how do i feel today?

hmmm... time check... 530pm just woke up an hour ago. do i feel good? heck, yeah!!! if only i'm not hungry. the only food that i think is edible around here are these tuna balls. i'm no so into it... but my mom had to leave early this morning so we have to settle for piniritong-anything again hihi.

thoughts?

i'm really glad to see this unexpected transformation in people... from selfish to loving, from a stone to a beaming heart, from ice cold to a radiating warmth. although there's still one thing that's meant to heal. i'm afraid it will take some more time... but all wounds heal eventually.

i MIGHT lose my patience at times. but i'm trying my very best to hold on to it... it might have VERY damaging effects. i believe i've mastered the art of settling differences. or IGNORING differences? everything is under control. i'll just have to have a firm grip on my patience =)

christmas is coming! but before that, a thread of birthdays will come... my lola, ate aileen, aira, mike, ate elaine. after that, the christmas season will rush through. my kuya's almost done with his christmas gift shopping. good for him. hmmm... wala pa kong pera eh! haha!

there's an upcoming holiday on monday. what to do? what to do?

i better eat right now... yeah tuna balls would be fine. anything would be fine for a grumbling tyan...

some signs we surely, truly, honestly, undoubtedly miss habs-e

we pretend that she's with us: in the elevator, while we're walking. we talk to her, we give her her own space. and we get mad when other people will step on that space provided for her hehe.

we provided a space for her for the spi dinner. there was this blank... blank? whatda? more like unoccupied chair that we left for harbs... and we took her picture (imagining she was there, of course)

we still cry like "waaaah! harbie!"... alam na nya yun kung pano ang tono nun

we wonder if harbie is online pag nasa office na kami... harbie, mag download ka ng skype. yun ang gami namin sa office eh.

knowing our team mates are in florida, we always wonder and wish that she could get a job for our company (florida office) and we could be team mates again!

we still shout "barbieeeeee!" out in public places... hoping that maybe.. just maybe, she might just answer in disgust hehe...

awww.... barbie... dear barbie... miss ka na namin! =)

all mixed up and the goblet of fire

monday morning 126am... i know i'm supposed to be sleeping right now... but it turns out... my days are now nights and my nights are now days. hehe.

hmmm... what's happened for the past week so far? so far so good at work. although some things are turning out as unexpected and scary at times... you'll just have to do your best... 'cause you'll never know what happens next... or when things will happen.

everybody's just super helfpul in pointing out what needs to be done and how to get things done. it's so true how there's this inner kindness in every person's heart. some hearts may just happen to sparkle more but every heart and soul combination is good... that's what i believe in.

tumataba na raw ako sabi ni papa mike kse raw puro fastfood na ang kinakain ko. mcdo, kfc, hotdog sa 711 na lasang putok, cup noodles, sandwiches, donuts yan ang laman ng tyan ko. asked him if ayaw nya na tumataba ako... and he said ok naman daw may nakukurot nang laman (or taba) hehe... i don't know if that's good or bad... but i always dreamt of being mataba somehow hehe... the problem is... tyan ko lang ang tumataba, thus the term bilbil. shocks...

watched harry potter yesterday. grabe binata na sina harry potter at ron. si hermione akalain mong napakagandang bata pala... shi cho cute pero pango... hehe ako rin pango. nde ako namimintas ah... kse sinabi ko rin na pango ako haha! i heard heart auditioned for the part. she could've done a great job of portraying cho's role. =) she's a pretty girl.

the effects were great... although medyo dragging yung scenes. pero ok lang. marami kaming nakitang batang "naghaharutan" at inisip ko kung maharot din ako minsan haha... nde naman. promise. pero... oo sige maharot minsan pero medyo lang... hindi naman kasing childish nung mga nakita naming bata hehe. bata pa naman ako. what's wrong with that?

hmmm... tomorrow's another week. i hope the work load's not that heavy. thanksgiving is coming anyway. =) i hope this is a mega petiks week.

padugo namin ngayon and a few more stuff

that's how they call the pa-dinner of the newbies. we had dinner at makati republik... hehe para syang beerhouse... what could you expect e puro lalaki ang crowd sa team namin. hihi...

ok naman super busog... mura rin ang food. pero sa cholesterol ng mga kinain namin, malamang ma-dead din kami nang maaga hehe...

i have this irritating headache right now. anticipating the monthly grouchy icky thing. sigh... pimples somehow gone... thanks to my new toner... black circles under eyes becoming worse? sigh... muka na kong puyat lagi hihi... ok lang naman daw. =)

received a rather sad, bad news today. =( crossing our fingers it won't happen...

