drama rama

last june 12, 2009, wawin arrived here in singapore to try to look for a job. it wasn't easy for him in manila. full of hope, he left everything he had, including erikaforever, to join the workforce here.

it wasn't easy as well. he came at a time when companies are hiring only PRs, citizens, or experienced mechanical engineers. the trend continued for a year until his long term social visit pass expired.

he had no choice but to go back to manila last thursday.

wawin is keyla's best friend. wawin does a mere nod and keyla does a super give na give na smile na parang wala nang bukas. it's just uncle wawin who can do this. when keyla cries and no one can make her stop, uncle wawin carries her and she magically calms down.

the scene last thursday was really heartbreaking. wawin said goodbye to keyla with a last nod and we all broke into tears.

today is a different story. for the whole year, i shared this room with wawin. i cleaned the room today, moved wawin's bed to the other room, and tidied up everything that used to be his. for the first time in so many years, i felt so alone and empty. the room seems too big now. too big and too quiet. well, it's not like wawin is loud hehehe but the absence is just too deafening. i cried like a little child (and why do i sound like a girl who was just dumped by her bf? hehehe).

why can't things be easy for everybody? why do people have to be apart? as i've said a thousand times, i believe in the capability of wawin. if you ask him for help to do something, he does it so well. why can't he have the good break that he deserves? :( whatever God's reasons are, i'm sure wawin is being molded into perfection. someday, we'll all be together... until then, we humbly accept God's plans. thank you for the wonderful year that you gave us, dear Father.

bulung-bulong

my lola ading, mami's inay is turning 88 (or 89?) this december. everybody is bedazzled by lola's good health. she outlived most of her nephews and nieces! i sometimes think i will, ehem, go to heaven (or hell?) ahead of her! she's that strong. her body is sure mighty but her brain is even mightier. she has a lending business and she knows where every cent goes. she's simply amazing.

about two weeks ago, we received the most unfortunate news that lola slipped and broke her leg. we were all anxious. everybody knows that breaking a bone in old age spells disaster. at first, we were having second thoughts if we'll allow her to undergo operation. will her body be strong enough to surpass the operation? my doctor cousin highly recommended the operation. he said that it, if untreated, will be extremely painful for lola. surely, she won't be able to take the pain if she didn't have the operation.

my lola is mighty in all sense, true. she is also mightily stubborn! apparently, she doesn't want to have the operation. she wailed and made a bad scene at the hospital when she learned about the operation. she used all the authority in her system so she can have it her way and go home. tiklop ang lahat kay lola. she said she'd rather go to a manghihilot.

my cousin said that it will do more harm than good - as in malalamog ang baling buto. the manghihilot ensured that the affected area will not be touched and he only needs to whisper prayers. bulung-bulong.

lola can manage to sit now. my cousin suspects that the pain reliever is working at its finest that's why things seem tolerable at the moment. i sure hope lola will be saved by her tremendous faith and that she will live a hundred more years to tell her wonderful tale.

"yey! buhay ka pa!"

yan ang sabi ni mikey sa akin nung sabado ng umaga. kung bakit nya nasabi yan, heto ang kwento...

friday afternoon, sad ako sa work. kung bakit ako sad, ibang kwento yan. deserve nyan ang isa pang bukod na post. feeling ko todo-buhos ang emosyon sa topic na yun.

so friday afternoon, sa gitna ng pagda-drama ko sa office, bandang 6:00 pm, bigla akong nahilo. gustong-gusto ko nang umuwi pero may tinatapos lang ako nang onti. nakatingin ako sa monitor tapos biglang umikot ang paningin ko. medyo may pressure sa batok, manaka-nakang pagsakit ng ulo. akala ko heart attack, umubo ako. lalo akong nahilo. relax nang konti pero pinilit ko pa ring tapusin ang trabaho.

nakiramdam, tumayo, naglakad papuntang MRT, lumulutang ang pakiramdam. halu-halo na ang naramdaman ko: hilo, pagod, lungkot, nasusuka, takot na baka mahimatay. nakausap ko si kuya at nabanggit kong nahihilo ako. naisip ko, kung magtaxi ako, lalo akong mahihilo. bakit hindi e jeprox mag drive ang mga manong dito. so pinilit kong makauwi sakay ng MRT. little did i know na tumatawag pala si kuya at di ko naririnig dahil wa ako care. ang focus ko lang ay makauwi nang may malay.

pagdating ko ng bahay, pati sina mami takot na takot na pala dahil di ako macontact. pagdating ni kuya, galit na galit at di raw ako macontact di na raw nila alam kung ano nang nangyari sakin. kung bakit nagalit si kuya, heto ang kwento...

thursday night, may officemate syang nakaramdam ng same symptoms ng sa akin + pamamanhid ng ulo. nag excuse sa meeting si officemate dahil na nahihilo at nasusuka. the next morning, hindi na nakapasok si officemate dahil hindi na sya nagising :-S in short, na-dead sya.

so sugod kami sa clinic dito na malapit sa bahay. hindi ko alam kung clinic ba yun o manghuhula.

doc: hi, how are you feeling today?

me: around 6pm, i felt dizzy, light-headed. with occasional headaches, with discomfort at the nape, and with feelings of nausea.

doc: aha!

me: [natuwa dahil parang may conclusion na agad si doc]

doc: do you have colds?

me: very mild, cough mild too.

doc: aha! you have common colds! i will give you medicine for colds!

me: no, no, no. i've had this cough and colds for two weeks now but it's the first time i'm feeling dizzy.

doc: that's right. maybe you just have sensitive nose.

me: [stunned that he isn't even getting my BP. and where did that common colds come from? what is the cause of my hilo attack?] but i still feel dizzy at the moment.

doc: that's ok, that's a side-effect of the colds. do you want lozenges for your cough?

me: no

walangjo. tawag ako sa pinsan kong doctor. mas may sense ang hatol nya. mukang benign positional vertigo raw. na may konting duda kung buntis ako mwehehehe! para maka sure na vertigo nga, magpatingin daw ako sa neurologist after din na ma-rule out ang issue ko sa nanlalabo kong mata.

natakot din si mikey sa kwentong na-dead na officemate. saturday morning, 7am, ang aga ng text. "gising ka na?" hehehe tinawagan ko... "bat ang aga mo nagising?" ang bungad nya, "yey! buhay ka pa!" hahahaha! indeed!

ps: sa wednesday, makukuha ko na ang bago kong eyeglasses. tingnan natin kung mata nga. sana.

ps2: the last time na nahilo ako nang ganito ay college pa sa pilipinas. walang nakitang mali si doc sa akin. sabi nya, kailangan kong bumalik para sa ibang test dahil na alarm sya sa biglang pagbagsak ng timbang ko. "may dahilan ang pagbagsak ng timbang mo" hindi na ako bumalik sa takot matuklasan ang dahilan na yun. hahaha!