"pisikal pitness test..."

ang madalas na sabi ng high school p.e. teacher ko. and i am so reminded of it right now - the aches and the pains i (and my classmates) felt right after the darned physical fitness test.

kuya and i had a good 50-minute jog/walk yesterday morning. i was afraid that i will eventually palpitate or faint because i haven't exercised for a very loooong time. i loved the feeling after the jog! the good sunlight, the good semi-chilly air, the good sweat, the good fatigue, the good breathing. everything felt right! everything felt right until last night. it was then that i felt the first pangs of the ouchiness (ano raw?) of muscle pain - butt muscles, upper leg muscles, lower leg muscles... they're all probably torn by now.

i walk like a granny hihihi... so what? i loved the jog and i will do it again when i get well. yahoo!

*hmmm... it's too windy to swim lately :(

may sapi

di ko maintindihan kung anong sapi meron ako... at nagpakulot ako. nagsimula ang lahat sa isang, "jan, pakulot tayo". ang jan pala, matagal na rin gustong magpakulot. susme...

sa tanang buhay ko, mga 4 na beses na akong nagpa straight/relax/rebond... ah kahit ano pang pangalan nya, pinapaunat ko ang naturally wavy kong buhok (naks kulot pwede ring tawag dito). ni minsan, hindi sumagi sa isip ko na magpakulot. ngayon lang. ewan kung bakit.

marahil dahil sa kawalan ng magawa. maaari ring dahil sawa na akong labanan ang forces of nature - kukulot sya kung kukulot. well! e kung kulutin kaya kita, makulot ka pa?! i don't think so! ang dahilan ni janise, para maiba... sige pa-borrow ng reason mo. gusto ko rin yun, "for a change!". yan.

hindi rin. sinapian lang siguro talaga ako.

ayan, sinuggest nina ate parlorista na digital perm o spa perm ba yun. ah basta, sige kulutin nyo lang.

heto, parang may mother ship na nakakabit sa ulo ko, with a million wires and all. and hinuhuthot nila whatever earthly information ang makita nila sa brain cells ko. susme... para lang akong may sakit. waaah...




matagal ang kulutan (kasi may kasama pa ring pagtuwid ng mga bagong tubo... at yung bangs ko ba). me binenta pang pamahid sa kulot sina ate.. para raw ma maintain ang kulot. susme. so much for "for a change!".

o sya sya, heto na ang kulot naming buhok. janise, i-didisplay kita sa site ko ha. hehe.

feel-good thoughts on a friday morning

:) 7.5 hours of sleep - makes me feel light and good and comfy and all :)

:) my 30-minute swim last night - gave me a boost! good exercise ito! :)

:) cough is almost gone, although i have a slight headache... mukang sisipunin... all good pa rin (as long as i have tiger balm)! :)

:) it's a friday! just got back from holiday thursday, and when this day is over, it's officially weekend! :)

:) sausage mcmuffin meal - heavy, yummy breakfast! plus coffee... can't remember the last time i had a good hot cup. :)

:) the thought of the seconds and days and weeks inching their way towards christmas - and christmas means being home :)

:) oh, and i'm back to testing!!! :)

R&R

today is deepavali festival and we are on holiday! yay!

according to my hurried research:

Deepavali also known as Diwali, literally means "row or garland of lights". Locally, it has been called "The Festival of Lights". It is symbolic of victory of good over evil, celebrated by most Hindus the world over. It highlights the victory of Lord Krishna, one of the deities of the Hindu pantheon, over the Demon King, Narakasura. It usually falls around late October or early November on the new moon day.

i guess i have a new definition of deepavali. deepavali = R&R... rest and relaxation ba! :-)

kuya and i got home at around 9am this morning from inuman at jan's. lack of sleep didn't stop us to watch the latest episode of heroes. loved it! after the viewing, we slept 'til around 1pm and craved for crabs and shrimps. we headed off to shensiong, got the epektos, and finally finished preparing what-should-have-been lunch at around 3:30pm. geez. it was all worth it after all.

champion ang crab, sinigang na shrimp, at halabos na shrimp. yummmy!

after lunch, we watched just like heaven. it was good! watched it a couple of years ago but i love it just the same. :)

i promised myself i will have a good swim this week. and i did! the pool was all mine! had a couple of laps for 30 minutes. tamang-tamang panghilamos sa sakit ng ulo ko dahil sa inuman kagabi. sarap mag swim! i love it!

i should say i feel fulfilled sa holiday na ito! ;)

(1) di pa huli at (2) impromptu

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cast of characters: marco, anne, janise, mike, jen, ian, vange, reg, alnor, and me :)

yep, di pa huli ang lahat para sa aking cooking event post. sariwa pa ang lahat sa ala-ala ko - masasarap na pagkain! na-inspire kami ng zurich counterparts namin. nakita namin sa shared drive na nagkakaron sila ng cooking event within the QA team. so naisip namin, kung kaya nila, kaya rin namin! why not?!

merong kare-kare, hipon with gata, lumpiang shanghai, inihaw na baboy at manok at bangus, ensaladang mangga at estapegs. hmmmm... ang sarap-sarap. sana madalas itong mangyari.

salamat kay marco at anne for being gracious hosts. naganap ang lahat sa poolside ng aston. matapos ang 10 taon ng pag-iihaw, nakakain din kami... grabe. ang sarap-sarap ng lahat ng pagkain. super gana! success ang lahat ng luto promise!

kasama sa agenda namin ang pagswim namin sa loob ng 30 minutes lang. marami na rin kaming nalangoy at nainom na tubiv, naglaro ng monkey-monkey-anabel, nagkulitan. 30 minutes? tamang-tama lang ito :)

up next, videoke at inuman. susme may pahiya-hiya pang nalalaman ang mga tao! nang lumalim na ang gabi, hala sige! kanya-kanyang birit. nalapastangan ang magic sing... syempre pa hanggang mga 4:30 AM lang naman kaming nagkantahan. at nakitulog pa kami sa bahay nina marco! grabe na ito.

cheers to more cooking events, cheers to good friendship, cheers to a happy and contented life!

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cast of characters: janise, mike, kuya, me, (and later that night=>) jeng, liz, and tanny - jan's housemates.

holiday ngayon. deepa vali (?) festival of lights (daw). sweet... pahinga ito. :) kagabi, nag dinner kami ni kuya sa deli france at nag gym na rin sya. bago ito, nag attempt akong mag shop for office clothes... pero bigo ako dahil wala akong type na damit at isa pa, bihirang bihira ang kasya sa kin. how sad.

di ko maintindihan kung bakit pagod na pagod at antok na antok ako kagabi. so iniwan ko na si kuya sa gym at nag rush na akong umuwi. pagdating ko sa bahay, super sarap ng higa ko! this will be a good night, naisip ko.

di pa man nag-iinit ang likod ko sa kama, heto na si kuya... nagyayang mag-inuman daw kami nina janise and mike. ay-ay-ay. dahil ayaw kong mabansagang kf (at gusto ko rin naman talagang makasama sila!) sumugod ako sa bahay nina janise.

hindi ako manginginom, promise. 4 shots pa lang ata ng tequila e nafeel ko na ang urge na sumuka bwahahaha! mega suka ito! pasensya na! sa kalagitnaan ng pagkabangenge ko (aware ako sa mga pangyayari), nasaksihan ko ang mga debate, ang pag-inom nila ng mas marami sa kaya ko hahaha, ang maraming tawa at kasiyahan.

hindi ako manginginom! bwahahaha!

janise, good luck sa pag-uwi mo. buti ka pa makikita mo ang nanay ko (at nanay mo syempre!)

home mode

saturday 5pm, kuya and i decided to go to ikea to get some home stuff. masaya pumunta sa ikea. i feel kahit na wala kang nabili, ma-coconsider pa ring fun (and amazement) trip ang lakad mo. here are our good buys:

bed sheet, pillow case, quilt cover -

iisa set lang ang gamit naming bed sheet, quilt cover at pillow cases. this means walang reserba bwahaha... matagal ang labahan ng mga pangsapin. either that or kinakailangan naming matulog minsan ng walang sapin dahil basa pa ang mga nilabhang pangsapin. red ang theme ng sheets namin noon. now, we found some nifty sheets in blue theme. can't wait to wash them up and use them. hmmm i think malamig sa mata ang bagong blue sheets namin! woohoo!

anti-slip mat -

madulas sa banyo namin. i think kung may iskoran ang pagkadulas, may tig-isang points (yes plural ito, points) na kami ni kuya. meron na kaming anti-slip mat na 1 pero bitin ito. kaya bumili kami ng 2 pa. kung may madulas pa dito, ewan ko na lang...

bread container -

maraming ipis sa bahay namin. nakakainis. ang mga bread namin, minsan iniipis! eeew! as in may kagat yung plastic! susmiyong mga ipis, patay gutom! naisahan nyo man kami nang minsan, mas malaki naman ang utak namin sa inyo! bumili kami ng container na may takip. good bye ipissss!

rattan chair -

kiddie chair ito. yosi chair sana ni kuya sa terrace. it's a small chair, really comfy but i guess kailangan ng unan kse habang tumatagal ang upo mo, may pagsasakit na mararanasan sa puwitan. ayayay. but i love this chair! dun na ako magbabasa ng book sa terrace yey!

my good old comb

this is my old untangler. i see two bristles have a tiny tinge of rust now, the plastic edge snapped years ago when it fell for the nth time, and yes, the bristles are not aligned anymore, but this is still my dear comb and i wont replace it for a very loooong time. why will i if it still serves its purpose of untangling my tangly hair day after day after day?

i remember wawin gave it to me for an occasion. i'm guessing it's christmas. he was probably in elementary and i was in college. i consider it a sweet gift because it was my favorite color and it is something i could use everyday.

since that day he gave it to me, i have never misplaced it. i know where to find it and it is in my bag. if it's not there, it's somewhere still see-able. i tell you, i have NEVER misplaced it!

the second time i went home to pinas last july 7, i almost lost it. waaaah! i looked for it all over the house but i didn't find it. and then i had to buy a new comb. :( it was a black plastic comb - won't ever replace my dear untangler. btw, i never liked brushes because i electric-fan-dry my hair after taking a bath and i don't want to use a brush when i do this.

