sometimes...

i wonder how i could give pieces of advice to others...

duh... as if i'm a pro

i tell them what they could do about it and just whisper to myself... "yeah, caths. that's what you should do too"

i thought i now know my threshold

guess i'm wrong...

anong bago?

makalipas ang mahigit 2 linggo, what's new? hmmm... a little bit of everything... weird, impromptu, scary, and all...

tuwid na naman ang mahaba kong hair (medyo)... and the sacrifice we had to undergo just to have this (semi) straight hair. we didn't sleep thursday para lang ipa-plantsa at ipa-torture and buhok namin. mygulay... at least it's straight now, hindi na buhaghag... although medyo bumabalik na ang waves woohoo! hehe... at least we also had a footspa. sarap. at hindi pa nagkasya ang oras, ibinalik pa namin ng friday para tapusin ang torture sa buhok. paksyet. 'di na po ako uulit.

monday night, wala lang... out of nowhere na naman, we blurted out "punta tayo divi bukas!" at nagpunta nga ang mga nilalang. naka long sleeves pa ko, o diba? si donna, nakatakong na sandals! bwahaha! si maricor naka slacks. syempre no sleep na naman, mega sisksik kami sa mga tao sa divi. sa P2000, i've had a couple of good buys naman. yun nga lang balik kalyo ulit ang pina-footspa kong feet. at ang sakit ng arms ko pagbubuhat nung mga pinamili namin... maskulada.. na payat... na may bilbil. argh

tuesday nigt, kagabi yun. medyo bangag pa dahil sa divi moment, bus ako along roxas. the bus was halting to pick up a passenger when we heard a loud screech and a bang... ok a car hit the back of the bus i was riding and medyo wasak yung car. mabilis sya malamang. mukang wala namang serious injury... and there was my moment. medyo napa-iyak ako sa bus ano ba. slight lang naman. i thought of my kuya and my family habang nagddrive or commute... hay sana lagi pong safe ang mga tao. so andar ulit ang bus, pagdating ng buendia, an army of rowdy men (mga 30) hailed the bus. ok akala ko kung ano, christmas party pala nla at gigimik sila. ang ingay nila promise. nawindang ako lalo.

kagabi pa rin, i mourned... over my right earring na nawala ko. paksyet. 2nd earring ko na to na nwala sa office na to. what's worse? it's my favorite pair!!! waaaah! it's not something i'd find ulit pag bumili ako kse binigay (hiningi pala) sakin ng mom ko yun eh! waah! hanggang bahay super sad ako kse nawala yung hikaw ko...

kanina, on my way to work, may sunog na naman along sucat. i dunno where exactly pero there was an awful traffic on the southbound route and there were an awful lot of sirens and fire trucks... Christmas pa naman...

kanina pa rin, still sulking over my lost earring, i tried to look for it dito sa office. pero wala... awww... so ayun i declared it lost na talga. suddenly, on my way to the restroom, biglang, it was just there lying on the floor. at napa shriek pa tuloy ako sa galak! yey! nag resurrect sya.

an epidemic of this and that

everybody feels unwell. same symptoms... aching throat, aching head, aching joints, slight fever, general feelings of discomfort... leading to trangkaso? waaaah! bawal magkasakit!

maricor and donna and i were all unwell last night. my kuya said a couple of his officemates also feel ill... grabe malapit na christmas eh dapat healthy lahat.

we've had our good doses of junkies to make us feel better. lagundi tablets, paracetamol, tuseran, decolgen... sales for these meds soar up if it's epidemic season. maybe i should invent my own cough/colds/fever medicine... tingnan kung kagatin ng public hehe. i dunno, but my throat somehow feels better. dunno if it's just a psychological thing 'cause i heard lagundi tablet is a wonder.

oh, is pregnancy an epidemic too? everybody seems to be pregnant! hihi! join the band wagon? woohoo! "why not?" is not an appropriate question."why?" sounds better. the best of luck to the future mother-and-child tandems. but maybe luck isn't enough to keep you going in this witty, wild world. you've got to have tons of blessings. so above all, may the good Lord bless and keep you all... us all. =) cheers to good health and to good babies! woohoo!

* we have this alcohol, the brand is biogenic... we sometimes wonder if it could act as a paracetamol... it sounds an awful lot like biogesic... hihi. 1 tsp. for a semi-headache, double the dose for a splitting headache. why not? kayo kaya mauna sumubok...

ang long weekend, isama mo na ang friday

friday

matapos kong magsagot ng mahahabang survey, we felt this sudden urge to search for food... and by food we mean, other junkies na hindi kfc, mcdo, or 711 stuff. we traversed ayala at around 1 am and when we realized that we're heading nowhere, we hailed a cab and had a sort of a joyride. we looked for kainan na open pa but the searching ended up in vain and we finally asked manong-patient-driver to drop us off at greenbelt - kung saan ang mga tao ay gumigiling at gumigimik na.
golly naman wala na ring open na restaurants... almost... kasi open pa pala ang kitchen (tama ba ang pangalan? kalimut ko na) 'til 2am.
so crepe and drama namin. at kape... ayos. nabusog kami for P200... watda... meryenda? 200? crap.
ohwell, balik din kami ng office to answer more surveys at maghintay for the clock to strike 6am... and uwi na woohoo!

saturday

saturday, i was supposed to go with mikey to visit his college friend - biktima ng hold-up at 8 stab wounds. God bless him... he's fine now...
pero dude, di ko talga kinayang bumangon ng 1030am... kaya hindi na rin ako sumama at natulog na lang ako. sabi ko mga 5 na ko gigising. weekend naman...
sabi ko lang yun dahil bandang 1230, kinatok ako ni kuya... dineadma ko... i thought if it's urgent, papatayin nya ko sa katok hanggang magising ako. so hindi pala... (i later on asked him why he was knocking at my door and he said wala lang daw, wala lang syang kasabay kumain ng lunch... ayos ka, bro... ang galing mo!)
so tulog ko ulit... at bandang 1pm, kinatok na naman ako. si win "ate..." he usually doesn't call me pag kumakatok at hindi urgent ang issue... so i felt it was something worth listening to, woke up, and opened the door. there he was, perspiring and namumutla and all... mukang may nangyari. all he blurted out was "nawala yung phone ko"... and i asked for the details, eyeing him from head to toe for any stabs, pasa, or sign of pananakit (yeah call me morbid... but heck i was nervous! praning pa ako sa 8 stabs)... so wala naman... pay attention ulit sa story nya.
it was the most peaceful form of pandurukot story that i ever heard... he rode a bus, got off the bus, and realized his phone's gone. thank God. i thank you God for this. for all we know, the mandurukot could have done anything worse... and that's all he did. i'm even thankful di sya tinutukan or sinabihan nang "hold-up to!". chum, may sakit sa puso si wawin... minsan na syang inakbayan ng holdaper pero may mga taong dumating kaya walang nakuha sa kanya nun... thank God ulit.
so anyway, yun na nga, the phone was gone in an instant... and hindi ako nagrereklamo... nagpapasalamat pa nga ako at napaka-safe ng method ng pagkakakuha nung phone.
sa lahat ng mga mandurukot, if you can't find decent, moral ways of living... yeah go on living your so-called way of living (puro living)... pero wag na kayong manakit... salamat na rin at hindi nyo sinaktan si win. oh, nakausap ko pa pala si manong mandurukot... i asked him nicely kung napulot nya yung phone ng brother ko... tinanong nya lang kung nasan kami and killed the connection na. nakakakilabot kahit papano... mangausap ng mandurukot.

sunday

birthday ng papa ni mikey (pero nasa barko sya... may handa nevertheless). punta raw ako sa kanila... so after mass (si father pogi ang pari hihi), went off to meet mikey na and nag lunch na kami sa kanila... some parts of the story i'd rather not relay... kse medo waste of time eh and private... funny in some way how NOT communicating could formulate the worst thoughts in your head... both his and mine. but it all ended well. after an hour of clearing things out, we just laughed and said... "awww..." yun lang siguro. =) somewhere in between these events, my mom and kuya, uncle and tita fetched me sa cavite na rin dahil birthday party naman nung 1 ko pang tita sa qc. so ayun, the saturday with mike was cut short pero masaya naman dun with my relatives and pamangkins... kung saan sentro ako ng chismisan at joke dahil nakilala ng tito kong kengkoy si mike... argh... i'll have to live with this joke for the rest of my life haha.

monday

is rest day. my 2 uncles were here kanina... as usual sentro pa rin ako ng joke... and you think it ends there? pinakanta pa ako sa magic sing na dala ng tito boy ko... argh... sige mega sing naman ako ng "if the feeling is gone" kasi walang kawala na talga ako... at mukang yun lang ang kaya ng boses ko haha. nakisama naman ang tadhana... naubos ang battery ng mic. so it's not magical at all hehe... and the singing was also cut short. thanks, papa God hihi! at lahat sila... "nakaligtas ka dun ah!" sa inyong lahat, bleeeeh! sa akin ang huling halakhak bwahahahaha!

tomorrow, pasok ulit. oh, have i mentioned this? nalilito na ang katawan ko kung matutulog ba sya or hindi. parang yung mata ko, inaantok na hindi. konting madikit lang ako sa kama, parang gusto na pumikit ng mata ko... i'm so lito.... hihi... lito but happy.

and to sum it all up, the weekend went well. funny how certain things have to happen, and you'll just have to explain not to defend but to make things known... and everything turns out ok. and you go on loving and living. and you realize it's not what you think, instead you are sooo loved. funny how you could be thankful even if certain so-called "valuable" things are taken away from you... and you just think positively and realize that it's great it's not your life that was taken from you... it's the most valuable thing after all. funny...

survey #6

[ a n g ry - s e c t i o n ]
: do you have a quick temper?
~~ i think so... but i keep in inside

: what do you do when you're mad?
~~ i keep quiet. i don't say a word.

: what's the worst thing you've done when
you were mad?
~~ hmmm... throw hurtful words... ganti ba...

: ever made anyone cry when you were
mad?
~~ ako ang umiiyak

: ever physically hurt someone when you
were mad?
~~ no... that's sick

[ c r y i n g - s e c t i o n ]
: when was the last time you really cried
your heart out?
~~ last year

: ever cried yourself to sleep?
~~ countless times... for the wrong reasons

: ever cried on your friend's shoulder?
~~ hindi pa ata

: ever cried over the opposite sex?
~~ oh yeah

: do you cry when you get an injury?
~~ i didn't cry the last time na... hmmm nadapa ako sa rizal memorial

: do certain songs make you cry?
~~ yeah, they do

[ p a i n - s e c t i o n ]
: what's the hardest thing you've ever had
to go through?
~~ ang piliting intindihin why i had to go through certain pains

: what's the worst thing you've done to
yourself?
~~ isulat ang name ng crush ko sa balat using sharp objects dahil yan ang uso nung HS

: what's the worst thing you've done to
somebody else?
~~ this is not my answer. this is jowa's answer but i'm keeping it 'cause it's so funny
"accidentally napagtawanan ko ung guy na may
gapasas na nunal sa may bandang ilong. nagulat
ako tapos bigla nalang ako natawa..."

this is my answer: hurtful words dahil sobrang nasaktan din ako

: ever had a painful break up
~~ hell, yeah

[h a p p y s e c t i o n.]
: are you normally a happy person?
~~ oh yeah!