we're celebrating this ultimate reunion today... harbs yihee naiinggit! donna: to my far left and maricor: to my left. ang ingay namin! hehe... saya! it's nice to be happy with your work and the people you work with.

omg... i can't believe i'm still mentoring the spi newbies haha! online or phone patch itu! pede bang mag charge ng consultation fee? haha! funny.

may joke pala ako... narinig ko earlier sa bus on my way to work:

young nun: mother superior, dapat po ipagbawal na ang pagwiwi ng mga pari sa pader!

mother superior: sister, pabayaan mo na yun! kaliit-liit na bagay eh!

young nun: (kinilig...) ay mother malaki po! hihihi!

hehe wala lang. natawa lang kasi ako mag-isa sa bus eh...

off to have a quick break. =)

1st day of my 2nd week at my new work

sleepy? not so... it's 5:55 am. 5 minutes before i head home. i guess i'm used to it na. sleeping by day and working by night. haha. this won't last forever. up to december probably? i hope so. =) ang daming ko nang pimples eh. lech... hihi...

ngayon, we're used to hearing "gwapong" boses. boses lang promise hehe...

we're making gaya the agents... "hi this is catherine. how may i help you today?"

ang daming nag e-english... hello nasa philippines tayo... hello eh amerikano kaya ang mga client pano mag tatagalog bwahahaha!

hmmm... gumagawa na naman ako ng test cases. i love it! sobrang konting stress! woohoo! parang we find bugs... you fix it hehe!

i put curtains in my room to shield me from the sun when i sleep at day hehe.

waiting for donna... it's her first day tonight. errr.... her first night tonight?

and i'm going home...

*bakit nga pala ang mga truck driver, yung nasa passenger seat pala ng truck, laging nakataas ang mga paa...

mike chats with my "mom"

online ako. ni-ding ako ni mike. he thought he's chatting with my mom. i played along... hihi... with consent ang post na ito... =) bwahaha

mike :
caths: hey =)
mike : kw gamit ng pc?
caths: ha?
caths: nong ako gamit?
mike : i mean kung ikaw nagamit
mike : baka mommy mo eh
caths: yup
caths: mommy ako ni caths
mike : ay sorry po
mike : njan po c caths?
caths: nanonood ng tv
mike : musta po tita?
caths: ok naman
caths: tumitingin ng pwedeng business
mike : ahh
mike : pakisabi nlng po online ako
mike : thanks po
caths: may idea ka ba?
caths: may tanong pala ko sayo
mike : ano po?
caths: anong hangarin mo sa anak ko?
mike : ha?
mike : po?
caths: mahal mo ba ang anak ko?
mike : opo
caths: niloloko mo lang ata
caths: hihi...
mike : ndi po
caths: joke lang
mike : EEEEEHHHHH
mike : KAINIS KA!
mike : BAHALA KA JAN!
caths: ano ka ba?!?!?
mike : AYOKO NA
caths: no ka ba?!?!?
mike : =(
caths: inisip mo ba talga si mommy un?
caths: ahaha
caths: pero pinabasa ko haha
caths: tinatawanan ka hihihi
caths: to talga
mike : bahala ka

25 cathsfacts

saw this from harbs' blog... 25? ang dami! 25 things people don't know YET about me? hmmm... wala na ata eh i'm so transparent... hehe... i'll give it a shot...

1. i'm not choosy and maselan when it comes to food. the only ones i don't really like that much are: sardines, vienna sausage... although i'll eat them still pag wala nang choice. other that those, kahit damo-damo lang, kakainin ko =)



2. i keep a journal of my dreams... i started about 2 weeks ago. i had some weird dreams and thought of keeping a journal of those... for just wala lang purposes.



3. when i feel bad towards someone, i don't usually confront the person. in fact, i never confront anybody. i write it all down. sort of a hate journal? hihi at least i let it out somehow.



4. during 2nd and 3rd year HS, i was part of the intrams... hihi... dig this - skipping rope competition! we bagged the gold prize during 2nd year. 3rd yr, hmmm wala na ata.



5. tried smoking only once... and i never tried it again. and i can't tolerate the smell of yosi usok. pero nde naman ako rude to cover my nose pag friends ko yung nag smoke hihi...



6. i was iyakin when i was a kid. what's new? by iyakin i mean, yung ngalngal talga haha! my mom had to gapos me during a dentist appointment to keep me still on the chair. "parang baboy na kinakatay" is how they usually term it. now, i'm finesse nang umiyak hihi... mahinhin, mayumi.



7. i talk to myself... before going to bed. i talk aloud. don't we all? hmmm... don't we all?



