehe. i am disappointed.