make me whole and an excerpt from paolo coelho's eleven minutes

i finished paolo coelho's eleven minutes the other night. riche, thanks for lending me the book! it's a good book. i really liked this text on p. 157... let me quote it:

"Since I was in the company of an intellectual, I would quote from Plato. According to him, at the beginning of creation, men and women were not as they are now; there was just one being, who was rather short, with a body and a neck, but his head had two faces, looking in different directions. It was as if two creatures had been glued back to back, with two sets of sex organs, four legs and four arms.

"The Greek gods, however, were jealous, because this creature with four arms could work harder; wit its two faces, it was always vigilant and could not be taken by surprise; and its four legs meant that it could stand or walk for long periods at a time without tiring. Even more dangerous was the fact that the creature had two different sets of sex organs and so needed no one else in order to continue reproducing.

"Zeus, the supreme lord of Olympus, said: 'I have a plan to make these mortals lose some of their strength.'

"And he cut the creature in two with a lightning bolt, thus creating man and woman. This greatly increased the population of the world, and, at the same time, disoriented and weakened its inhabitants, because now they had to search for their lost half and embrace it and, in that embrace, regain their former strength, their ability to avoid betrayal and the stamina to walk for long periods of time and to withstand hard work..."

ain't it really nice? and hopeful? hehe! and then i heard the song make me whole by amel larrieux and noticed the similarity of the message... let me quote again:


Cause your eyes are the windows to heaven
Your smile could heal a million souls
Your love completes my existence
You're the other half that makes me whole
You're the only other half that makes me whole

You make my dreams
Come true over and, over again
And I honestly truly believe
You and me are written in the stars
I live my whole life through
To giving thanks to you


i don't need to say anything more =)

mood swing

yahoo! this is what i call an authentic mood swing!!! down one day, up the next day! last night before i turned out the lights, i told myself "i'm leaving all the negative vibrations on this 30th day of december... when i wake up tom, i'll be feeling sooo happy!"... and i did just that! woohoo! probably because i don't want to end the year with a broken soul =) so mind over matter really works. the instant i opened my eyes, i feel light =)

watched white chicks this morning with kuya and win... and after 1 million and 1 struggles with yongyong, i met with him and "received" the dvd... where? sa napaka-glamorosong kanto ng sto. niño haha! hehe thanks a lot yongyong! i'll watch it agad since highly recommended mo. although i really like to give you a little something, you didn't give me the opportunity... sabi nang monday na lang eh! to show you how much i appreciate your lending me both ears ALL THE TIME. =) for being the truest friend =)... thanks a lot! who would have thought we'll be good friends? the most absurd way of meeting, eh! ayan ang dami tuloy restrictions! magkape lang di pa magawa hehehe!

down

what's with the 30th? i slept at around 4am and woke up at 11am. seems i lost all my defenses over my sleep.

woke up with a heavy head, running nose, tired body, confused inner self, marred soul, fast-paced heart, anxious system... and i can't think of a justifiable reason why i'm in such a demented state. geez, i've never seen or felt that much negative vibrations coming out of a soul. did i have way too much of the vacation mode? or too much idle time? so a one-week vacation isn't healthy? probably...

whatever it is, i'm hoping i could shrug it all away within this day. i don't want to linger in such an eerie place, where there is an overwhelming level of uncertainty that i really can't contain... i wonder why...

cant sleep

Somehow ive got my days and my nights mixed up. Could
it be the holiday mood? Or maybe ive had too much CB
tales that ive got everything jumbled. Geez! I so want
to sleep... Tossing and turning wont do the trick...
Sigh... Wonder whats keeping me up. I dont remember
taking in any caffeine-containing stuff today.. Hmmm..
Try to close my eyes again..



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here we go...

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blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah
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emotions:

*anticipating *annoyed *irritated *tired *sleepy but
not sleepy *confused *dazed *worried aah finally! thanks!