8. when i'm alone watching tv, and i happen to surf on some old tagalog movie... the black-and-white-and-may-guhit-guhit-na-sa-kalumaan type... i watch it. hihi... and i try my best to guess who the actors are. how cheap could i be sometimes? hmmm... pati pala videoke, i sing along give na give... hihi but ONLY when i'm alone!



9. i have a fondness in sniffing... errr... smelling match stick fume. adik...



10. i was the salutatorian of the class during nursery... konting top ten during my elementary years. and that's it. haha! i'm pretty much the average kid na all through my aral years.



11. i have 4 super duper kamuka people... (1) my papa (2) my brother erwin (3) my half sister, pia - dunno where she is right now (4) grace, my HS and college school mate. i swear super kamuka. check her out in my friendster.



12. i used to cry over my crush way back college... grabe. i sooo like him! code name? electric fan... hihi. he's married now.



13. 2 things i sooo wanted to have when i was younger... a bike and roller blades... hanep



14. my closest cousin, irish, and i used to have prayer meetings in my old room. we would close all windows and doors, put the lights out so it would be super dark... say our prayers and force ourselves to cry during meditation. hehe... runs in the blood. drama and craziness.



15. while most people would turn the radio on to find their way to sleep, i CAN'T sleep with music on... even the mellow ones. i'll find myself singing along with every song. hihi parang jingle ng 96.3 wrock.



16. i tend to be super shy around guys. i don't even look at them unless, of course, they talk to me. must be the effect of studying in an all-girls school during elem and HS.



17. on the contrary, when i become close with a guy friend... i don't hold back anything. i could share the very intimate details of my life... even those i'm not supposed to share with a guy friend.



18. i love to experiment when cooking. i almost always follow a cookbook as a guide but end up adding a little bit of ANYTHING to alter the taste. hihi... sometimes.... i double the amounts mentioned in the recipe para double ang sarap hehe.



19. i find it hard to make ebs in the spi restroom... hihi pati ba ito? i always rush home to make ebs... hihi nahiya naman ako... well it's a known fact naman sa mga tao.



20. when i'm home, i eat rice for as much as 6 times - breakfast, merienda AM, lunch, merienda PM, and dinner, and midnight snack... no wonder my bilbil's so laki.



21. i'm a soooo-ordinary-kid when i was growing up. i used to read nancy drew and hardy boys and sweet valley kids/twin/high/university just like everybody else did.



22. in addition, i used to believe that kisses become pregnant and they would lay their egg kisses when you put them snug in containers with cotton... argh... i'm so a-believer.



23. something not so ordinary... when julie vega died, i used to believe that she'll come to our house and haunt me... like duh... sino ako?!?!



24. during 3rd yr HS, i had dengue fever - the only instance i was confined in a hospital... i was transfused with white blood platelets and my body refused to accept the new blood. i convulsed and was in coma for almost 6 hours. this is, i believe, my second life.



25. i'm not into computers. i'm not a techie person. the only reason i took up comp sci was because for the interest test during HS, i got high scores for computer AND science... duh... thus, my father suggested i take up comp sci... duh. no regrets though. i survived, and i'm still surviving!

some signs my kuya is a true blue jologs

kuya ko? sosyalero yan... maarte! nde bumibili ng mga chipis at mga bagay na mumu - mumurahin... puro mama - mamahalin. asus! at bago bumili, he'll think it over a million times before he'll make the purchase. only the best buys. nakakabwisit na nga minsan eh. lalo na if he'll ask to me to accompany him pag may bibilhin sya... i'm like... "oh no!!! not another shopping moment with kuya!!!" doom ito! pero sige... kahit na inuugatan na yung paa ko kakahintay... i don't (usually) mind.

konting may makita sa 'min... he'll give you that disgusted look and say, "ano ba? ang cheap nyo!" haha! bakit ba?!? it's nice to be jologs. cool nga eh! wag lang yung sobra... nakakabwisit na rin yun. maricor and donna and harbie know that we are true-blood jologs and it's fun and we pretend that we try to hide it... and whisper... "ano ba? nde pede ang jologs dito!" and we giggle and die... hehe...

but lately... i just have to make buking that i know it and i sense it that kuya... is jologs too! here are proofs:

nanood ng dubai! kasama si aira... hindi sa bahay ha... sa movie house talga! hihi... not that you're jologs if you watch it... pero si kuya?!? i don't know what's running in his system at napapayag sya ni aira... (true love, i guess?)

kung nde pa nakita ang sassy girl vcd (with english subtitle) ko dito sa bahay, manonod dapat sila ng my sassy girl tagalog version... yeah that's the spirit! hiniram na lang ang vcd ko at sa bahay sila nanood.

nanood ng asap 05 at sop! it's sooo not like him. kanina, i heard him singing along with the song... eto ang matindi... 'di ko kinaya "sasakyan kita" my gulay! tinginan lang kami ng mom ko at tawanan... haha!

