feeling ko, kuya na ako

hihi... excited... with my new mp3 player! woohoo! it came out of nowhere, last saturday, kuya and i were supposed to go to a computer shop to have our pc repaired. but the service for repairs is available on weekdays lang pala.

i have nothing to do so i thought... bakit si kuya may mp3 player... si win may cd player na hinihiram ko lang paminsan-minsan... si mike meron din... e bakit ako wala? mahilig din naman ako sa music ah... haha nagpaawa para lang magkarason bumili...

oh well... i've been eyeing that player since last april pa... naiinggit ako kay mike (at kay leah) hihi. so dapat bibili na rin ako, kuya talked me out of it... di ko naman daw gagamitin... a few weeks after i got home, bumili si kuya ng exact same player... haha...

so... ayun na nga... laging nakatapal sa tenga nya yung earpiece... asus...

going back, last saturday, edi wala na nga kaming lakad kse sarado yung shop... out of nowhere, i pushed his door open with a scary force (na nde ko alam san galing), and i blurted out "kuya, bibili na ko ng mp3 player" (*parang ang tono e super excited... i swear halos napatalon ako pagkakasabi ko nun, smile from ear to ear).

tingin lang sya... ang weird ko raw bigla-bigla lang... kung kelan ko raw nadecide yun. sabi ko, ngayon lang as in ngayon naisip ko lang hihi.. walang pakialamanan. bakit ba? hehe...

so ayun. he was forcing me to get the ipod na lang para nde kami pareho hehe (kse pareho rin kmeng 7650 ang phone na binili 2 yrs ago)... cute yung ipod kulay apple green... kaya lang may mga features na meron sa creative na wala sa dun sa lech na cute na ipod na yun... like hmmm... fm tuner, yung maliit na panglipat na kinakabit para nde naka-expose yung player mo, at yung stand... hehe... yun lang naman. pero for the same price, why settle for mas konting features diba? so creative it is... plus... 5 gigs yung creative, 4 lang yung ipod.

binilhan na rin namin ng speakers para share mo naman ang tunog diba... wag madamot ba... so 1 speaker kay kuya (na birthday gift ko na rin... sabi nya, buti na lang nilibre ko sya. sabi ko mali... buti na lang birthday nya... kse nde ko naman sya ililibre kung nde nya birthday hihi) at isa rin for me...

so ayun. ang haba ng kwento ko... nakakainis. e sa tamad kong to, sabi ko kay kuya, he could do the job of loading up songs in my player. i told him to copy whatever he has in his list. he's more than willing to do the task.

ok monday na, dala ko na sa work si player... ayos... pagkatapos ng araw, feeling ko e kuya na ko. ang mga songs na narinig ko maghapon puro pearl jam, razorback, parokya.. haha pang-kuya ehhh!!! ang lagay pa eh... 3 versions each song pa, 1 original, 1 acoustic, 1 live... asus... sumakit ang ulo ko.

hehe anyway, na-aappreciate ko naman... maganda rin naman and gusto ko rin naman mga songs na ganun... lalo ng pearl jam... astig yun bow ako dun idol ko rin yun.

marami ring lifehouse at coldplay... may naligaw na mga 10 songs ni nina and mymp hihi... kaya ok naman hehe... pang kuya... sana ganahan na ko mag load ng songs "ko" hihi...

3 things

kita ko sa site ni liza

Three names you go by:
1. caths
2. cat
3. karen

Three screen names you have had:
1. irish
2. hapon
3. lucky deleon

Three physical things you like about yourself:
1. maliit
2. mata
3. dimple hihi

Three physical things you don't like about yourself:
1. kulot (wavy lang hihi)
2. pango hihi
3. pimples sa likod

Three parts of your heritage:
1. filipino
2. chinese
3. --

Three things that scare you:
1. death of loved ones
2. lokohin ng bf (ulit?!? what the...?!?!)
3. earthquake

Three of your everyday essentials:
1. perfume or cologne
2. petroleum jelly
3. cellphone

Three of your favorite bands/musical artist:
diverse sobra ang gusto ko hihi...