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unwell

Hmmm... I think i trusted my body resistance that
much, eh... Mingling, making harot, fooling around
with my 2 brothers who were both coughing and sneezing
for the past few days. I was strong as a horse, i
thought... But now i guess i have the virus too. Ulk!
Coughing and sneezing like hell as well. and i hate it
because i hate it! Waaah! I feel so unwell. Im hoping
my kain-tulog-bum remedy will do the trick. Right now,
Im here in my room because i could smell my uncles
cigarette smoke downstairs. And i also hate cigarette
smoke. Oh, btw, my uncles son (that makes him my
cousin hehe) is coming home tonight from canada and
hell be staying here at our house. I guess well have
busy weeks coming. Its a good thing i have a 1week
vacation woohoo! My PC is still in a doze though...
Likewise very unwell.. =c

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unwell

Hmmm... I think i trusted my body resistance that
much, eh... Mingling, making harot, fooling around
with my 2 brothers who were both coughing and sneezing
for the past few days. I was strong as a horse, i
thought... But now i guess i have the virus too. Ulk!
Coughing and sneezing like hell as well. and i hate it
because i hate it! Waaah! I feel so unwell. Im hoping
my kain-tulog-bum remedy will do the trick. Right now,
Im here in my room because i could smell my uncles
cigarette smoke downstairs. And i also hate cigarette
smoke. Oh, btw, my uncles son (that makes him my
cousin hehe) is coming home tonight from canada and
hell be staying here at our house. I guess well have
busy weeks coming. Its a good thing i have a 1week
vacation woohoo! My PC is still in a doze though...
Likewise very unwell.. =c

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warm christmas =)

finally, christmas came. =) happy birthday, baby boy!
It was a rather peaceful christmas eve in our home.
Mom prepared shrimp pasta, hamonado, embutido, ref
cake, and the traditional ham and cheese. Superb! It
was just the four of us and it made me feel the warmth
and joy of just being with your family; and it is
enough to paint a smile on my face. We didnt have the
gift giving session because we had a wish list and we
shopped for those yesterday. And we realized it was
really baduy cause we didnt have any presents to open
today... we decided to bring back the
gift-giving-and-opening tradition next year. my pc
seems to be dead or deep slumber lang sana hehe! Im
gonna have to rely on phone blogging for the next few
nights. Merry christmas sayo as you read my post. =)



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The ultimate patience test

while shopping for more gifts at sm, i dropped by
globe to pay for my phone bill. I guess their number
queue system was down so we had to form a line at the
counter. So pila ako. I was the last in line. All of a
sudden this globe girl who was paying for her clients
purchase made singit in front of me! The nerve! Cant
believe it! Fine! She didnt notice me! Didnt i look
like i was in line? I was dying to make taray her
na... Medyo nagfoformation na ang kilay ko! At ang
arms, mega wawak sa waist na! Mega tap ang toes! Gosh!
How insensitive could people get sometimes? I was
dying to throw sarcastic remarks but heck.. Why
bother? I thought it IS christmas. Fine! Thats my
christmas gift to her! Tone down... Merry christmas,
byotch! Haha!



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random pics...

i'm sad... reminisce na lang... here are some random kulit pics from recent gimiks and wala lang stuff... pictures paint thousands of words nga... they paint a smile on my face... somehow... haha gawin bang album ang blog? =)

abroad pic from tagaytay... parang nasa abroad hehe! feel na feel!









batch 7 pic last dec. 16 lunch-out at pier one.









with maricor and donna, all in blue so strike a pose!











parang broadway show ang dating ng background haha! nice one!









stuck in a mild traffic during lunch-out... picturan ang kabilang equally rowdy group...









lipschitz after bagging the grand prize P1 million... hehe joke. these gals are the best! yahoo!









with dear notie... haha day-off ang drama dito!











with dear notie again... day-off part 2. with matching landscape as background.









about to go home from tagaytay, tita gulang's place. doggie ang star dito hehe!









my gosh! eyes hurt from all that bright cam flash! took us about 50 shots before we could perfect this... hehe nakapikit na ko! ouch!









hmmm landi pose daw... bakit ako lang ang lumandi? hehe! behave sila...









clinging on to dear life at tagaytay. right, rishy? di lang tayong 2 =)









the qa team... then.













with dear horsie. good horsie... =)












the red team! haha... this was an ordinary day. just called everybody wearing red and posed for pics.









and more red people!!!













refreshing view! makes you forget the hassles and struggles in manila.









stairs view with liza... hay can't get enough of tagaytay!












coffee? este tea na pala yan... don't drink coffee na... with my favorite mug na basag na ang takip.









christmas party pics

christmas party with what's "currently" left of dear batch 7.









