ang pangarap kong mindoro dance

mindoro scandal - has been buzzing around for quite some time now. i haven't seen the film... until last, last week. nagkatuwaan sa office na i-view ang film... asus. and so they say, magaling raw yung girl. true indeed! ay sus. grabe. napapa "omaygadsyet" yung jologs na lalake. aysus! parang pati kami, napapa omaygadsyet na rin...

there was this scene where the girl was performing this sexy dance. not the super halay dance... simpleng dance lang. sabi ni papa alex, ganun raw ang mga dance routine sa mga club kaya most probably, the girl works sa night club. whatever. i like! hehe! kaya lang, the girl was hubo sa taas... she was wearing this black pambaba and high sandals... pang club talga hehe!

ayos talga ang dance. simpleng giling lang hindi oa - to the tune of "thank you" by dido. konting practice lang, kaya ko rin siguro yun haha! tinawag namin itong mindoro dance. at simula nun, nabuo na ang pangarap kong sayawin din ang mindoro dance sa harap ng magiging asawa ko. hehe.. pero! ayoko nang hubo. dapat may saplot sa taas at sa baba kahit konti... para di mahalay... masyado. bwahaha! watadream! wag na si mike... i'll spare him... baka hiwalayan ako pag pinilit kong panoorin nya ko bwahaha! dun na lang sa magiging asawa ko at least tatanggapin ako nun kahit ano pang pangarap ko ang isakatuparan ko. ayus! raaarrr!

* i swear, "thank you" by dido always brings this wicked grin on my face na! "uy, mindoro dance yan!" sabi ng boses sa isip ko.. raarrr! hahahaha!

musings of a lady (nasobrahan ng pagbabasa ng dracula)

on the dark side of twilight last night, i (along with my good fellows at work) had for supper roasted chicken and rice and creamy dairy product mixed with freshly shaved ice. these were courtesy of the good-hearted gentleman, diosdaddy, who will bid us farewell soon to spread his wings on the vast world. alas! it is with no doubt that we are going to miss the kindest soul in diosdaddy's being, but it is with the boldest courage that he must go.... and we send him away with all our love.

(dinner kami kagabi sa office... lechong manok, kanin, ice cream. libreng chibog ni diosdaddy. nagresign na kase sya waaaah! mamimiss ka namin, diosdaddy!!!! huwaaaaaah!)

after the hearty supper, i directed all of my strength doing that which supports my living. yes, i kept myself busy conversing with madam beth and mr. eric just so we could guarantee that the produce of our efforts is free of error. true, to err is human.... but i try to do my best in my undertakings, and hope, that by God's will, all will turn out to be pleasant... if not, then i may wail out a piteous cry!

after chibog, super busy sa work... QA ever... chika kay beth at eric... make sure ever na walang mali ang codes... sana nga wala... tigok ako... dedders ba... pag may mali yun argh.

6 a. m. - oh! it almost slipped my forgetful mind that it is wednesday to-day! i do not intend to forget! it must have slipped my mind whilst i was putting all my efforts at work. i gathered my belongings and tidied myself to go to the church to pray the novena. afterwhich, i rode a carriage, that which will take me to my beloved home... where the comforts of my bed are waiting with arms wide open. it was no wonder that there is a heavy flow of carriages. alas! it is indeed wednesday - the day when devotees flock to church to pray for their earnest wishes and desires. heavens, give me srength for i am feeling the pangs of hunger. it has been some time since my body was nourished with hearty supper.

muntik ko na makalimutan arrrgh! wednesday pala ngayon. busy kase... mega ligpit ng things tapos off to church for the novena na. tapos... commute to go home na. traffic!!! wednesday kse eh... paksyet! gutom na gutom na ko! waaah!

at long last! all my waiting was not put in vain for i am now in my home... oh, my sweet home. i hurriedly washed my hands to rid of the dirt that i might have acquired whilst hurrying home. i then rushed to the dining room where my food is waiting for me. thank you, dear mother, for preparing such a sumptuous meal! i took big bites, almost un-lady like, i must say. but i doubt it somebody is out there to witness my poor soul feasting on such a lovely meal, and even if there is indeed someone out there, i put all worries aside.... i have to satisfy myself even only for to-day! i need to be nourished after a long, tiring day!

