an unexpected present and an interesting sequence of numbers

after watching the legend of zoro with papa mike, he handed me a brown paper bag and asked me to open it. inside was a package neatly wrapped in lilac wrapper and he told me it's from his mom and the gift was something i could use for my new work.

awww... i was so touched medyo muntik na ko maiyak sa sinehan no! ano ba naman... hihi... so i opened the package and inside was a book - inner beauty at work by didi nakar maranon... and a small token of my guardian angel... awww so thoughtful... grabe. i was so touched by this gesture.

and it was then that mike reminded me of his mom's birthday on nov. 11 and that i was invited to their gathering... hihi...

and it was also then that i saw this interesting pattern of numbers on the birthdays of special women in my life:

1010 - oct 10: is my ex's mom's birthday. yup... we still talk every now and then. not necessarily about the ex... but about my life and her life. i guess she's sensible and sensitive enough to just talk about the beauies and aches of life and nothing more. =) we send text messages or speak over the phone and i dunno but there's something about her voice that soothes me... a real mother image - selfless and loving... personified through her caring ways. i enjoy reading her messages. it's as if i'm listening to maala-ala mo kaya... a real classic mom giving you pieces of advice and warm wishes.

1111 - nov 11: is mike's mom's birthday. i'm not yet that close to her... we met only thrice (?) but i could say he's really nice... she actually reminds me of my mom's personality. i mean the mere gesture of giving me something that would help me adjust in my new endeavor is SOMETHING that really means so much to me. i never thought she would remember me that way and i'm really touched and am looking forward to getting to know her more. mike said "mas mahal ka pa nga sakin nun!"... i don't know if he's just making me bola... but i don't care... bola or not, i'm really happy and touched and overwhelmed.

and i told him that my next bf's mom's birthday would probably be a 1212... and he looked at me sternly and said "e bakit? may next pa ba?" hihi... eto naman... masyadong oa... sabi ko lang naman baka eh! and it hit me just last night that yeah... i do have a 1212!

1212 - dec 12: is my mom's birthday! how stupid could i get sometimes (lang?)? and she laughed at me when i told her about it. "ano ba? yung 1212 pa ang matagal mong pinag-isipan?" hehe... my mom? need i say more? she knows everything (not all naman... baka sabunutan ako kung all eh). all that she needs to know, that is... and she told me that most of her friends envy (in a nice way) what we have as mom and daughter. she's my friend... i'm her friend... we're buddies, we make pintas together, we laugh and cry together - over life and over tv shows and over movies. we share just about everything... and i love her sooo much... i always tell her that i don't mind not getting married as long as we live together... and she would answer me... "tange... syempre masaya ang mag-asawa no!!!" hihihi...

* i just have to share that starbuck's mango juice... tastes perfectly like nutrilicious mango flavor. mike didn't notice it until i blurted it out... "P90 for nutrilicious mango? crap..." daw... hehe. oh well...

epekto ng 1 linggong kawalan ng ginagawa

after watching pbb, i dunno what hit me and i just got my camera and took shots of heck knows what in my room hihihi... wala lang... welcome to my room!

a stack of books... when i can't sleep, i get a book and pop my head into it. hihi... mostly, simula lang nababasa ko sa gabi. pampaantok lang talga hehe... pero nabasa ko na ung mga yan. some time in the past.


my spi stuff... awwww... i piled them neatly on the floor... i look at them and awwww... hehe ang oa... wala lang tinitingnan ko lang.



some stuff from ln - awww more memories... the pens are, if i remember it right, from george and dave of RS. the paper holder's from ree. the red duster's from george din ata?


this sto. nino appeared in my dreams. in my dream, i woke up daw and i saw sto. nino facing me and looking at me... weird. i'm not really sure if i were dreaming 'cause it felt so real. but, yeah... i guess i'm certain that it's just a dream. since then, i started buying sampaguita every sunday... =)


this is my bed woohoo! syempre medyo i straightened the sheets haha... from the left is a pooh pillow (from rico during batch 7 kris kringle), ang madungis na eeyore pillow (na ilang beses nang nabagok sa spi at kung baby lang sya ay malamang dead na sya... at palagi kong naririnig "caths, si eeyore nahulog na naman" hehe... poor eeyore), and a pillow from donna =).


journals - listahan ng lcg fund, at kung saan napupunta ang sweldo ko, listahan ng thoughts, pains, feelings, songs, laughters, poems, letters, at kung anu-ano pa...


ang screen ko na sinira ng doggie namin noon, si claudia, na dead na ngayon... awww... nagbigti sya. promise... i'm not kidding! nagbigti sya! anyway, tinagpian ko pala ng stockings yung screen na nasira hihi...