bumili ng mumu na polo sa uniwide at proud sya sa purchase nyang ito... papahulaan pa samin kung magkano... and we were like "hmmm... sa tingin namin P2.50 lang yan" hahaha!

before, only my mom and i were watching big brother... ay sus. i would rush home from work just so i could watch it. my kuya would just roll his eyes bulong bulong na naman ng kung anu-ano... but for the past few weeks, my gosh.. nauuna pa samin sa sofa pag PBB na! bwahahaha! at promise! super disappointed sya pag tapos na!

an unexpected present and an interesting sequence of numbers

after watching the legend of zoro with papa mike, he handed me a brown paper bag and asked me to open it. inside was a package neatly wrapped in lilac wrapper and he told me it's from his mom and the gift was something i could use for my new work.

awww... i was so touched medyo muntik na ko maiyak sa sinehan no! ano ba naman... hihi... so i opened the package and inside was a book - inner beauty at work by didi nakar maranon... and a small token of my guardian angel... awww so thoughtful... grabe. i was so touched by this gesture.

and it was then that mike reminded me of his mom's birthday on nov. 11 and that i was invited to their gathering... hihi...

and it was also then that i saw this interesting pattern of numbers on the birthdays of special women in my life:

1010 - oct 10: is my ex's mom's birthday. yup... we still talk every now and then. not necessarily about the ex... but about my life and her life. i guess she's sensible and sensitive enough to just talk about the beauies and aches of life and nothing more. =) we send text messages or speak over the phone and i dunno but there's something about her voice that soothes me... a real mother image - selfless and loving... personified through her caring ways. i enjoy reading her messages. it's as if i'm listening to maala-ala mo kaya... a real classic mom giving you pieces of advice and warm wishes.

1111 - nov 11: is mike's mom's birthday. i'm not yet that close to her... we met only thrice (?) but i could say he's really nice... she actually reminds me of my mom's personality. i mean the mere gesture of giving me something that would help me adjust in my new endeavor is SOMETHING that really means so much to me. i never thought she would remember me that way and i'm really touched and am looking forward to getting to know her more. mike said "mas mahal ka pa nga sakin nun!"... i don't know if he's just making me bola... but i don't care... bola or not, i'm really happy and touched and overwhelmed.

and i told him that my next bf's mom's birthday would probably be a 1212... and he looked at me sternly and said "e bakit? may next pa ba?" hihi... eto naman... masyadong oa... sabi ko lang naman baka eh! and it hit me just last night that yeah... i do have a 1212!

1212 - dec 12: is my mom's birthday! how stupid could i get sometimes (lang?)? and she laughed at me when i told her about it. "ano ba? yung 1212 pa ang matagal mong pinag-isipan?" hehe... my mom? need i say more? she knows everything (not all naman... baka sabunutan ako kung all eh). all that she needs to know, that is... and she told me that most of her friends envy (in a nice way) what we have as mom and daughter. she's my friend... i'm her friend... we're buddies, we make pintas together, we laugh and cry together - over life and over tv shows and over movies. we share just about everything... and i love her sooo much... i always tell her that i don't mind not getting married as long as we live together... and she would answer me... "tange... syempre masaya ang mag-asawa no!!!" hihihi...

* i just have to share that starbuck's mango juice... tastes perfectly like nutrilicious mango flavor. mike didn't notice it until i blurted it out... "P90 for nutrilicious mango? crap..." daw... hehe. oh well...

epekto ng 1 linggong kawalan ng ginagawa

after watching pbb, i dunno what hit me and i just got my camera and took shots of heck knows what in my room hihihi... wala lang... welcome to my room!

a stack of books... when i can't sleep, i get a book and pop my head into it. hihi... mostly, simula lang nababasa ko sa gabi. pampaantok lang talga hehe... pero nabasa ko na ung mga yan. some time in the past.


my spi stuff... awwww... i piled them neatly on the floor... i look at them and awwww... hehe ang oa... wala lang tinitingnan ko lang.



some stuff from ln - awww more memories... the pens are, if i remember it right, from george and dave of RS. the paper holder's from ree. the red duster's from george din ata?


this sto. nino appeared in my dreams. in my dream, i woke up daw and i saw sto. nino facing me and looking at me... weird. i'm not really sure if i were dreaming 'cause it felt so real. but, yeah... i guess i'm certain that it's just a dream. since then, i started buying sampaguita every sunday... =)


this is my bed woohoo! syempre medyo i straightened the sheets haha... from the left is a pooh pillow (from rico during batch 7 kris kringle), ang madungis na eeyore pillow (na ilang beses nang nabagok sa spi at kung baby lang sya ay malamang dead na sya... at palagi kong naririnig "caths, si eeyore nahulog na naman" hehe... poor eeyore), and a pillow from donna =).