Three of your favorite songs:
1. into you
2. make me whole
3. for you
4. twisted
5. you first believed

Three things you want in a relationship:
1. consistency
2. patience sa pagiging isip bata ko =)
3. respect

Three truths and lies in no particular order:
(truths)
1. super mababaw - patawanin at paiyakin
2. nang-aaway ng bf pag magkakaron
3. i don't voice out what i really feel
(lies)
1. i'm assertive
2. i'm a good decision-maker
3. i don't value my family and friends and blessings

Three physical things about the opposite sex that appeals to you:
1. eyes
2. smile
3. naka-white

Three of your favorite hobbies:
1. watching tv
2. blogging
3. reading

Three things you want to do really badly now:
1. cuddle with someone
2. go to hawaii
3. go home and sleep.. i'm dead tired

Three careers you're considering/you've considered:
1. pre-school teacher at makipaglaro sa mga bata
2. travel and adventure show host or staff
3. accountant

Three places you want to go on vacation:
1. Hawaii
2. Japan
3. Bora

Three kid's name you like:
1. Nikkie
2. Therese
3. Sebastian

Three things you want to do before you die:
1. travel the world din
2. live comfortably and contentedly with my family
3. hmmm... yun... hihi

Three ways that you are stereotypically a girl:
1. masungit pag magkakaron hihi
2. fickle-minded
3. mahilig sa sweet-nothings

Three ways that you are stereotypically a boy:
1. i don't nag (may mag-oobject ba? hihi)
2. nde ako matagal mag prepare for a lakad (again, objections?)
3. i do not show affection that much (same here, liza)

Three celeb crushes:
1. si adam sa smallville
2. si lex sa smallville
3. si jason sa smallvile

People you would like to pass this tag:
hmmm... kahit sino =)

2 odd things

i've got two interesting stuff to share today. it's a gloomy day, looks like it'll rain soon but it's a fine day still. =)

"tumataba ka"

woohoo! the best thing i heard this morning. =)

mauie, lamo ba na the ever famous sol anne's bakeshop/tambayan during our HS days is here at spi... hihi nagulat nga ako at nakita ko si aling sol (that's how the people here call her) nung pagpasok ko pa lang dito eh... (that was 3 yrs ago.. and heck, yes, i'm old [old and happy])

well, masarap yung food nila. medyo expensive nga lang pero i think mataas kse yung rent nila dito eh kaya ganun.

anyway, so ayun, i was buying my breakfast this morning... pandesal with cheese pimiento and ovaltine 3-in-1. tapos yung 1 tindera nila, tingin sakin sabi, "tumataba ka... yung pisngi mo gumaganon" sabay demo na parang lumolobo yung pisngi ko...

i just answered, "wow, talga? yehey!" hihi...

i don't know what makes me taba... but whatever it is, i give it a high-5... woohoo!

it could be hmmm... my work? makes me eat at odd hours and odd quantities and odd whatevers...

it could be hmmm... my shift? when i'm in 2nd shift, i get more than 8 hrs of sleep...

it could be hmmm... because i'm happy? although medyo sad ako ngayon kse some people in my life are acting kinda childlike and ang tagal nang nde maresolve ng conflict... hay. guys, let's all grow up! (kasama ako)... at nasasad ako pag tumataas ang level ng hormones na lech... hehe

buhay si caren carpenter

5 minutes ago, i answered the phone... conversation went...

caths: servisoft
guy: hello, good morning. pwede kay caren?
caths: caren?
guy: caren carpenter?
caths: caren? (*super pigil ang tawa)
guy: caren carpenter
caths: (*pigil pa rin pero medyo natawa na talga ko...)
guy: (*nakahalata... nag-isip) ay sorry caren gaspar pala (*giggles)
caths: ay wala pa po sya eh (*di nakapigil bumungisngis na... hihihi!)