: what can make you happy?
~~ every little thing can make or break my day

: do you wish you were happier?
~~ no... this state of happiness is just right. perfect. couldn't ask for more

: what will make you the happiest?
~~ pag super comfy na ang loved ones ko sa buhay... have just enough of everything that's necessary to live happily

: is being happy overrated?
~~ no

: can music make you happy?
~~ yup

[s e l f - e s t e e m s e c t i o n.]
: do you believe in yourself?
~~ not so

: when people say they think you are
pretty/cute, do u deny it?
~~ haha no... (not so pa ang answer ko sa previous question nyan ah!)

: are you happy with who you are?
~~ ya

: do you wish you can be someone else?
~~ yeah sometimes when i daydream... but i happily go back to who i really am haha!

survey #5

1. the last movie you watched?
harry potter and the goblet of fire

2. the last tv show you watched?
tv patrol

3. the last song you heard?
an unfamiliar song over wave

4. the last thing you bought?
foood

5.the last place you went to?
greenbelt

6. the last food you ate?
ham, mushroom, & bechamel sacue crepe chaka kape

Who was:
1.The last person you called?
mikey

2. the last person who called you?
mikey

3. the last person you texted?
mikey

4. the last person who texted you?
mikey

5. the last person who said good night last
nyt?
mikey

6. the last person who said i love you?
mikey

7. the last person you gave a testimonial?
jowa

8. the last person who sent u a msg in
friendster?
nestea

9. the last person you hugged?
mikey

10. the last person you saw on tv?
karen davila haha

Do You?
1 Do you believe that love is forever?
i do

2 Do you get hurt by people easily?
oh yeah. sensitive ako

3 Do you believe that all people are
generally good?
yup

4 Can you be anyone you want to be?
oh yes... in my daydreams

5. Do mean people make you sad?
yup sad and scared

6. Does ice cream make you happy?
yup

7.Do you sing in the shower?
hihi yup... yung give na give na version

8 When it rains, do you like to splash in
the puddles?
i'd love to...

9 If you see a cute boy walk down the
street,do you try to get their attention?
no... shy type ako

10 Do you notice when people have
beautiful eyes?
yeah hihi

11 Have you ever cried at a movie?
always? kahit comedy

12 Is it cute when old people are holding
hands?
definitely

13 Are you a happy person?
yeba! weeee!

14 Do you tend to worry?
a lot

15 Is it fine to cut barbie's hair?
no. it's scary

16 Have you ever laughed so hard?
i always laugh so hard, i cry.

18 Are you slightly lazy?.
slightly? extremely

19 Do you like to drive with the windows
down?
that would be great sa province... mausok dito eh!

survery #4

addict ka ba..
1. magsagot ng survey?
ngayon lang. walang magawa eh

2. sa pagtext?
medyo

3. magyosi?
i hate it

4. sa alak/beer?
di mashado

5. sa gimik?
ok lang

6. sa babae?
sa girlfriends ko hihi

7. sa lalake?
kay mikey lang

8. maginternet?
not so

9. sa coffee?
hindi

10. sa kiss?
uy oo

*maiba naman tayo... usapang love naman...
11. may crush ka ba ngayon?
meron

12. anong nagustuhan mo sa kanya?
pogi eh!

13. may love ka ba ngayon?
uu

14. pwede ko ba malaman kung sino siya?
hihi si mikey

15. may ex ka ba?
uu

16. yung ex mo mahal mo pa ba?
no

17. sino mas pipiliin mo? yung crush mo o
ex mo?
crush

18. ano ang gusto mo sa isang
babae/lalake?
hmmm nice eyes, funny

19. pano kung ang mga ayaw mo sa isang
tao e nandun sa taong mahal mo ngayon?
accept the person unconditionally

20. natry mo na ba malasing na tipong pati
sahig nilalampaso mo?
sa lababo naman... nagbara nga eh dyahe

21. natry mo na ba magdrugs?
not yet

22. natry mo na ba makipag one-nyt stand?
nde pa hihi

23. natry mo na manuod ng pornographic
film?
uu

24. siguro "ma-L" ka? ma-Lambing?
hmmm... if i'm in the mood

25. ano name mo?
caths

26. edge... (edad)?
25

27. school?
tapos na po

28. sex... (gender)?
f

29. Birthdate?
august

30.honest ka ba sa pagsagot ng mga
questions ko?
uu

survery #3

barbs... tag along!

1)YOUR PORN STAR NAME:
(Name of first pet + First Street you live in)
**Lucky de Leon chipips haha panglalaki...

2)YOUR MOVIE STAR NAME:
(Name of your favorite snack + Grandpa’s first name)
**Pancit Jose eeeew

3)YOUR FASHION DESIGNER NAME:
(First word you see on your left + Favorite restaurant)
**Junk Chilis

4)EXOTIC FOREIGNER ALIAS:
(Favorite Spice + Last Vacation Spot Visited)
**Rosemary Liberty sosy!

5)YOUR SOCIALITE ALIAS:
(Silliest Childhood Nick + Town You First Partied)
**Basyang Parañaque paksyet ang jologs

6)YOUR FLY GIRL ALIAS (aka J.Lo)
(First Initial + First Three Letters of your Last Name)
**CCam watda? it doesn't sound good

7)YOUR ICON ALIAS:
(Something Sweet + Any Liquid in Kitchen)
**Syrup Water

8)YOUR DETECTIVE ALIAS:
(Favorite Baby Animal + Where You Went to College)
**Tiger Lasalle hihi scary!

9)YOUR BARFLY ALIAS:
(Last Snack You Ate + Your Favorite Alcoholic Drink)
**Crepe Tequila

10)YOUR SOAP OPERA ALIAS:
(Middle Name + First Word you see on your Right)
**Aldaba Doing oh meeeee!

11)YOUR ROCK STAR ALIAS:
(Favorite Candy + Last Name Of Favorite Musician)
**Foxs David

survey #2

* section 1 - have you ever... *

+ Cheated on someone?
hmmm... not yet

+ Been Cheated on?
yup. =) and i still have a smile on my face

+ Fallen off the bed?
hmmm... hindi pa ata

+ Broken someone's heart?
have i? i don't think so...

+ Had your heart broken?
oh yeah...

+ Had a dream come true?
yup! it's freaky!

+ Done something you regret?
i used to have regrets... but now? naaaah... =)

+ Cheated on a test?
oh yeah! lahat na sila eh... edi go na rin ako!

* section 2 - currently *

+ Wearing?
White blouse, black pants

+ Like anyone?
oh yeah! i like almost everybody!

+ Location?
hmmm... office right now

+ Chatting with?
mikey... nawala... iniwan ako hmp.

+ Watching?
hmmm... watching the letters pop up as i type

+ Should REALLY be doing?
sleeping argh... but i don't mind. i'm happy! woohoo!

+ Brush your teeth?
the last time i brushed? 8pm

+ Have any piercings?
tenga! one on each ear haha... kailangan pang i-elaborate?

+ Drive?
no

+ Drink?
oh yeah!

+ Smoke?
i hate cigarette fume haha fume talga

+ Got a cell?
yup. 1 lang

* section 3 - the last person you... *

+ Hugged?
mikey

+ Kissed?
mikey

+ IMed?
mikey

+ Talked on the phone to?
hmmm... kuya?

* section 4 - personal *

+ What do you want to be or do, when you finish school?
oh... hmmm... i'm done with that and i believe i'm doing what i want to do... wushu

+ What has been the best day of your life?
there's no particular day. i treasure countless days... when i'm happy... best DAYS

+ What comes first in your life?
oh... my family

+ Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend/crush?
bf and crush hihi

+ What are you most scared of?
hmmm... death of my loved ones

+ What do you usually think about before you go to bed?
hmmm... how my day went and how i hope my day will go the next day

+ Did you lose someone you really loved?
yup... my lola, lolo, papa, lolo

+ Love your family?
oh yeah! it's the best family in the whole world!

+ Are you a virgin?
i-announce ba? haha!

* section 5 - favorite *

+ Movie:
sumkinuva dami

+ Song:
simkinuva dami rin

+ Store:
i dunno

+ Clothing Store:
hmmm.. kahit ano

+ Relative:
hmmm my tito corny and cutie pamangkins

+ Sport:
basketball na lang hehe

+ Ice Cream Flavor:
choclate

+ Fruit:
hmmm... banana, strawberry

+ Candy:
kahit ano

+ Day of the Week:
hmmm saturday! it's a date day

+ Color:
white, violet, pink

* section 6 - do you *

+ Like to give hugs?
oh yeah!!!

+ Like to walk in the rain?
it's a great feeling to feel the drops of rain on your face... and back... tickles... =)

+ Prefer black or blue pens?
black

+ Like to travel?
yeaaah!

+ Sleep on your side?
yup

+ Have a goldfish?
when i was a small girl, we used to have gold fishes... hihi

+ Ever have the falling dream?
yeah freaky!

+ Have stuffed animals?
yup... i put them away for now. a bear and an elmo...

* section 7 - this or that *

+ Pierced nose or tongue?
naaah

+ Single or taken?
taken

+ MTV or BET?
ano yung bet?

+ 7th Heaven or Dawson's Creek?
Haven't seen a single 7th Heaven episode

+ Sugar or salt?
Sugar!

+ Silver or gold?
silver pero kung ibibigay nang buong puso, i don't have any preference hihi!

+ Chocolate or flowers?
hmmm... chocolate

+ Color of Black-and-white photos?
colored

+ M&Ms or Skittles?
M&Ms

+ Stay up late or sleep in?
stay up late... hihi... wouldn't want to sleep if i have good company

+ Hot or cold?
cold

+ Mustard or ketchup?
ketchup

+ Spring or Fall?
spring is nice

+ Happy or sad?
happy!!! who wants to be sad?

+ Wonder or amazement?
amazement! i'm always amazed!!! woohoo!

+ Mexican or Italian?
filipino hihi

+ Candy or Soda?
candy!

i'm tagging you all haha... oh harbs, i'm tagging you in particular hihi!!!

ages ago

i was browsing through some old photos and look what i found:



mwehehehe! michie and me... the photo was dated sept 2001... 4 yrs ago. looks so ancient... funny. hihi...

survey #1

1.like to walk under the rain?
~> yup! maricor? agree? remember laguna?