journals - listahan ng lcg fund, at kung saan napupunta ang sweldo ko, listahan ng thoughts, pains, feelings, songs, laughters, poems, letters, at kung anu-ano pa...


ang screen ko na sinira ng doggie namin noon, si claudia, na dead na ngayon... awww... nagbigti sya. promise... i'm not kidding! nagbigti sya! anyway, tinagpian ko pala ng stockings yung screen na nasira hihi...


mga glow-in-the-dark chuva ko ito sa ceiling hihi... kala nyo darkness lang ano.. haha! kita kaya! tingnan maigi... may glow-in-the-dark stuff dyan! promise!


oh... this one is very effective for headaches... galing... dunno where my mom bought it. paubos na nga eh... nice ito. chinese chinchunsu ito eh... hehe. at pinapahid sya sa ulo, hindi iniinom.


ang doll na kamuka ko raw kaya binigay sakin hihi... ay... gumagalaw pala ang ulo nyan parang yung mga doggie na display sa mga taxi na parang nang hi-hypnotize... at mapapa-galaw na rin ang ulo mo pag tinitigan mo. hehe.


uy... bagong ligo hihi... presko. bakit kaya?


kse butas at gula-gulanit ang damit! bwahhaha! bakit ba? walang pakialamanan... bigay ng bestfriend ko nung HS ang shirt na 'to... what could you expect? HS pa e! malamang sira-sira na yan... pero love ko yung shirt na yan! hihihi!


*talgang kailangan pang mag smile e no.. damit na nga lang kinukunan... bakit ba? sira-sira na nga, sisimangot pa ko hihihi... next week ano kayang magawa? hihihi...

private thoughts

stupid title... why did i post these if these were private... stupid title... stupid me? hihi...

i don't really buy that thing. i'm not thrilled with that idea and i get annoyed... almost disgusted when i hear it.

i also get annoyed when i see that same scene everyday... it goes on for hours... arrgh... hello?!?!? are they all like that? i thought this one was different.

i'm sorry for that... and saying that and thinking that way. i guess i shouldn't have but i can't help it. and now i feel guilty.

i'm really hoping that something will push through on january =) hihi... crossing my fingers tightly.

touch move... it's always touch move arrrgh...

i'm bloody doomed for the next month... doooooomeddd!

pretty soon, i'm bound to think that way. i SHOULD think that way.

i'm starting to feel it... and i hate it when i start feeling that way... 'cause i tend to NOT do anything about it.

stupid title

i don't want to be a housewife... i see things i'm not supposed to see... i think of senseless things i'm not even supposed to think about. i don't want to be idle again... argh...

baby talk

i've always marvelled about the gift of life. i'm always thrilled to hear that somebody's pregnant or suspecting that she is.

THRILLED - i mean i'm afraid of the responsibilities that come along with it. life is hard and it's becoming harder and raising a child unprepared is not something that you think over once or twice ad everything will turn out fine. you could go on sitting up all night thinking of making ends meet... but you just can't... simply because life is tough.

you just can't make the ends meet so don't. =) because God will find a way of doing that.

more than being afraid, anxious, and worse, being paranoid, by thrilled i mean i'm awed and excited about the new life that's blooming inside a woman's body. if i happen to see anything about pregnancy or babies on discovery or national geographic, i see to it that i finish the show... yup even if it's at 2am. so far, i learned that (i'm not sure if i recall these accurately though):

upon intercourse, the sperm travels for about 4 hrs to find the egg. so when you do it... you could become pregnant in 4 hrs. cool!!! and you won't know it 'til you miss your period.

a number of sperm will excitedly try to penetrate the egg but only 1 will succeed. once a pserm enters the egg, the egg undergoes a suddern transformation so that it doesn't allow any sperm to come in... hehe 1st come 1st served basis!

on a 4D image, it was shown how the baby drinks the fluid in the womb. the baby literally hungrily gulps in fluid!!! like a fish gulping or SUCKING in water.

the baby's lungs aren't functioning yet while he/she's still in the womb.

under stress, the mother's blood pressure rises (of course). this doesn't have an effect (yet) on the baby. it's only when the mother's blood pressure goes back to normal rate that the baby's blood pressure rises... and he/she is disturbed and jerks defensively as if sensing danger.

in the womb, we could readily determine if the baby will be left or right handed with his preference in sucking his thumb. suck the right thumb and he'll probably be a righty.

did you know doctors perform operations on unborn babies? this is sooo amazing!