2 girls in pink and a girl in red.









2 pink m&ms, 1 red m&m.












with nottie, dear nottie.












m&ms front view.













m&ms back view hehe.












with honors ehehe (i wonder why).












with nottie ulit... huwaaaah!!!

back to the habit..

Of sleeping less than 8 hours a day. Hay.. I guess
thats the way my body clock functions. I find more
gratification when i have less than 8 hrs of sleep.
Guess what? I heard simbang gabi today at 8pm.
Actually, serve ko yun and ive been absent for three
duties na nga e. Sorry! Poor wawins sick - coughing
and sneezing, spreading virus hehe.. Plus my pc has a
virus too and it is generally unwell. And im sad and
sulky over certain matters (dont worry, this is not a
love issue. Over and done na i guess). im beginning to
drift away from the festive mood of christmas. Take
away the sadness please.



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so far away

a mega SIGH... doesn't anybody really stay in one place anymore? =( ain't it sad? =(

So Far Away
Carole King

So far away
Doesn't anybody stay in one place any more?
It would be so fine to see your face at my door
Doesn't help to know you're just time away

Long ago I reached for you and there you stood
Holding you again could only do me good
Oh, how I wish I could
But you're so far away

One more song about move along the highway
Can't say much of anything that's new
If I could only work this life out my way
I'd rather spend it being close to you

But you're so far away
Doesn't anybody stay in one place any more?
It would be so fine to see your face at my door
Doesn't help to know you're just time away

Traveling around sure gets me down and lonely
Nothing else to do but close my mind
I sure hope the road don't come to own me
There's so many dreams I've yet to find

But you're so far away
Doesn't anybody stay in one place any more?
It would be so fine to see your face at my door
Doesn't help to know you're just time away

i wish...

i were assertive... =(

Finally a good rest...

Cant believe im comfortably lying on my bed at 10pm..
Ready to sleep! Now this is a genuine, feel-good rest!
Woohoo! Theres a slight catch though.. Nabuhay na
naman ang diwa ko after a quick shower.. Darn it...
Might as well read a few pages and doze off! Yahoo still!



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most annoying kid in the universe

after hours of waiting and waiting and waiting for kuya to be satisfied with his shopping, we craved for twister fries and mcfloat so off we went to mcdo. what do you expect? SRO ang mcdo! so while he was placing our delightful order, i scouted for vacant seats... which is a tiring task 'cause every seat is taken na talga =(...

luckily, i saw a couple almost done with their meal, so mega bantay ako beside them - as in super beside them. when they stood up, i was about to approach the seat when a wicked boy (about 8 yrs old) ran with all his might and sat down on the chair. he was grinning as if saying, "this is miiiine!". brat! unbelievable! i saw the table first! waaaah!

what's more annoying is he was making these side glances towards me and he was smiling wickedly - nang-iinis pa!!! duh! sabunutan ko sana kaya lang andun daddy nya bwahahaha! patulan ba ang bata? nanabunot na e no! so i just left the table with a sad face and sumbong kay kuya... i-bully ba raw ako ng kid? he's a mean kid =(

*i swear, i'll never go shopping with kuya again! bagal!

never again (again)

With kuya at festival mall.. shopping a week before
christmas is always a mistake.. Waaah! With
megazillion people around you, you just get bumped and
bruised haha! Never again!! Hmmm... Didnt i promise
that same thing last year? *nakuha ko pa talga magblog
no? If you were with an overly meticulous, snail-like
shopper aka kuya, youll surely be as creative and find
more means of entertaining yourself. Haha! Sigh...