2.Sleep with or without clothes on?
~> with clothes

3.Prefer black or blue pen?
~> black

4.Dress up on Halloween?
~> yup once during college. woohoo! oh and during spi halloween!

5.Like to travel?
~> oh yeah!

6.Like someone?
~> hmmm. yup

7.Does he know?
~> definitely

8.cute ba cya?
~> uu

9.Think you're attractive?
~> hindi

10.Want to marry?
~> yup, someday

11.With whom?
~> with mr. right

12.Alaska or Hawaii?
~> hawaii

13. a good student?
~> average

14. Where are you by the way?
~> office... watda... tama ba ang ginagawa ko?

15. involved in sports?
~> hmmm... nope

16. Christmas or Halloween?
~> Christmas

17.Colored or black-and-white photo?
~> colored

18.Do long distance relationships work?
~> didn't work for me. for others, yeah they could work it out i'm sure

19.Do you believe in astrology?
~> sometimes

20. Do you believe in GOD?
~> definitely

21.Do you believe in love at first sight?
~> never experienced it yet but yeah, i believe it works for some

22.Do you consider yourself the life of the party?
~> not so... shy type ako. mayumi, mahinhin bwahaha

23.Are u an outgoing person?
~> depends on the people i'm with

24. Do you have a job?
~> yup

25. Do you make fun of people?
~> oo. pag may kasama tumawa

26. Do you think dreams eventually come true?
~> depends on how hard you work for it

27. Fave things to do?
~> hmmm... dance whenever we hear music, mag blog, mag daydream

28.Chocolates or Candy?
~> chocolates

29. Fave. person?
~> mom ko, kuya ko, win ko, mikey ko, HS and college kada ko, spi people

30. Favorite body part of the opposite sex?
~> eyes

31.Favorite food?
~> nde ako maselan sa food

32.Go to the movies or rent?
~> go to the movies

33. How's the weather right now?
~> just right

34.Hug or kiss?
~> both

35.last person u talked on the phone?
~> mikey

36.Last time you showered?
~> 7pm

37.Loud or soft music?
~> soft

38.McDonalds or Burger King?
~> mcdo

39. More romantic? baths or shower?
~> baths

40. Night or day?
~> night

41.Number of pillows on ur bed?
~> 4

42. Fave instrument? piano or guitar?
~> piano

43.Read or write?
~> read and write

44. Single or taken?
~> taken

45.Snow or water?
~> water

46.What are you going to do tomorrow?
~> work

47.what clothes are you wearing?
~> yellow shirt, black pants

48.What do you drink?
~> swissmiss, water, iced tea, rootbeer

49.What's ur wallpaper on your computer?
~> baduy yung default

50.What's right next to you?
~> left: maricor; right: an empty chair

55.What's your bedtime?
~> ah eh... 9am

56.What's your name?
~> caths

57. Wat time do you get up in the morning?
~> definition of my morning? 430pm

58.Who do you talk to the most online??
~> hmmm... mikey, beth, judy

59. LasT person u talked on your cel?
~> mikey

getting bored and gimik on an office night

haaay... i'm getting bored... getting sleepy. not so much on our plate right now. it's thanksgiving on the other side of the world and we're left with very minimal tasks today and tomorrow. even the agents here are just merrily chatting (in tagalog! haha may fine sila pag nag tagalog sila ah!)...

hmmm... i just yawned... gosh. i'm so bored.

thoughts:

i wonder how season 5 of smallville will go. kuya bought dvds of the whole season and he's making me inggit right now while he's at it... he said nag do raw si clark and lana and nahuli nina mom and dad! ohhmmmeee... hehe! interesting!

kelan kaya magiging sina nestea at odette? hihi... pwede! bagay sila! woohoo! i smell love in the air!

bakit ang iingay ng mga tao ngayon?!?!? waaaah! nabibingi na ko!

hihi si jz nakakatuwa... ni-pm pa ko para kwentuhan ng pbb... hihi i miss those kids

after a few hours...

ok so the people are bored. gimik daw! woohoo! eto tipsy na hihi... tama bang gumimik on a thursday night? hehe hello ah eh hanggang 6am pa kme? hihi... ayoko ng amoy ko... halo-halong amoy ng yosi, sisig, at kung anu-ano pa. pero nde ako nagyoyosi ah! hilo na ko... woohoo! talk about thrill... now i'm thrilled hihi... watda... i'm talking nonsense. i wanna sleep... awww... hihihi...

how do i feel today?

hmmm... time check... 530pm just woke up an hour ago. do i feel good? heck, yeah!!! if only i'm not hungry. the only food that i think is edible around here are these tuna balls. i'm no so into it... but my mom had to leave early this morning so we have to settle for piniritong-anything again hihi.

thoughts?

i'm really glad to see this unexpected transformation in people... from selfish to loving, from a stone to a beaming heart, from ice cold to a radiating warmth. although there's still one thing that's meant to heal. i'm afraid it will take some more time... but all wounds heal eventually.

i MIGHT lose my patience at times. but i'm trying my very best to hold on to it... it might have VERY damaging effects. i believe i've mastered the art of settling differences. or IGNORING differences? everything is under control. i'll just have to have a firm grip on my patience =)

christmas is coming! but before that, a thread of birthdays will come... my lola, ate aileen, aira, mike, ate elaine. after that, the christmas season will rush through. my kuya's almost done with his christmas gift shopping. good for him. hmmm... wala pa kong pera eh! haha!

there's an upcoming holiday on monday. what to do? what to do?

i better eat right now... yeah tuna balls would be fine. anything would be fine for a grumbling tyan...

some signs we surely, truly, honestly, undoubtedly miss habs-e

we pretend that she's with us: in the elevator, while we're walking. we talk to her, we give her her own space. and we get mad when other people will step on that space provided for her hehe.

we provided a space for her for the spi dinner. there was this blank... blank? whatda? more like unoccupied chair that we left for harbs... and we took her picture (imagining she was there, of course)

we still cry like "waaaah! harbie!"... alam na nya yun kung pano ang tono nun

we wonder if harbie is online pag nasa office na kami... harbie, mag download ka ng skype. yun ang gami namin sa office eh.

knowing our team mates are in florida, we always wonder and wish that she could get a job for our company (florida office) and we could be team mates again!

we still shout "barbieeeeee!" out in public places... hoping that maybe.. just maybe, she might just answer in disgust hehe...

awww.... barbie... dear barbie... miss ka na namin! =)

all mixed up and the goblet of fire

monday morning 126am... i know i'm supposed to be sleeping right now... but it turns out... my days are now nights and my nights are now days. hehe.

hmmm... what's happened for the past week so far? so far so good at work. although some things are turning out as unexpected and scary at times... you'll just have to do your best... 'cause you'll never know what happens next... or when things will happen.

everybody's just super helfpul in pointing out what needs to be done and how to get things done. it's so true how there's this inner kindness in every person's heart. some hearts may just happen to sparkle more but every heart and soul combination is good... that's what i believe in.

tumataba na raw ako sabi ni papa mike kse raw puro fastfood na ang kinakain ko. mcdo, kfc, hotdog sa 711 na lasang putok, cup noodles, sandwiches, donuts yan ang laman ng tyan ko. asked him if ayaw nya na tumataba ako... and he said ok naman daw may nakukurot nang laman (or taba) hehe... i don't know if that's good or bad... but i always dreamt of being mataba somehow hehe... the problem is... tyan ko lang ang tumataba, thus the term bilbil. shocks...

watched harry potter yesterday. grabe binata na sina harry potter at ron. si hermione akalain mong napakagandang bata pala... shi cho cute pero pango... hehe ako rin pango. nde ako namimintas ah... kse sinabi ko rin na pango ako haha! i heard heart auditioned for the part. she could've done a great job of portraying cho's role. =) she's a pretty girl.

the effects were great... although medyo dragging yung scenes. pero ok lang. marami kaming nakitang batang "naghaharutan" at inisip ko kung maharot din ako minsan haha... nde naman. promise. pero... oo sige maharot minsan pero medyo lang... hindi naman kasing childish nung mga nakita naming bata hehe. bata pa naman ako. what's wrong with that?

hmmm... tomorrow's another week. i hope the work load's not that heavy. thanksgiving is coming anyway. =) i hope this is a mega petiks week.

padugo namin ngayon and a few more stuff

that's how they call the pa-dinner of the newbies. we had dinner at makati republik... hehe para syang beerhouse... what could you expect e puro lalaki ang crowd sa team namin. hihi...

ok naman super busog... mura rin ang food. pero sa cholesterol ng mga kinain namin, malamang ma-dead din kami nang maaga hehe...

i have this irritating headache right now. anticipating the monthly grouchy icky thing. sigh... pimples somehow gone... thanks to my new toner... black circles under eyes becoming worse? sigh... muka na kong puyat lagi hihi... ok lang naman daw. =)

received a rather sad, bad news today. =( crossing our fingers it won't happen...

we're celebrating this ultimate reunion today... harbs yihee naiinggit! donna: to my far left and maricor: to my left. ang ingay namin! hehe... saya! it's nice to be happy with your work and the people you work with.

omg... i can't believe i'm still mentoring the spi newbies haha! online or phone patch itu! pede bang mag charge ng consultation fee? haha! funny.

may joke pala ako... narinig ko earlier sa bus on my way to work:

young nun: mother superior, dapat po ipagbawal na ang pagwiwi ng mga pari sa pader!

mother superior: sister, pabayaan mo na yun! kaliit-liit na bagay eh!

young nun: (kinilig...) ay mother malaki po! hihihi!

hehe wala lang. natawa lang kasi ako mag-isa sa bus eh...

off to have a quick break. =)

1st day of my 2nd week at my new work

sleepy? not so... it's 5:55 am. 5 minutes before i head home. i guess i'm used to it na. sleeping by day and working by night. haha. this won't last forever. up to december probably? i hope so. =) ang daming ko nang pimples eh. lech... hihi...

ngayon, we're used to hearing "gwapong" boses. boses lang promise hehe...

we're making gaya the agents... "hi this is catherine. how may i help you today?"

ang daming nag e-english... hello nasa philippines tayo... hello eh amerikano kaya ang mga client pano mag tatagalog bwahahaha!

hmmm... gumagawa na naman ako ng test cases. i love it! sobrang konting stress! woohoo! parang we find bugs... you fix it hehe!

i put curtains in my room to shield me from the sun when i sleep at day hehe.

waiting for donna... it's her first day tonight. errr.... her first night tonight?

and i'm going home...