play a lullabye or music or read a rhyme to an unborn baby and he/she will recall this once he/she is born. in experiments, crying babies will hush when they hear the familiar music or rhyme.

i dunno... i got all hyped up and excited after hearing that i'll be a ninang of 2 wonderful babies... =) not sure of the other one though... we'll know tomorrow... =)

on brownouts and eggwhites and peace within

930AM Wednesday. i'm on my 3rd day of vacation. neat, eh? nah... brownout eh. what to do? my sinigang na bangus is cooking itself on the stove hehe. what to do? can't surf the net. can't surt the tv either. write it all out on paper while the eggwhite is drying on my face. egg white? i cooked leche flan yesterday. so i have 8 egg whites sitting on a container in our ref, waiting to be applied on the face. yeah, just like julie yap daza does.

what to do? while i'm here wirting it all down on paper, i could feel my face being stretched. it feels odd. i can't think of anything to do. i'm not in the mood to read... and my face is being stretched further. neat... not so. it's starting to tickle me hihi...

and it's gone. i washed it all off... hihi. why do i feel that my face is still being stretched?

my mp3 player is drained. my cellphone is almost drained. it's beginning to feel hot in my room. darn it. i am so dependent in electricity. take away electricity and you take away life. muse me of more creative ways to spend time during a brown out. i'm so dependent. aren't we all? apparently, not. i overheard my neighbors, lolo heny and mang nestor:

lolo heny: gustong-gusto ko pag brown out.

mang nestor: bakit naman?

lolo heny: kasi nakakatulog ako nang mahimbing. walang tv, walang ingay.

awww... lolo heny is around 70 yrs old. here i am, grumbling of not being able to do anything. another soul is finding tranquility and peace amidst the bustles of the world. yeah. i feel at peace now. just sitting here, writing down whatever pops in my head... and i don't mind being alone for now. =) i don't mind bumming around, with a stretched face... doing nothing but listening to silence... and tricycles... hehe =)

things i'm starting to miss since i walked out that door

my 2nd day out of my comfy (and usually muddled) cube... it's raining hard and i'm starting to be bugged by feelings of longing for some things that have always been "just there" for almost 4 yrs:

how manong guard points me, among others, to use the stairs instead of the ramp. sheesh... i keep on forgetting that ramps are for vehicles and stairs are for people... haha.

how manong or manang lobby guard pretends to inspect my bag for any "materials of terrorism" or maybe, more subtly, just for "gadgets of information storage" to conform with bs799 chuva. in reality, they just seem to poke that antenna-looking thing inside my bag and portray an image of disinterest on whatever is in it.. and yes, i doubt that the garret thing has batteries... hihi

how i scan my id on the proximity reader, wait for the beep, and go in.

on the other hand, when the invalid beep shouts out, all i could do is give out an embarrassed smile and plead for te people inside to swipe their ids and open the door for me. =)

how my pc complains and gives me messages of "low memory chuva. quit some application chuva..." darn it... there are just too many open windows.

lately, how i struggled to find a break mate because there are just too few oldies to accompany you in your break.... and i end up going home to eat lunch or dinner.

my batchmates... all 9 of them: rico, jimboy, thyra, cindy, aileen, maricor, harbs, and downa... how we all jived and clashed (sometimes), but it's a great team...

my risksol SE and QA teammates... all the moments i laughed and cried with them. laughed for countless reasons... cried for reasons i don't even want to recall, but since i'm in a dramatic mood, yeah... i'd love to recall them all.

the company outings... how i ended up being drunk once and throwing up, and clogging the sink. it was hell...

the christmas parties, the endless gimiks to make the exchange gift fun... and they never failed. every event was just hilarious and great.

my nexis teammates... i was one of the newbies in the team... but heck... just heck hehe...

the puzzled look on the newbies' faces when i can't help them out in solving their problems.

and the delighted look on their faces when i was able to somehow help them out.

the weekly conference calls... how jimboy and dq and i will arrange the events so that one will be a bum for the night.

the stress it causes me to create my weekly timesheet

how i update the remaining hours spreadsheet on a monthly basis instead of the weekly frequency hehe.. lousy

the nights i spent in the office - unpaid... to finish off tasks

the pantry... oh... the pantry...

my dear newbies... for the shortest period of time, we've been close... they're all kind and good-hearted. and young hihi... and it makes my day when i see them online and i chat with them =)

pics:

edc people + chris


the feast we shared on patrick's bday (the star phone... geeezzz i'm gonna miss that)


N4 team


with room mate franz and jenny


with patsy


this was the present that made me cry... aww so sweet


N4 team sa work area


N4 team candid (daw)

i'm back

another blogless month has passed... hay... well, now that i'm out of spi, i guess i could blog more... =) yippeeeee!!!