i packed my things with a heavy heart on the 8th of july as i was about to head back to SG from thecx's wedding. i know i lost my best comb but there was nothing i could do but move on with the new black plastic comb.

it was only when i got here and opened my suitcase that i saw it there. i swear i saw it smiling back at me. :) i love this comb. wawin gave it to me. :)

on aquariums, jose mari chan, and memories

there is a fish shop near our place. i see it on my way to fair price whenever i buy groceries. i know deep inside that i would never want to maintain an aquarium. first, i'm not really crazy about fishes... although i have to admit that it's very relaxing to just stare at a pretty aquarium - with all the green plants and bubbles and lid-less fishes and their very smooth moves. second, i don't like the fishy smell. :) as simple as that.

i saw jose mari chan on asap earlier today. i think he never looked a year older. same smile, same cool voice, same smiling, chinky eyes. same old him, except his hair has gone thinner. but he's still the same charming man with the charming voice.

what's with aquariums and jose mari chan? these are stuff i so associate with my papa.

when i was young, my papa had this gigantic aquarium complete with the oxygen setup and all. there were gold fishes - those were all i could remember. i'm not certain if there were other kinds of fishes but i'm sure there were gold fishes. he would feed them everyday, and most likely on a weekend, he would change the water. it was a long process, but he did it anyway. i didn't have this "fishy" passion that he had. it seems it was only looks that we shared. :)

my papa was also very fond of listening to jmc's music. there weren't cds back then, only casette tapes that had lyrics on the covers. i remember i would sing along to constant change (i love constant change!), can't we start over again, sing me a song again, daddy, pls be careful with my heart, christmas in our hearts. soothing songs. :) i would listen to whatever i could find at his racks so somehow, i learned to love his music (and music itself :)).

aquariums and jmc... they just stirred up in me good memories of my father. i know he was not the perfect father and he may not be someone i would wish my kids would refer to as, "when i grow up i want to be like my grandfather". nah. but he's my papa, he may have had a lot of mistakes but who didn't, and who doesn't? i would rather dwell on the happy memories with him. :) on the tidbits that made up his papa-ness...

Have we outgrown our Peter Pans and wings?
We've simply grown too old for tales of knights and kings
'Cause life's a constant change
And nothing stays the same, oh no

-constant change (a senti song i must say ;))

dead

friday night. kuya, ashley, and i had tuktuk dinner. i love this thai restaurant. the service is good, the food is good. not just anghang but there's also great lasa. yum.

our energies were sort of low last night. must be because we slept late for the past nights - spent precious sleeping time watching heroes, oc, dh. after dinner, headed straight home to rest. yes, the plan was to rest (well, after doing the laundry).

once home, we spotted ashley's tequila. shining, shimmering, splendid like gold - enticing us to take it in our lips and in our system. we gave in and decided to have an inuman session.

no lemon, we resorted to all the calamansi (some rotting and all) we could find in our ref.

no shot glass, we resorted to this tall slim glass. it was all we could find hehe.

we were all ignorant. i say this because we didn't know how to open the tequila bottle! either that or something is wrong with this bottle. the boys managed to open it by brute force anyway. :)

so there we were, kuya, ashley, sonny, louis, and liz (hindi uminom :p) taking shots of the devil i came to know as tequila.

i have fond memories of tequila: the last time i took a dose i wasn't aware i couldn't handle, i became dead to the world. that was the first time i felt the sensation of being drunk and bangag. they said i was super hinhin and mayumi when i got drunk in coco beach hehe. and i do recall every second of it. :) the bangag part was semi-good, but the puke part was hell.

so now i know better. last night, the moment i felt the traitor is starting to hit me, that was about 4 shots, i stopped drinking. :) simple. amazing how the tama lingers for hours and hours even if you stopped drinking. around 11pm, i decided to take just a short nap because i was super hilo na. ok, wala pang shower, wala pang toothbrush, just a short nap. promise. at na-dead na ako. :) ang sunod kong gising ay 2am para magwiwi. at 8am para mag rise and shine.

yan. yan ang story ng dead moment ko last night :) ako at ang tequila.

nirwana = heaven daw

can't remember the last time i went swimming... access worldwide stormy outing in laguna?

oct. 6 to 8 was a good break for me. break from all the stress in work, break from all the regularities and predictable pattern of my SG life, break from all the drastic moments of my love life, break from everything. :) getaway... like my world suddenly stopped and yet it moved vigorously and cheerfully in this little haven i'll call nirwana.

puerto galera and boracay are, by far, more heavenly than this beach but i guess it was the great company and just the total relaxation (amidst strenuous but super fun activities) that made it extra-ordinary.

detailed account follows... the 3 days deserve a good documentation. :) and the following people deserve good credit for making the journey enjoyable: janise and mike, marco and anne, and of course my kuya and dear friend liza!

saturday

meeting place was tanah merah mrt station at 7:00. eventually everybody met up at the ferry station. breakfast was ham sandwich (complete with lettuce and tomatoes) courtesy of anne and marco. thank you, thank you! travel time (ferry and shuttle going to resort) was around 1.5 hours.

check-in time was 12 noon, the cottages were just right. not too extravagant, not too jologs either. just right. :) lunch was good but a bit expensive. nevertheless, all good!

after lunch, no time to waste, the pack headed off to the pool area and swim swim ang drama! woohoo! enjoy! ang saya saya! bilad kung bilad, kapit ang itim kung kapit ang itim! so what? i love swimming!

afternoon, banana boat fever! too bad jan had "monthly visitor" (ang sabi ni mike) so she just stayed with manong bangkero, ala rich girl on a speed boat! sosyal! while the rest of us wanted the boat to capsize bwahaha! too bad it didn't. i swear, namaos ako after banana boat kakasigaw ng capsize capsize, left left, right right! susme... kagugulo!

dinner time and then inuman galore na. cocktails on jacks (aka jugs) ang tinoma ng tropa. wa epek, walang tama hehe... para ka lang nag juice ba. not just your regular inuman! janise brought hundreds of strips of paper with questions on them and you are required to answer the question no matter what. :) hay ang saya, learned a lot from the group. funny moment talaga ito! susme! walang kj, walang kf. hehe. sundan mo pa ng 1-2-3 pass gamit ang mga barahang hubo ni marco. halay!

sunday

good morning sunshine! rise and shine! time for breakfast buffet. yum sarap ng food! good as brunch na ito hehe tipid.

ay umulan! never fret, charades is it! fine! panalo ang boys. magaling na kayo kung magaling. basta walang iskoran hehe. hmmm... tulog si anne sa mga panahong ito. favorite ko ang: species, gremlin, eternal sunshine of the spotless mind, lost in translation, kapag puno na ang salop, original sin... hehe ang dami

beach mode naman ang mga bata nang lumabas nang muli ang araw. matapos mang-agaw, magnakaw ng bola, laro ng taya-taya sa dagat ang marco, mike, liza, at caths. habang ang anne at ang kuya, nagbilad sa araw. at ang janise, hmmm... nawala. hehe. masaya palang maglaro ng bola sa dagat ;) hehehe. syempre pa how can i forget the monster moments by liza and mike.

next stop, pool ulit... lazy pool? we just babad there at the edge of the pool, kulitan galore. aha! kangaroo humping moments nina lolo and lola! ang hahalay! at kung anu-ano pang mga imoral na pangitain. bwahaha marurumi! judgmental! hahaha!

wag ka, may volleyball moments pa kami! feeling athletes... pero bugbog ang braso ko ay-ay-ay.

this is the day marco and anne had to bid goodbye. :( byebye marco and anne, fun still for the rest of us. foosball and billiards ala tournament ito! hehe ang saya-saya!

next stop was seafood dinner. kamay kung kamay! ang sarap ng crab at shrimp :) at syempre pa, videoke! everybody had the chance to sing. makapagbagbag-damdaming mga awitin. mwehehehe! and yes, even kuya sang a couple of songs... memorable ang it might be you ;)

at oo, kami na ang nagsara ng pub. halos ipagtabuyan na kami (in a polite way) ni manong waiter. hehehe.

monday

after breakfast, kayak naman ang naisipan ng tropa... hehe, i had a kayak experience years ago with wendy and len but i guess it doesn't count because i didn't row. hahaha! prinsesa effect?! bwisit

wow naman after kayak, feeling ko e super punit naman ang maskels ko sa braso at likod! susme... maraming oa moments... na baka tumama kami sa mga bato at mamatay, na baka may shark, na baka ma bermuda triangle kami, na baka maanod kami ng alon! mwehehe... yep we're alive naman. oa lang.

we are human after all. we bleed, we become tired, we have urges to rest after a long day, we need to stay still even for a while - in short, nag siesta kami. hehe

4:30 pm, this is the moment. ang mga turista, go go na ulit sa bangka pabalik sa little land of SG. haaay pagtungtong ko ng SG, muntik pa ata akong makulong for bringing a pack of cigarette. susme, si manong halos halukayin ang bag ko kung meron pa akong tinatago! anobuzzzz! saksakan ng oa si manong!

all good things come to an end, and the end is the bountiful dinner at cafe cartel. i say bountiful dahil naman... baby back ribs ang order (pwera k liza na chicken at pasta na mukang masarap!) ng lahat! kalaki! at wag ka! ang soup ni liza ay soup ng lahat hehe... salamat liza for sharing your soup to the needy hehe.

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ayan, ayan ang summary ng amazing trip namin. oh, did i say i had just 1 swimsuit and i wore it on all three days?! keber! haha! i loved every moment of it.

pics? pics!