it was so funny! ayun pareho kami tawang-tawa... akalain nyong hanapin si caren carpenter?!? sana sinabi ko... caren carpenter as in "rainy days and mondays always make me cry?" hihi... the odd things in life! are so funny! =)

on war of the worlds...

hehe... well, it wasn't really one of those days that i would like to remember. but every memory, good or bad helps shape whatever you have in your being.

literally, there was a war of the worlds hehe... two worlds, that is. semi lang. oa naman ako you know. minsan kahit super babaw, e nagiging gigantic sakin hihi...

watched uaap with (or without? hehe) mike. i felt goosebumps just watching the opening ceremonies and feeling the oh-so-high school spirit of everybody there. i was among the adamson crowd hehe wrong gate... good thing the family beside me were clapping for my team... heck, i clapped with them hihi... kahit na 4 lang kami cheer for my team, at least i was not that alone.

and then... off to another war, we watched the war of the worlds. i know almost everybody didn't like the story... but heck, i think i liked it! yeah... i think it's great. i dunno if i'm just mababaw or it's really good.

that day... hmmm... revealed a lot of firsts. i know i don't always speak or yell out what's on my mind, but i always strive to be honest on how i feel... one way or another. i know it shows in the way i act... i know i make "certain" people crazy the way i shut myself out and just play dead and numb... or maybe enforce "certain" people to play guessing games with me... but you could never deduce anything from me if i opt to shut myself out... until, of course, i'm ready to spill it all out.

and if in the process, i was able to somehow hurt somebody's feelings, i'm deeply sorry but that was how i felt.

i'm ok now... we're ok now. i just felt the urge to speak out how i felt that day. =)

i'm so A-ok... in fact i can't wait to see you hihi...

it's kuya's birthday tomorrow. well, we're in the midst of another war... i'm in another ipit-na-naman-ako-session (i'm not complaining) and i don't know if i could manage to resolve it tomorrow, but i'll try my best. after all there's only 4 of us left and i don't want to disrupt the harmony of what i call the perfect family (for me, that is). panindigan ang pagiging middle child, mediator, barangay captain, lawyer, na nasa gitna ng anumang sigalot... asus ano raw?

it's a fine day. =)

mellow friday

another friday... and i find it rather hard to smile today. as in almost nakasimangot ako... hay pero nde naman ako nagsusungit pag may lumalapit sakin hehe. i'm not that type. i could smile naman and be good to the unsuspecting people around me... after all, they don't know what's going on inside my body and soul and mind naman diba... why the heck should i make sungit naman diba?

feeling heavy because of the pre-monthly thing... ayoko nga tumayo kaninang umaga eh... bakit ba kse every month na lang kailangan bumigat ang kalooban dahil sa mga lech na hormones... hay.. kakainis. yung parang kahit pilitin mong maging light, argh ang bigat pa rin...

tapos... last night, pumunta kami ni papa mike sa wake ng mom ng close friend ko. it's just so sad... seeing them all so sad and mourning.

made me think of my loved ones and what i'll do if the same thing happened to me. yung sa iba nga, ang bigat na sa kalooban and heck... i'm not even in their shoes. yun pa kayang sayo mangyari...

well, eventually, dun din naman lahat mag-end up kaya lang it's just a sad thing. para kasing in my head, caths = mom + kuya + win... tapos... pag may nawala, incomplete na... and i don't want that to happen. sana mauna ako... hihi shellfish... selfish pala.

ayan muka tuloy akong tanga... umiiyak... unti-unti... tapos punas punas lang panyo para matuyo... hay... i get really weird at times... baka isipin ng mga tao dito may mabigat akong problema hihi...

oa scripts

the grudge scare

last sunday, the grudge 2 was aired on abs-cbn... and yes, it was scary as hell even if it was dubbed in filipino... argh. my mom and i were pretending to be women of courage and strength as we watched portions of the freaky film.

after that, our lives have never been the same (hihi oa).

imagine how scared i got two days ago... 3am, i woke up and felt this sudden pang of lbm attack... how i managed to beat the scared cells in my body, i don't know... but i definitely had to go... so mega run ako... mixed emotions of being scared and wanting to ebs is reaaaallyyy bad! argh argh...