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the grudge and the concert

it happened again! i was taking a bath, humming nina's "don't want to be your friend". then the water slowly evaporated (haha evaporated).

bakit ba lagi na lang ako nauubusan! waaah! our water tank probably has this hidden grudge in me haha... so sigaw naman ako... "manang, wala na tubig! pakibukas ng motoooor! =)" hehe!

while waiting for the water supply to rush through the tubo, concert ulit ng "don't want to be your friend"... yeah even if the only lines i know are:

Don't call me in the middle of the night no more
Don't expect me to be there
Don't think that it will be the way it was before
I'm not over you yet
And I don't think I care
And I don't want to be your friend

with matching sabon and shampoo all over! haha! it took dear water about 10 mins. to finally "spring forth" through the shower tube. so how many rounds of "don't call me..." did i perform? hmmm... lost track.

it was a good bath. =)

SS employee now a manikurista

this morning at the office, i was just pulling my hair to relieve my excruciating headache when the SS dancers asked for my assistance in applying red nail polish for the dance contest. i was like, ah eh... ok! my pleasure to help but i can't assure you guys that i'm an expert in this stuff. but heck, i did my best!

so with semi-trembling hands and semi-sweaty palms and semi-apologetic facial expressions, i did the job of painting nails yahoo! mind you, i did it with an overflowing level of zeal and enthusiasm! and double coat yun tita! haha! i think there were 5 girls who queued to have their nails done... hehe! kinda crooked ang paglagay ko pero pede na... pede na pagtyagaan!

and what do you expect from SS people? only the best! so... ummm... we won the contest! i've never seen a dance with so much passion and emotion. so believable! breathtaking and spectacular. i haven't seen the movie chicago, but after seeing their performance, i'm really dying to see the film! let the film relive the dance haha!

btw, i asked the judges and they said that the red nails contributed about 2 points to the score haha! joke... maisingit lang talga eh haha!

manang calls me...

"by" as in short cut for baby. why she calls me that name, i don't know. but i definitely don't like it. haha in fact i despise being called that supposedly term of endearment. well, oa naman siguro ang word na despise... maybe i just prefer not to be reminded of something sweet-turned-sour stuff.

by, labas mo na plantsahin

by, mga lalabhan ha

by, kain na

duh... spare me...

i'm really dying to...

post something but it's a bit too early for that. i'm afraid though na baka by the time i post it, the momentum's gone na... can't wait! =) i don't want to spoil the surprise =)

have you ever felt...

that you wanted something so badly?

and the tiniest chance of you grasping that something is doomed because of another person's irresponsibility?

and that person made things worse by making it look like it was your fault?

and the people you're trying to impress thought that you're irresponsible, unprofessional, not prompt?

and you can't do anything about it because it all happened in a flash?

oh, and there's no undo button in our lives?

and a perfect opportunity is wasted?

but then again, i'm convinced still that there's no such thing as "malas" pa rin. what's next is something wonderful and delighting!!! =)

kinasal na si puppy love

just browsing through my friendster list and i accidentally saw my ex-crush's pic... WEDDING PIC haha! i was like "huwaaat?!? he's married already?". and then i started to recall that it was with him that i experienced my first head-over-heels-infatuation and really super serious crush and real kilig factor chuva. the kind of feeling na you ask yourself the one-million-dollar-HS question: "can this be love?" bwahahaha! i was 17 then! and he was this bait cute guy na "crush" ko.

i remember my brother and i used to have these code names. i think we called him electric fan. so when win goes home from play, he used to report every electric fan contact... like "ate, nakita ko si electric fan. kinukumusta ka." or "ate nakita ko si electric fan nag basketball." and then i would squeeze him for more juicy chika. he would just roll his eyes with disgust... brat! haha!

and how could i forget the day he gave me 3 (what were those?) aaah! lanzones! para daw i love you bwhahaha! syempre kilig naman that time diba! hehe! and there was a time when he dropped by after basketball nila... tapos mega smile at pa-cute labas lahat teeth. funny, his braces were dangling loose from his teeth. i asked him "ano nangyari sayo?". he seemed really embarrassed. natamaan daw bola sira braces and he forgot about it. duh mega ngiti pa sakin! at kinilig naman daw ako! haha! susme! plus the ultimate kilig moment was when he offered a ride (mga 10 mins. lang hehe) home from church (i was with win). and do you think i said no? haha! grab agad! haha!

after being kind of friends with him, i don't know how we drifted apart. there just came a time na parang nawala na lang sya bigla... ah i guess nung nagsara yung tindahan namin, i rarely saw him na. i just felt really awkward and shy about the crush thing and i avoided him when our paths crossed. the last contact, i think, was at church. and because i'm still shy about it, it took me 1 million watts to force myself to look his way, smile, and offer him the sign of peace.