*bakit nga pala ang mga truck driver, yung nasa passenger seat pala ng truck, laging nakataas ang mga paa...

mike chats with my "mom"

online ako. ni-ding ako ni mike. he thought he's chatting with my mom. i played along... hihi... with consent ang post na ito... =) bwahaha

mike :
caths: hey =)
mike : kw gamit ng pc?
caths: ha?
caths: nong ako gamit?
mike : i mean kung ikaw nagamit
mike : baka mommy mo eh
caths: yup
caths: mommy ako ni caths
mike : ay sorry po
mike : njan po c caths?
caths: nanonood ng tv
mike : musta po tita?
caths: ok naman
caths: tumitingin ng pwedeng business
mike : ahh
mike : pakisabi nlng po online ako
mike : thanks po
caths: may idea ka ba?
caths: may tanong pala ko sayo
mike : ano po?
caths: anong hangarin mo sa anak ko?
mike : ha?
mike : po?
caths: mahal mo ba ang anak ko?
mike : opo
caths: niloloko mo lang ata
caths: hihi...
mike : ndi po
caths: joke lang
mike : EEEEEHHHHH
mike : KAINIS KA!
mike : BAHALA KA JAN!
caths: ano ka ba?!?!?
mike : AYOKO NA
caths: no ka ba?!?!?
mike : =(
caths: inisip mo ba talga si mommy un?
caths: ahaha
caths: pero pinabasa ko haha
caths: tinatawanan ka hihihi
caths: to talga
mike : bahala ka

25 cathsfacts

saw this from harbs' blog... 25? ang dami! 25 things people don't know YET about me? hmmm... wala na ata eh i'm so transparent... hehe... i'll give it a shot...

1. i'm not choosy and maselan when it comes to food. the only ones i don't really like that much are: sardines, vienna sausage... although i'll eat them still pag wala nang choice. other that those, kahit damo-damo lang, kakainin ko =)



2. i keep a journal of my dreams... i started about 2 weeks ago. i had some weird dreams and thought of keeping a journal of those... for just wala lang purposes.



3. when i feel bad towards someone, i don't usually confront the person. in fact, i never confront anybody. i write it all down. sort of a hate journal? hihi at least i let it out somehow.



4. during 2nd and 3rd year HS, i was part of the intrams... hihi... dig this - skipping rope competition! we bagged the gold prize during 2nd year. 3rd yr, hmmm wala na ata.



5. tried smoking only once... and i never tried it again. and i can't tolerate the smell of yosi usok. pero nde naman ako rude to cover my nose pag friends ko yung nag smoke hihi...



6. i was iyakin when i was a kid. what's new? by iyakin i mean, yung ngalngal talga haha! my mom had to gapos me during a dentist appointment to keep me still on the chair. "parang baboy na kinakatay" is how they usually term it. now, i'm finesse nang umiyak hihi... mahinhin, mayumi.



7. i talk to myself... before going to bed. i talk aloud. don't we all? hmmm... don't we all?



8. when i'm alone watching tv, and i happen to surf on some old tagalog movie... the black-and-white-and-may-guhit-guhit-na-sa-kalumaan type... i watch it. hihi... and i try my best to guess who the actors are. how cheap could i be sometimes? hmmm... pati pala videoke, i sing along give na give... hihi but ONLY when i'm alone!



9. i have a fondness in sniffing... errr... smelling match stick fume. adik...



10. i was the salutatorian of the class during nursery... konting top ten during my elementary years. and that's it. haha! i'm pretty much the average kid na all through my aral years.



11. i have 4 super duper kamuka people... (1) my papa (2) my brother erwin (3) my half sister, pia - dunno where she is right now (4) grace, my HS and college school mate. i swear super kamuka. check her out in my friendster.



12. i used to cry over my crush way back college... grabe. i sooo like him! code name? electric fan... hihi. he's married now.



13. 2 things i sooo wanted to have when i was younger... a bike and roller blades... hanep



14. my closest cousin, irish, and i used to have prayer meetings in my old room. we would close all windows and doors, put the lights out so it would be super dark... say our prayers and force ourselves to cry during meditation. hehe... runs in the blood. drama and craziness.



15. while most people would turn the radio on to find their way to sleep, i CAN'T sleep with music on... even the mellow ones. i'll find myself singing along with every song. hihi parang jingle ng 96.3 wrock.



16. i tend to be super shy around guys. i don't even look at them unless, of course, they talk to me. must be the effect of studying in an all-girls school during elem and HS.



17. on the contrary, when i become close with a guy friend... i don't hold back anything. i could share the very intimate details of my life... even those i'm not supposed to share with a guy friend.



18. i love to experiment when cooking. i almost always follow a cookbook as a guide but end up adding a little bit of ANYTHING to alter the taste. hihi... sometimes.... i double the amounts mentioned in the recipe para double ang sarap hehe.



19. i find it hard to make ebs in the spi restroom... hihi pati ba ito? i always rush home to make ebs... hihi nahiya naman ako... well it's a known fact naman sa mga tao.



20. when i'm home, i eat rice for as much as 6 times - breakfast, merienda AM, lunch, merienda PM, and dinner, and midnight snack... no wonder my bilbil's so laki.



21. i'm a soooo-ordinary-kid when i was growing up. i used to read nancy drew and hardy boys and sweet valley kids/twin/high/university just like everybody else did.



22. in addition, i used to believe that kisses become pregnant and they would lay their egg kisses when you put them snug in containers with cotton... argh... i'm so a-believer.



23. something not so ordinary... when julie vega died, i used to believe that she'll come to our house and haunt me... like duh... sino ako?!?!



24. during 3rd yr HS, i had dengue fever - the only instance i was confined in a hospital... i was transfused with white blood platelets and my body refused to accept the new blood. i convulsed and was in coma for almost 6 hours. this is, i believe, my second life.



25. i'm not into computers. i'm not a techie person. the only reason i took up comp sci was because for the interest test during HS, i got high scores for computer AND science... duh... thus, my father suggested i take up comp sci... duh. no regrets though. i survived, and i'm still surviving!

some signs my kuya is a true blue jologs

kuya ko? sosyalero yan... maarte! nde bumibili ng mga chipis at mga bagay na mumu - mumurahin... puro mama - mamahalin. asus! at bago bumili, he'll think it over a million times before he'll make the purchase. only the best buys. nakakabwisit na nga minsan eh. lalo na if he'll ask to me to accompany him pag may bibilhin sya... i'm like... "oh no!!! not another shopping moment with kuya!!!" doom ito! pero sige... kahit na inuugatan na yung paa ko kakahintay... i don't (usually) mind.

konting may makita sa 'min... he'll give you that disgusted look and say, "ano ba? ang cheap nyo!" haha! bakit ba?!? it's nice to be jologs. cool nga eh! wag lang yung sobra... nakakabwisit na rin yun. maricor and donna and harbie know that we are true-blood jologs and it's fun and we pretend that we try to hide it... and whisper... "ano ba? nde pede ang jologs dito!" and we giggle and die... hehe...

but lately... i just have to make buking that i know it and i sense it that kuya... is jologs too! here are proofs:

nanood ng dubai! kasama si aira... hindi sa bahay ha... sa movie house talga! hihi... not that you're jologs if you watch it... pero si kuya?!? i don't know what's running in his system at napapayag sya ni aira... (true love, i guess?)

kung nde pa nakita ang sassy girl vcd (with english subtitle) ko dito sa bahay, manonod dapat sila ng my sassy girl tagalog version... yeah that's the spirit! hiniram na lang ang vcd ko at sa bahay sila nanood.

nanood ng asap 05 at sop! it's sooo not like him. kanina, i heard him singing along with the song... eto ang matindi... 'di ko kinaya "sasakyan kita" my gulay! tinginan lang kami ng mom ko at tawanan... haha!

bumili ng mumu na polo sa uniwide at proud sya sa purchase nyang ito... papahulaan pa samin kung magkano... and we were like "hmmm... sa tingin namin P2.50 lang yan" hahaha!

before, only my mom and i were watching big brother... ay sus. i would rush home from work just so i could watch it. my kuya would just roll his eyes bulong bulong na naman ng kung anu-ano... but for the past few weeks, my gosh.. nauuna pa samin sa sofa pag PBB na! bwahahaha! at promise! super disappointed sya pag tapos na!

an unexpected present and an interesting sequence of numbers

after watching the legend of zoro with papa mike, he handed me a brown paper bag and asked me to open it. inside was a package neatly wrapped in lilac wrapper and he told me it's from his mom and the gift was something i could use for my new work.

awww... i was so touched medyo muntik na ko maiyak sa sinehan no! ano ba naman... hihi... so i opened the package and inside was a book - inner beauty at work by didi nakar maranon... and a small token of my guardian angel... awww so thoughtful... grabe. i was so touched by this gesture.

and it was then that mike reminded me of his mom's birthday on nov. 11 and that i was invited to their gathering... hihi...

and it was also then that i saw this interesting pattern of numbers on the birthdays of special women in my life:

1010 - oct 10: is my ex's mom's birthday. yup... we still talk every now and then. not necessarily about the ex... but about my life and her life. i guess she's sensible and sensitive enough to just talk about the beauies and aches of life and nothing more. =) we send text messages or speak over the phone and i dunno but there's something about her voice that soothes me... a real mother image - selfless and loving... personified through her caring ways. i enjoy reading her messages. it's as if i'm listening to maala-ala mo kaya... a real classic mom giving you pieces of advice and warm wishes.

1111 - nov 11: is mike's mom's birthday. i'm not yet that close to her... we met only thrice (?) but i could say he's really nice... she actually reminds me of my mom's personality. i mean the mere gesture of giving me something that would help me adjust in my new endeavor is SOMETHING that really means so much to me. i never thought she would remember me that way and i'm really touched and am looking forward to getting to know her more. mike said "mas mahal ka pa nga sakin nun!"... i don't know if he's just making me bola... but i don't care... bola or not, i'm really happy and touched and overwhelmed.

and i told him that my next bf's mom's birthday would probably be a 1212... and he looked at me sternly and said "e bakit? may next pa ba?" hihi... eto naman... masyadong oa... sabi ko lang naman baka eh! and it hit me just last night that yeah... i do have a 1212!

1212 - dec 12: is my mom's birthday! how stupid could i get sometimes (lang?)? and she laughed at me when i told her about it. "ano ba? yung 1212 pa ang matagal mong pinag-isipan?" hehe... my mom? need i say more? she knows everything (not all naman... baka sabunutan ako kung all eh). all that she needs to know, that is... and she told me that most of her friends envy (in a nice way) what we have as mom and daughter. she's my friend... i'm her friend... we're buddies, we make pintas together, we laugh and cry together - over life and over tv shows and over movies. we share just about everything... and i love her sooo much... i always tell her that i don't mind not getting married as long as we live together... and she would answer me... "tange... syempre masaya ang mag-asawa no!!!" hihihi...