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ps: wala kaming cam ni kuya, naki picture picture lang kami bwahahaha! kawawa naman :( salamat sa pics!

happy birthday, donna! happy birthday, kaloy! happy anniversary too!

when i think of donna, i somehow think of kaloy too - one way or another. just proves that they are a package :) hearts beat as one :) john en marsha :) kaya ni mister, kaya ni misis :) hehe. their birthdays are extra special because they share the same date... almost hehehe. 28 and 29? what's the difference? bwahaha! pareho na rin yun! so grand celebration ito. sa mansyon nila.

i went with suzy and dacks and we almost got lost on our way to their gorgeous house. food was great. daming visitors. finally, i met the characters in donna's teleserye :)

suzy, dacks, and i had a good dose of updates aka chismis hehehe. nakakatuwa. suddenly the spi characters came alive. awww. nakakamiss naman ang spi.

after dinner, we had a tour of the mansion and then off to tequila rounds. 2 rounds pa lang, we bid our good byes na rin kasi medyo late na e. oh well, we didn't make it to the last mrt. cab it is. kay mahal! kaya nga, hangga't maaari, wag ka nang mag convert!

cheers to donna and kaloy! spend the rest of your birthdays together! happy anniversary! aha! may nakita kaming libro mukang gamit na gamit! bwahahaha!

ang pangarap nyang lumpia

nag text sakin si wawin kahapon. sabi nya, "wala kong bagsak :)". ayan tuwang-tuwa kami dahil ga-graduate na si wawin! yey! sa tuwa ko, napatawag ako sa kanya.

chika chika, kumustahan, kulitan. hanggang naitanong ko kung anong ulam nila. sabi nya, humiling daw sya kay mami na magluto ng lumpia. peborit namin ang lumpia ni mami kse may pagka-thai ang style nito. imbis na lagyan ng itlog ang hilaw na giniling na baboy, ginigisa na na ang baboy (walang itlog) kasama ng carrots at pinutul-putol na sotanghon, saka ibabalot sa lumpia wrapper at ipi-prito. champion.

so si mami, upon baby's request, mega run sa pure gold para mag grocery ng ingreydyeynts. ok. matapos ang ilang sandali heto na si mami, dala-dala ang mga supot. "yeheeey, lumpia ulam!" yan siguro ang naisigaw ni wawin sa isip nya.

bwahahahaha! tawa ko na lang dahil sa makatuwid, ang lumpiang thai style ay nauwi sa lumpiang ready-to-cook straight from pure gold. just prito-prito and you have your lumpia. bwahaha, kawawang wawin. sabi ni mami, "tinamad ako mag prepare. langya, puro pala patatas yung lumpiang nabili ko!" hahaha.

to further degrade wawin, nagluto ako ng lumpiang thai style ni mami. at ininggit ko sya bwahaha! ang bait ni ate. talaga naman. ang pangarap nyang lumpia, sa mga kamay (at tyan) ko naisakatuparan. *evil grin

jana's visit day 3

day 3 for jana: possibly a brief malaysia experience and singpore zoo. how will i document it if i'm here at home? hahaha. i woke up with crashing thunder and lightning, pouring angry rain. self-check: headache's still there... agonizing headache. argh.

so ate josh, i leave jana in your hands. :) have a good day and enjoy the animals! animal scent and all! haha ;)

jana, hope you had a blast in your stay here in SG. as i said, there may have been flaws that tainted your grand vacation, still you had the grace and composure to be happy. woohoo! luvya girl!

i'm walking on sunshine wohoho!

it's been a very long time since i had a good walk under a nice sun. yesterday, on my way to meet the HS girls:

* it was 10 am
* the sun's good
* walking my way to the bus stop
* i had a mega relaxed pace - as opposed to my daily hurried and heart-pumping steps to work
* good music was playing in my ears (coming from my player, mind you. and not just ringing in my ears haha)
* i was singing along with every song (96.3 ikaw ba yan?)
* though i was squinting at the sun, i love the feel of sunshine on my hair, face, skin!

i needed this moment. i call it my sun-shiny-moment. woohooo! i love it!

jana's visit day 2

so again, according to the magic starbucks tissue, day 2 = sentosa (aka sentowsa). meeting time was 10am, vivo city. but since we are filipinos, we met at around 1130. :) mind you, this is due to unavoidable circumstances: ate josh's MC and my need return the dvds i rented. hehehe.

after lunch, we headed to straight to sentosa - with prickly heat and all. highlights were:

luge and sky lift(?) - still the best attraction for me! if only my helmet didn't fall off. good thing it was still strapped... on my neck! bwahahaha hindi naman ako masyadong na-srangle to death. great ride! next was sky lift - it stopped for a few minutes while we were way way up there. scary but good. what's funny? we saw this kuya pinoy coming from the opposite lane. we asked him to take our pic! he did so and asked how he will give it to us. ang sagot ni jana ay: "anong friendster mo?" bwahaha... pinoy nga naman.

underwater world and dolphin lagoon - *flashback* newport aquarium with thecx and michie awww... miss these girls. *flashback*..... this is my 2nd time to see the sentosa underwater world. jana had lots of pics to keep :) good for her! after the aquarium, we stopped for snacks and uh, naps :) yes. thanks to delifrance's good terrace we were able to steal some naps. and then time for the dolphin show. i wish i had a dolphin. they're creatures so sweet! hehehe. i heard from a colleague that one of the old dolphins in this show died some time ago. i bet it was one we saw last year. :( poor creature. may he rest in peace.

next stop supposedly was the songs of the sea show. i felt the heat was too much for me... by this time i have a terrible headache and a general feeling of being unwell. i said my goodbyes and best wishes to enjoy their night still and headed home - with a subway sandwich for me and kuya.

i feel good for jana. despite some flaws that happened that morning, everything will be ok jana! :) nice talk during our delifrance snack/nap time. :)

jana's visit day 1

so jana's here :) according to the itinerary so carefully documented on that darned starbucks napkin, friday = jurong bird park, marina bay, clark quay, bar. i wasn't able to avail my planned sick leave 'cause work didn't permit me to. oh well. ate josh - justified SL and all - made a great job touring the tourists in our absence(s).

i met them (ate josh, her mom, her kuya, and jana) at the merlion site at around 6pm. yes, i had to do the seemingly 100km walk/dash from suntec to city link, to esplanade, to merlion. loooong walk.

next stop was dinner at clark quay. ate josh and i were experts in commuting around singapore - so we opted to take a cab bwahaha! no luck in hailing a cab though so we took a bus instead and went to vivo city for dinner.

after dinner, ate josh wasn't feeling very well. as i said, justified SL. so it was just me and jana and clark quay. there was an i-don't-know-the-name festival, really festive with all the lights! we thought of going to MOS too. we searched for it with all our hearts and souls. block c! darn it, took us 10 years to locate MOS. and when we got there, we didn't know how to get in. bwahahaha! so back-out ito.

i dunno how we ended up drinking a mug of beer and eating chicken wings on this boat resto. surreal! it now beats the weirdness of the aloe vera incident. and we were like staring blankly at the waters - over the whole MOS thingy! hahaha! sheeesh...

overall, the theme was: "we didn't get our butts inside MOS!" hahaha very funny! and so the day is over, tomorrow is a new day and adventure :)

offline on a sunday

this seems weird - everybody on my ym buddy list is offline!

i'm chatting with camille, though (invi mode). still, it's weird all 148 chums offline!

aha! i see april online :) and now josh! :) they're waking up :)

bumnesss (not so)

another saturday. while the housemates opted to go to malaysia to have lunch at pizza hut (yup, you read it right), kuya and i chose to bum around at home. we have lots of dvds here :) what better way to spend the weekend - be in pjs all day, watch dvds while lying/half sleeping in bed.

kuya cooked the famous yummy spag recipe while i cleaned the house - swept the floor, mopped the floor, cleaned the stove and sink. dahil and dumi-dumi. argh.

after the chores and eating the hearty lunch, viewing time na. a little bit of oc, 200 pounds beauty, and rumor has it. 200 pounds beauty - very funny but maybe way too dramatic? rumor has it - weird, i was not too happy about it. good thing i was ironing clothes while watching it. ;)

now, we're watching E! on tv, while blogging, while the bed sheets are cooking in the washer, while my feet are prepped up on the sofa - still on pjs! don't worry i plan to take a bath before sleeping. :) hay this is life!

in a few minutes, we're off to stuff our tummies with dinner. ang saya saya!!!

si tita, tito, at ang pool house ko

i've been watching OC for the past 2 weeks. yes, after the desperate housewives marathon, i'm on the 2nd season of oc - loving every episode. hay. i'm hooked. so hooked i call seth's parents tita and tito. yes, i call kirsten tita and i call sandy tito. as in, "bilisan mo kuya, hinihintay na tayo nina tita". and kuya would ask me, "at san ka nakatira? sa pool house?" mwehehe... makitira ba?! makirelate ba?!

i only have one worry in life now - where the heck will i get season 3? i'm running out of season 2 episodes! they don't have season 3 yet on the video rental. they're selling it though for $69. no, thank you. i'll just wait.

i think ryan is gay. hehe i have nothing against it, pero naglalalaki-lalakihan sya e! nakakairita! bwahaha! i like seth and summer. :) and julie cooper is the perfect bitch. haha! of course i love tito and tita - salamat sa pag-ampon sa akin at pagpapatira sa pool house. i love it! hahaha!

usapang bata

napag-usapan namin nung mga nakaraang araw ang aming kabataan. bigla kong naalala ang mga kalaruan ko noon. haaay nakakamiss. sarap bumalik sa pagiging bata :) hindi kami nilunod noon sa laruan. at maraming laruan na inisip kong sana meron ako pero wala hehehe. pero masasabi kong masaya na ako sa mga childhood toys ko:

pinky - isa syang teddy bear na pink. malaki. halos sing laki ko nung mga 4 yrs old ako. lagi ko syang yakap-yakap sa pagtulog ko (with matching pink na night gown). dumating ang panahon na medyo dumumi na sya at nadadagdagan ang edad ko. hindi ko na sya yakap-yakap at ang pwesto na nya ay sa tuktok ng cabinet namin - kasama ng ibang lumang laruan at alikabok :( hanggang isang araw, kailangan na syang itapon dahil na rin siguro sa kalumaan. i miss pinky.

barbie at nadia - si barbie - sinong di nakakakilala sa kanya, taas ang kamay. hehe. si nadia - ay ang barbie kong egay. konti lang ang damit nila, as in tig-isa lang sila. pinangarap kong magkaron din sila ng magagarang damit at accessories pero hindi yun ang priorities ng magulang ko nung panahong yon kaya tiis-tiis lang din sina barbie at nadia sa maigsing kumot. di ko maalala kung ginupitan ko sila ng buhok. hindi ko rin alam kung san na sila napapunta ngayon.

jakiston - marami akong jackstone set. merong nabibiling mura sa tindahan, yung malaking mabigat na bola na pangit ang talbog, lagi kang dead. pero meron din namang mga medyo mamahalin, magaan yung bola at maganda ang talbog. may case pa. ilan sa mga exhibitiong naaalala ko: around-the-world, check, dot, point, cave.

pick-up-sticks at chinese jackstone - hindi ko forte ang mga ito. ni hindi ata ako nagkaron nito e. pero nakasubok ako kahit papano. hindi ko sya trip noon. solid jackstone fan siguro ako.