i guess the only time i got over the crush thing was, when i started working siguro? when i saw him super rarely na talga. and lamo yun? parang corny na kse di mo na nakikita haha! di ka na kikiligin. and i saw him siguro mga 4x a year lang sa church (pero kilig pa rin pag nakita)... haha my puppy love is now a daddy! =)

red hot ears

it happened again... i was subjected to another round of ultimate embarrassment. thanks to the girls hehe!

an unknown man with a pad and pen just popped in our work area, as if surveying and scouting our place, listing zeus-knows-what stuff. and we were all like, "sino yun?". mega clueless. suddenly, char said "uuy, caths!"... and the rest of the team followed the chant, "uuy, caths!". duh! bigla na lang e! walang basehan ang tukso haha! ano buzzz?!? what's worse is the manong was still there! listing stuff and obviously hearing everything out and having the impression that somebody named caths likes him... duh duh duh duh duh!

hay and then i felt my ears get hot again. nilagnat ang tenga ko. duh duh duh duh duh!

i guess the first time was with the new guy? na crush ko raw! haha same behavior... "uuy, caths! gwapo yun!" with sheepish smiles, kulang na lang, ituro yung guy... duh duh duh duh! maybe we could be more discreet next time? haha! my ears get red hot e! can't handle those stuff! haha! dahil ako'y mayumi! bwahaha!

and how could i forget a similar incident way back college? was studying in a room when my "good" friends barged in and forced me to wear a bracelet. asked, "kanino to?" and they answered, "basta suot mo!". ok and they locked the bracelet in my arm... and i continued to cram. a few minutes passed and my ex-crush barged in as well and said, "nasayo raw bracelet ko?". duh duh duh duh! hor-ears-alert! foolish me tried to unlock the bracelet by myself. imagine how stupid i looked. in the end, it finally hit my senses that i can't remove it alone... so i just shyly poked my arm towards him and implied "please get this thing off me?". duh duh duh duh duh...

poor me can't handle boy exposure haha!

enough

i was hoping i could sleep a little early tonight. i was (as usual) puyat. it's ok it's for a good cause anyway. i was (hopefully) able to uplift somebody's mood. it was a good talk =).

i promised myself i'll sleep at 10 but when i sat down to channel surf for a while, i saw that enough (j. lo's film) is shown on hbo. it's weird 'cause just yesterday, the topic on 3R is about abusive acts. so i thought it might be good to ponder on this... and i just had the urge to comment...

i heard over 3R that abuse could be in any form: physical, sexual, verbal... and anybody who gets a dose of any of those will end up getting emotionally abused. imagine the effects this could have on someone. IMAGINE! nobody has the right to hurt you either physically or verbally. nobody has the right to degrade you, call you names, curse you, pull your hair, call you stupid, harass you, pull your bag, and in the end blame it all on you for PROVOKING HIM.

nobody has the right to shout at you, beat you (as if you were a guy), slap you, spit on you (heck spit? eeew), and in the end blame it all on you for PROVOKING HIM.

being in a private or public scenario isn't an issue. what amount of dignity will be left in your being if you're shouted at or hurt in front of people; worse, in front of people you know?!? just the same, nobody earns the right to abuse someone just because they are in the confines of their homes. and i guess the reason it doesn't stop is because of the "ok-lang-yun-kaya-ko-pa-love-ko-kasi-sya" mentality.

some guys really have the nerves! the usual drama here is: guy gets pissed off, abuses girl, girl helplessly cries, guy becomes so sweet it's sickening, girl forgives and forgets... and the cycle repeats. because somebody allows it to loop - infinite times. if i remember it right, the way to stop an infinite loop is, hit control break... hehe break it!

some women are brave enough to know when enough's enough. i salute them for being courageous fighters. some don't have the guts to quit. well, mga mudra, waiting for a miracle won't do the trick.

the bottom line though is, i guess there are abusers because the abused ones tolerate the abuser's abuse and allow the abusers to continuously abuse them (too much "abuse" in that sentence haha. i've never seen that much "abuse" word used in a sentence). or some people are just too sick to be in a relationship and nothing but professional medical assistance (not love alone) could help.