*sige camille, dagdagan mo pa ng pagpost mo ng mata mo! hehe... cool!

on cold, dark showers

summer's gone and the cold rainy season is embracing us all now. apparently, a leak on our roof caused an explosion in our bathroom light. a million and one sparks drizzled while i was inside the bathroom. hihi oa ulit. nag short circuit lang yung ilaw... and now, we take our showers in a sort of romantic way.. hihi candle light... candle light shower? hihi...

the attack of the pimples

pimples on my back freak me out... hay i hate it. i remember i once tried extraderm #50. oa ulit #3 lang hihi... at nagbalat akong parang ahas... matapos ang pagbabalat, nanumbalik ang mga tighiyawat sa aking likod... darn it. can't i just have a normal errrrr back? hihi... after my countless puyat nights dito sa office, ayun, medyo kumakalat sa muka ko yung pimples... argh! stop!!!

juana tamad's remedy

want to know what caths does when the seams of her pants become tastas?

sew it? nah... (although i know running stitch, back stitch, cross stitch, hemming stitch, burda stitch, cross bone stitch, at kung anu-ano pang stitch... promise! di oa to! salamat kina mrs. cruz, mrs. ramirez, mga huwarang gurong nagturo ng pananahi noong kabataan ko hihi oa alert)

ask others to saw it? nah... (pandidilatan lang ako ng mata ng nanay ko kung ginawa ko yun)

tape it? nah... natatanggal... nakaka conscious lagi ko tinitingnan kung naka-tape pa.

the answer? STAPLE it! the staple wires are slightly visible but it's pretty much reliable. woohoo! hehe sorry! tamad ako eh... =)

GONE off-key

hay... guess what time i got home? 630pm! wooohoo! that's what i call normal =). just in time to see the almost setting sun. i'm back to my regular shift and i'm not yet THAT busy (ah ganon ah! wait for a few more days... i bet balik sa dati ka na naman hihi!).

when i got home, i got bored watching the news and hearing about the millions of dilemma we're into right now. argh... too much bad news is pouring our way. heeding somebody's advice, i turned the tv off... what to do? darn it... i've got to do something. sayang ang pag-uwi ko nang maaga...

and then i saw the piano and thought, when was the last time i hit the keys? grabe... kung merong nangangalawang, mga kamay ko yun. grabe! i'm so lousy na playing the piano... i was actually making noise rather than music hehe... dagdagan pa ng pagka-off-key ng piano dahil sa kalumaan at tagal nang hindi natutugtog. hay... what the heck... to hell with critics... i played along. my favorite's GONE... and karaniwang theme song sa mga drama shows hehe... i was teary-eyed as i played the piece. kahit wala sa tono, wala sa tyempo, i'm so into this piece. sa loob-loob ko, kebs kung wala sa tono ang piano ko? deep inside, i'm playing the right tune. hehe lakas ng fighting spirit!

the simple pleasures of life =)... so nice

how will you take it?

hay... i know telling the truth is the RIGHT thing to do... but what if telling the truth would make it impossible for some of the "essential" and "necessary" things to push through? twisting some of the facts would be a remedy, but bending some facts means NOT telling the truth; therefore a lie.

i have no idea how you'll take it, but i guess the bottom line is trust. i know you trust me and i don't want to break this wonderful gift you've given me.