10-20 at chinese garter - masaya ang larong ito. pwedeng garter, pero may kamahalan ata ang garter noon kaya kadalasan, goma lang na pinagdugtong-dugtong ang gamit namin sa bahay. sa school, garter hehehe. uh, hanggang ngayon memorize ko pa ang steps ng 10-20.

gumamela - gumamela bubbles! masayang-masaya ako pag nakakapag palobo ako ng gumamela. naaalala ko, lolo ko ang nagturong gumawa nito. mula non, lagi na akong nagpapalobo. ang saya saya noon! tamang-tama may puno kami ng gumamela sa harap ng bahay kaya di ko kailangang mamitas sa kapit-bahay. kaya nung nagpunta kami sa malaysia kamakailan, tuwang-tuwa ako nung nakakita ako ng sandamakmak na puno ng gumamela: pink, red, orange! wow!

lutu-lutuan - hindi yung mga mamahaling plastic. lata ito. as in may mga tatak pa ng minola sa ilalim. binili ata ng lola ko sa palengke. enjoy! marami-rami rin akong "nalutong" putahe dito.

kisses and stationeries - wala akong batang kakilala na hindi naniniwalang nanganganak ang kisses. nilalagay pa sa bulak pero di ako nakapagpaanak kahit isa. hehe. stationeries - meron akong mangilan-ngilan. ang uso pa noon ay makukulay na folders, dun mo iipunin yung mababangong statio. di ko maalala kung san ako bumibili pero i think uso rin ang palitan ng statio kaya nagiging iba-iba ang collection mo.

buti pa ang bata, laruan lang ang problema hahaha.

ang hooters at ang gang

yes gang talaga ito. last friday was the 30th of august. uh, very informative. camachca, cutchoja, libunama, mabalosu, and martirje (ubs characters ito) had plans of going to a videoke on this date. martirje couldn't make it. eventually, mabalosu and jo didn't make it too because of an emergency.

so the rest ended up going to clark quay for dinner. janise said papasa kami sa amazing race: janise with the best friend, mike. marco with the gf, anne. and caths with the brother, kuya. hehe... ayz.

hooters it is - with the skimpy shorts and oozing (not so) boobs. ibang-iba ang nakita ko sa mga pelikula hahaha. baby back ribs: perfect! all 6 of us were satisfied with our meals, and then a few rounds of beer and tequila followed. tipsy tipsy, but not too bad :) pampahimbing ng tulog later.

we met 3 filipina waitresses there. and dami na talagang pinoy dito hehehe. :) there was lovely, the ojt, who kept on fixing her hair as she attended to us. there was jasmine-trias-look-alike, who was fine and kind. and there was ate-slang who was, uh, slang :)) hahaha. yun lang.

it was a great night, gang! ulitin natin ito. masaya ang hot seat session na ito bwahahaha!

btw, walang pics kse the high tech cam was with jo so nobody brought one. i therefore conclude: no jo = no pics. hehe.

btw2, remarkable ang group sa tabi ng table namin dahil malulungkot sila hehehe. hello friday night ito! hindi ito lamay! masaya pa ata ang mga lamay na napuntahan ko kesa sa kanila. hahaha show some bright spirit! loosen up! bwahahaha nangealam...

wala

yan ang nangyari ngayong araw na ito. ang saya, diba? :)

tongtongtongtong

tongtongtongtong pakitong-kitong
alimango sa dagat
malaki at masarap
mahirap mahuli
sapagkat nangangagat

repeat (tempo faster) 100x

-ulam namin for dinner. yummmmmm.

masakit sa dibdib...

ang sobrang pagtawa. watched a movie with ate josh, jess, and mel - high school friends. patok talaga pag nagkita-kita ang dominic. :) imagine a HS senior class with a very diverse group of girls. there are different circles of friends within the 51-member class, but like open-the-basket game, each member could jump into other baskets and could still be so in sync with the rest of the bunch. ang friend ko ay friend mo ba... ganun.

so the dominic people SG chapter are increasing in number. we are 5 now. glo-ann, more popularly known now as joanne, wasn't able to join us because we had no way of contacting her except via friendster. and by the time she read the message, we were already laughing our hearts out.

the last time i saw ate josh was around a month ago in food rep. just met her for merienda because she happened to be around my work area that time - at kumain kami ng aloe vera. period. the last time i saw mel was during access days. saw her crossing one of the streets in ayala. hehe. and the last time i saw jess was way back HS pa! wow.

so it was hairspray. nice... funny musical. kakaiba si john travolta. parang naka-drugs hehehe. ate josh saw the film recently but didn't mind watching it again because she thought it was a cool film. at umiibig sya kay di-ko-matandaan-ang pangalan. basta yung bida ba sa high school REUNION.

nawala ang kredibilidad namin ni mel dahil ang sabi ni mel, "para syang si john travolta na nilagyan lang ng pading". ang sabi ko naman, "ay! si michelle pfeifer ba yun?!? i thought she was just some old woman". bwahaha! the!!! sya talga si john travolta... at sya talaga si michelle pfeifer! the!

this was followed by dinner at secret recipes where we met the pinay waitress, rechele. she said she's haunted by feelings of loneliness here in SG but seeing her co-pinoys makes her day. she badly wanted to sit with us and laugh with us and just be crazy... yes, it was very evident that we were a crazy pack of "older" girls. sheesh. she is 19. we're 27. so? :) she doesn't look 19! bitter ito? :) salbahe! mabait si rechele. period.

last stop was starbucks to plan for jana's trip here on sept. we listed all the spots we want her to see, made a schedule, and documented everything on a starbucks tissue. yep. tissue it is. crazy girls! pati ata attire ni jana e naplano na namin. hehe. somewhere in between the laughs, hindi ko maipaliwanag kung papanong naging hayop si jana. ang chismis nga naman... bwahaha!

heto ang permutation ng pics namin:

busog

mukang extension ng birthday ko. kuya cooked spag tonight. i cooked fried chicken. made some garlic bread. top it all off with left-over cake from my birthday. at malamig na malamig na baso ng coke. ayan birthday ko na ulit hehehe.

i had a very poor appetite for the past few days but tonight was the ultimate lamon night. lamon kung lamon... haha... aray aray naempacho na ako. a good walk would be nice so i went to the pool area, muni-muni, lakad-lakad, isip-isip, hum-hum, at kung ano-ano pang double-double. sheesssh...

the water seemed so inviting, i wanted to dive and swim - if only this could strip off whatever needs to be stripped from my body and soul. wow sosyal. body and soul ito.

matapos ang muni-muni ko, nakita ko si manong sonic lobby guard sa lobby (kse kung wala sya sa lobby hindi na sya lobby guard diba?). nakipagchikahan ako. ok sya kakwentuhan. kaso tinanong ang sweldo ko. a manong, ok ka lang? haha. nalaman ko, inutangan pala nya ang housemate ko. aha! may balak pang mangutang si manong.

i asked him if he doesn't see ghosts during the night shift. he said he just prays when he feels scared, and that he doesn't believe in mumu. he said that mumus are just people. yes, i agreed. i met one and lived with one for 2 years! uy, ni-re-relate!

in the end, bumaba rin ang kinain ko... ngayon lang ako ulit nabusog nang ganito. yum!

surprise, surprise!

august 17, my birthday. :) i felt like a monster that early friday morning. i know i have to face the truth some day, why not now? hit me on my birthday so i'll feel angry and not tend to look back.

for the past few weeks, i have been pretty hopeful that things will somehow work out. it didn't seem that way. so i asked for honesty. i wasn't expecting those facts but there they were. it hit me solidly. if you ask for the truth, don't expect that you won't get hurt. so what could i do? discreetly cry amidst work.

i asked myself why i had to put myself in such an unhappy state on my birthday. i could have asked for it some other time, but i guess i'm in the mood for it. hahaha... to get over things soon.

on the other side of the universe, i was perfectly clueless that my kuya was brewing up a secret party for me. he asked me to invite JUST my office mates for a quiet dinner at the house. menu was liempo - his specialty.

so i asked the good-natured 4 office buddies. janise and marco (with anne) confirmed. mommy jen and sunshine declined for funny reasons hehehe. so i was expecting a totally quiet dinner for 5.

time to go. my 3 guests and i went home together for our supposedly liempo meal.

from the street, i could see that there were a few shadows inside our house. weird, i thought. kuya should be alone today cooking his liempo. aha, must be just the other housemates.

at the lobby of our home, marco, jan, and anne were busy logging in when i spotted james and mitch alighting a taxi. aha! my scheming brother... i sensed it won't be a dinner for just 5 after all. "anong ginagawa nyo dito?!?!", i asked james. "uh, housewarming", sagot ni james. duh!!! you're so buko! hahaha.

so we went together to our unit. i opened the door and voila... some 20+ friends shouted and greeted me! grabe i was so shocked and overwhelmed to see my very good friends:

mommy jen and ian - who said they can't go to my simple dinner

sunshine and jo - same i-can't-go drama hehehe

len, mommy jen's housemate

liza - nakakapagtakang di nya ko tinext... hahaha kaya pala

james - ang nakita ko sa lobby kaya ako kinutuban

mitch - and kasama ni james nang nahuli ko sila

michelle - a college friend whom i haven't seen for ages

cindy - my spi batchmate

weng - spi and ubs ofcmate (and mind align chatmate as well)

donna - who doesn't know her? hehe

guen - spi and ubs ofcmate

suzy - spi ofcmate and bundok buddy

louis and liz - my housemate and his gf

edwin - a mainstay in our house

sonny - my housemate

noel - kuya's friend... and naarkilang cook hehe

janise - ubs bud ang kasama kong pauwi

marco and anne - ubs bud and his gf, kasama ko rin pauwi

allan and carol - kuya's good friend

mike - kuya's good friend, not the monster one

nick - ubs colleague and kuya's friend as well

it always prepped me up when people greet me on my birthday. sa kahit papanong paraan, i just love it when people give me well wishes. it's specially true today, maybe i feel i badly need the warm wishes on my break-up season. uh. kontento na ako sa simpleng happy birthday, caths! pero what just happened that friday night? i cried talaga when i saw everyone's faces. grabe!