not that i'm happy to be out... in fact i'm sad... that will come in another post.

for now, let me share something weird. dig this:



is it a dancing lizard? hihi... its left hind leg is raised... cute? naaah... weird. yuckie actually.

here's the real image hehe... i just turned the previous one upside down. this shot was taken this morning. my mom showed it to me and it was weird and we don't know how it ended up dying that way. i'm avoiding that area near our stove. what if it falls and it falls on my head?!? yuckieeee... hehe... the last time i checked, it's still there. eeww hehe...



i'm ready to blog again wooohooo!

father pogi gives me a hug

sunday morning... dropped by the parish office before the mass to get the intentions. when i got there, ate rose (parish secretary) was joking with father pogi. they were laughing and joking about birthdays, but i don't have an idea what they were talking about.

to include me in the conversation, father pogi asked me, "how many birthdays do you have?". and i answered, "one". and then... i don't know why he suddenly put his arm around me. una 1 lang and then ni-hug na ako! hihi... i was like, "uy si father pogi to. kakakilig!" haha.

ang daughterly hug binigyan ng malisya... hahaha! kse naman ang pogi talga ni father pogi super! promise!

a premature farewell

the past two weeks has been a whirlwind of change. all of a sudden, i'm engulfed in something new and i never thought something like this will happen this soon.

for 3 years and 9 months, i walked through these halls... and these walls have been silent witnesses to my tears, laughters, bitterness, kalokohan, and all (yup, even my heartbreak and heartmake... heartmake? watda?).

i've tasted just about every weird food there is: dacar, global, and now... something gourmet. but hey, weird isn't always bad and i'm proud to say these rather edible goodies sustained me for years. =)

i've seen how the pantry has evolved from wash-your-mug-by-the-window-and-kill-the-plants-outside to this more sophisticated look-i-have-a-sink-but-alas-there's-no-table-only-two-chairs pantry.

people come and go. and i've been a witness to these wonderful instances.

the coming part is good. new faces, new names, new good deeds to remember, new learnings to gain and share. there are a hundred and one newbies... they actually outnumber us now hihi. they make me laugh, they make me smile. sometimes they make my head ache with questions that i can't answer hihi... because i simply don't know the answer. sorry... =)

the going part is the one that makes me sad... majority of my good friends are gone. over the years, we mourned whenever another good heart leaves mere traces of the best memories we could ever have.

maybe this is the right time for me to go, with everything coming into place so smoothly. i prayed for it... that whatever comes in first is the real gift for me.

i have more than a month to enjoy everything good that's associated with spi... to gather every bit of learning and memory... to enjoy the company of the greatest people i've worked with.

thank you for the gift. may i find equal, if not greater, happiness in this new venture. i know i will with my good friend, maricor, beside me... =)

so cute...

* how you give me that super pouting face... because you waited for 20 minutes under the shed.
* how i defend that "it's just 20 minutes! bakit ang sungit mo?!?!", and you go on ranting and mumbling your whatevers.
* how i remind you that i once waited for over an hour and i didn't complain... and you say, "bakit ka nang-uungkat?!?".
* how we pretend that we fight about it and murmur whispers... but smile deep down inside 'cause we know na nagpapa-cute lang tayo sa isa't-isa hehe.
* and how we just laugh about it.
* how you choose to share your jacket with me under the rain... even though i have an umbrella... just because you find it sweeter hihi... (to snuggle under a jacket instead of an umbrella? hihi)
* how you kurot my arms and legs and bilbil... and i bruise a lot and it's ok and i find it nice. eeewww... weird.
* how i am so "obsessed" (as you said) to make ganti... but i just can't 'cause you cover your bilbil with pillows... at obvious namang you could defend my every attack duh.
* how you are so concentrated while watching tv... and i get bored and i ask you all sorts of questions... and you get annoyed... and i keep on annoying you hehe...
* how i keep on forgetting that you have a cut on your thumb and i keep on pinching it... or biting it... and all you could do is just shout because of the pain... and all i could do is just whisper i'm sorry and kiss your thumb with the hope of warding off the pain... hihi
* how we thumb wrestle. and you invent rules! just because you're stronger than me! argh! daya.
* how i greet you good morning and you tell me... something else, thus the pet name baby-a... duh... parang may baby-b, baby-c ahhh hehe... and how we argue who's baby-a... eeeh... ikaw un!
* how sweet it is to be loved by you... baby-a... =)

my ten-minute baths and katya's not-alone-baths

i'm in 7am-4pm shift for this week... (but last monday, i was here from 7am to 6pm... tuesday, 7am to 1030pm... yesterday, 7am to 6pm hihi watashift). i'm not complaining. well... maybe, yes... 'cause i miss going home on "normal" hours.

