no pain, no gain. no death, no life

amazing how you have to undergo pain in order to taste the sweetness that comes after it... =)

amazing how you have to die a couple of times and then rise again with only smiles and bliss... =)

amazing how you have to scar and mar only to be pampered and cared for and showered with the greatest hugs and kisses in the end... =)

amazing how you have to give up the plastic pearl necklace and accept the genuine thing... when you learn to give up the less essential things in life, that's when an amazing gift is presented to you... and you get overwhelmed and overly happy - only because you learned to give it up. =)

amazing how i now believe that you don't have to ask why certain things happen... you'll just have to accept and trust that the best things are yet to come... =)

simply amazing... =) i'm happy... =)

pros and cons

of what? of being single hehe... i found this post sitting for the longest time in the drafts section of my phone. march 31, 2005. hehe i was still single then... this is funny...

pros

you can flirt

...with anybody hehe

you don't have to worry about somebody's whereabouts and what-abouts

you don't have to inform anybody (well, of course, your mom) about your whereabouts and what-abouts

no petty quarrels

gimmick every week or every other day with friends

you have the license to be friendly with EVERYBODY

you don't have to worry if somebody's cheating on you

or if you're cheating with somebody ;p

you don't have to be extremely understanding about the other's weaknesses

you're free to do whatever you like woohoo!

cons

you go home alone

no hugs and kisses (and a little more? hehe)

no sweet nothings

no hold hands

no constant checks

you don't hear "i love you" from someone who does love you

you don't say "i love you" to someone you do love

you can't be THAT friendly with EVERYBODY

you don't experience the joy of being close with somebody's family

you can't cheat on somebody? hehe (who says so?)

you aren't somebody's baby

hehe... incidentally, i gave a similar note to somebody... slightly similar... =)

wonderful

everything is just that... again thanks for understanding.... everything: from the nature of my work to my seemingly kakulangan of affection hehe and to my inhibitions. inhibitions... i have too much of that but i guess everybody knows why. don't want to change a thing. everything's perfect =). let's keep it that way. thank you. =)

my 2nd outing (pa lang? tag-ulan na eh)

SS goes to puerto del sol, pangasinan... mega-habang byahe pero we didn't mind masaya naman...

biyahilo

nooot! hehe though the travel time was roughly 6 hours, it was pretty fun 'cause we had all the time in the world to execute the dance step... woohoo! sa kahit anong music hehe ayos sya.

nottie

mega-miss ito kay donna. it was the first outing that donna was not with us... it was really different, missing her and all. we just imagined that she was there with us. hehe we were actually talking to her... mga baliw!

meron

ako. what a luck, eh?! i was hoping it wouldn't strike (hehe strike) that saturday... but it did! lech... pero kebs. the only discomfort i felt was a grabeng headache na nadala naman ng mahabang tulog (sorry suzy and shewan, owe you big time). tapos nun megaswim na! woohoo!

public phone

ang cell phoe ni maricor kse walang globe network dun. oh no! pano na ang constant checks ko?! pero maricor was kind enough naman to make her phone available sa aming lahat hehe... luv u maricor!

skinny dip

haha one task off my list. yupyup! with the girls. it was really daring but fun... and it was really dark that time... although may mga panaka-nakang dumadaan, hehe i guess it wasn't really obvious. muka lang kaming naghaharutan sa pool hehe. ayos! inggit si donna! hehe

guyabano juice

nooot! hehe anong klaseng alcoholic drink itu? 1 shot pa lang bangag na ko... hehe i had 3 1/2 or 4 1/2? imagine the effect of that!!! well, we just had another round of swim (this time ala nang skinny dip) and after about an hour, a manong approached us and asked us to leave the pool kse kalalagay lang ng gamot baka mangati kami... we were like manoonggg! 1 hour na kami lumalangoy dito! baka magka skin cancer kami ngayon mo lang sinabi waaah!

harbie's game

on the way home, we were pretty bored in the bus so the bus turned into a casino hehe... courtesy of harbie. we played in-between, along with the majority of SS people... grabe itu.. ang piso-pisong tayaan ay nauwi sa 800 na pot money... my gazzz... oh well, it was a legacy that harbie left, thus the name harbie's game. i don't know if i lost or won but it was really great! bonding ito with the rest of the people. fun! pa-reserve and huddle room minsan para magsugal hehe.

nanananana

na kanta ni emminems ang theme song nga mga sugarol pag may natatalo hehe

sulyap

lang ang nagawa namin sa hundred islands due to time constraints. grabe... we didn't even go down the bus kse naman scorching ang init sa labas... sayang nman ang pag-itim kung di rin lang sa swimming makukuha.

masaya

outing na itu... i love SS!

pics

later =)

aaargh...

lecheng hormones

sorry, i'm just not successful pa

hay... sorry po. 1 million times ko nang inulit. if i could only punch myself kanina... well, it was really out of my control. if i could, i would have done something and everything to get there... ON TIME! hehe.

but i guess i'm not yet successful. joey defined success as doing what you want at any time and any place.

hmmm... if i were successful, by 5:15, i would have clicked the off button of my pc. kebs kung di pa tapos ang review hehe! kebs kung di pa na-sesave ang files. i want to leave and be somewhere else right now. hehe... but i'm not yet THAT and kailangan magtiis hehe.

i thought i unleashed something that was not supposed to be unleashed... pero ok naman... the sweetest "i understand" i ever heard... err, read.

and everything turned out ok... great! =) thank you... sorry... mwah...