there was liempo, shrimp, chicken, spag for everybody. good food, good company... grabe ang galing ni kuya super saludo ako. wala akong masabi. mahal ako ng kuya ko! and i'm proud of it.

thanks to everybody who came. you really made my birthday special. and thanks to my kuya... for everything... you all made me realize that there is always a reason for life to be sweet despite pain and bitterness.

i'm inching towards the sweetest part of the sweet. :)

genting adventure (delayed post ito... way too delayed)

so here it is... last, last thursday night, i rushed and packed my things for a two-day, one-night trip to genting theme park in malaysia (aug 11-12). my worries initially were: a) hindi ko na alam ang kapasidad ng katawan ko pagdating sa mga daring rides (janise shared the same sentiments). b) baka atakihin ako sa puso mwehehehe. yun lang naman. other than that, i'm sooo game for this trip!

janise and mike and i met at lavender station - the pick-up point for the coach. the coach was great. with tv monitors and high tech chairs that massage you, and hold your feet for you, and all that fancy fancy stuff... sabi nga nina janise, para ka lang nagpaparlor bwahahaha!

there were a few taranteyshus moments at the immigration but everything went well in crossing the singapore-malaysia border. long ride it was. comparable to a bagiuo trip at more than 6 hours + zigzag roads + cold climate when you get to the top of the mountains. oh we saw the petronas towers from afar! as in afaaaaaar hehe. it's also remarkable that malaysia is so much alike the philippines - almost felt like home.

so we got to genting highlands. yey! it was cold! good thing we heeded marco's advice and we took sweatshirts. otherwise, nginig ito. we checked in to our hotel room - which looked a lot like a crime scene! beds were undone and pushed far towards the wall, a few bills and coins (which seemed too much for a tip) were scattered on the table, and the room was just in a general state of disarray... put simply.

we called the operator and we asked for a new decent room. the new one was much better yey! a hearty lunch followed and then we headed off to the outdoor park. kelamig! rides time: i was almost ready to say byebye to my good lunch feeling ko susuka talaga ako, but hindi naman... bwahaha! had a couple of rides but i guess the most "unique" one was space shot: you sit on a chair, they lift you heck knows how high and give you a vertical drop. the feeling was kakaiba! can't explain! siguro that's how it would feel to die bwahahaha!

i also have to say this is the first time i saw that much fog... mapapakanta ka talaga ng "ale, nasa langit na ba ako? mama, kayo po ba si san perdo" hehehe. add a thousand Arab ladies in black overalls - mata lang ang kita - and you have an almost eerie place. i dunno why, but they scare me. sorry. i feel they're black ladies. :(

the best ride, i guess, is flying coaster. it's just like flying... ya know, like super man! todo! si superman ba nagfli-flip when he flies? naaah! flying coaster even flips you when you fly! how cool could that be? hehehe! short but super enjoyable ride. this is by far our favorite!

ripley's was also good... because it also served as a haunted adventure. todo tili at takutan ito. susme. ano ba kami? kids? gazz. it was good :) kid in me unleashed again.

ok, by 10pm, halos pilay na ang paa ko sa pagod. at uh, mabaho ang kanang paa ko kse yung boots sa snow world, basa at mabaho! susme dikit sa medyas ito! ang baho! pwe! oh well, so what?! dinner at kenny rogers and then a good bath and then a good rest. janise, nagitgit ata kita sa kama? soweee! hihihi!

the next day, we missed the flying venture because there wasn't too much time. this is the one where they give you a hard air blow so you fly... just like sky diving? too bad. good luck next time! we tried the longest cable car. and loooong it is! long and lush. this was where we formulated other travel plans. thailand, malaysia, japan? i'm game as long as the body, and of course the wallet, is not weak! hehe!

we also scouted the shops for a few pasalubongs and impromptu birthday gift. ehem, thanks, jan for the boxers and uh, undies. hehehe. i luv it! thanks thanks!

after lunch, it was time to go. mistulang mga pulubi ang drama namin sa stop-overs. susme tama bang simutin ang mga ringgit? ayan wala na kaming pambili ng dinner at souvenirs. susme! wow tunog forenjer talaga! ashush!

so another looong drive and off at lavender station once again... and finally - home! yey!

dear janise and mike,
thanks for tagging me along this very wonderful trip. :) thanks for the great company! woohoo! looking forward to more trips with you!

love,
caths =)

pics:
genting pics

freaky 0810

my first post 3 yrs ago was dated aug. 10. there, i sort of admitted that i was single.

after 3 yrs, aug. 10, i documented again that i am single. nice? hehe. kay galing naman... ha-ha-ha.

so ang aug. 10 pala for me ay araw ng pagtanggap na single ako?! haller! hahaha! dapat i-proklamang holiday ito.

genting post coming up... tonight sana :) hehe

ay-ay-ay

it happened again on my birth month. kay saya. :-) parang ayaw ko na ng august. maraming masalimuot na nangyayari. well... life goes on. single kung single ang drama...

single? but hey, there's genting tomorrow. something to look forward to. and there's my birthday the next weekend. and then what? maraming maraming araw ng pag move on. :-) ooh wow i could smile. :-) sa blog, of course...

tomorrow, genting muna. ok? ok! magsaya, maglibang, masaya pa rin ang buhay, get over it, and move on. :-)

isang gabing madilim

it's a holiday. it was... it's 1am and i'm finding my way to my sleep. not that i need it. i've had too much this afternoon and as a consequence, i can't sleep now. so here i am, eyes wide open, sitting on my bed, lights out, and writing my whatevers.

kuya and i went to vivo city this evening. he bought his gym bag and i was supposed to buy me a sweatshirt... couldn't find one. too bad. i was looking for a white one with little touches of pink. naaah... walang ganun.

we had subway sandwiches for dinner. i insisted he had one despite his diet. darned diet. hehe. roast beef is just superb - not with everything on it... just lettuce, tomatoes, cucumbers. just right. parmesan oregano bread is out so honey oat it is. goody.

i wonder why i had to be shut out. well, if it's the way you want things to be, then so be it. you won't hear a word from me from now on. i hope i'll have the strength to pull this act somehow. if you ever need me, i'm just a buzz away. it's been some time since i unleashed words of anger... they may sound harsh, sorry. but they've been kept in there for too long, had to let it out somehow. :) and i did, and it feels good, and it felt bad (a little).

oh, did i mention it's independence day? independence from everything. woohoo!

hala hala

naninikip ang dibdib ko. syet... buti na lang... ano... kwan... yun na nga yun. buti na lang! thanks.

makabuluhang usapan at ang paraiso

mabuti pa ang mga impromptu lakad natutuloy. mangilan-ngilang attempts din ang sinubukan namin ni donna para magkita. at finally this is it... nagkita rin kagabi pagkatapos nyang asikasuhin ang baby nya hehe...

since matagal-tagal ang papatayin kong oras, sabi ko makahanap ng library. stick my nose in a book or two - yesss corny ba? bakit ba? this is my trip. pero mukang natakot ako maghanap kse baka maligaw ako hehehe... buti na lang busilak ang puso ni janise. sinamahan nya muna ako. chumika muna kami sa bonsai garden. the same garden we so desperately searched for during our first day. awww memories.

ayun naupo kami sa gitna ng hardin - na amoy incense (either that or jebs). nag-usap about love life. hehe. that's life. realizations, thoughts, ayos, airport moments, how much some people are willing to give it another chance... and another one after the another... and another one... sigh. if only things are running how you want them to... but that's not life. that probably is paradise and paradise is in heaven, not earth. whatever happened to heaven by your side... hmmm...

so time check, time to meet donna. byebye chumy janise. thanks for the good conversation.

hello, donna. kain sana kami sa new york new york kaya lang 1 mile ang pila e patay gutom na kami. lipat kami sa aming first-date spot - thai express. chow = baby squid, at some gulay in oyster sauce. yum.

okray... maraming okray... yun lang hehe... hindi naman. maraming boy talk. kung bakit sila ganun, hindi ko na talaga maipapaliwanag. hehe. it's a common denominator. boys will be boys and girls will be girls. alter some bits and pieces and again, it will come down to "but that's not life". :-) fine.

"you've had your chance and you didn't grab it". yan. magandang theme din ito (pwedeng pang formal theme writing nung high school). :-) di ba? pagkatapos ng lahat you just shake your head and tell yourself, bakit ba hindi ko pa kinuha nung may pagkakataon pa ako. mwehehehe. well... wala lang. sorry na lang sa ating mga taong nagkamali ng pinili. baka sa paradise, tama na lahat ng decisions natin hehe.

life is good with great friends. :-) almost as good as paradise if you come to think of it.

solitude

this world is full of chaos, full of shame. you hardly have space to do what you have to do. it's hard, almost impossible, to find a silent, peaceful spot for you and you only. and when you find that sacred place of peace, what do you do? you hold on to it as if it's yours. it may not be yours at all moments, but at certain moments of need, you know you can have your share of serenity and secrecy and privacy and hush. and then you can act freely and do everything you can to make you feel good and relieved. get rid of everything that's negative!

sa 4th floor. ok ang cr dito. walang tao palagi. hehehe!

maybe

it's better this way...
maybe not...
who knows?

i love my job

gets my mind off things…

thank God for ears and lips

for the past few days, there is an ongoing battle. the war within isn't over yet... and won't be over soon. both leagues are not showing any sign of white flag. wit, sarcasm, pity, almost hatred, love, unanswered questions, frustration, sadness, fear, deceit, doubt, pain, hope. name it, the feeling is probably there... all these except happiness. at least not for now.

if there's one thing i pray for, it is courage. courage to face tomorrow even without the light you're accustomed to see. i pray i will be like the blind. he does not see the sun but knows that it is there just because he can feel the warmth. he has the wisdom to understand that the absence of light doesn't necessarily mean that warmth is hiding beneath the clouds as well.