i have two options:

muster a zillion and one tons of guts and say it point blank... give it a shot...
two things could happen:
* you might think it's probably fine and just tell me... go ahead
* you might give me a stern look from head to toe... and just hate me until you forget what i just told you

not divulge too much information. filter some stuff for the good of mankind (yeah convince yourself that it's not a lie... go ahead use some flowery terms! duh!)
two things could happen:
* i'll have it my way woohoo! and you'll never ever know that some things transpired
* you might eventually find (not necessarily seek) the truth and spit on my face ewww... hehe brutal eh! of course, you'll not do that... but you just might.

what to do? what to do? the first option has more weight for me 'cause it's the right thing to do. either of the two is risky, though. i'm on the losing end no matter what hehe. =( sometimes it's just so hard and painful and undesirable to do the right things...

well, i could always delay things... no action, no lie. no lie, no sin hehe! argh!

5am

and i'm still here. i've been here for 16 hours. argh... and i'm still getting a lot or variations in my data! my goodness... i thought there's this word.. hmmm... STANDARD? apparently it's an alien term for some. argh...

thank you for understanding me still... despite the oddness and irregularity of my work-clock (and my body clock just the same) hehe... despite the constant change of plans... and the seemingly snob attitude for your motivations (which are very much super dooper appreciated)... and the weekend-lang-ang-kita-every-two-weeks-kse-2nd-(and-3rd)-shift-ako schedule... thank you for just sighing and uttering, "i understand..." don't ever get tired of it... it's only temporary. what we have "might" last a lifetime =)

and i'm outta here... *yawn... got less than 5 hours to sleep... sana wag ako singilin ng katawan ko someday... huhuhu.

shake it! shake it! hehe =)

hehe... announce ko lang... nood kayo ng star in a million ah... may friend ako dun from lcg... si shake (ardie shane) =) galing na bata yun hehe! napanood tuloy ako ng star in a million. =) woohoo!

nood kayo ah =)

siguro...

pwede ko nang papalitan ang home address ko ng SPI Technologies, Inc., PITC bldg. achuchuchu hihi...

bakit? you may ask... kasi dito na ko nakatira hihi!

for the past week, my life drama has been... wake up at 10am -> go to work -> work like a slave 'til 3am or 4am -> walk home -> sleep -> wake up at 10am... (syempre may constant checks yan... so it's not that bad) gosh... kawawa naman katawan pagod na.

ayan walang patawad, sunday, nasan ako? imbis na nasa bahay at nakatunganga or nakikipaglandian... hihi ayos... andito ako sa SPI Technologies, Inc., PITC bldg. achuchuchu.

mag-isa, walang makausap, walang makapagsabi sakin na... ok lang yan... wlang mumu dito. kasi ang tahimik... so quiet it's freaking me out.

nag reboot pa ang citrix. asus... hello?!?! pano ko matatapos? gusto ko nang umuwi...

* sana saturday na... hehe. wala lang. sana. saturday na =) mwah...

* i can't take it... going home... can't stand the silence... freaking me out.

observations...

first day of work after the long weekend.

newbies --->there are 1 million new employees here at SS sheesh... the new batch is composed of around 30 people ata. wow... we're really growing, huh? i also realized that i've been here for more that three years and the newbies are most probably 3 yrs (+) younger than me. i'm old(er)! hehe! grabe they all look so young!

natipos ako... ---> ya uh! with my new hair cut! i observed that when you request your manggugupit to trim off 3 inches from your hair, they double it! so he slashed off a good 6 inches from my hair. next time, i'll say "trim lang... 1 inch lang..." para 2 inches lang ang bawas hehe.

special day ---> why? you might ask... 'cause today is mommy riche's birthday! happy birthday! hmmm... once a week? that's cool! way too cool! *evil grin...

pouring rain ---> had a rainy dream. super rain! pouring rain talga! iiyak na naman ako? it's probably all in the mind. baka imbis na tears, e more blessings ang uulan. not that i'm asking for more. wag lang sana tears. =)

looking forward ---> to a great week =) and lifetime!

unwell no more + nursing the sick

i'd like to thank my mom for making me well. =) so they do work... honey and calamansi and salabat... those were enough to ward off the evil spirits in me. hehe may sapi pala.