mga glow-in-the-dark chuva ko ito sa ceiling hihi... kala nyo darkness lang ano.. haha! kita kaya! tingnan maigi... may glow-in-the-dark stuff dyan! promise!


oh... this one is very effective for headaches... galing... dunno where my mom bought it. paubos na nga eh... nice ito. chinese chinchunsu ito eh... hehe. at pinapahid sya sa ulo, hindi iniinom.


ang doll na kamuka ko raw kaya binigay sakin hihi... ay... gumagalaw pala ang ulo nyan parang yung mga doggie na display sa mga taxi na parang nang hi-hypnotize... at mapapa-galaw na rin ang ulo mo pag tinitigan mo. hehe.


uy... bagong ligo hihi... presko. bakit kaya?


kse butas at gula-gulanit ang damit! bwahhaha! bakit ba? walang pakialamanan... bigay ng bestfriend ko nung HS ang shirt na 'to... what could you expect? HS pa e! malamang sira-sira na yan... pero love ko yung shirt na yan! hihihi!


*talgang kailangan pang mag smile e no.. damit na nga lang kinukunan... bakit ba? sira-sira na nga, sisimangot pa ko hihihi... next week ano kayang magawa? hihihi...

private thoughts

stupid title... why did i post these if these were private... stupid title... stupid me? hihi...

i don't really buy that thing. i'm not thrilled with that idea and i get annoyed... almost disgusted when i hear it.

i also get annoyed when i see that same scene everyday... it goes on for hours... arrgh... hello?!?!? are they all like that? i thought this one was different.

i'm sorry for that... and saying that and thinking that way. i guess i shouldn't have but i can't help it. and now i feel guilty.

i'm really hoping that something will push through on january =) hihi... crossing my fingers tightly.

touch move... it's always touch move arrrgh...

i'm bloody doomed for the next month... doooooomeddd!

pretty soon, i'm bound to think that way. i SHOULD think that way.

i'm starting to feel it... and i hate it when i start feeling that way... 'cause i tend to NOT do anything about it.

stupid title

i don't want to be a housewife... i see things i'm not supposed to see... i think of senseless things i'm not even supposed to think about. i don't want to be idle again... argh...

baby talk

i've always marvelled about the gift of life. i'm always thrilled to hear that somebody's pregnant or suspecting that she is.

THRILLED - i mean i'm afraid of the responsibilities that come along with it. life is hard and it's becoming harder and raising a child unprepared is not something that you think over once or twice ad everything will turn out fine. you could go on sitting up all night thinking of making ends meet... but you just can't... simply because life is tough.

you just can't make the ends meet so don't. =) because God will find a way of doing that.

more than being afraid, anxious, and worse, being paranoid, by thrilled i mean i'm awed and excited about the new life that's blooming inside a woman's body. if i happen to see anything about pregnancy or babies on discovery or national geographic, i see to it that i finish the show... yup even if it's at 2am. so far, i learned that (i'm not sure if i recall these accurately though):

upon intercourse, the sperm travels for about 4 hrs to find the egg. so when you do it... you could become pregnant in 4 hrs. cool!!! and you won't know it 'til you miss your period.

a number of sperm will excitedly try to penetrate the egg but only 1 will succeed. once a pserm enters the egg, the egg undergoes a suddern transformation so that it doesn't allow any sperm to come in... hehe 1st come 1st served basis!

on a 4D image, it was shown how the baby drinks the fluid in the womb. the baby literally hungrily gulps in fluid!!! like a fish gulping or SUCKING in water.

the baby's lungs aren't functioning yet while he/she's still in the womb.

under stress, the mother's blood pressure rises (of course). this doesn't have an effect (yet) on the baby. it's only when the mother's blood pressure goes back to normal rate that the baby's blood pressure rises... and he/she is disturbed and jerks defensively as if sensing danger.

in the womb, we could readily determine if the baby will be left or right handed with his preference in sucking his thumb. suck the right thumb and he'll probably be a righty.

did you know doctors perform operations on unborn babies? this is sooo amazing!

play a lullabye or music or read a rhyme to an unborn baby and he/she will recall this once he/she is born. in experiments, crying babies will hush when they hear the familiar music or rhyme.

i dunno... i got all hyped up and excited after hearing that i'll be a ninang of 2 wonderful babies... =) not sure of the other one though... we'll know tomorrow... =)

on brownouts and eggwhites and peace within

930AM Wednesday. i'm on my 3rd day of vacation. neat, eh? nah... brownout eh. what to do? my sinigang na bangus is cooking itself on the stove hehe. what to do? can't surf the net. can't surt the tv either. write it all out on paper while the eggwhite is drying on my face. egg white? i cooked leche flan yesterday. so i have 8 egg whites sitting on a container in our ref, waiting to be applied on the face. yeah, just like julie yap daza does.