paksyetttt! gutom na gutom ako! hugas kamay... derecho mesa chibog! woohoo! salamat momma! sarap ng breakfast! luto ng momma ko! parang lamon yung ginawa ko... kebs kung may makakita.. gutom ako GUTOM!!! waaah!

after that rather delightful supper, i sit here, all poised and groomed because i am very much satisfied. and i write this entry to my journal.... ah, memories so sweet and fond (and sometimes bitter) - i record them all so i will have as i age keepsakes in my heart.... i speak only that of what is true! and now i must go to the toilet to tidy myself. i must regain my strength for to-night is another adventure i will take! whilst everything is still, i shall be alive! but for now, whilst everything is alive, i shall be still. good-bye!

blog blog... kahit walang kwenta... syet.. maglilinis na ko waaah! matutulog na ko antok na! night shift pa ko mamya babush!

on cars, guen the indian girl, and my oldest friend

on cars

saturday - i promised mikey i'll sleep as soon as i get home so we could go out around after lunch. so it was cars day. good film. although i doubt it kids won't get lost in the story, it was pretty hilarious and ummm... it made me cry. haha what won't? amazing how cars could be animated with feelings and grooves and all. after cars, off to good dinner and then to landmark to buy some stuff... all that with only an hour of sleep. i swear, dead na dead ako when we got home argh. i could have slept a little longer if mikey didn't wake me up at 1030am argh! he called me up and i thought it was 1130 na and time for me to wake up na but it was only 1030 waaah! never got back to sleep. and i never stopped making paawa... ginising mo kse ako 1 hour lang tuloy tulog ko :( hehe. "oo na kasalanan ko na." hehe i love hearing that. always. never fails to lift me up.

on guen the indian girl

for so long now, maricor and guen and i have been planning for a day-out or gimik or whatever-just-to-meet-up event. so far, nothing's pushed through... haha! the last time we 3 all met was ash wednesday, had ashes drawn on our foreheads and a quick dinner here at home and then a thousand and one attempts to meet up again. we were supposed to finally meet yesterday, 4pm at the mall of asia to watch a movie and have dinner. all's set although maricor and i were both tired and we'd rather stay home to rest, nagkahiyaang mag cancel just to meet guen. at 4pm, i was already there when i received a message from guen saying her mom got dizzy and she had to stay home... haha! no sweat family first. maricor and i ended up watching lake house and buying a few stuff and eating dinner... magbonding ba ulit? e super bonded na kami going to work everyday! haha it was fun though! lake house, a bit dragging with all the conversation... but good plot. and off to plan another attempt to see guen. hihi.

on my oldest friend

thecx is here! this is her first time to visit home after nine years (?). dig this... she has been my classmate since nursery till 4th year HS. and we're on the same course for the first year at college, though different majors and she had to go to the states na rin before the 2nd year ata. we wouldn't have known that we went way back nursery if we didn't see that photo during nursery... we were both playing the roles of angels for a christmas play on stage. hihi neat, eh! i guess i was too timid and shy and all to be friends with anybody back then but the friendship's been there since i could remember it and it will always be just there till whenever. see you soon! 2 weeks is too short a stay but better than nothing, friend. :)

iMax to the max

monday = independence day = holiday. ma, kuya, aira, and i went to the mall of asia to try the iMax theater. i've heard a couple of feedback that it was worth it and it's quite an experience. the only films available were documentaries: everest (2D) and nascar (3D). diosdaddy told me to try out 3D instead of 2D. so nascar it is. it was boring. i'm not interested in racing, much more, the history of racing haha!

i wasn't really fascinated listening to the facts but i was amazed viewing the graphics... hihi very entertaining. i observed that iMax is better viewing animation films... like happy feet! hihi there was a trailer of happy feet and i hope it's coming soon.

we also bought advanced tickets for superman in 3D woohoo! show date is july 1. can't wait to get dizzy and get all that headache for 2 hours! woohoo!

now that's something different

last sunday, mikey and i were all bored doing the same stuff... watching movie, tambay sa bahay, ikot-ikot sa mall... he called me and told me to bring a swim suit (he didn't tell me to bring a towel, i swear! he insisted he told be to bring one... he didn't!!!) and sandals and we'll go to this water spa somewhere in QC.