i'm not that used to going to work this early anymore and i really can't drag myself out of bed at 6am!!! geez...

i usually have 20-30 minute baths but waking up at 630 can't give me the luxury of having longers baths. anong magagawa ko? edi madaliang shampoo at sabon! sobraaa! sige wala nang conditioner. kakain pa ng oras yun e. it's a good thing i could still scrub a little using a bath towel hihi. darn it.

i'm back on 2nd shift (i think) for the next two weeks. wee! this means longer time for baths =).

speaking of baths, i remember i was watching tv with papa mike last night. we saw katya santos on one channel for an interview of some sort.... aaaah sa nginig. yup. interview for the nginig show... about her experiences with ghosts ata. she said something like "minsan pag naliligo ako mag-isa, mararamdaman mo talga may kakaiba eh". and i was like, "ha? naliligo mag-isa? edi minsan pala naliligo kang may kasama? hehe". and papa mike was like, "oo nga ano!".

ibig sabihin pag may kasama sya maligo, nde sya nakakaramdam ng kakaiba hihi... anobuzz... edi lagi sya maligo with someone. hihi sharing baths with someone. hmmm... sounds good? hmmm...

another paranoia attack (and a lot more)

i've been coughing for a couple of weeks now and i didn't mind it 'cause i've always been sensitive to pollution, yosi usok and the likes. last wednesday, at work, i felt this pain on my right rib when i cough and i realized that heck... i've been coughing for the longest time and i didn't bother to consult a doctor about this. why am i all of a sudden feeling pain on my right rib. i've heard similar stories like this and it turns out they have tb.

ok being the paranoid queen that i am... that night i couldn't sleep, i started recording videos - said my good byes and thank yous to my family and friends. i had a couple of shoots. i didn't like it when i don't smile hihi. mukang may sakit eh. i deleted the videos anyway. i'll just re-shoot when i'm certain of my "sickness"...

thursday, can't take it anymore. took a leave and went to manila doctor's to have myself checked... conversation went:

doc: ano'ng problema?
caths: (freaking nervous) kasi po inuubo ako for a couple of weeks na and masakit yung dito ko (points to my right rib)...
doc: ok. x-ray na lang muna (hands me the x-ray slip).

that's it?!? lalo akong kinabahan. parang sinabi nyang i-confirm natin kung tb ang sakit mo hehe.

at sa kakabahan ko at kawalan sa sarili, tama bang i-offer ko ang dibdib ko sa manong x-ray-man? naman. yung suot ko kasing shirt may glitters sa medyo chest part. he asked, "yung glitters ba na yan may metal?". and i answered, "hindi ko po alam e...". he said, "hahawakan ko ha."... and i was like... "sige po" sabay forward ng chest ko... naman. tanga-tanga ko. natawa si manong... medyo i-forward ko na lang daw yung shirt ko para nde nya mahawakan yung di dapat mahawakan. ay sus... caths! pag disoriented e tanga-tanga! asus. kahiya. edi sana pinakapa ko na rin kung may wire ang bra ko diba?!? naman!!!

the results will be available the next day pa... pero ayoko na mag leave so i decided to go back on saturday (kahapon yun).

what are the other things i thought about while i was on this dilemma? laugh on...

i'll probably take a six-month leave and go to mindoro (lola's house) so i could recover. i heard people heal faster when they live near the sea. of course i'll isolate myself and my stuff so i won't spread stuff i'm not supposed to spread.

i'll probably call it quits with papa mike. don't want to jeopardize other people's health... when i get well, and we still feel the same way for each other, edi go ulit =)

on my way home from the hospital, i saw this lola carrying an x-ray film and she has this mask covering her nose... ano ba tawag dun... dunno. sabi ko... oh no. pag lalabas ako, ganyan na rin ako. naka-mask.

... at kung anu-ano pang kapraningan. asus. ok. saturday na, mom went with me to get the results. derecho agad sa radiology chuva and took the results. with hands trembling and sweating, i opened the results. and it read...

... the lungs are clear. the heart is unenlarged... the chuva are intact.

or something to that extent. wushu. sayang ang effort ko sa pagiging praning. and we went to the doctor ulit for further analysis. he said that my lungs are healthy. my heart's a little tilted but that's no problem daw. and he explained every inch of the x-ray. he showed the blood vessels chuva and my right rib isn't fractured or anything. just a little strained because of the cough. he said that my lower spine's a little curved but no problem pa rin daw un. kse naman e lagi akong naka-slouch.

he prescribed mucosolvan and muscle reliever. watda?!?! ang praning ko talga... sorry!