what to do? while i'm here wirting it all down on paper, i could feel my face being stretched. it feels odd. i can't think of anything to do. i'm not in the mood to read... and my face is being stretched further. neat... not so. it's starting to tickle me hihi...

and it's gone. i washed it all off... hihi. why do i feel that my face is still being stretched?

my mp3 player is drained. my cellphone is almost drained. it's beginning to feel hot in my room. darn it. i am so dependent in electricity. take away electricity and you take away life. muse me of more creative ways to spend time during a brown out. i'm so dependent. aren't we all? apparently, not. i overheard my neighbors, lolo heny and mang nestor:

lolo heny: gustong-gusto ko pag brown out.

mang nestor: bakit naman?

lolo heny: kasi nakakatulog ako nang mahimbing. walang tv, walang ingay.

awww... lolo heny is around 70 yrs old. here i am, grumbling of not being able to do anything. another soul is finding tranquility and peace amidst the bustles of the world. yeah. i feel at peace now. just sitting here, writing down whatever pops in my head... and i don't mind being alone for now. =) i don't mind bumming around, with a stretched face... doing nothing but listening to silence... and tricycles... hehe =)

things i'm starting to miss since i walked out that door

my 2nd day out of my comfy (and usually muddled) cube... it's raining hard and i'm starting to be bugged by feelings of longing for some things that have always been "just there" for almost 4 yrs:

how manong guard points me, among others, to use the stairs instead of the ramp. sheesh... i keep on forgetting that ramps are for vehicles and stairs are for people... haha.

how manong or manang lobby guard pretends to inspect my bag for any "materials of terrorism" or maybe, more subtly, just for "gadgets of information storage" to conform with bs799 chuva. in reality, they just seem to poke that antenna-looking thing inside my bag and portray an image of disinterest on whatever is in it.. and yes, i doubt that the garret thing has batteries... hihi

how i scan my id on the proximity reader, wait for the beep, and go in.

on the other hand, when the invalid beep shouts out, all i could do is give out an embarrassed smile and plead for te people inside to swipe their ids and open the door for me. =)

how my pc complains and gives me messages of "low memory chuva. quit some application chuva..." darn it... there are just too many open windows.

lately, how i struggled to find a break mate because there are just too few oldies to accompany you in your break.... and i end up going home to eat lunch or dinner.

my batchmates... all 9 of them: rico, jimboy, thyra, cindy, aileen, maricor, harbs, and downa... how we all jived and clashed (sometimes), but it's a great team...

my risksol SE and QA teammates... all the moments i laughed and cried with them. laughed for countless reasons... cried for reasons i don't even want to recall, but since i'm in a dramatic mood, yeah... i'd love to recall them all.

the company outings... how i ended up being drunk once and throwing up, and clogging the sink. it was hell...

the christmas parties, the endless gimiks to make the exchange gift fun... and they never failed. every event was just hilarious and great.

my nexis teammates... i was one of the newbies in the team... but heck... just heck hehe...

the puzzled look on the newbies' faces when i can't help them out in solving their problems.

and the delighted look on their faces when i was able to somehow help them out.

the weekly conference calls... how jimboy and dq and i will arrange the events so that one will be a bum for the night.

the stress it causes me to create my weekly timesheet

how i update the remaining hours spreadsheet on a monthly basis instead of the weekly frequency hehe.. lousy

the nights i spent in the office - unpaid... to finish off tasks

the pantry... oh... the pantry...

my dear newbies... for the shortest period of time, we've been close... they're all kind and good-hearted. and young hihi... and it makes my day when i see them online and i chat with them =)

pics:

edc people + chris


the feast we shared on patrick's bday (the star phone... geeezzz i'm gonna miss that)


N4 team


with room mate franz and jenny


with patsy


this was the present that made me cry... aww so sweet


N4 team sa work area


N4 team candid (daw)

i'm back

another blogless month has passed... hay... well, now that i'm out of spi, i guess i could blog more... =) yippeeeee!!!

not that i'm happy to be out... in fact i'm sad... that will come in another post.

for now, let me share something weird. dig this:



is it a dancing lizard? hihi... its left hind leg is raised... cute? naaah... weird. yuckie actually.

here's the real image hehe... i just turned the previous one upside down. this shot was taken this morning. my mom showed it to me and it was weird and we don't know how it ended up dying that way. i'm avoiding that area near our stove. what if it falls and it falls on my head?!? yuckieeee... hehe... the last time i checked, it's still there. eeww hehe...



i'm ready to blog again wooohooo!