ok. so i had too much rest. that made me well =)... so well!

so... papa mike and i went out to watchamovie na... mr. and mrs. smith. ayos. good watch ito. very good. super funny talga sya, medyo exag pero kakatuwa naman. siguro kahit may sakit pa rin ako, papanoorin ko pa rin to.=)

i'm so glad i'm feeling better now, kaso lang, 2 of the men i love most (in the entire universe) are sick right now... same symptoms. everybody seems to have the same sakit lately. hay naku. now i'm playing the role of nursing the sick... and no... nde ko sila hinawahan ah!

guy A "seems" obedient. told him to drink lots of water and calamansi... done daw. told him to sleep early, ok tulog na raw sya ngayon. pero hmmm... nag sign on as mobile sa ym... so late din pala natulog... argh. bahala ka dyan.

guy B is completely stubborn. i heard he hasn't taken his meds since 4pm e may lagnat na raw sya ng time na yun... so mega cook naman ako ng noodles... tamang-tama, when he woke up, i forced him to eat. ayaw eh =( ni-reject ako. kung di ko lang alam kung gano ka ka-stubborn na tao, ay magtatampo na ko sayo.

get well soon, papa mike (haha pipitikin na siguro ako neto pagtawag ko ng papa mike sa kanya).

get well soon, kuya pogi-nde lang ang physical na weakness, sana pati emotional weakness maging ok na rin...

love you both. =) mwah!

bum and reyna ng praning

ayan... official bum na ako for 2 days. kami ng mom ko. as she said, "grabe 2 araw na tayong nakatiwangwang dito sa bahay. 'di rin pala masaya". and i thought i could last for years just being in the house doing nothing... not working and all.

masarap na nakakabugnot din palang maging bum. promise, bigla na lang umiinit ang ulo ko nang walang dahilan. tatahimik na lang ako and nde magre-react sa kahit anong makita ko. is it because wala akong magawa or... dahil... never mind.

arrrggh... i have monthly posts like this, at hindi sya nakakatuwa. hehe. sabay tawa.

praning... lagi akong praning. tama ba namang isipin ko yun? kaya ako napapagsabihang hindi nakikinig ng lessons nung HS eh... fine. attentive naman ako ah... sometimes.

at kahit anong sabihin, it still is NOT ok... ok? =( na-sad ako promise. i didn't expect that... =(

wish i were...

weekend... it's a beautiful day outside... not too scorching, yet not raining. the sun's a little lazy, but just fine, just right.

and as the mole on my talampakan insinuates, i wish i were elsewhere. maybe:

walking non-stop, leading to nowhere

or cozily watching mr. and mrs. smith in a movie house somewhere in makati (with sir and 2 moms)

or madagascar somewhere in manila (with the girls)

or drinking kape somewhere out there with someone

or hearing mass at 6pm, not 615 or 630, somewhere in greenbelt

or attending a wake, and possibly a cremation ceremony somewhere in cavite

or spending the entire day at a spa with my mom... geez... this one's sooo overdue!

or just making gala!!!

instead i'm here somewhere in pque, somewhere in my home:

sitting here in front of the pc,with a fan by my side

coughing and sneezing and blowing my nose like hell, and most probably having a slight fever

preparing a home-made body scrub (out of epsom salt, olive oil, honey, ginger, vanilla) (geezzzz... am i so bored?!?) (and my brother insists i'm weird... malalapnos daw balat namin sa pinag gagagawa ko hehe)

channel surfing every 30 minutes or so

asking my mom, who's unwell as well, if she's feeling any better (mom, let's get well)

taking naps

which is good, by the way, i need all the rest and relaxation i could get... ang hirap magkasakit... promise.

tired

yeah... that's how i feel right now.

tired and almost sick. i've been coughing and sneezing like hell at work... groaning and sighing and all...