hmmm... ok, the ladies' shower room was a-ok! super neat and orderly! flawless haha walang kapintasan. so i changed into my swim suit. i brought a 2-piece swim suit, a spag strap top, and board shorts. i thought i'll just take the spag strap top off before dipping into the pool. on my way to the pool/spa, there was an assistant who inspected my outfit and she told me that my top wasn't allowed and my shorts too... she told me that i should just wear my 2-piece... sorry, house rules. arrgh! ako'y mahiyain! waaah! couldn't do anything, could i? good thing it was the shorts type of suit. waaaah!

other than the attire scandal, everything was perfect. there was a lazy pool, bonding kami ni mikey, chismisan parang girls hihihi! whatda. and then, there were a number of hydrotherapy massage areas in the pool. super satisfied. we tried them all super sarap woohoo! and then, there were also 3 herbal hot pools. hay super ok talga! there was also sauna and steam pero we didn't try those out 'cause somekinuva init. no, thanks! haha. a couple more rounds in tha lazy pool and a few laps in the long pool and we're out. super relaxing. we had a deal to go there at least once a month to just hang out and relax and be all good :)

it was still early so we went to gateway to watchamovie na rin. failure to launch - hilarious. crazy film hihi. i'm not a fan of sarah jessica parker, but yeah i actually think she's cute and funny now. nice.

it was a good day. unique day. fun day. made me bond with and love my guy more. :)

napatawad ko na ang body shop (at ang seaweed set)

i've had this body shop hype when i learned they're on an anniversary sale. i heard you could buy an item and purchase the 2nd for only P10. so i made a research online of what i'll probably buy. i thought i need cleanser, toner, and moisturizer and there's this seaweed set. i thought if it'll cost 500 per item, it's not that bad as long as they come in goodie big sizes.

so last saturday, maricor and i went to divi to buy wedding keepsakes for a friend. and then we proceeded to the mall of asia (of course we assumed the mall will open at 9am).

a few minutes before 9, we were walking the halls of the super jumbo mall of asia. syempre 10 pala ang bukas nya. so we were 2 of the jologs people there na naghihintay magbukas ang mall. how naturally jologs. asus. ang saya! (as i earlier said, jologs is fun!)

but hey, we didn't go there sleepless and all straight from work to go home empty-handed. jologs na kung jologs... we waited for the mall to open. 10 am na, mega open na ang mega shops. 1st stop was the ice skating rink. and we promised ourselves we'll try that out some day. try everything while you're alive!

and then, we spotted body shop woohoo! seaweed set, here i come! ok... ang mahal! ah eh... ok... ang liit. yeah it was 500 a piece... argh. it's not practical! inyo na ang seaweed nyo! di ko kayo mapapatawad habang nabubuhay ako. hahaha... oh well. ang seaweed ko, nauwi sa neutrogena set which cost around 900. not too expensive plus i could definitely use it for more than a month.

this morning, while having breakfast with maricor, i silently told myself, "body shop, napatawad na kita." and then i threw her the question... "maricor, napatawad mo na ba ang body shop?" she was supposed to buy this body scrub at P800 and like me, made some sense and decided to trash the thought. and then she answered, "hinde!hindi ko sila mapapatawad! babalikan ko yun at bibilhin ko yun some day!!!"

oh well... whatever. sigi patawarin ko na lang kesa bilhin hahaha.

p.s. napatawad ko na rin si lola rose reyes. i'm not sure if she could reciprocate this same gift... but yeah... no more grudges, jose. este, rose.

the irony of it all

last sunday, during mass, i was in charge of the 1st, 2nd readings, and prayers of the faithful. 1st and 2nd readings went well. i was reading the prayers of the faithful and it went something like...

"isama po natin sa ating panalangin ang mga sumusunod na intensyon:
blah...
blah...
para sa ating flower sponsors:
blah...
JOSE reyes
blah..."

before the communion, an elderly woman tapped me on the shoulder. with a stern face and all the burdens of the world, she sourly scowled at me and said, "ROSE yun, hindi JOSE!"

i stared at her blankly and after a couple of seconds, i realized that she was referring to a certain name on prayers of the faithful. so i looked at the paper i just read over the mic and realized that, yup, it was my mistake. i said "jose" instead of "rose". i dunno why that happened. maybe i was still sleepy, maybe my eyes (and brain combo) were blurry, or maybe i was plainly stupid. whatever. it was a mistake.

i was slowly processing how i would react to the rather ugly remark (and the following will show you how i just sinned in my thoughts).