at the end of this day, i thank God for ears and lips... ears that patiently listen to your tales no matter how negative they may sound, and lips that tell you the truth no matter how painful they may make you feel. words you probably don't prefer to hear, but heck they are nothing but the truth and these are all you need to hear :). you see these ears and lips come along with this package most people call friends.

kung papatulan nya lang ako...

mangangalunya ako.



bwahahaha!!!

naks. pasintabi kay mikey... 'di naman nya 'to nababasa. dead ako.

ito'y isang HS-like crush lang naman... na may todong kilig hahaha! as in kilig to the bones. aaay ang landi!

wenongayon kung me girlfriend sya? may boyfriend naman ako! bwahahaha! pwede! hahaha dead talga ako kay mikey neto. bubugbugin ako nun hahahaha!

one more gift

if there's one more gift
i'd ask of You, Lord
it would be peace here on earth;
as gentle as Your children's laughter
all around, all around

your people have grown weary
of living in confusion
when will we realize
that neither heaven is at peace
when we live not in peace

grant me serenity within
for the confusions around
are mere reflections
of what's within
what's within me

when you come to think about it

sometimes, you are exerting way too much effort on something that's not really worth it. no matter how many times you scold yourself about not thinking about it too much, about not pouting about it too much, you become too helpless and rant about it after all... which is sooo wrong.

giving your all may not be right at all times. i believe in doing your best. but i've slightly modified this belief now that i learned and i guess i know better. now i know that you have to give your best to something that's really worth it, to something that's for a better cause. now i know that your effort is just wasted if exerted on the wrong things.

so whatever happened to "give you best and God will do the rest"? it still is true, only this time i know that i'll have to choose carefully where i will pour my energies. to be wise - is a lifetime hope. 26 years of my life has passed and i'm still in nursery level in this subject --> wisdom. learning it is a painful, and sometimes excruciating, process. sometimes it strips off all your ego, all your pride, and you swallow all that's bitter and sore.

realizations... you keep on having a good dose as you get older. ;) in the end, i hope all will be well.

tanong

sometimes i ask
is it too much to ask?
and then you ask
why do i ask?
nothing, just felt the urge to ask.
so i ask.

lame... all lame.

naisip ko lang...

i was watching tv patrol after dinner. there was news about a fire in a certain province - it involved the mayor's house and damaged millions worth of textile and stuff. and what's predictable was shown. the people said that there was only one fire truck in their area. had there been other fire trucks (that actually contained water, huh!) available, it wouldn't have been that bad.

and i thought, grabe naman... every time there's fire, there are complaints of inadequate fire trucks. there may be enough fire trucks, but there is just not enough water. sigh... problems we had from 10 or 20 or 30 years ago are still problems today... and will probably remain unsolved for the next couple of years? nakakalungkot naman.

the closest i could get to having a green thumb

i always wanted to grow herbs and plants back at home. i was dreaming of picking up basil leaves for a pasta dish, or rosemary and oregano for adobo, sage would be good too, green onions... the works. fresh herbs would be great! (instead of the bottled spices mccormick has to offer - mccormick is a dish saver though! lalo na't wala naman talaga akong herb garden hehe).

there's this quasi-veranda outside our room now and i also dream of having something lush outside. small flowering plants maybe, if not herbs. we were in ikea last saturday and there i found the perfect green living creatures - small plants with colors so vibrant! deep, deep green with small flowers as well. nice. really nice. but i thought, hey, do i even have a green thumb to begin with? i can't tell 'cause i haven't tried.

my lola ading and lola floring both have passion for the green life. lola floring used to take care of plants in pque and lola ading has this really wild array of plants and flowers, even fruits, in mindoro. really refreshing!

seems like i have the passion, but i don't have the will to even try. i didn't buy the plants in ikea. i thought it would be a shame if they died on my hands. shame and pity for the plants if i fail them. i don't know if i could have a dedication strong enough to make them happy. anak ba ito? hehe.

last saturday still, we had tepanyaki for dinner and we bought way too much toge. the washed up excess toge was left in the strainer by the sink. guess what? the following day, there was a sign of green life! and i was really happy seeing little fountains of leaves sprouting from the toge! and i felt a sense of attachment to the little sprouts and i watered them everyday for the past 5 days!

the day came when we had to use the strainer - that was yesterday. i transferred the sprouts of life into a paper plate and left it by the stove. i can't help it, i had to take a picture before it dies...



...after all, it's the closest i could get to having a green thumb. :) goodbye toge sprouts!

late bloomer sa multiply and it's all good

wow. i started using multiply today. ok naman sya :) nakakatuwa. nakakaaliw. ang tagal na ata ng multiply ngayon ko lang ni-try. maybe because it's a holiday and wlang magawa masyado dito. hahaha.

kulimlim, mukang uulan... dark clouds ahead. windy.

last night, kuya bought his new baby mac. naku! hindi na makausap. and i get to keep the old laptop. i don't really mind. :)

i'm keeping my old lowtech phone - because i can call, i can SMS and it's all good.

i'm keeping my old creative MP3 player - because i can listen to my playlist and it's all good.

i'm keeping kuya's old laptop - because i can chat, i can blog, i can check my email and it's all good.

ummm... hindi naman ako nagsasalita ng tapos... pero i swear, it's all good. hehehe. good luck!

hilaw

i realized just now how i've been a hilaw in every aspect sa aking IT career.

when i started to work on december of 2001, i was hired as a software engineer. i was assigned to an internal team that worked on applications for the department using VB. funny how rico, donna, and i had 3 different versions of the time tracking system 'cause we were just playing around with it while we were waiting for final instructions kung ano talaga ang ipapagawa sa amin. petiks pa kami non.

di pa man nag-iinit ang pwet namin sa team na yun, we had to be deployed to client teams because there were needs for staff. so it turned out: hilaw ako sa VB. donna and i were assigned to work on a team that worked on perl, unix, mainframe.

perl, i semi-like :) walang masyadong ek-ek kasi e.

but for unix and mainframe, it was a struggle. i handled a nightmare unix project. before i even made it work decently, the project ended. saved by the bell? maybe. the little things i learned on MF side were: code a little using PL1 and run autojcls . don't ask me to troubleshoot pag may error sa ni-run. i just can't dig it. and mostly mga 1-line modifications lang ang ni-handle ko noon.

again, oonti pa lang ang project na nahawakan ko nang magkaron ng bagong team: QA team. so hilaw ulit ako sa dev. we volunteered to be a part of the new QA team. masaya ang team. the thing is, all the while i thought we were performing "authentic" qa tasks... hindi pala. we were merely checking output files. syempre nahasa ang pagiging keen kahit papano, pero there are so many things about quality assurance na hindi ko alam... hilaw ulit na QA kse the team was dissolved after more than a year... more than a year of doing what i thought was real QA.

opening ulit sa ibang team, i was deployed as dev ulit. hay hilo na ito. mostly unix na naman umikot ang mundo. takot ako sa mundong ito. for 6 months, i adjusted to new work ulit. pero... di pa nga nakaka-adjust masyado, change of company naman ito. as QA ulit... note: hilaw pa rin akong dev at this point.

hay pagod na ko sa kwento ng career ko. so QA na naman. medyo authentic manual QA work naman for more than a year. pero not so pa rin. nung panahong feeling ko time to move on to another company na ulit, mantakin nyong hanapan ako ng automation skills at experience sa mercury at kung ano anong achuchuchu. marami na palang uso na hindi ko alam. :( and they judged me not qualified - for the longest dragging time because i have no test director skills. dang. hilaw pa rin after all. hay.

and then finally, i got this job. so what do you expect, as of now hilaw pa rin ako. kase i wasn't hired as QA, but as QA support. my first support job. hay... hilaw. so i have no expertise. a little bit of everything doesn't hurt, though. and that's the story of my career. kakaloka.

* saludo ako sa spi for making me aware of CMM processes. :)

* pwede bang maging lover na lang ako? haha. mas masarap mag love kesa mag career! naku!

may ubo, may sipon

friday... nagsimula ang lahat. may kakaibang pakiramdam sa lalamunan. parang makati. kinahapunan, ayan kumakahol na si ate. sa payo ni mommy jen, bumili ako ng robitussin sa guardian. kay mahal. $9++. parang almost 300 na un sa pinas a. vitamins ba ito?

sa office pa lang, nagstart na akong tumira ng robitussin. parang walang effect. in fact, parang lalong naninikip ang dibdib ko. parang pinipigilan nya ang kung ano mang kailangang magpumiglas sa katawan ko.

pagdating ng gabi, parang naka 3 shots na ako ng robitussin. ayos naman nakapaglaba pa ako. mag-isa lang ako kse si kuya nakipag-inuman with friends. pagdating ng mga 12 midnight, ayan na, inatake na ako ng ubo... ay para akong may sanib grabe nakakahiya! hahaha. hanggang mga 3am, para akong dog. susme.

sabado, dito lang ako sa bahay baldado. cancel ang lakad with liza at janise. :(

linggo, todo na sa kasamaan ang pakiramdam ko. uminom ako ng decolgen sa payo ni donna. sabi nya, nakakasama raw lalo ang cough syrup. ok. mukang nakatulong ang decolgen. although sunday lang ako uminom, lumalabas na ang sipon ko today :) feeling ko pag naubos sya, magaling na ko. at malapit na yun! yehey!

kanina, naka 5 baso ata ako ng tea. hahaha adik sa tea. pero nakatulong sya! magaling magaling magaling! :)

people

Sa 3 linggong inilagi ko dito, hindi pa pala ako nakapagkwento about the friends, acquaintances I've met here so far. When you're far away from home, every old friend or acquaintance you meet is a family.

Dunno if these are all.. I may have missed anything but here they go:

Guen - we didn't know we're working for the same company. We only knew when I arrived yata. Too bad we're on different locations. On my first week, we were reporting on their location for training. The meeting was very unexpected. She didn't even know I was there. She was coming out of the rest room, and wapak.. Para na kaming kiti-kiti. Hehehe. Si guen super excited makakita ng pinoy. And I was as excited. :) we had lunch with my sort-of batchmates. Very brief yet very happy ang moment.