if i had a stress-o-meter with me right now, i'd probably break it into pieces hehe... it won't probably handle the amount of stress i have in my system. sigh...

i sooo want to just lie down, have a good massage... sige kahit wala nang massage. just lie down and fall in the deepest most peaceful slumber...

oh... a cuddle is good =) i'd love to have a good cuddle right now... =)

5th of june

remembering my father
june 5... my late father's birthday. if he were still with us, we would've gone to antipolo church to hear mass. it was a tradition that we had... he didn't hear sunday masses, but strived to keep up to the june-5-antipolo-day and christmas masses.

what are some of the things i associate with my father? let me recall only the good ones. give tribute to the man who almost tried his best to be a good husband and father.

cheek lamutak

when i was a kid, he used to pinch my cheeks really hard... and my mom would sternly say, "lamog na yung pisngi nyan!". but i liked it. gave me the warmest feelings - how a father expresses his affection to his daughter.

favorite child

was i? that's what they say. well, it was noticeable. maybe because i'm the only girl. maybe because i tried to keep up to his expectations as a kid. maybe because i look a lot like him. maybe...

kilitian blues

was what he did best when i was a kid. you should never ever leave your armpits exposed or else, susundutin nya talga yun hehe, and tickle you 'til you drop. hmmm... we still do that 'til now... with my 2 brothers =).

yosi on christmas day

not knowing what to give him that christmas day (around 17 yrs ago), i gave him a pack of marlboro red 'cause i knew he smokes... hehe and it was very much appreciated. lousy gift.

"papa, penge pera"

was my line every morning when i was a kid. my cue was the car engine starting up hehe... that's when i'd lean by our window and extend my palms... hehe... he would give me coins (P5 maximum) and i become the happiest kid alive hehe.

music and movies

yup he was really fond of music... jazz, in particular. he set up this neat sound system years ago... and every morning, the atmosphere around the house was really jazzy hehe. he was also fond of movies - laser disc at that time. an explosion in the film could be mistaken for an explosion inside our house... hehe he wanted it really loud!

on hobbies and ningas kugon

he had a wide array of hobbies... fishing, music, cars, sound system, 2-way radios, cell phone shop... name it, he has probably tried it - but on a ningas kugon level. haha his passion dies as soon as he has found something more interesting. this probably explains why i behave exactly like that. =) hehe

* hmmm... as i create this post, i smell flowers... which is weird 'cause there are no flowers around me... and i'm all alone right now. hi po... =) don't scare me =)

ok... change topic na nga...

a month
incidentally, we're on our first month on june 5. woohoo!

what are some of the things i'm thankful for for the past month? (love-wise, that is)

just about everything.

for being patient with my being indecisive and being fickle-minded - that's why you're decisive (at times) and firm. =)

for being patient with my hectic work life - that's why you get off at 5 and do the constant checking instead. =)

for dealing with my being childish and overly giggly - that's why you act more matured that i do... despite the fact that i'm older. =)

for understanding my past pains - that's why you're here with me now... the ever understanding creature. =)

let's quit counting months or years... it isn't an assurance that we'll be happy in the end and it's merely a figure, senseless at times. let's just live a day at a time and look forward to the best there is that fate has to offer us.

talk about impromptu

it came out of nowhere...

girl 1: tara, swimming tayo sa saturday!
girl 2: tara! saan?
girl 3: kahit saan!
girl 4: sige! tara! bahala na basta meet tayo office 10am saturday.

bringing only ourselves, our wallets, cell phones, and swim suits, we hit the road and headed off to laguna...

we had a quick lunch at red ribbon and then we dropped by walter mart for a few groceries... by few, i mean supplies-that-could-last-for-a-week.

we didn't know where we're going but we just headed to laguna and scouted for ok-na na resorts... after 3 walk-ins to different resorts, we finally and accidentally landed to valley view. just perfect for the weekend.

check-in time was around 3pm. no time to waste, we started swimming right away and nang makaramdam na ng gutom, time for inihaw na hotdogs na! yuuummmieee! i've never tasted something that heavenly!