*joey is the same guy who gave me a new perspective in life... haha you should thank him too... promise! i swear i'm positive you paid him to make me realize those. =)

si cecille: another maid story (but not the usual)

hay... it's been quite some time since manang II left... or was "asked" to leave.

kay hirap talga nang walang kasama sa bahay... di naman medyo laging disaster yung bahay namin no?!? at nalilinis lang sya pag may darating na bisita - hehe kung may time. minsan nakakainis kasi ang dumi-dumi nya tapos 'di mo naman malinis kasi bagsak ka na pag-uwi mo... pag weekends, may lakad ka pa. sus!

oh well. our neighbor, lola mary, asked us if we want to have a kasama sa bahay. though my mom swore we'll never have another maid again, she gave in to the offer and accepted the gift that was cecille.

cecille is 16 years old, a highschool graduate. she has dreams of going to college but she just can't... the usual "wala-kasi-kaming-pambayad-ng-pang-aral-eh" story. she expresses her desire to finish her studies so mom and i are thinking of helping her out... in some ways. her sister is lola mary's maid, which is a good thing - they get to be close though they're far from their home. i could tell they're both good persons.

cecille is kind, soft-spoken, always smiling, sensitive to our needs, and she does keep the house clean. =) would you believe, she doesn't like to watch tv? mega turo ako pano pag-on ng tv. ok may-i-no-attention sya... hehe she just said she's not interested in watching tv. i asked her what she does during her free time... "nagbabasa" aba sosyal! intelehenteng hobby hehe.

oh, and i like her. =) hope she lasts a hundred years... hehe dead na ata kami nun.

friday the 13th

this is probably the weirdest friday the 13th... hehe... well... for me... what the heck...

everything is just so weird. i don't even know if it's for real... but it's really weird... both ways, i'm fine =) ok? ok?

mainit ang panahon

grabe na itu... i think it has never been THIS hot!!! super sira na ba ang ozone layer kaya para na tayong mga daing na tao? hehe...

it's starting to rain somehow... pero parang it gets warmer when it rains. grabe!!! hello... the sad thing is... for this year, once pa lang ako nakapag-swim. twice kung isasama yung pamumundok (naks npa) namin na may swimming. pero ok lang hehe para nde masyadong maitim... slight lang mwehehe...

happiness

Happiness is two kinds of ice cream
Finding your skate key, telling the time
Happiness is learning to whistle
Tying your shoe for the very first time
Happiness is playing the drum in your own school band
And happiness is walking hand in hand

Happiness is five different crayons
Knowing a secret, climbing a tree
Happiness is finding a nickel
Catching a firefly, setting him free
Happiness is being alone every now and then
And happiness is coming home again

Happiness is morning and evening
Daytime and nighttime, too
For happiness is anyone and anything at all
That's loved by you
Happiness is having a sister
Sharing a sandwich
Getting along
Happiness is singing together when day is through
And happiness is those who sing with you
Happiness is morning and evening
Daytime and nighttime, too
For happiness is anyone and anything at all
That's loved by you

* nde naman ako masyadong happy no? =) 5 is significant... for the other... and so i share the same sentiments =) 555 it is. feeling like a kid again. well, i always feel like a kid... rephrase: feeling more like a kid each day. a happier kid.

* i keep on apologizing for not being so something. it's been what? 3 yrs? hehe... quite long! i'm not used to being that again. everything's brand new. i remember the reason i had a blog was 1. nainggit sa mga college chums kong may blog. 2. to release whatever i have inside... rants about the ultimate negative spectrum in my life. and now, i'm having something brand new ulit. maybe i should have a new blog =)... nah... i'd love to see my transition. i'd love it if everybody sees my transition... =) both wanted and unwanted readers hehe. welcome to my world!

* highschool moments? haha definitely. but i don't mind. =)

* and to the source of more smiles... thank you for coming into my life. =) God bless us all... God bless whatever we have.

collide

*stuck on my mind for almost a month now... not that it's tugma in my life or anything... sarap lang pakinggan. =)

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah

I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide

I'm quiet you know
You make a frist impression
I've found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to ryhme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and I collide

You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide

office na

yey! balik office na ko. i missed my cube, my desk, my keyboard, my monitor (na unusually maliit ang font ngayon), my teammates, my drawer, my eeyore pillow (na marumi na ngayon), my friends, my batchmates, my family, my pantry, my life here, and my ...

i missed everything. and now i'm back! woohoo!

*pero miss ko rin yung mga friends ko doon =( kakamiss din =(