Donna - I met her once sa ikea. Super brief… and we figured we needed a follow-up (ano itu, check-up?). It was supposed to be a meeting with guen and dacks, pero hindi natuloy ang the guen and the dacks. Hehe so it was a donna-caths date. She gave me these cool nets that I could use for undies sa washing machine. Then pasyal pasyal, bought twin sandals (ibang kulay), shopped (sa sale lang ha), made picture picture sa esplanade (chimni), then ate at a thai restaurant (salamat sa treat!), grocery and libot-libot onti (muntik mapaaway sa pila ng donut). Hehehe. Blast!

Noel and Cesz - lovelives. It was a lunch date with the two lovebirds. It was my first time to eat pineapple rice. Yumyum. I learned a lot of new terms na imbento lang naman nila pero it would work! Hehe. Nice to see them again. Pinaka sweet na couple ata itong nakilala ko e. :) I introduced them to Donna… ya know, lahat ng pdeng maging kapamilya, gawing kapamilya!

April - was a batchmate from college. I've seen her twice sa suntech… on her way home probably… :) we're not close pero it was good to see her. Kahit na wave hi and bye lang.

Liza - daming plans… wala pa masyadong natutuloy hehe. There's a day-out, dinner, night-out, bintan, swimming, biking, tennis, jogging, clubbing. Hehe. At last, we saw each other when Liza (along with James) dropped by our house last late night Saturday. It was good to see her. The last time I saw her was a sort of reunion with the college pals. Liza, Saturday tuloy natin ang flan ha. Hihihi!

James - dropped by our house (along with Liza) last late night Saturday. Daming kwento ni James hehehe… amusing stories pero… he saw my housemate's (Sonny) basketball shoes and he ended up persuading, courting (hehe) Sonny to join the Pinoy basketball team. This lasted for an hour? Hehe joke. Sonny didn't go to the try-out. Masakit ang katawan kakajog hahaha… James, try ulit next time hehehe!

RH - RH was a college classmate. She was this boyish girl. Ngayon, she's this pretty girl! Woohoo! She's changed a lot grabe! She looks great! Saw her sa starbucks lapit sa city hall ata. She approached me and asked me "excuse me, are you filipina?" hehe. Sagot ako… "HR?" toinks.. Mali pa! kse RH ang pangalan nya hahaha. She said I looked familiar and that's because we were college classmates :)

Noemi - Noemi is merely a character from stories I hear from Donna and Kuya. All I know is she's Donna's college pal. And she's kuya officemate back in Pinas. I finally saw her! Hehe sa MRT when kuya and I are on our way to jologs ata? Now there's a face to the name! hihihi.

learning the art of...

breathing using your mouth is essential to survive. promise.

sa mrt, si manong katabi ko. papasok ako. sa gitna banda nakatayo kami. nakasandal sya sa mga steel hawakan. ako nakahawak sa hawakan. ay!!! may I raise my hands and arms si manong. yung parang pormang nakahiga ka tapos yung kamay mo nilalagay mo sa ilalim ng ulo mo relax na relax… pero nakatayo sya. ganun. ganito:

manong, tao lang po. wawa...

test

gympurnada

sa pinas, i never went to the gym. unang-una, i'm not that interested in making buhat chuva. or making pawis. or making takbo. na may makakakitang tao sa akin. i never went to trial sessions 'cause i know i'd never enroll anyway.

pangalawa, di kalakihan ang sweldo ko. i only have enough to share sa house, to pay the bills. konting luho, ganun. sometimes, negative pa. so i never spent for something that i'm not really crazy about.

ikatlo, payat ako. i don't have a crazy appetite. kung mag engage pa ako sa too much cardio activities, baka lalong maging patpat ako. it's just my theory... what do i know about it? hehe.

my long-time dream and love is swimming... i thought a few laps a day would be good! i always wanted to swim but i never found the time to do so. there's a pool here just outside our door but i haven't tried because i don't have anybody to go and swim with me... and i'm not an all-by-myself person. hehe

this afternoon, kuya invited me to this gym near our office. he said i could bring my officemates along. the gym has this promo of $57 a month, no membership fee. i'm not interested but i went anyway. my officemates are interested. for less than P2k, i thought it's not that bad. kung di ko talga trip mag gym, stop. hehe

we saw the equipments, the classes are good, oh they also have a pool! a tennis court, the bathroom is great... in short, i was convinced to enroll. there were six of us: kuya + officemates. so manong gym instructor's eyes are now $$$$$$ hehehe... we all decided to sign in... signing the docs... manong jotted the amount to $1380. woah! where did that come from? whatever happened to $57? it turned out we had to pay for the 2 years but we could always get a refund in case we decide to terminate the contract. ah eh... red lights flashing. manong, we can't! mga bagong ofw pa lang kami and we can't afford to throw in that amount biglaan. manong's last bargain was... pay half and pay the next half after 2 months.

and then i thought... do i really want this? do i really need this? so he gave us until friday to think things over. baka naman mamaya, ningas kugon lang ako? haay... oh well, i could always go back to swimming. ;) malaman sa byernes.

a typical saturday

saturday mornings, i wake up at around 11am. i go down, have rice for breakfast, switch the tv on. if mom's not busy with the tapsi business, we chat like crazy. chat about anything and everything. magchichismisan like teenagers.

in terms of love life hehehe... mikey would sometimes just hang out with me and watch tv (yes, minsan nanonood lang sya ng tv. di nya ko kinakausap. mas lab nya ang tv kesa sakin. hmp!), or we go out and watchamovie. eat out. walk.

kung walang lakad, nakikigulo sa tapsihan. hehe. nilalanghap ang amoy ng pares. ulk nakakasawa hahaha. nakikipagkulitan kay wawin. meet with friends.

these are what i miss badly... :(

pangalawang...

taon na namin ni mikey. yun nga lang 'di kami magkasama ngayon. 'di kami magkikita bukas. 'di rin kami magkikita sa linggo. sa susunod na linggo, imposible ring magkita kami. mukang sa june 29 pwede, pero sana nga pwede talaga.

dati-rati, sinusubukan talaga naming magkita tuwing tuesday at thursday at syempre pa pag weekends. pero ngayon, olats. dyan-ka-dito-ako muna ang drama namin. at maraming maraming dasal na sana 'di maulit ang mga 'di na dapat maulit.

mahirap maghanap ng kamay na gusto mong hawakan. kasi wala naman talaga akong makikitang ibang kamay. kung iba yun, 'di na kamay ni mikey yun. ayoko yun. hay. mahirap din maghanap ng ibang bilbil na makukurot. mahirap maghanap ng hindi mo mahahanap... or alam mong hindi mo makikita.

haay. pare, happy anniv na lang. yung kiss, pag nagkita na lang tayo. hehehe. ok? wag ka magkiss ng iba. di rin ako. pramis. hehe. see you on june 29.

ala sais ng hapon sa kwartong ito

i'm in a new world. in addition to my hurting feet (which aren't that bad now because i wore sandals today woohoo!), i now share a room with my big brother (aka kuya hehe). so much has happened for the past month and everything happened so fast. for a while i thought i was just imagining things... that i'm really here - and not there. that i am away from home, i am away from my mom, from wawin, from mikey, from my humble room, from my humble country. hehe...

pero dizizit na talaga. i'm a bit nervous about the work. i hope i can do well 'cause pare, sobrang ibang-iba sa lahat ng work na nagawa ko. betchaby. medyo nerbyosa pa naman ako haha mana sa lola ko.

i'm a bit bored over the weekends. i asked kuya, "ganito lang talga kayo pag weekends?" hehe... but i realized there has been no change in my weekend activities. nood tv lang and tunganga. maybe it's just because i am away from home - away from those i dearly love. it hurts but at the same time i know i'm doing it because i have to. and it helped me a lot that kuya is here by my side. :)

cooking dinner... oh, i miss cecil too.

i should...

buy me a new pair of comfy shoes. i haven't worn black shoes for ages... my feet are bleeding ouch... bring me back my comfy sandals.

sabi ng kantang 'to

and all at once the crowd begins to sing
sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same

all at once
-the fray

hankyut

ok lang naman pala

bakit ko naman ine-exhaust ang katawan ko over things na hindi naman worth pagkapaguran? :)
marami pang bagay na mas worth pag-exertan ng effort, right? :)
transform negative vibes into positive. :)
mamuhunan ng positive energy. :)
gain positive energy. :)
may tubo pa. :)
ayz? :)
ayz! :)
i love life! :)

"bantay, play dead"

diba dapat, para kay bantay lang ito? :(

annoying tv, annoying remote control

our tv remote control has been this useless piece of crap for the longest time now. we don't know why it suddenly stopped functioning. its time here on earth has just come to an end probably. it just ceased to serve its purpose. we kept it anyway. while waiting for the good timing to purchase a new one, it just sat there on top of the magazine rack. sometimes, we try if it would still breathe into life. it won't. crap.

how do we control the tv then? it's the biggest challenge of the century. instead of sitting comfortably on the sofa, munching on something, and channel surfing, we do everything manually - as in go in front of tv, turn it on, push channel up/down buttons, push volume up/down buttons, turn it off. i guess i'm just a lazy person that's why i find these burdensome. fine. it's not that much of a task provided the buttons function correctly. they don't. they have lives of their own - stubborn lives.

channel up button - also functions as off button - almost always. imagine the frustration it brings when you try to switch channels! mikey actually thought i was pulling a stunt on him once. he was changing channels and was getting really annoyed because he thought i was using a remote to switch it off. hahaha... and he gave me a mega glare. and i was like "what?!?!". hey, i'm not an alien! hahaha really annoying.

channel down, volume up, volume down buttons - also function as volume up. annoying. really annoying! imagine the bugnot i feel when watching the tv at 2am. naturally i have to turn the volume down - only it gets louder! at 2am. syet. louder and louder until it reaches the maximum volume. harharhar. sorry neighbors. you have to push really, really, really hard to turn the volume down. syet.

so watching tv has become this big, annoying, painstaking activity. hahaha. bakit ba kasi hindi pa bumili ng remote?! ilang buwan na yan e!

when i got to the office today, i called win. he said he miraculously brought the remote back to life! oh, good! yipee! tv, wait for me!

sobrang maling reaksyon

papasok sa office at 3pm, it was the usual super init day. todo wipe na naman ako ng kapawisan ko sa ilong (uuuyy selosa!), sa batok, leeg, at hairline hehe! pero ang summer season ay hanggang buendia lang. yez. dahil pagdating ng bandang mayapis, rainy season na. weird.

medyo windang ako... parang lagi naman e. basta papasok ako kse naman todo ang init! tapos biglang umulan so ang confusion at katuliruhan ko ay umabot sa maximum level. wala ba sa sarili. ang gusto ko lang talagang mangyari ay makarating ako sa comfort ng aking cube.

bago ako pumasok sa lobby ng rcbc, yung before na magcheck ang manong guard ng bag, may mga lalaking nakatambay dun. mga naka sports attire ba... parang kaka basketball lang. parang, aah, san kaya sila galing? pero kebs lang ako. muka silang sumilong lang dahil umaambon nga nang malakas. or hindi pa makababa... something like that. or parang waiting for someone. i didn't really care 'cause hindi ko naman sila kilala.