and then, sabay ng hotdog, dinner na... thanks to harbie's mom's afritada and tonkatsu... sarap!

after dinner, swim galore ulit =)... swim 'til we drop woohoo! at syempre pwede ba mawala ang inom? the first batch was really subtle... wala masyado tama eh... but the second one was really wapak... hehe syempre drinks and swimming, when done alternately is just perfect. woohoo!

at around 2 am, when we were all wrinkly and raisin-ey, we decided to retire to bed... ang mga lola, tulog nang basa ang buhok malamang super pagod eh...

sobrang pagod, we woke up at around 10? we didn't have enough energy to swim na that sunday... duh with all the paglilikot nung saturday? asa ka pang makabangon kami?!?

and then lunch was also divine... bulalo in one of the restos there... yum... everything's perfect...

what were the crazy things we did? not so much... but very memorable. these would always make me smile:

doing something unplanned. it was really adventurous... =) the only requirement was... to bring yourself... i love that

walking and laughing under the rain... no worries... i can't even recall the last time i did this... =)

talking with "teber"... there was this kid we met. asked him what his name is and he said "teber"... xavier pala hihihi cutie kid... mwah!

skinny dipping ulit haha ya! super crazy na talga kami... funny talga! muntik pa kami abutan ng mga batang may goggles bwahaha!

drinking like there was no tomorrow... nang nde ka nalalasing =) perfect!

swimming for the longest time - nang nde ka nangingitim hehe

just spending the whole weekend with 3 of the greatest people in the world... =)

and of course, pics =)

the fave pose


the divine food (notice the yummy hotdog)


habang naghihintay sa mamam


group pic



pagtripan ang champola hehe


medyo bangag na


hmmm... di ako uminom, promise!



gotta text... patay... harbs, borrow phone... dead ang batt ko ever...


scandal ba itu or massacre?


ayan bagong gising yiheee


preparing to check-out


hehe putol driver namin... on the way home =(


caths: luv you maricor....
maricor: you bitch! hehe


sila naman daw...


gotta text ulit... to the max itu hehe


perfet... just perfect =)

no pain, no gain. no death, no life

amazing how you have to undergo pain in order to taste the sweetness that comes after it... =)

amazing how you have to die a couple of times and then rise again with only smiles and bliss... =)

amazing how you have to scar and mar only to be pampered and cared for and showered with the greatest hugs and kisses in the end... =)

amazing how you have to give up the plastic pearl necklace and accept the genuine thing... when you learn to give up the less essential things in life, that's when an amazing gift is presented to you... and you get overwhelmed and overly happy - only because you learned to give it up. =)

amazing how i now believe that you don't have to ask why certain things happen... you'll just have to accept and trust that the best things are yet to come... =)

simply amazing... =) i'm happy... =)

pros and cons

of what? of being single hehe... i found this post sitting for the longest time in the drafts section of my phone. march 31, 2005. hehe i was still single then... this is funny...

pros

you can flirt

...with anybody hehe

you don't have to worry about somebody's whereabouts and what-abouts

you don't have to inform anybody (well, of course, your mom) about your whereabouts and what-abouts

no petty quarrels

gimmick every week or every other day with friends

you have the license to be friendly with EVERYBODY

you don't have to worry if somebody's cheating on you

or if you're cheating with somebody ;p

you don't have to be extremely understanding about the other's weaknesses

you're free to do whatever you like woohoo!

cons

you go home alone

no hugs and kisses (and a little more? hehe)

no sweet nothings

no hold hands

no constant checks

you don't hear "i love you" from someone who does love you

you don't say "i love you" to someone you do love

you can't be THAT friendly with EVERYBODY

you don't experience the joy of being close with somebody's family

you can't cheat on somebody? hehe (who says so?)

you aren't somebody's baby

hehe... incidentally, i gave a similar note to somebody... slightly similar... =)