how to end it? ted faylon used to recite this everyday in hoy gising: "walang mang-aabuso kung walang magpapaabuso" (pero ang nang-aabuso, may topak haha! madugtungan lang e!)

manang again

manang is becoming a suki in my blog. starting to really annoy every hibla of OUR nerves! i know that maids have a day-off, no prob about it. but not DAYS-OFF. it happens almost every weekend now. she'll leave saturday morning, head back here sunday night if we're lucky. if malas, monday morning na. hay. could you believe it, she's off even on holidays? kuya calls her the "bakasyonista" na nga e! duh! when weekends come, my goal sana is: kain, tulog - complete rest. so it never happens 'cause we alternately do the dishes and ligpit some (if sinipag). the kawawa one's really my mom 'cause she cooks pa when manang's out. but hey! i cooked baked mac for dinner ha (it tastes ok!).

ma's starting to lose her temper about it 'cause the idea of having a maid sana is, you work hard on weekdays and rest on weekends. this evening, it was my turn to wash the dishes. but before that, i was kinda dozing off na while watching tv. heard ma starting to wash the dishes so i shouted... "ma, iwan mo na yan. ako maghuhugas ngayon.", and continued to doze off. ok when i woke up, ma's almost done with the dishes. asked her why she washed and she kind of angrily replied "e natutulog ka na e!". and i answered shyly, "e gigising pa naman ako e. sabi ko ako maghuhugas e". and it's not like i could sleep the night away on the sofa! =(

i felt bad. obviously, she's not mad at me. she's mad at manang. naibuntong lang sakin and all moms are licensed to explode at you when they're mad about something else. poor me can't pass that anger to anybody else. so what did i do? i washed my undies. mega kusot! sige sa undies ibuntong ang galit. patay lahat ng dumi! kahit mga good lactobacilli shirota strain, deaders! didn't break the garter naman... and i guess i could still wear them pa naman. still intact.

hmmm... we're not lucky tonight so i guess she'll be back tomorrow na. bwahaha! (imagine count dracula's laugh) somebody's going to have a good long sermon tomorrow! and i can't wait! haha bad!

note: super sarap ng buhay ni manang dito. she finishes her tasks at around 9am. she's free 'til we come home at around 7pm. so she just watches tv (while lying on a comfy sofa), sleeps, reads magazines during free time. anybody interested to replace her? just send me a message hahaha!

panunumpa

i heard this song during communion. it's really heart warming and one of those songs na parang pang-God yet pwede ring pang lover. pero more like pang-God. very unconditional. =) i remember camz was asking for good wedding songs. this is a very touching and inspiring one. plus the melody's really kaka-inlove. tipong gusto mong pakinggan while your hands are perfectly locked with someone else's hands, nasa rocking chair kayo or watching sunset... haha! sige pang-God na nga lang. =) yun kasi, it never ceases to exist. =) kebs sa condition mo, it's just there! =)

PANUNUMPA
carol banawa

Ikaw lamang ang pangakong mahalin
Sa sumpang sa'yo magpakailan pa man
Yakapin mo'ng bawat sandali,
Ang buhay kong sumpang sa'yo lamang alay,

At mapapawi ang takot sa 'kin
Pangakong walang hanggan

Ikaw lamang ang pangakong susundin
Sa takbo sakdal, liwanagan ang daan
Yakapin mong bawat sandali,
Ang buhay kong sumpang sa'yo lamang alay

At mapapawi ang takot sa 'kin
'Pagkat taglay lakas mong akin

Ikaw ang siyang pag-ibig ko
Asahan mo ang katapatan ko
Kahit ang puso ko'y nalulumbay,
Mananatiling ikaw pa rin

Ikaw lamang ang pangakong mahalin
Sa sumpang sa'yo magpakailan pa man
Yakapin mo'ng bawat sandali,
Ang buhay kong sumpang sa'yo lamang alay,

At mapapawi ang takot sa 'kin
Pangakong walang hanggan

At mapapawi ang takot sa 'kin
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christmas na, christmas na, ang saya-saya!

finally, i had my first round of christmas-gift-shopping. yesterday, after grocery, mom and i walked around to buy some gifts. i'm done with my inaanaks' and lola's gifts. yahoo! hope they like my presents!