* i just have to share that starbuck's mango juice... tastes perfectly like nutrilicious mango flavor. mike didn't notice it until i blurted it out... "P90 for nutrilicious mango? crap..." daw... hehe. oh well...

epekto ng 1 linggong kawalan ng ginagawa

after watching pbb, i dunno what hit me and i just got my camera and took shots of heck knows what in my room hihihi... wala lang... welcome to my room!

a stack of books... when i can't sleep, i get a book and pop my head into it. hihi... mostly, simula lang nababasa ko sa gabi. pampaantok lang talga hehe... pero nabasa ko na ung mga yan. some time in the past.


my spi stuff... awwww... i piled them neatly on the floor... i look at them and awwww... hehe ang oa... wala lang tinitingnan ko lang.



some stuff from ln - awww more memories... the pens are, if i remember it right, from george and dave of RS. the paper holder's from ree. the red duster's from george din ata?


this sto. nino appeared in my dreams. in my dream, i woke up daw and i saw sto. nino facing me and looking at me... weird. i'm not really sure if i were dreaming 'cause it felt so real. but, yeah... i guess i'm certain that it's just a dream. since then, i started buying sampaguita every sunday... =)


this is my bed woohoo! syempre medyo i straightened the sheets haha... from the left is a pooh pillow (from rico during batch 7 kris kringle), ang madungis na eeyore pillow (na ilang beses nang nabagok sa spi at kung baby lang sya ay malamang dead na sya... at palagi kong naririnig "caths, si eeyore nahulog na naman" hehe... poor eeyore), and a pillow from donna =).


journals - listahan ng lcg fund, at kung saan napupunta ang sweldo ko, listahan ng thoughts, pains, feelings, songs, laughters, poems, letters, at kung anu-ano pa...


ang screen ko na sinira ng doggie namin noon, si claudia, na dead na ngayon... awww... nagbigti sya. promise... i'm not kidding! nagbigti sya! anyway, tinagpian ko pala ng stockings yung screen na nasira hihi...


mga glow-in-the-dark chuva ko ito sa ceiling hihi... kala nyo darkness lang ano.. haha! kita kaya! tingnan maigi... may glow-in-the-dark stuff dyan! promise!


oh... this one is very effective for headaches... galing... dunno where my mom bought it. paubos na nga eh... nice ito. chinese chinchunsu ito eh... hehe. at pinapahid sya sa ulo, hindi iniinom.


ang doll na kamuka ko raw kaya binigay sakin hihi... ay... gumagalaw pala ang ulo nyan parang yung mga doggie na display sa mga taxi na parang nang hi-hypnotize... at mapapa-galaw na rin ang ulo mo pag tinitigan mo. hehe.


uy... bagong ligo hihi... presko. bakit kaya?


kse butas at gula-gulanit ang damit! bwahhaha! bakit ba? walang pakialamanan... bigay ng bestfriend ko nung HS ang shirt na 'to... what could you expect? HS pa e! malamang sira-sira na yan... pero love ko yung shirt na yan! hihihi!


*talgang kailangan pang mag smile e no.. damit na nga lang kinukunan... bakit ba? sira-sira na nga, sisimangot pa ko hihihi... next week ano kayang magawa? hihihi...

private thoughts

stupid title... why did i post these if these were private... stupid title... stupid me? hihi...

i don't really buy that thing. i'm not thrilled with that idea and i get annoyed... almost disgusted when i hear it.

i also get annoyed when i see that same scene everyday... it goes on for hours... arrgh... hello?!?!? are they all like that? i thought this one was different.

i'm sorry for that... and saying that and thinking that way. i guess i shouldn't have but i can't help it. and now i feel guilty.

i'm really hoping that something will push through on january =) hihi... crossing my fingers tightly.

touch move... it's always touch move arrrgh...

i'm bloody doomed for the next month... doooooomeddd!

pretty soon, i'm bound to think that way. i SHOULD think that way.

i'm starting to feel it... and i hate it when i start feeling that way... 'cause i tend to NOT do anything about it.

stupid title

i don't want to be a housewife... i see things i'm not supposed to see... i think of senseless things i'm not even supposed to think about. i don't want to be idle again... argh...

baby talk

i've always marvelled about the gift of life. i'm always thrilled to hear that somebody's pregnant or suspecting that she is.

THRILLED - i mean i'm afraid of the responsibilities that come along with it. life is hard and it's becoming harder and raising a child unprepared is not something that you think over once or twice ad everything will turn out fine. you could go on sitting up all night thinking of making ends meet... but you just can't... simply because life is tough.

you just can't make the ends meet so don't. =) because God will find a way of doing that.

more than being afraid, anxious, and worse, being paranoid, by thrilled i mean i'm awed and excited about the new life that's blooming inside a woman's body. if i happen to see anything about pregnancy or babies on discovery or national geographic, i see to it that i finish the show... yup even if it's at 2am. so far, i learned that (i'm not sure if i recall these accurately though):

upon intercourse, the sperm travels for about 4 hrs to find the egg. so when you do it... you could become pregnant in 4 hrs. cool!!! and you won't know it 'til you miss your period.

a number of sperm will excitedly try to penetrate the egg but only 1 will succeed. once a pserm enters the egg, the egg undergoes a suddern transformation so that it doesn't allow any sperm to come in... hehe 1st come 1st served basis!

on a 4D image, it was shown how the baby drinks the fluid in the womb. the baby literally hungrily gulps in fluid!!! like a fish gulping or SUCKING in water.

the baby's lungs aren't functioning yet while he/she's still in the womb.

under stress, the mother's blood pressure rises (of course). this doesn't have an effect (yet) on the baby. it's only when the mother's blood pressure goes back to normal rate that the baby's blood pressure rises... and he/she is disturbed and jerks defensively as if sensing danger.

in the womb, we could readily determine if the baby will be left or right handed with his preference in sucking his thumb. suck the right thumb and he'll probably be a righty.

did you know doctors perform operations on unborn babies? this is sooo amazing!

play a lullabye or music or read a rhyme to an unborn baby and he/she will recall this once he/she is born. in experiments, crying babies will hush when they hear the familiar music or rhyme.

i dunno... i got all hyped up and excited after hearing that i'll be a ninang of 2 wonderful babies... =) not sure of the other one though... we'll know tomorrow... =)

on brownouts and eggwhites and peace within

930AM Wednesday. i'm on my 3rd day of vacation. neat, eh? nah... brownout eh. what to do? my sinigang na bangus is cooking itself on the stove hehe. what to do? can't surf the net. can't surt the tv either. write it all out on paper while the eggwhite is drying on my face. egg white? i cooked leche flan yesterday. so i have 8 egg whites sitting on a container in our ref, waiting to be applied on the face. yeah, just like julie yap daza does.

what to do? while i'm here wirting it all down on paper, i could feel my face being stretched. it feels odd. i can't think of anything to do. i'm not in the mood to read... and my face is being stretched further. neat... not so. it's starting to tickle me hihi...

and it's gone. i washed it all off... hihi. why do i feel that my face is still being stretched?

my mp3 player is drained. my cellphone is almost drained. it's beginning to feel hot in my room. darn it. i am so dependent in electricity. take away electricity and you take away life. muse me of more creative ways to spend time during a brown out. i'm so dependent. aren't we all? apparently, not. i overheard my neighbors, lolo heny and mang nestor:

lolo heny: gustong-gusto ko pag brown out.

mang nestor: bakit naman?

lolo heny: kasi nakakatulog ako nang mahimbing. walang tv, walang ingay.

awww... lolo heny is around 70 yrs old. here i am, grumbling of not being able to do anything. another soul is finding tranquility and peace amidst the bustles of the world. yeah. i feel at peace now. just sitting here, writing down whatever pops in my head... and i don't mind being alone for now. =) i don't mind bumming around, with a stretched face... doing nothing but listening to silence... and tricycles... hehe =)

things i'm starting to miss since i walked out that door

my 2nd day out of my comfy (and usually muddled) cube... it's raining hard and i'm starting to be bugged by feelings of longing for some things that have always been "just there" for almost 4 yrs:

how manong guard points me, among others, to use the stairs instead of the ramp. sheesh... i keep on forgetting that ramps are for vehicles and stairs are for people... haha.

how manong or manang lobby guard pretends to inspect my bag for any "materials of terrorism" or maybe, more subtly, just for "gadgets of information storage" to conform with bs799 chuva. in reality, they just seem to poke that antenna-looking thing inside my bag and portray an image of disinterest on whatever is in it.. and yes, i doubt that the garret thing has batteries... hihi

how i scan my id on the proximity reader, wait for the beep, and go in.

on the other hand, when the invalid beep shouts out, all i could do is give out an embarrassed smile and plead for te people inside to swipe their ids and open the door for me. =)

how my pc complains and gives me messages of "low memory chuva. quit some application chuva..." darn it... there are just too many open windows.

lately, how i struggled to find a break mate because there are just too few oldies to accompany you in your break.... and i end up going home to eat lunch or dinner.

my batchmates... all 9 of them: rico, jimboy, thyra, cindy, aileen, maricor, harbs, and downa... how we all jived and clashed (sometimes), but it's a great team...

my risksol SE and QA teammates... all the moments i laughed and cried with them. laughed for countless reasons... cried for reasons i don't even want to recall, but since i'm in a dramatic mood, yeah... i'd love to recall them all.

the company outings... how i ended up being drunk once and throwing up, and clogging the sink. it was hell...

the christmas parties, the endless gimiks to make the exchange gift fun... and they never failed. every event was just hilarious and great.

my nexis teammates... i was one of the newbies in the team... but heck... just heck hehe...

the puzzled look on the newbies' faces when i can't help them out in solving their problems.

and the delighted look on their faces when i was able to somehow help them out.

the weekly conference calls... how jimboy and dq and i will arrange the events so that one will be a bum for the night.

the stress it causes me to create my weekly timesheet

how i update the remaining hours spreadsheet on a monthly basis instead of the weekly frequency hehe.. lousy

the nights i spent in the office - unpaid... to finish off tasks

the pantry... oh... the pantry...

my dear newbies... for the shortest period of time, we've been close... they're all kind and good-hearted. and young hihi... and it makes my day when i see them online and i chat with them =)

pics:

edc people + chris


the feast we shared on patrick's bday (the star phone... geeezzz i'm gonna miss that)


N4 team


with room mate franz and jenny


with patsy


this was the present that made me cry... aww so sweet


N4 team sa work area


N4 team candid (daw)

i'm back

another blogless month has passed... hay... well, now that i'm out of spi, i guess i could blog more... =) yippeeeee!!!

not that i'm happy to be out... in fact i'm sad... that will come in another post.