i was tempted to flash her a bright smile and tell her, "if you're so sincere with your flower offering, why do you want the whole world to hear your name? it's just a name. it's the intention that counts."

i was tempted to be really bitchy and give her a fiery look and say, "i'm not sorry i read your name wrong. you should be thankful i did not put your name in the 'repose of the souls section'"

i could just forget what just happened and go on with my life and eliminate her completely in my system.

arrrgh... i'm not a good girl but it doesn't mean i'm bad (does it?)... so naturally, i eliminated those wicked thoughts. i don't have the guts to execute them anyway. put down your defenses and apologize, girl. it was, after all, my fault. so sorry it is. after the mass, i looked for granny and tapped her on the shoulder. i almost backed out 'cause i saw that her face still had the sour frown, as if ready to bark. this was after the mass, remember!

but i had to do it... "pasensya na po kayo ha, mali ang nabasa ko".

heaven and earth crashed. she angrily nodded and roared, "e palpak naman ang misa ngayon eh! yung ama namin, dapat kantahin, hindi kinanta! yung pangalan ko, naging jose! blah blah blah..." she went on roaring to the parish secretary why her name was read as jose.

and i left. nothing i could do with a clashing gong. i've done my part.

i'm not pious. i'm not the ms-goody-two-shoes type. i'm a sinner (proofs are enumerated above). i have sinned through my own fault in my thoughts and in my words, in what I have done, and in what I have failed to do. hehe nagdasal... well, the bottom line is, it's just so ironic how we behave that way inside church. what more when we're outside? i'm not exempting myself here. haha! i'm guilty as hell... :(

on roses and prayers

two months since my last post. hihihi... what can i say?

a couple of weeks ago, jheng told me stories about st. therese and roses. you pray to st. therese and you could either ask questions or make a wish and then you could ask for roses as a sign that she favors on saying yes to your question or granting your wish. my section during 1st yr HS was st. therese but i forgot about her story. all i coud recall was that she was associated with roses.

2 weekends ago, mikey and i went with kuya and aira to the mall of asia... get along with everybody else's hype. geez it was sooo crowded we decided to go to glorietta after all to watch xmen. we left aira and kuya in the crowd hehehe.

ok... mikey had this bad, bad headache and he was bitching about it. mega sungit. i asked him, "mapula ba mukha ko?" 'cause i was really conscious if i might have applied too much blusher. ay irritation ang mama, and he answered "hindi" even though he hasn't even glanced at my face yet. ay... pissed of ang lola! away na 'to! ayoko nang sinusungitan ako... if you're a bitch, ay mas bitch ako... hihihi... edi mega dedma na nga. he was trying to say sorry, and i was just nodding my head and he claimed i was making him irap! hehe syempre deny ako. well, i might have made irap at some point... kainis eh.

ohwell, so we were in a taxi, making suyo and dedma (tahimik ito hindi naman kami gumawa ng eksena sa taxi hehe) and i recalled about st. therese. and i said a silent prayer... please show me a rose if he's the one for me. but then we were along edsa and it was most probable that we'll see those little children selling roses... so i made bawi the prayer... ay, st. therese, yellow rose na lang kse madali lang pag red rose... and with that, we got to glorietta without seeing any rose... wala.

so i forgot about it... and i was slightly making pansin mikey na... pero that doesn't mean hindi na kami inis sa isa't isa. ohwell...

just to give a background, mikey isn't the i'll-give-you-roses-everyday type. i know that there's this single instance he sent me a dozen of red roses during our 1st yr anniv last may. other than that, even if we've had a couple of fights, he makes up by saying what i need to hear or doing what he needs to do.

ok so going back, after we bought our movie tickets, he started with the saying-what-i-need-to-hear part and i was cooling down na... and all of a sudden, he said "teka lang dyan ka lang"... and ran off somewhere... it turned out, he ran off to buy a rose... syet!!! the prayer! and i was standing there, speechless and all and teary-eyed 'cause i could not believe it. but.. it was a pink rose, not a yellow rose. we happened to be standing in front of a furniture shop and i told him about the prayer and the yellow rose. he told me na wala naman yellow rose dun sa flower shop... and i turned around and faced the furniture shop, and there it was, a bouquet of yellow roses. and he told me, e hindi naman binebenta yan e, display yan! hehehe my prayer was, after all, "show me" not give me...

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