"hi cat!", yan ang narinig ko from one of them. sounded an awful lot like "hi cat!".

dahil likas akong magugulatin, halos napatalon ako sa gulat. i looked at him at todo smile sya... kung nakakapagsalita lang ang mukha, ang sabi siguro ng mukha ko ay: "sino ka?!?!?" at medyo lalong naghalo-halo ang naramdaman ko. hindi ko sya kilala, pero ang face nya ay parang "uy! ako 'to!". i smiled - a confused smile at hinukay ko ang utak ko pero his face wasn't even familiar! i was super clueless talaga!

i didn't stop. i just walked towards the lobby... and into rcbc. hahaha! i assumed he thought i was somebody else. i was sooo rude! grabe sorry! ang feeling ko ay nagkamali lang sya ng tawag, at akala nya ay ako si... cat? oops teka ako nga si cat! waah! kung sino man sya, sorry! nalito talaga ako... sino ako? asan ako? sino ka? hahaha! sisa! magpakita ka ulit sa'kin at magsosorry ako sayo... waaah!

* ang tumatawag lang sakin ng cat ay mga kapamilya ko... as in mami, wawin, kuya, a few relatives, mikey. at hindi sya isa dun... waaah! must be a relative... or a neighbor?

quickie tuesdays and/or thursdays

i so look forward to tuesdays and thursdays (bukod sa friday, of course). if the circumstances permit, mikey and i eat out. quickie ito hihihi. i say quickie 'cause we try to squeeze in eating, story-telling, kulitan, picturan, and all in more or less an hour. after his class sa vito cruz, he rushes to makati. kitakits, pre. hihi.

medyo challenging maghanap ng mga food spots na open pa at past 9 pm. well, marami pa rin namang bukas. and it doesn't really matter kung saan, as long as there's foodie.

after ng medyo mabilisang dinner, we head off to ate yogi's office. pick her up (sa pick-up point) and drop me off (sa drop-off). ayos sounds cute. that's the set-up. hihi.

one of my little joys in life... the feeling is light yet overwhelming... :) just right.

summer na naman

grabe na ang init ng panahon! parang kailan lang, matutuwa ka pa kahit na lumabas ka ng 2:00 ng hapon kse medyo chilly pa ang panahon kahit na may araw. e ngayon, hay. kasabay ng pag-init ng panahon ang pang-init din ng ulo ng mga taong nasa ilalim ng araw. halos lahat nakasimangot! kasama na 'ko dun. hehe. mahirap talagang ngumiti kapag mainit ang araw. ewan ko. instinct ko na sigurong kumunot ng noo. kse silawin akong tao. at hindi ako palangiti lalo na kung mag-isa lang ako. may mga tao lang sigurong nasa nature na ang pagngiti (hindi ako isa sa kanila. sorry :-S).

masaya ang summer. favorite ko itong panahon. mas natotolerate ko kasi ang init kesa sa lamig. hehe. pero... may mga bagay lang talagang nakakairita kapag summer (specifically kapag namamasahe ka lang):

mga mukang nakasimangot dahil sa init

mga pathetic na aircon sa mga fx at bus. hindi talaga nila carry ang init.

pawis. maraming pawis.

ang pawis ng katabi mo ay pawis mo na rin. yak.

isama na natin sa pawis ang amoy ng pawis. yak. (ok lang ito as long as hindi lilipat sayo ang amoy ng katabi mo)

dahil kulot ako, nagpaparelax ako ng buhok. at kapag naarawan ang relaxed kong buhok, lumulutong ito. ayoko nito.

yung mga taong sobrang vocal na naiinitan sila. mga super sighs at kung ano-anong sinasabi kahit na mag-isa lang sila. cool, man! bawal init-ulo.

yung init pag sinamahan mo ng traffic, riot ito. mas maraming nagiging vocal sa mga feelings of disgust nila. dangerous combo.

nakakaitim ang araw. kundi rin lang sa beach iitim, sayang naman. sa beach lang ako lisensyadong umitim.

hmm... yun lang naman other than those, i love everything about summer! what do you know? SUMMER NA TALAGA!!!! woohoo! life is good!!!

malaya na si wawin (for now)

wawin has just completed the school requirements for this term. today is their finals week and yesterday was the last day he did stuff to complete the projects.

things wawin did for this term:

sulat mania - i remember during elementary, we had this paulinian writing and we grew calluses writing on our paulinian writing book. win's engineering writing, i guess, is the counterpart for this. a paper would probably mean research, type, print, and submit. that is a REGULAR paper. win's paper meant manually writing and drawing on hundreds of pages using this engineering stroke. and i can't help him because my writing doesn't have an engineer's touch. i don't get it why their profs want it that way but they sure do get it the way they want it. as if students have a choice. it's just that it sounds freaky writing hundreds of pages. poor wawin.

sleepless nights - of course kadikit ng sulat at drawing kamay ay oras. win had a couple of nights with 0 hours of sleep talga. i used to do this during college. i guess, it's really a part of college life. you stay awake all night, and you go to school the next day looking and feeling like a zombie. mahirap ito. i remember i invited mosquitos to bite me just to ward off feelings of antok. bangenge.

no social life - for most days, weekends included, win was this geeky boy. he didn't have time to eat decently, he didn't have time to even make kwento with us, he had to say goodbye to his pc games, i hardly saw him watching tv, he never played his guitar, he didn't even have time to smile! beat that! although i know they manage to have alak sessions every now and then. ang kapatid ko'y masipag sa pag-aaral ngunit mabisyo rin. hehehe

marathon - ate had to be part of this ordeal. yesterday, i accompanied him in searching for a bookbinding shop. we were in crappy pambahay attire... as in crappy shirt, shorts, and tsinelas kse sa sucat lang naman, pero no luck. we were out of time so we rushed to moa - looking crappy and all. no luck pa rin, we headed to sm manila. and we made libot intramuros ata e and the whole of manila! grabe!!! we looked like palaboy people. argh. and i swear, the soles of my feet were all crappy na rin after ng hiking namin. ang libag! kung di ko lang lab si baby wawin hehehe.

i may have missed something. these are really exhausting... yesterday, after the bookbind session, win was really happy and relieved. he started watching tv series again, he even played his guitar! yehey! way to go! a few more months and your student days are done. good luck!

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tanghali
birthday treat nina ate maj at char. it was a trip to spi memory lane. dorots, jet, nina (paksyet ayaw gumana ng alt164 ko hehe. klangan talgang sabihin yun?), kent, joy, anabelle, angie, mumay, and iane were there. cool ang food sa dampa, macapagal. masarap. para ano pa ang masarap na pagkain kung walang masarap na ka-kwentuhan? everyone had a good dose of updates and chisms.

bad trip ang u-turn slot sa may coastal mall. ah eh, lalong nagpapatrapik ito, mga manong. mas maigi siguro kung paderetsuhin na lang sa coastal mall kesa mag u-turn pa. hassle e.

salamat sa great food at great company! happy birthday, ate maj and char!

gabi
sa mga hindi nakakaalam, 2 ang gf ni wentworth miller - si tonette at ako. this is the only time i could tolerate sharing of bfs. i wouldn't mind sharing a bf as cutie as went. and i wouldn't mind sharing him with a friend as special as tonette. tama na ang kalokohan.

i invited tonette to watch the 2 latest episodes of prison break since pareho kaming crazy over went. ang ingay namin. marami kaming shrieks of kilig and excitement and oa stuff na pinakawalan at 12 midnight. good luck sa mga kapitbahay namin. wala namang tanod na sumugod sa bahay namin. so good noise pa naman ang ginawa namin siguro.

ayos talga ang prison break. twist na naman! mukang may season 3 pa a. baka naman umabot na sa manhunt ng kaapu-apuhan nila. hehe.

madaling-araw
ganado ako magpost. bakit? ewan. good chat with acy about kiri and good chat with kuya about tfc. i never thought kuya would be a tfc advocate. he's asking me to have a week-long vacation dun. awww... miss na talga nya siguro kami. i will once i get enough leave credits.

*just a thought... maybe it's time to change strategies. i had a couple of useful tips and hints. :) thanks, pals!

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disappointed
over a lot of things
but like everything else
this too shall pass
but when it does
what happens next
it just goes by i guess
just like time
just like a moment
just like you and me

i remember
when as a kid i used to play
with this thing called magic slate
jot it all down
mess with it if i wish to
and in the end
if i dont find it appealing
just lift the tab
and what do you know
it is a clean slate after all

i can do just that if you want me to
but life is not a magic slate
neither am i

life is a big question mark

i had a good chat with michie. i told her things i was afraid to admit even to myself. the words just kept flowing out of my mouth... make that my fingers - i was typing LOL!

i realized it was the first time i ever talked it over with somebody else. i dunno if i'm just being affected with the sad circumstances around me (i'm being so vague sheesh), but yeah. THAT really is the case and it will stay that way.

it is a sad realization... sad but it felt great to say it point-blank. so there really is some sense beyond the bungisngisan and childish talks! we made so much sense in between laughs. and it all summed up to: life is a big question mark. it is not harmless to take risks, but what harm would it do to take them anyway? you'll never know until you try. if you feel it's worth a try, then go ahead! jump! as long as it makes you happy (and you don't use someone, that is).

nice talk, michie. ulitin natin. :)

being a user... is another topic i'd gladly blab about in another post... just you wait. hahaha. is this a threat?