for now, let me share something weird. dig this:



is it a dancing lizard? hihi... its left hind leg is raised... cute? naaah... weird. yuckie actually.

here's the real image hehe... i just turned the previous one upside down. this shot was taken this morning. my mom showed it to me and it was weird and we don't know how it ended up dying that way. i'm avoiding that area near our stove. what if it falls and it falls on my head?!? yuckieeee... hehe... the last time i checked, it's still there. eeww hehe...



i'm ready to blog again wooohooo!

father pogi gives me a hug

sunday morning... dropped by the parish office before the mass to get the intentions. when i got there, ate rose (parish secretary) was joking with father pogi. they were laughing and joking about birthdays, but i don't have an idea what they were talking about.

to include me in the conversation, father pogi asked me, "how many birthdays do you have?". and i answered, "one". and then... i don't know why he suddenly put his arm around me. una 1 lang and then ni-hug na ako! hihi... i was like, "uy si father pogi to. kakakilig!" haha.

ang daughterly hug binigyan ng malisya... hahaha! kse naman ang pogi talga ni father pogi super! promise!

a premature farewell

the past two weeks has been a whirlwind of change. all of a sudden, i'm engulfed in something new and i never thought something like this will happen this soon.

for 3 years and 9 months, i walked through these halls... and these walls have been silent witnesses to my tears, laughters, bitterness, kalokohan, and all (yup, even my heartbreak and heartmake... heartmake? watda?).

i've tasted just about every weird food there is: dacar, global, and now... something gourmet. but hey, weird isn't always bad and i'm proud to say these rather edible goodies sustained me for years. =)

i've seen how the pantry has evolved from wash-your-mug-by-the-window-and-kill-the-plants-outside to this more sophisticated look-i-have-a-sink-but-alas-there's-no-table-only-two-chairs pantry.

people come and go. and i've been a witness to these wonderful instances.

the coming part is good. new faces, new names, new good deeds to remember, new learnings to gain and share. there are a hundred and one newbies... they actually outnumber us now hihi. they make me laugh, they make me smile. sometimes they make my head ache with questions that i can't answer hihi... because i simply don't know the answer. sorry... =)

the going part is the one that makes me sad... majority of my good friends are gone. over the years, we mourned whenever another good heart leaves mere traces of the best memories we could ever have.

maybe this is the right time for me to go, with everything coming into place so smoothly. i prayed for it... that whatever comes in first is the real gift for me.

i have more than a month to enjoy everything good that's associated with spi... to gather every bit of learning and memory... to enjoy the company of the greatest people i've worked with.

thank you for the gift. may i find equal, if not greater, happiness in this new venture. i know i will with my good friend, maricor, beside me... =)

so cute...

* how you give me that super pouting face... because you waited for 20 minutes under the shed.
* how i defend that "it's just 20 minutes! bakit ang sungit mo?!?!", and you go on ranting and mumbling your whatevers.
* how i remind you that i once waited for over an hour and i didn't complain... and you say, "bakit ka nang-uungkat?!?".
* how we pretend that we fight about it and murmur whispers... but smile deep down inside 'cause we know na nagpapa-cute lang tayo sa isa't-isa hehe.
* and how we just laugh about it.
* how you choose to share your jacket with me under the rain... even though i have an umbrella... just because you find it sweeter hihi... (to snuggle under a jacket instead of an umbrella? hihi)
* how you kurot my arms and legs and bilbil... and i bruise a lot and it's ok and i find it nice. eeewww... weird.
* how i am so "obsessed" (as you said) to make ganti... but i just can't 'cause you cover your bilbil with pillows... at obvious namang you could defend my every attack duh.
* how you are so concentrated while watching tv... and i get bored and i ask you all sorts of questions... and you get annoyed... and i keep on annoying you hehe...
* how i keep on forgetting that you have a cut on your thumb and i keep on pinching it... or biting it... and all you could do is just shout because of the pain... and all i could do is just whisper i'm sorry and kiss your thumb with the hope of warding off the pain... hihi
* how we thumb wrestle. and you invent rules! just because you're stronger than me! argh! daya.
* how i greet you good morning and you tell me... something else, thus the pet name baby-a... duh... parang may baby-b, baby-c ahhh hehe... and how we argue who's baby-a... eeeh... ikaw un!
* how sweet it is to be loved by you... baby-a... =)

my ten-minute baths and katya's not-alone-baths

i'm in 7am-4pm shift for this week... (but last monday, i was here from 7am to 6pm... tuesday, 7am to 1030pm... yesterday, 7am to 6pm hihi watashift). i'm not complaining. well... maybe, yes... 'cause i miss going home on "normal" hours.

i'm not that used to going to work this early anymore and i really can't drag myself out of bed at 6am!!! geez...

i usually have 20-30 minute baths but waking up at 630 can't give me the luxury of having longers baths. anong magagawa ko? edi madaliang shampoo at sabon! sobraaa! sige wala nang conditioner. kakain pa ng oras yun e. it's a good thing i could still scrub a little using a bath towel hihi. darn it.

i'm back on 2nd shift (i think) for the next two weeks. wee! this means longer time for baths =).

speaking of baths, i remember i was watching tv with papa mike last night. we saw katya santos on one channel for an interview of some sort.... aaaah sa nginig. yup. interview for the nginig show... about her experiences with ghosts ata. she said something like "minsan pag naliligo ako mag-isa, mararamdaman mo talga may kakaiba eh". and i was like, "ha? naliligo mag-isa? edi minsan pala naliligo kang may kasama? hehe". and papa mike was like, "oo nga ano!".

ibig sabihin pag may kasama sya maligo, nde sya nakakaramdam ng kakaiba hihi... anobuzz... edi lagi sya maligo with someone. hihi sharing baths with someone. hmmm... sounds good? hmmm...

another paranoia attack (and a lot more)

i've been coughing for a couple of weeks now and i didn't mind it 'cause i've always been sensitive to pollution, yosi usok and the likes. last wednesday, at work, i felt this pain on my right rib when i cough and i realized that heck... i've been coughing for the longest time and i didn't bother to consult a doctor about this. why am i all of a sudden feeling pain on my right rib. i've heard similar stories like this and it turns out they have tb.

ok being the paranoid queen that i am... that night i couldn't sleep, i started recording videos - said my good byes and thank yous to my family and friends. i had a couple of shoots. i didn't like it when i don't smile hihi. mukang may sakit eh. i deleted the videos anyway. i'll just re-shoot when i'm certain of my "sickness"...

thursday, can't take it anymore. took a leave and went to manila doctor's to have myself checked... conversation went:

doc: ano'ng problema?
caths: (freaking nervous) kasi po inuubo ako for a couple of weeks na and masakit yung dito ko (points to my right rib)...
doc: ok. x-ray na lang muna (hands me the x-ray slip).

that's it?!? lalo akong kinabahan. parang sinabi nyang i-confirm natin kung tb ang sakit mo hehe.

at sa kakabahan ko at kawalan sa sarili, tama bang i-offer ko ang dibdib ko sa manong x-ray-man? naman. yung suot ko kasing shirt may glitters sa medyo chest part. he asked, "yung glitters ba na yan may metal?". and i answered, "hindi ko po alam e...". he said, "hahawakan ko ha."... and i was like... "sige po" sabay forward ng chest ko... naman. tanga-tanga ko. natawa si manong... medyo i-forward ko na lang daw yung shirt ko para nde nya mahawakan yung di dapat mahawakan. ay sus... caths! pag disoriented e tanga-tanga! asus. kahiya. edi sana pinakapa ko na rin kung may wire ang bra ko diba?!? naman!!!

the results will be available the next day pa... pero ayoko na mag leave so i decided to go back on saturday (kahapon yun).

what are the other things i thought about while i was on this dilemma? laugh on...

i'll probably take a six-month leave and go to mindoro (lola's house) so i could recover. i heard people heal faster when they live near the sea. of course i'll isolate myself and my stuff so i won't spread stuff i'm not supposed to spread.

i'll probably call it quits with papa mike. don't want to jeopardize other people's health... when i get well, and we still feel the same way for each other, edi go ulit =)

on my way home from the hospital, i saw this lola carrying an x-ray film and she has this mask covering her nose... ano ba tawag dun... dunno. sabi ko... oh no. pag lalabas ako, ganyan na rin ako. naka-mask.

... at kung anu-ano pang kapraningan. asus. ok. saturday na, mom went with me to get the results. derecho agad sa radiology chuva and took the results. with hands trembling and sweating, i opened the results. and it read...

... the lungs are clear. the heart is unenlarged... the chuva are intact.

or something to that extent. wushu. sayang ang effort ko sa pagiging praning. and we went to the doctor ulit for further analysis. he said that my lungs are healthy. my heart's a little tilted but that's no problem daw. and he explained every inch of the x-ray. he showed the blood vessels chuva and my right rib isn't fractured or anything. just a little strained because of the cough. he said that my lower spine's a little curved but no problem pa rin daw un. kse naman e lagi akong naka-slouch.

he prescribed mucosolvan and muscle reliever. watda?!?! ang praning ko talga... sorry!

i'm so...

tired... i think i'll be sick. =(

baby?

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pede na bang art? hihi... pede!

25 realizations at 25

1. i easily get tired now when i exert physical effort. yes, the body does grow old even if the spirit opts to remain young.



2. your mom will stand by you no matter how gaga you've been. she's the ultimate source (in human form, that is) of protection and care.



3. a child, on the other hand, may forget item #2... and may tend to take THE mother for granted, even bring her to tears.



4. distance may be a barrier for LOVE (not applicable to all) but it will never be even a slight challenge for true FRIENDSHIP... never ever.



5. sometimes, love really isn't enough. the will must be way too strong to outstand anything and everything.



6. i'm stronger now. my threshold for pain (and the tears that come along with it) has definitely improved through the years.



7. laughter really does give the body a general feeling of wellness and lightness.



8. no amount of skin-darkening-agents could prevent me from swimming and playing under the sun... at 25!



9. i now know when to stop drinking anything that has alcohol in it. stop when you're too tipsy or suffer the consequences of throwing up and simulating hell for the sober ones.



10. i should have listened to my lola when she enforced me to take my afternoon naps. at 25, you need all the sleep you could get.



11. i still haven't mastered the art of saying how i really feel.



12. if a person is stubborn, no amount of niceties will melt his defenses down.



13. donna once asked me: do you work to live or do you live to work? i wasn't able to answer. and i still don't know the answer...



14. when i'm at the peak of that mountain, i swear, i could touch the sky... i could see the entire world... i could touch the faces of the angels =)



15. i forgot how it felt like to have a father in the house. i bet it would be weird to have one in the future.



16. sometimes i forget to thank Him and praise Him. it doesn't feel good.



17. i don't mind being 25 and still being that. whatever that means. red my leps hehe.