that night, i talked with maricor over the phone. she said, "grabe yung mga toys sa SM, murang-mura lang sa tyangge and divi! gaya nung winnie the pooh na kotse na may tugtog! P150 lang sa tyangge! sus! edi mas mura pa sa divi!"... dingdingdingdingding! that's the sound of bell alarm in my head! haha! i did buy that pooh! for P200! haha! so much for value! akala ko nakamura na ko sa winnie na yun.

oh well, i don't have too much time left and i have to make some progress and shorten my presents-list somehow! if mom and i won't be lazyheads, we might continue the shopping "process" later. crossing my fingers here...

it's good that here at home, we have a wishlist so i'm not that pressured of the one-million-dollar-question: what to give? what to give? what to give? mom wishes for a turbo broiler. kuya wishes for a car alarm. win is wishless pa haha! my wish? converter for usb port and a a small radio tuner for the office. no, not the mumu ones. those get easily broken duh... ayaw ko na nun! hmmm... maybe i could get them small somethings so we still have this element of surprise on gift-giving day. ya that's good! =) 20 days to go!!! =) i can feel it!

batch anniv, year 3

hay... it's been three years with a wonderful group of people. i've shared a few tears with them and quite a lot of laughter! =) countless kodak moments etched in the heart. it's my pleasure that i've spent my first working experience with these people. it hasn't been tough, in fact it is very delighting... always!

and last friday marked our third year together. though it was a bit stormy in the morning, we decided to go out and have some fun that night. donna and i were working from home that morning and headed off to the office to meet with the guys.

we decided to extend our wings to libis (mine lang actually, ako ang first timer sa libis). had dinner at fazoli's with donna, rico, and mak. caloy, harbie, and maricor followed shortly. too bad the following band members didn't make it:

ate thyra - wasn't at the office (maybe because of the storm)
kuya jimmy - he had other plans that night
ate cindy - was in night shift
mommy aileen - had to attend to baby allen's and papa abet's needs

after dinner and konting tambay, went to oj's. and here, a most historical thing happened... i gulped my first bottle of beer all the way to the last drop! it wasn't that bad. konting hilo lang and that's it. i'm not actually hoping to improve my beer drinking habits. haha! i'm sticking to one-bottle-per-gimik! it tastes bad pa rin!

oh well, i think we haven't changed that much. we're still the same laughter-hungry people. looking forward to more years with these bunch of cool people, either inside or outside the walls of servisoft.

1st time...

kong makaubos ng beer oooh wow! hehe! hilo..



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mainit na sabaw

Cant sleep. Kinda hungry. Theres a baby tiger in my
tummy. I could feel it! Id love to have a hot bowl of
sopas or sotanghon or lucky me beef mami or lugaw or
arroz caldo or nissin cup noodles... Yummie! Caths,
itulog mo na yan kse wla ka mahahagilap na sabaw
ngayon... Oh, ok... Off to sleep then. Kausapin ba ang self?!



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yongyong the bagyo

overheard maricor earlier: "ano nga ba pangalan ng bagyo? yongyong ba?" hehe! tawa kme lahat! is that like double yongca? =)

obviously, yoyong's still furious right now. it's really loud outside and fallen leaves are piling up already.

i feel bad for grumbling and whining, for the past few days, over how sad i get when i hear the sound of raindrops... when other people are fighting for their lives right now. and hundreds of families are homeless and hungry, bruised and dying, cold and lost. while dead leaves are piling outside my home, dead bodies are brutally piling up elsewhere... some couldn't even be found, and those who were located couldn't be identified or couldn't be given a decent burial... to think that christmas is coming in a few weeks. and my worries are trivial thoughts of "i haven't started shopping for gifts yet..." shame on me. =(

it's good though that the wind's slightly calming down now. the forecasts said that yoyong will be out of the country tomorrow. hope the news tomorrow will be something lighter than what was aired earlier.

i'm done downloading my citrix... that way i can work from home tomorrow... afraid of flying yeros! received instructions that we could work from home tomorrow. hmm this is new (for me). or maybe i'll go to work just the same. whatever... i'm not in the mood to complain. =)