roles

i was eagerly anticipating for mid april. wawin and mami are scheduled to be here to look after keyla for 2 weeks. wawin arrived safely on the 13th. today, 15th, is supposed to be a wonderful day. we were supposed to pick up mami from the airport this afternoon, but the reunion didn't happen.

at around 6:15 am, mami's call woke me up. calls in the strange hours of the day mean bad news. she called to say that lola is gone... and that she can't be here... that the sg trip is cancelled... that she was on her way to mindoro.

we were all excited to see mami. she sadly turned her back to her lola duties to keyla. it's been a while since she last saw keyla, and she would have been delighted to see how keyla has grown into a little lady - with her tantrums, new sentences, songs, dances, everything!

she also sadly turned her back to her mami duties to us. we were supposed to have a family meeting about the plans for the near future. we wanted to hear her opinion about our situation. we wanted her wisdom. she always knows what to do. i want to hear her laughter, her voice.

more than the lola and mommy roles, she needs to be a daughter now - a grieving daughter for the next few days.

i want to be a daughter to mami too. i want to support her as she grieve. i want to be beside her, but i am the shoes of the typical ofw. imbis na bumili ng ticket pauwi, i-remit na lang ang pera. :( sad and true.