18. people do change. sometimes we become better, sometimes we become worse... we all change...



19. nothing beats the feeling of loving (being loved back is only secondary).



20. there's no such thing as bad luck. we are capable of making our lives better. we should be responsible enough to face the consequences of our actions.



21. spending time with the ones you love is the best form of removing stress in your body.



22. don't lie. it'll do you no good.



23. people step on you? no problem. just don't step on them.



24. from july: "no matter how much you hate your job, never ever compromise your reputation"



25. at 25, i couldn't ask for more... (a little more quality time with my loved ones won't hurt, though)

salamat kay kim at kung anu-ano pang tumatakbo sa isip ko ngayon

* it's a saturday. mom, kuya, and i attended the christening of my adorable nephew, abe. i find this day rather special. it's the first time in months that we went out as "one family"... well, minus win 'cause he had to go to school. it's good enough.

* from the drama comes life... yihee! after months of deadmahan, as-if-i'm-not-here, mom ad kuya are in speaking terms again. thank God. why? well, because of kim's wedding last friday. they had to go and they had to go TOGETHER. hay. natapos din ang drama. i know some things couldn't be patched but time heals all wounds (yeah, i should now). i know eventually, everything will come back to normal. =)

* listening to rv's wedding souvenir cd right now. good choice of songs huh, rv. hmmm... mali ata ang caption sa cd. it says "love moves in mysterious ways - nina". i believe this is mymp's version hihi...

* may nasalubong akong friend last thursday. sabi sakin, "lumiliit ka ah. kumakain ka ba?" hihi... awww... pumapayat na naman ako... arrrgh. lech na trabaho ito. hay. ma, pede bang maging pabigat na lang ako? hihi palamunin ba. would you mind?

* napatingin ako sa bilbil (ako ang payat na may bilbil na malaki) ko. asked mom, "ma, pano kung nabuntis ako... kukupkupin mo ba ko?". she answered, "hindi. papalayasin kita". "eeeh... nde ka ba maaawa sakin? san ako titira?". she answered "edi sa nakabuntis sayo!"... i smiled and said, "wushu, nasasabi mo lang yan! maaawa ka rin sakin at nde mo ko matitiis..." hehe...

* saw something interesting on tv. there's this dispenser in singapore that condenses air into clean drinking water. turns the air into water at the rate of 1 liter per hour. cool, eh?!? it costs $1100. very beneficial for third world countries that don't have sources of safe drinking water.

* nice song... every little thing he does is magic. baby, every little thing you do is magic. everything you do just turns me on... hihi =) missing you so much. weeee! kita tayo tom!

* salamat sa biogesic. nawala ang super headache ko. probably because it's super hot kanina sa labas. grabe ang sakit talga.

* this pinoy big brother thing is somewhat... hmmm... interesting pero mukang ewan. i don't really buy it... pero pinapanood ko minsan pag napababad ako sa tv hihi.

* hmmm... yun lang po baboosh

farewell, harbs

bye caths, downna, maricoru! il miss you gurls! =)

... was harbie's last text message. waaaah! i love this girl! she's the girl with a big smile, a big heart, a big bag of patience, a big bag of gold hehe (but it never made her head big)...

when we heard she's leaving by august... we didn't think it'll be that soon. i always thought she's this girl who's just there... call for a gimik and she'll be there. but time does move so fast... and she had to go... and she's gone.

it was the first time i saw harbs cry - during her despedida the other night. i guess she'll miss us too. she'll leave everything behind... family, friends, work... to be with papa alfred. hay... if only they could stay here... or we could go with them? hihi.

maricor and i were playing MMK since yesterday. we cried while having our lunch because it started to sink in that harbie will be gone. =(

batch seven with celina...



we were a great team =(... we'll always be. =(

post birthday bliss (and some rants)

august 18... the day after my birthday. it's tina's birthday, i remember... hihi wala lang.

so how did my day go by yesterday? =) rather peaceful and happy. i received a couple of birthday text greetings. it's been my habit to keep these greetings in a separate folder in my phone. it's a natural life lifter when i feel sad sometimes - (1) reading warm wishes and (2) thinking that people remember you on your birthday give me a sense natural high =). too bad i can't copy the old messages from my old phone hihi...

also a couple of friendster and email messages and calls made my day. =) even friends i haven't heard from for a long time sent messages. very heart-warming.

hmmmm... except si yongyong... kala ko pa naman best chum kita. you didn't remember my bday! mygulay! magkachat na tayo, nitext mo pa ko last night. you didn't have a hint! and now you tell me you thought my birthday's aug. 30... hmmm.... tampo ako! ever! haha... di rin kita babatiin sa birthday mo para pantay.. hehe walang lamang. kulit.

and... august also marks the 1st year anniversary of my blog. hihi. nothing fancy. i don't even have time to update my layout hihi... which is rather sad. =( haha!

after lunch, i had some free time to revisit the year that was... read my posts for the past year. it was very funny... how i started a year ago - i've had a lot of grumbles, rants, happy moments, sad moments, gimiks, palaisipan posts... my blog has it all captured in this capsule hihi... i hope one day i could show this to my kids. ya... hmmm... my blog doesn't have ALL my kalokohan so i guess it will be ok to show this to my future kids hihi... 'di naman nila maiisip na maloko ang nanay nila nung kabataan nya... well, nde naman talga. wushu. utuin ang sarili.

and the reason why i found time to read my past posts pala... kse 1 yr na yung blog ko. hihi nakakatuwa. i guess this is my longest running journal. all my "manual" journals had lifespans of about only hmmm... 6 months... and then they bit the dust na. i do read them from time to time and they give me the same sense of wonder... how my life has been through the years.

pagkagat ng dilim, (hihi ok ito ah ang pangit parang censored) papa mike dropped by to spend the remaining hours (ano itu matitigok na ko?) of my birthday with me... hihi. thanks for the gift. wrapper courtesy of creative mom (yez... mom na ang tawagan ditu). haha. i like it... i'll wear it for the rest of my days haha... (tigukan na talga ang usapan). thanks for dropping by despite the heavy rain... and baha (wala naman but he said, he'll still go kahit na bahain pa sya... wushu) hehe...

hmmm... my day was sooo complete... super. kuya asked me how my day was and i said "ayz lang... although namiss ko yung FAMILY dinner natin" that's the only thing that's missing =(. complete na sana.

on second thought, it's pretty petty. and i know i'm way much blessed than a lot of people who are in more desperate situations... and i don't have the right to complain. so i guess i'll change the title to a more positive level...

post birthday bliss (thanks, papa God) =)

a whirlpool of thoughts...

it's my birthday... just spending time with myself here at home. taking a break. thanks to 780 and cert down time... i have some free time today.

i've had some time to contemplate on certain things... some are funny, some are touching, some are wishful thoughts... ponder on...

on losers... i wonder why genevieve had to die that way... lana stabbing her with one of the stones. i mean, all her life, genevieve spent her time and effort and money and all to get the darned stones. she didn't possess the objects of her desire... worse, she was killed by those. hihi.. what a loser.

on insect zappers... the perfect gift... last night, mom sent me a message and told me that my birthday gift is inside my dresser. i was so excited to get home... i opened the box... and there it was... an insect zapper - the one with the purple light that brutally zaps insects when they get near it. haha mom knows best. she knows that i am a natural mosquito magnet and i almost always rant about my mosquito bites... hihi! tenchutenchu... hey, i could use it as a pendant to ward off pesteng lamok... hehe!

on peach undies... weird hehe... kuya and aira gave me this peach panty... cute but weird! why would my kuya think of giving me that? funny but very much appreciated. it's really cute... actually, it could pass for a swim wear... only, it doesn't come with a top... hmmm... topless? eeeewww... haha!

on michie and thecx (and mumay)... received a dozen pink roses and cake from michie and thecx. i was so touched it made me cry... iyakin. mumay even brought it here at home from the office. she said, she thought that i might be on birthday leave and i might want to receive it on my birthday. very kind girl... =) i love my girls... they made me cry... huhu...

on wawin... when i woke up this morning, i saw win all tired sleeping on the couch. sightly sick with fever and cough and colds, he looked so thin and so kawawa. if i'm being eaten alive by my work, he's being consumed by his studies. he told me he feels tired and he feels that he's been studying all his life... and that he doesn't get to sleep at night because 24 hrs is not enough. aawww... poor creature.

on wanting someone... sometimes it's sad how much you express your gusto towards someone... but it just can't be. so touching how, after all these days, they still tell you how much you are welcome and loved and needed in their circle. sad how i utter in my head, if you could only have two families, i'd want the second one to be you... =) never have i seen a longing so unconditional and bold and trusting and all. and i miss you all too. =)

on ate cat... i'm fond of that name. well, a couple of "younger" people call me that... some younger peers from lcg, romarc (the adorable kid i used to play with... and now when i see him, he smiles and says, "ate cat!"), cecille (i probably look like her age but heck... i'm older and so she calls me ate cat), some guy at work (darn it... this is the only instance i don't appreciate being called ate... don't ever do that again baka nde kita matantya at lalong maningkit ang mata ko hehe)

on God's answers to our prayers... kuya had some issues and he was quite down for the past few days. the other day, he was upbeat again. i asked him if he's feeling better. he told me that he just thought of what i said and he felt better... "what did i say?", i asked. and he said that some time ago, i told him that when we ask for something from God, God says yes or no. when we are not given what we ask for, we feel hurt and grmble that our prayers are not answered. well, come to think of it, "NO" is actually an answer. so, He does hear us and and He does answer our prayers... (c/o the sisters of st. paul of chartres hihi)

on z... the last time i checked, z hasn't said "hello world" yet. hey come out na! and share this day with me! woohoo! riche, put some more effort of making ire! haha as if madali.

on abuse... meron pa rin talgang martyrs eh. i despise any form of abuse. verbal, physical, emotional... girl, you have a long way ahead of you. you are not a saint so don't act like one. get out while you can and build up whatever has been broken. you're young, pretty, intelligent... and you deserve someone better. don't fix something that can't be fixed. =) you are loved.

on game ka na ba... i love that show. hehe... wala lang. very educational. yun lang. i really love watching it.

on shake... again, i express my full support to my lcg peer, shake. he's a part of the final 12 for star in a million and i'm proud of him. =) text nyo ah! galing na bata ito!

on the end... hehe... well, that's it for my tell-the-world-of-your-thoughts thing... =)

updates daw - warning... this is a long one hihi

huwaw... yup. almost a month has passed since my last update. i don't know if i'm really busy or nag bu-busy-busyhan lang hehe... hmmm... maraming nangyari... gaya ng:

bridal shower kodi ko nga lang na-invite college friends ko. hehe joke. gotcha! bridal shower ni harbs. awww... ang saya-saya that saturday. we went to this quatro posas errrr pasos resort/inn in cavite and had an overnight bonding aka swimming aka bridal shower. we played strip-1-2-3-pass. hihi felt weird being naked in front of many people... ay may kumot naman hihi!

hmmm...maraming masasayang bagay hihi...=)

pagiging abay sa kasal ni harbshehe joke... feeling abay lang. i wore the gown from riche's wedding and my girlfriends bought similar shades of blue glown bwahaha... you bet lahat ng tao dun pinagkamalan kaming abay. we had a mega zillion pics and nagmistulang pictorial event ang napaka bonggang wedding ni harbs... wedding of the century itu... hehe... harbs, you'll be missed... a lot huwaaaaaah!

to be near youyun ultimate na itu... kumanta raw ako sa wedding ni harbs... i swear, the night before gusto ko na mag back-out! huwaaaah! pang banyo lang naman ang boses ko hihi! pero mahihindian ko ba si harbs? hihi... i love this girl. so to be near you it is. pasensya na... hehe kung medyo shaky, nervous, out of tune, "unmemorized" bwahaha! ang song number ko. it was my best and i offer that for you, harbs and alfredo =) (watda... offering itu!) may you go a super loooong way... infinite ang measure. =) unfathomable... mwah!

a thing i shouldn't have donei know i've hurt someone (ay hurt ba? hihi. nde naman diba... disappointed lang diba?) and i'm deeply sorry, baby. i assure you it'll never happen again.

missing my family so muchhehe ano itu... out-of-the-country... hehe i feel i haven't seen them for the longest time... kse naman ang uwi ko ay hindi uwi ng isang matinong babae... tipong mga adik-adik na lang ang gising sa kalye. kebs. mega walk ako sa sto. niño sa madaling araw pauwi. subukan lang nila. meron akong hmmm... susi at payong. haha! so whenever i have the chance to talk and kulit with them, i do so... yesterday, feeling ko sobrang na-miss ako ni wawin... mega kwento kami about... hehe aliens. ano ba?!? grabe i miss them =( i'm missing a lot lalo na with my kuya. i know he'd love it if we could sit down and talk about everything and anything. he's kinda sad for the past few months =(

missing my college friendsmga girls... hehe i know nawala ako sa sirkulasyon for the past month. and i heard of the out-of-the-country-reunion on 2006. i'm game! woohoo! this is something to look forward to. =) we've reached the first quarter of our lives (assuming we'll live a hundred yrs like sea turtles from finding nemo do) and it's time we do something major and fun. yup, camille, you're right. 2006 marks the 5th anniversary of our graduation hihi... lech ang tanda na natin ah... hehe kebs. old(er) but more graceful... wiser(?)... more equipped to face whatever the world has to throw us... hmmm prettier? hihihi... say yes, girls!

thank youto certain people who helped me out in times of "need"

feeling ko, kuya na ako

hihi... excited... with my new mp3 player! woohoo! it came out of nowhere, last saturday, kuya and i were supposed to go to a computer shop to have our pc repaired. but the service for repairs is available on weekdays lang pala.

i have nothing to do so i thought... bakit si kuya may mp3 player... si win may cd player na hinihiram ko lang paminsan-minsan... si mike meron din... e bakit ako wala? mahilig din naman ako sa music ah... haha nagpaawa para lang magkarason bumili...

oh well... i've been eyeing that player since last april pa... naiinggit ako kay mike (at kay leah) hihi. so dapat bibili na rin ako, kuya talked me out of it... di ko naman daw gagamitin... a few weeks after i got home, bumili si kuya ng exact same player... haha...

so... ayun na nga... laging nakatapal sa tenga nya yung earpiece... asus...

going back, last saturday, edi wala na nga kaming lakad kse sarado yung shop... out of nowhere, i pushed his door open with a scary force (na nde ko alam san galing), and i blurted out "kuya, bibili na ko ng mp3 player" (*parang ang tono e super excited... i swear halos napatalon ako pagkakasabi ko nun, smile from ear to ear).

tingin lang sya... ang weird ko raw bigla-bigla lang... kung kelan ko raw nadecide yun. sabi ko, ngayon lang as in ngayon naisip ko lang hihi.. walang pakialamanan. bakit ba? hehe...

so ayun. he was forcing me to get the ipod na lang para nde kami pareho hehe (kse pareho rin kmeng 7650 ang phone na binili 2 yrs ago)... cute yung ipod kulay apple green... kaya lang may mga features na meron sa creative na wala sa dun sa lech na cute na ipod na yun... like hmmm... fm tuner, yung maliit na panglipat na kinakabit para nde naka-expose yung player mo, at yung stand... hehe... yun lang naman. pero for the same price, why settle for mas konting features diba? so creative it is... plus... 5 gigs yung creative, 4 lang yung ipod.

binilhan na rin namin ng speakers para share mo naman ang tunog diba... wag madamot ba... so 1 speaker kay kuya (na birthday gift ko na rin... sabi nya, buti na lang nilibre ko sya. sabi ko mali... buti na lang birthday nya... kse nde ko naman sya ililibre kung nde nya birthday hihi) at isa rin for me...

so ayun. ang haba ng kwento ko... nakakainis. e sa tamad kong to, sabi ko kay kuya, he could do the job of loading up songs in my player. i told him to copy whatever he has in his list. he's more than willing to do the task.

ok monday na, dala ko na sa work si player... ayos... pagkatapos ng araw, feeling ko e kuya na ko. ang mga songs na narinig ko maghapon puro pearl jam, razorback, parokya.. haha pang-kuya ehhh!!! ang lagay pa eh... 3 versions each song pa, 1 original, 1 acoustic, 1 live... asus... sumakit ang ulo ko.

hehe anyway, na-aappreciate ko naman... maganda rin naman and gusto ko rin naman mga songs na ganun... lalo ng pearl jam... astig yun bow ako dun idol ko rin yun.

marami ring lifehouse at coldplay... may naligaw na mga 10 songs ni nina and mymp hihi... kaya ok naman hehe... pang kuya... sana ganahan na ko mag load ng songs "ko" hihi...

3 things

kita ko sa site ni liza

Three names you go by:
1. caths
2. cat
3. karen

Three screen names you have had:
1. irish
2. hapon
3. lucky deleon

Three physical things you like about yourself:
1. maliit
2. mata
3. dimple hihi

Three physical things you don't like about yourself:
1. kulot (wavy lang hihi)
2. pango hihi
3. pimples sa likod

Three parts of your heritage:
1. filipino
2. chinese
3. --

Three things that scare you:
1. death of loved ones
2. lokohin ng bf (ulit?!? what the...?!?!)
3. earthquake

Three of your everyday essentials:
1. perfume or cologne
2. petroleum jelly
3. cellphone

Three of your favorite bands/musical artist:
diverse sobra ang gusto ko hihi...

Three of your favorite songs:
1. into you
2. make me whole
3. for you
4. twisted
5. you first believed

Three things you want in a relationship:
1. consistency
2. patience sa pagiging isip bata ko =)
3. respect

Three truths and lies in no particular order:
(truths)
1. super mababaw - patawanin at paiyakin
2. nang-aaway ng bf pag magkakaron
3. i don't voice out what i really feel
(lies)
1. i'm assertive
2. i'm a good decision-maker
3. i don't value my family and friends and blessings

Three physical things about the opposite sex that appeals to you:
1. eyes
2. smile
3. naka-white

Three of your favorite hobbies:
1. watching tv
2. blogging
3. reading

Three things you want to do really badly now:
1. cuddle with someone
2. go to hawaii
3. go home and sleep.. i'm dead tired

Three careers you're considering/you've considered:
1. pre-school teacher at makipaglaro sa mga bata
2. travel and adventure show host or staff
3. accountant

Three places you want to go on vacation:
1. Hawaii
2. Japan
3. Bora

Three kid's name you like:
1. Nikkie
2. Therese
3. Sebastian

Three things you want to do before you die:
1. travel the world din
2. live comfortably and contentedly with my family
3. hmmm... yun... hihi

Three ways that you are stereotypically a girl:
1. masungit pag magkakaron hihi
2. fickle-minded
3. mahilig sa sweet-nothings

Three ways that you are stereotypically a boy:
1. i don't nag (may mag-oobject ba? hihi)
2. nde ako matagal mag prepare for a lakad (again, objections?)
3. i do not show affection that much (same here, liza)

Three celeb crushes:
1. si adam sa smallville
2. si lex sa smallville
3. si jason sa smallvile

People you would like to pass this tag:
hmmm... kahit sino =)

2 odd things

i've got two interesting stuff to share today. it's a gloomy day, looks like it'll rain soon but it's a fine day still. =)

"tumataba ka"

woohoo! the best thing i heard this morning. =)

mauie, lamo ba na the ever famous sol anne's bakeshop/tambayan during our HS days is here at spi... hihi nagulat nga ako at nakita ko si aling sol (that's how the people here call her) nung pagpasok ko pa lang dito eh... (that was 3 yrs ago.. and heck, yes, i'm old [old and happy])

well, masarap yung food nila. medyo expensive nga lang pero i think mataas kse yung rent nila dito eh kaya ganun.

anyway, so ayun, i was buying my breakfast this morning... pandesal with cheese pimiento and ovaltine 3-in-1. tapos yung 1 tindera nila, tingin sakin sabi, "tumataba ka... yung pisngi mo gumaganon" sabay demo na parang lumolobo yung pisngi ko...

i just answered, "wow, talga? yehey!" hihi...

i don't know what makes me taba... but whatever it is, i give it a high-5... woohoo!

it could be hmmm... my work? makes me eat at odd hours and odd quantities and odd whatevers...

it could be hmmm... my shift? when i'm in 2nd shift, i get more than 8 hrs of sleep...

it could be hmmm... because i'm happy? although medyo sad ako ngayon kse some people in my life are acting kinda childlike and ang tagal nang nde maresolve ng conflict... hay. guys, let's all grow up! (kasama ako)... at nasasad ako pag tumataas ang level ng hormones na lech... hehe

buhay si caren carpenter

5 minutes ago, i answered the phone... conversation went...

caths: servisoft
guy: hello, good morning. pwede kay caren?
caths: caren?
guy: caren carpenter?
caths: caren? (*super pigil ang tawa)
guy: caren carpenter
caths: (*pigil pa rin pero medyo natawa na talga ko...)
guy: (*nakahalata... nag-isip) ay sorry caren gaspar pala (*giggles)
caths: ay wala pa po sya eh (*di nakapigil bumungisngis na... hihihi!)

it was so funny! ayun pareho kami tawang-tawa... akalain nyong hanapin si caren carpenter?!? sana sinabi ko... caren carpenter as in "rainy days and mondays always make me cry?" hihi... the odd things in life! are so funny! =)